reborn lover

The first ray of sunlight in the morning came in through the floor-to-ceiling windows and hit the young man's pale and bloodless face. He sat there without moving all night, and the morning sun shrouded him inside. After a while, he stretched out his hand Open your palms and let the light sunshine shine on your palms.

The fingers moved, caught a ray of sunlight, overflowed from between the fingers, and the palm was empty.

The slap marks on the face were red and swollen, and the corners of the mouth that had been bitten were red and swollen...

He doesn't even feel pain...

His naked body was covered with the only coat, which was covered by the man last night. After covering him with the coat, the man took a look at him, and drove away overnight as if fleeing.

As soon as Xi Le closed his eyes, he thought of the man who was furious last night, and thought of the man's words, even now, still ringing in his ears, he knew that the man at that time really wanted to put him After eating it in his stomach, he almost raped him.

He didn't dare to think about what happened to the man after he really did that to him, he didn't even dare to think about these things...

But he knew that he didn't want to have that kind of relationship with that man anymore, he didn't want to beg hard for his little love, and he longed for him to be the only one in his eyes.

I already knew it in my previous life, I won’t, so one life is enough.

"Hold your hand, and grow old with you..." At that time, after the affair, he was lying in the arms of the man. When the man asked him what he wanted most, he held the man's hand and held his fingers together. Buckle, said such a sentence to the man.

The man asked him what he wanted, and all he wanted was this one thing, but the man never gave it to him in his previous life.

Sighing inwardly, Xi Le looked at the empty palm and withdrew it.

He didn't know why the man stopped moving his hands later, he didn't touch him again, and left in a panic, hearing the sound of the man driving away overnight, but he didn't have any thoughts about the man anymore.

He thought about a lot of things all night, those things with that man in his previous life, those things he encountered later, he still doesn't know who framed him, and he already has the answer in his heart, but that The truth was too hurtful, and he was never willing to touch it.

Its daybreak……

After the darkness dissipated, dawn came.

As soon as he lowered his head, he saw the photos scattered all over the ground, and saw the dead boy, the memory of the dead boy that he dared not touch until now.

On the first day when he woke up on the boy, his body was covered with red marks after being abused, and there were things in his body that were not washed. He later went to take a bath to wash himself from the inside out. He didn't know what happened to this boy. I didn't dare to think about those things, I didn't dare to think about what the young man had experienced before he died.

How can a person who has experienced these things not know what that young man has experienced!It just depends on whether the teenager is voluntary or forced.

"Actually...who would be treated like this voluntarily? Who doesn't want to be loved? Who doesn't want to be a good person? Who doesn't want...to be a clean person?" Xi Le bent down and picked up a photo on the ground, looking at it Looking at the boy inside.

He didn't know why Cui Huanyu had such a photo in his hand. The only reason was that he had checked him, otherwise why would he keep asking him?I really don't know what the boy in the past did. For him, those have nothing to do with him.

I couldn't help laughing, what does it matter?Those who don't believe it or don't believe it, those who believe him still believe him.

Hearing the sound of a car coming from outside the door, someone walked in after a while. Xi Le, who was curled up on the sofa, remained motionless. Hearing the sound of footsteps slowly approaching him, standing not far from him, there was He said to him respectfully, "Master Xi, we are here to take you back. Do you want to go back now?"

It was the man in black who brought him here yesterday, standing in front of him at this moment.

Xi Le glanced at the man, and said "um", when he stood up, the clothes covering him fell off, the man standing in front of him paused, and immediately turned around, "I'll go outside and wait you."

After speaking, the man left.

He smiled indifferently, it's hard not to be misunderstood by others with his appearance!

I took the backpack on the sofa, took out the clothes from it, and put it on. After getting dressed, I knelt on the ground and picked up the photos one by one, and put them in my schoolbag. By the way, I put all the bags on the table. Put them together in the schoolbag before he picked up the backpack and went out.

When he came out of the house, seeing the dazzling sunlight outside, he had a feeling that it was dawn, but his heart was dark. He thought he would never come back to this place again.

After getting in the car, the man sitting in the co-pilot returned his mobile phone to him, and said "sorry" to him, Xi Le took the mobile phone, saw that the mobile phone was turned off, and put it in the backpack casually inside.

No one said a word in the car along the way. The car sent him back to the downstairs of the dormitory. He opened the door and got out of the car. The car that brought him turned around and left.

When going upstairs, I met a woman who was going downstairs, and when she passed by, that woman gave him an extra look. Xi Le didn't care about other people's eyes, and walked to the fifth floor step by step, and returned to her own room. dormitory.

Open the door and go in.

Walking to the sofa and sitting down, he took out all the photos of the bag in the backpack. There were a lot of thick things in the bag, and he poured out a stack of information photos inside. He picked it up and looked at it one by one.

There will be some memories in his mind that don't belong to him. He knows that they are the past of the dead boy. It's just that these pasts are full of scars, and touching them makes people feel pain. These things he never wants to touch.

The past that doesn't belong to him, but it's his past, sometimes he doesn't even know whether he is Xi Le or Jun Qing.

I don't know how long he looked at it before he finished reading the contents of the bag.

Feeling cold on his face, he raised his hand to touch it, and found that he didn't know when his tears fell, so he wiped his tears and sucked his nose.

He took out the mobile phone in his backpack, dialed a number, and it took a long time before someone answered, "Hello?"

Hearing that woman's voice, Xi Le didn't know what to say for a while. He just wanted to call this woman and ask her, "Since...you gave birth to Xi Le, why didn't you love him?"

He thought, this sentence was the one the young man wanted to ask his mother the most before he died. Unfortunately, the young man is no longer here, so he can only ask this question on his behalf.

The woman on the other end of the phone was silent for a while when she heard this sentence.

"You... You also know that he was abused by the nanny who took care of him, right? You know that he killed someone, right? Xi Shu, you know all of that, right?" Actually, these answers are no longer important to him.

Slowly closing his eyes, he remembered the last time he had dinner with Lin Haodong, and what the woman said to him when he came back. After thinking back and forth, he suddenly figured it out, "You also know what those people did to him. Is it right, that's why you warned him to stay away from Lin Haodong, right? Xi Shu, you actually know everything, right?"

The person on the other end of the phone was breathing more and more heavily, but he didn't say a word. He held the phone to his ear and listened to her child asking her every sentence.

do you know? ...

"Have you ever loved me?" Xi Le asked the last sentence, and he hung up the phone.

He was very disappointed, and there was endless sorrow in his heart. These sorrows came from the depths of his body, and belonged to the sorrow of the dead boy.

If Junqing in her previous life gave all her love to that man and died at the end, then this child, from birth to death, lived for more than ten years without knowing what love and being loved are. has died.

He, until he died, didn't know...

Xi Shu on the other end of the phone heard the child asking her every word, but she couldn't utter a word, and when she hung up on the other end of the phone, she was already sobbing. The last sentence she was asked, she never I didn't even dare to think about it.

Until one day, her child asked all these words.

Xi Le threw the phone on the table, put the materials and photos back into the bag, and put them under the grid under the table.

After sitting for a long time, he finally stood up after all the pain in his heart eased.

Go into the bathroom to take a bath, turn on the water to the highest and hottest, let the water flow to rinse his body, see himself in the mirror, this boy-like self, he stretched out his hand to touch his face, and called out, "Xi Le... ..."

Then she shook her head and changed her name, "Junqing..."

He is Xi Le and Jun Qing.

The bathroom was full of hot air, and when he came out, the hot air came out, and he wiped off the water on his body casually, and he went straight to bed and fell asleep.