Religious Faith

He looked up and saw me, and was taken aback.

He opened his mouth first: "Cheng...Jiang Cheng?"

"Well...it's me." I looked at him, feeling wronged, my eyes and nose panting.As for how wronged, I can't tell.

He frowned and asked, "it's so late, why are you here?"

I went through the doorway and came up to him.He was still standing on the bottom step, the suitcase was at his feet, and I only reached his chest.

I asked coldly, "Where are you going?"

"..." He avoided the topic and said, "You sneaked out, didn't you?"

"I ask you where you are going!" My voice suddenly rose, and the voice-activated light that had been off turned on again.I feel very complicated, if I am one step late, will I never see him again?

A day without him... I can't even imagine it.

I've never felt so scared.

I asked him, "You're going to get rid of me, aren't you...?" My whole body was cold, and my whole body was trembling slightly.The clenched fist, the skin where the nails dug into the palm of the hand, hurt a lot more than usual, but I didn't care anymore.

He was condescending, and gave me a faint look: "You go back."

I later read a story about a child soldier under 19 who was undergoing special forces training, and he suffered a lot.That forest is so big, there is no food, no water, there are only endless dangers.Then he saw a wild orchid, smelled a scent of that flower from the smell of wet earth, and thought of his lover.Dragging his body full of scars, he struggled to climb up the tree, and then broke off the wild orchid.He wants to give it to her, that is his love, a love belonging to a [-]-year-old soldier.

I have never been a soldier, nor have I traveled through a dangerous jungle to defend that wild orchid that symbolizes love and beauty.

But in the middle of the night, I hung myself from the fifth floor alone along the rope, risking my death, and then I ran as fast as I could across the streets to find the person I liked.

That year, I hadn't celebrated my birthday yet, but I planned to spend the rest of my life on the run with him.

I searched all the way, and only exchanged his words.He wants me to go back to that wolf cave and tiger's mouth, how can he say it so easily?I was about to collapse, and I asked him word by word: "Say, where are you going?"

He lowered his eyes, pushed me away, picked up the box and passed me by.He said, "It has nothing to do with you." The corridor was too narrow, and he bumped into me.

I turned around and scolded him: "Li Jinze, you liar! You bastard, you bastard!!"

We fell in love, we were accused, I lost everything, I am not afraid, I am not afraid!Because I have him!I only have him... He said he would take me away, but he was going to lose me again.I don't even have the last straw.

My tears have already flowed down, and I can't speak anymore.I cried and said, "Do you know how I escaped to find you!" The panic and helplessness when I jumped off the building with the rope in my hands came up, and I realized that at this moment, I was so lonely.

"If I had known this earlier, I might as well have let me fall from upstairs and fall to my death! Save this time and let you play like a ball!"

He was already outside the building, and stopped when he heard the words.I wiped away my tears with the back of my hand, ran over in two or three steps, hugged him tightly from behind, and stuck my face firmly on his back.The more I thought about it, the more wronged I became, and the more I thought about it, the more afraid I became. My nerves were too tight, and they would break in the next second.I was out of breath from crying, and spoke intermittently in a crying tone.I said, "Don't leave me, I beg you, don't leave me alone."

He is silent.

"No, I beg you, I'm afraid, I'm afraid of being alone. Li Jinze, I have nothing, I only have you, I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid of anything, as long as I have you, I'm not afraid of anything... you take I'll go, okay?"

"You must not know, you are my everything! Let me tell you, I climbed down from the fifth floor, along the sheets, I, I was afraid of falling to my death, I was afraid of heights, I was so afraid...but I want to come to you! I think I've already died once! I sneaked out, I don't want anything, Li Jinze, I want you, okay!!"

I said while weeping, what I said was incoherent, but it was all my truth.I am not a great writer, nor am I a public speaker.At least at that time, I was just a frightened child who was afraid of being abandoned by the harbor.

I don't know when there was a light snow in the sky, and it melted at the touch of a finger.But at that time, there were no street lights, no light, no romance, and there was only a heart-piercing child crying in the dark.What is in front of him is not just the person he likes, but also the core of his universe, the belief in the spiritual world.From the first time, he couldn't escape, completely sinking, with no way out.

"You're still young...I'll take you back." He said softly.

I sighed, knelt down slowly, and my hands slid down with my body without letting go.I embraced his knees, buried my forehead deep in the hollow of his knees, and said calmly: "Teacher, I like you. In fact, I am afraid of suffering and death." I shook my head lightly, and said: "But Compared with these, I am more afraid of not having you. You don't understand how important you are."

"So, take me away, okay?"

I closed my eyes and said dreamily, "Even if you ask for food, I will go with you."

……

The world is silent, as if only the next sentence is floating in the wind and in the snow.

I await his trial.

If he insists on sending me back... I smiled, then I'll go with him, and then take the opportunity to run to the road and let a car hit me to death.

But I was lucky, what I finally ushered in was not judgment, but redemption.

"Okay." He said softly, "I won't leave you alone."

He said, "Let's go."

He said: "Let's go, I will support you."

Let's go, let's elope, let's elope!We leave here, we go to another city, we start over! !

After this series of changes, I was exhausted.I said, "My legs are weak, please help me."

My legs are weak, and they have been weak since I jumped off the building.

He held me under my armpit to prop me up.

He touched my bangs and asked, "Did you jump off the fifth floor by yourself?"

"Well, I learned TV dramas and got them down with bed sheets." I thumped his chest weakly: "You still let me go back? You let me go back, let me go back...I hate you to death, big liar..."

"..." He hugged me hard, as if he wanted to rub me to the bone: "You tell me what to say..." He said, "We won't be separated."

"Well, that sounds like a human saying."

"Come on." He took my hand, and I shivered.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"My hands hurt."

He took me to the doorway and looked at it with the flashlight of his mobile phone.It turned out that the palm was broken and a layer of skin was gone.It looked like it was ground with sheets.

I asked, "Why don't you use voice-activated lights?"

He said softly, "We've already made people sleep."

But now the pain is getting stronger and stronger, and I still can't help screaming twice.He took me home, put some medicine on me, and wrapped me up well.

I raised my hand and asked him, "Does it look like Tinker Bell?"

He glanced at me and said nothing.

I stuck out my tongue and didn't speak.

He wiped my stained face with a towel, and then helped me wipe my pants after wiping my face.The knees were already dirty, stained with water from dirty snow, and some red paper from firecrackers.He wiped it and asked, "What have you brought?"

"Some things for washing, my student ID card, and a few hundred yuan. But the phone is with my mother, so I can't get it back."

He nodded: "Okay, I'm not stupid, it's easy to handle with an ID card." Then he turned and went back to the bedroom, and took a few pieces of copy paper when he came out.

"Is this...?" I wondered.

"The copy of your household registration book may be useful in the future." It was used to submit the school report before, but it was revealed before it was submitted.

"Oh..." I nodded.

He packed a few more of my change of clothes before saying, "Let's go."

"What about this house?"

"I just paid a year's rent a few days ago, and I didn't bother to clean up so many things. I only took away the important ones. Don't check out for now, let's talk about it later."

"Oh." I nodded and asked, "Where are we going?"

"Originally, you should go to Changchun City by car first, and then fly to Beijing. But your ticket..." He said: "Go to the passenger terminal first and ask, maybe there is a ticket?"

We went out and hailed a car, we sat in the back seat and I held his arm privately.

Faster, faster!

Let's run!

"Did your parents know about this?" I asked him.

"Understood." He said, "We broke off the relationship."

"I won't let them find me either. We will live together in the future."

He tilted his head back and said, "We have no way out." He held my wrist instead, avoiding the injury on my palm.

The author has something to say: The "story" in this chapter comes from Liu Meng's "Leave Me the Last Bullet", the protagonist Xiaozhuang.

if you are willing to.Come on, let's continue to make the dream image presented in the floating dust, continue to see the mottled moss, and it will be a foregone conclusion.