In love with Hollywood GL

It's strange to say, but I'm not tired of drinking coffee with Xu Mengshu at all.Whenever I face him, looking at his piercing peach blossom eyes, I always have the feeling that the person sitting in front of me is his sister.Genes are a wonderful thing.

Since returning from Phuket, I have been stuck in my apartment without going out.I threw all the scripts and endorsements to Jinqian to help me read them. After all, he will resign next month. Generally speaking, he will fade out of the entertainment industry. How can I not take advantage of this last opportunity to squeeze him out? Woolen cloth.Having worked with him for so many years, it would be a lie to say that we have no feelings for each other at all, but I always feel that no matter how close we are, it seems that we are still a little bit behind. I know very well that compared to me, he will always be It's even more compatible with Man Xi.

"You're distracted again." Xu Mengshu shook the spoon slowly, looking at me with unspeakable eyes.

"Mr. Xu covers the sky with one hand, but he can't control my thoughts. Isn't it very frustrating?"

"A little bit." He actually smiled, which is rare for me to see.

"Xu Mengshu, to be honest, you have to admit that you lost."

Thinking about it carefully, Xu Mengshu and I have known each other for so many years. In fact, when I first met him and I said I wanted to make a bet with him, as he said, I had nothing, and the only thing I relied on was my full heart. Just hate.It’s not that I’m so confident in my own charm. Although I know that I’m not bad in appearance, I’m not so proud that I feel that the whole world will be fascinated by me. That’s too ignorant.But at that time, my family was broken up, and the only 3000 yuan in my credit card was earned after filming a stunt.

I just hate, I hate God, hate this unfair world, God knows how much I want to kill this bad-hearted man with my own hands.

"What about you? It doesn't seem to be any better than me."

Hearing what he said, I actually had no rebuttal at all.Over the years, Xu Mengshu has always been nice to me, or in other words, he didn't pay attention to me as a "little person" at all. He could use his personal computer to type and work in front of me without any shyness, and he even treated my company well. Top secret new plans can be shared with me, though I don't know if that's true.But what I can be sure of is that he never regarded me as an opponent, not because of how good I am, but because he thinks I am not qualified.

He has been humiliating me in his way.Show me how overwhelmed I am trying to bring him down.

He once asked me a question, shortly after Manxi entered the entertainment industry, he said: "You won't hurt her, will you?"

I said, "What do you think?"

He shook his head: "If you can, then you are not Li Bingxi."

"That's the difference between me and you."

Although I really hate what the Xu family has done to the Li family, although I really want to destroy all of this, I can't hurt this girl, not a single ounce.

In fact, at the beginning, after knowing that she had signed Xinghai, I had an indescribable feeling in my heart.Although she had nothing to do with that incident back then, after all, she shed the blood of the Xu family, and I am not a saint, all I can do is not to hurt her.So I deliberately declared war with her, telling her that we are competitors.

Until later my brother told me that the girl who was called vulgar in the game back then was none other than Xu Manxi.

Things in this world are so ridiculous.

Manxi in my heart is a very forbearing and kind girl. If it is the greatest misfortune for our Li family to meet the Xu family, then it must be her greatest misfortune for her to fall in love with me.Because the person she fell in love with will never be with her.And this person wants to destroy her beloved brother and everything she owns, including her home.

So I have been trying my best to make up for her and love her.

Once Jin Qian said to me: "If you don't like her, don't treat her well, because she will take it seriously."

At that time, I clearly realized what I was. Out of guilt and uneasy conscience, I slowly changed my attitude, but I ignored how she would see me from her perspective, what I did , will only make her sink deeper and deeper.

Having been entangled with Xu Mengshu for so many years, I feel very tired. Neither of us has done anything harmful to each other. We are just torturing each other's nerves and destroying each other's psychological defenses, that's all.

"How is your brother recently?"

I sneered: "What qualifications do you have to mention him?"

"Bingxi, believe it or not, if I could go back in time, I would make a different choice."

I don't want to listen to his high-sounding rhetoric at all. Everything about him makes me feel extremely disgusted.

"Bingxi." When I picked up my bag and turned to leave, he hugged me from behind, "I'm sorry."

I don't know why, but when I heard this sentence of sorry, my invulnerable heart began to become sore, not because I was moved by him, but because of an inexplicable sense of grievance.That's right, our Li family is so unfortunate that we were defeated by their Li family.The elder brother went to prison, and now he is a completely different person. He doesn't even care about her younger sister. His mother died of heartbreak, and his father's physical function also declined rapidly.Our whole family was ruined by this man.

Why did he think that a single apology could erase all of this.

Without him, none of this would have happened. My brother, my parents, including me, we are still a happy family, and no one will be left behind.

When I got home, I looked at the statuette that was put on the bookshelf with mixed feelings in my heart.

Not only my brother was changed by time, but also me.

Thinking of the quarrel with Xinghai a few days ago because of my fan position, I shook my head self-deprecatingly.In fact, it's not a big deal, it's just that "The Jedi Strikes Back" put the actor's ranking ahead of me during the promotion.At the beginning of this matter, Jin Qian was very angry. I had already agreed that I would be absolute, but now because the male lead has a lot of fans in the mainland, he deliberately blurred his position.Speaking of which, I'm also quite upset.

I am no longer the Li Bingxi who never fights or grabs anything.Compared with those illusory things, I began to care more about the jewelry and money in my hands. The years have changed me, and it made me realize that only the ones that are really held in my hands will never betray me.

Sometimes Yingxu calls or chats with me, and he will say that he is slowly losing sight of me.

He was absolutely right.

If I first entered the entertainment industry to support my family and pay off my debts, then what is it for now.Oh, by the way, when it comes to repaying debts, there is another thing that I have to mention, that is Xu Mengshu's "charity" to us, in his words, "If it wasn't for me, you think your mere few million can make those people Let you go?" Heh, this man who always looks down on the whole world from the perspective of God really expresses the word shameless to the fullest.

In fact, I had a chance to get away a long time ago. After I slowly became popular and gained some network resources, I can do whatever I want to bring down Wei Zizhen, Jinqian to help me with public relations, or justify my name. do it.But I don't want to do this, because I don't want to leave this circle anymore.

I am popular, but I want to be more popular.To put it simply, when I get the Golden Rooster Award, I will want to win the Palme d'Or, and when I finally get the Palme d'Or, I will set my sights on the Oscar statuette.

Rather than saying that time has changed, it is better to say that human greed has changed me.

And this is the biggest difference between me and Man Xi.

I read the letter Manxi wrote to me, with mixed feelings.

——Whether it is the cold and proud rose, or the delicate rose, whether it is Li Bingxi, who is holding a scroll in his clothes, or Evelyn, who is attracting everyone's attention, they are all the most fascinating to me.You may not be able to be flawless because you are whiteness itself.

Actress Queen is just the beginning of your acting career, the future is so long, I only hope that there is someone who can walk with you through thick and thin.

Xu Mengshu was right, he lost, but I didn't get any better.He lost to me and I lost to his sister, which is fair enough.I can't deny that, although I still don't want to admit it in my heart, Manxi has changed me. Her sincere waiting, her tolerance and retreat made me no longer just feel sorry for her.She never thought of getting anything from me, she didn't even need me to treat her well, she didn't need any response from me, she was just such a girl.And it was this forbearance that made me shake my heart.

It would be fine if she wasn't Xu Manxi.

If I'm not Li Bingxi, that's fine.