reborn lover

When I got back to the downstairs of the dormitory, it was already dark, and the temperature at night was relatively low. Besides, it was raining a little, and it was very cold outside.

When the car stopped downstairs, Xi Le got out of the car. When he felt a gust of cold wind blowing, he couldn't help shivering, and said to the man who brought him back, "That... thank you for taking me back .”

As soon as he finished speaking, he wanted to turn around and run away. Standing outside with light rain falling on him, he naturally felt very cold.

"Xi Le, since I sent you back here, why don't you invite me up for a cup of tea?" At this time, the man also pushed open the car door and came down, grabbing his hand and asking.

"I'm sorry, I'm afraid I can't do it today. Let's do it another day. You know I'm not feeling well. I might not have the energy to greet you when I'm tired." Xi Le turned his head and smiled reluctantly. When he met the man's gaze, he lowered his head slightly. The eyelid looked at his hand, slowly withdrew his hand, and said to the man.

Regarding this man's insatiable progress, he just smiled in his heart.

And the eagerness in the man's eyes made his heart tighten uncontrollably. The pain that came from the bottom of his heart made him feel suffocated at this moment.

"Sorry, I forgot that you are not feeling well, so you should go back to rest early, and remember to see a doctor if you are not feeling well." Cui Huanyu smiled and said.

He felt sorry for ignoring the boy's physical discomfort, but now he noticed that the boy's complexion was not very good, and he knew that his request was too menglang.

"You can also call me, and I'll come and pick you up to see a doctor."

"Okay, thank you, and you should go back to rest early." Xi Le's mouth twitched, but he didn't smile.

Xi Le has no intention of inviting anyone into his house. He doesn't like outsiders walking into his house, including the man in front of him. Of course, the man who forced his way into his house is another matter.

What's more, he really doesn't have the spirit and enthusiasm to greet the guests now. As for the so-called invitation from the man, he smiled in his heart. Everyone is an adult, and he understands the meaning behind the words.

He didn't want to get to know this man any further. He had known this man enough and carefully enough!

He never thought that he would stand in the position of such a stranger and get to know this man again, this kind of understanding subverted all his previous cognition.

In fact, Xi Le himself didn't even realize that when he met this man at that age, this man was not very old. They met at the best age, and their past is still in the best memory.

Xi Le's understanding of that man had always been stuck in the past, so he felt, "This man has changed, he has become different from the past", that's why he felt so uncomfortable.

But all people will change, it is not that others change, or that a person grows up, and he keeps changing as he grows up. It can only be said that this person has been growing up and becoming his future. look.

As for Xi Le, a person who studies in school and works in school after graduation, a person like him has not changed much all the time. Whether this change is in the heart or in the aspect of understanding, the change is not big. of a person.

That's why in the later events, he felt that his world was shattered and became so unacceptable.

If it were any other person, the ending might not be so tragic.

Xi Le endured the discomfort in his heart, suppressed the boredom welling up in his heart, smiled politely at the man, and said, "Goodbye."

When he met the man's gaze, at such a close distance, he saw his own reflection in the man's eyes, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and after taking a look at the man, he turned and left.

"Goodbye." Cui Huanyu nodded and said.

He looked at the young man before he left, and the smile on the corner of his mouth made him feel very uncomfortable. He always felt that there were some things he didn't know and couldn't grasp. This young man was definitely not what he seemed on the surface. Simple.

As for what else it is, he can't say it now, and his heart is always throbbing for the young man.

Seeing the door close in front of him, the boy really didn't seem to have any intention of inviting him up to be a guest, and he wouldn't have the idea of ​​going up to someone else's house.

It's just that he thought that one day he would be invited by this young man to walk into his house openly.

Cui Huanyu got in the car and sat for a while, after thinking about it, he made a phone call. After the other party accepted his invitation to come out for a drink, he had a vague smile on the corner of his mouth, glanced at the closed door, and drove away. Went to the agreed place.

"Xi Le, why not you! Do you know how much I want you? Do you know..." How much I want you to heal the emptiness in my heart...

Cui Huanyu sighed in his heart, his bed partner tonight is finally settled, but it's a pity, it's not the boy he wanted...

Xi Le returned to his own house, pressed the light at the door, and the room was brightly lit. He stood motionless at the door and looked at the house that he had lived in for a while. For him, it had always been so cold and temperatureless.

In my heart, I don't feel that this is my home, but a temporary place to live.

Maybe it's like he feels that he is not himself now, he is only alive temporarily, this body is not his own, everything now is like borrowed or stolen, he is a despicable thief, using Holding other people's bodies and doing those stupid things.

Even if he didn't want to admit it anymore, his heart and his memory still couldn't get past the past. He always felt that he was Jun Qing, the dead man, not Xi Le, the living boy.

However, the fact is that Jun Qing is dead, and Xi Le is alive.

No one knew that he was the dead man, not even the man Cui Huanyu, but he knew that he was Jun Qing who had already gone, the poor man who had been with Cui Huanyu for so many years but did not end well .

"Cui Huanyu, if you knew that I was the poor man who died, would you still be so enthusiastic about me like today, instead of avoiding it?" Xi Le's mouth curled into a sneer, he was a little curious, If that man knew that he was the dead man, would he still have such a big sexual interest in him?

The chest was rising and falling, and the cough in the chest broke out uncontrollably, "Ahem... cough... Cui Huanyu, have I not known you for so many years, have I never known you... ...cough cough..."

"Obviously I've been waiting for you, but I can't wait for you. I never thought that we would meet again in this way, and we would sit together again in this capacity..."

Xi Le felt extremely ironic. What he couldn't wait for, the man was delivered to him now, waiting for him to take it by himself, and he was unwilling to reach out again.

Crouching down, he hugged himself and leaned against the door, covering the corners of his mouth and coughing desperately, as if he was about to cough up his lungs.

It took him a long time to stand up, and the moment of dazzled him almost fell down. He supported the wall to relieve his paralyzed body, and then he walked slowly inside.

Pour a cup of hot water from the kettle and drink it, so that the throat will not feel so uncomfortable.

He went into the bathroom and took a hot shower, came out and took a fever-reducing tablet, and then he went to the bedroom to sleep.

In the middle of the night, he was half asleep and half awake, and he couldn't wake up. He knew that he had a fever, and he was sweating all the time. He felt very cold and hot at the same time. This feeling of being in the ice and fire was very uncomfortable.

When I was seriously ill, I fell asleep in a trance and had nightmares all the time, but I never woke up.

He didn't open his eyes until the day just dawned. After touching it, his whole body was covered with sweat, and the bed was covered with wetness. His body was scorching hot. He knew that he had a tragic high fever. .

Opening his eyes and looking at the gray sky outside, he took his mobile phone and saw that it was just dawn at five o'clock or six o'clock, lying on the bed motionless and looking at the roof, he knew that he should get up to see a doctor , if it continues like this, he himself doesn't know if he will become stupid.

I don't know why, but at this time he misses that man so much.

I miss him so much...

"Cough...cough...cough..." Xi Le coughed uncontrollably, his thirsty throat felt like it had been burned by fire, and his chest heaved up and down and he couldn't breathe.

Looking at the mobile phone in his hand, he swiped the screen to see the man's number. He pressed the dial button after looking at it, and dialed the man's phone directly. His heartbeat was beating violently with the sound of the phone beeping.

He really wants to find that man now, just to find him, to hear his voice, that's what Xi Le thought at the time.

They haven't seen each other for a long time, and he misses him.

"Drip...drip...drip..."