reborn lover

The water in the pot was rolling, and the noodles began to swell, and Xi Le continued to stir the noodles, controlling the noodles so that they would not swell.

His silence was actually a kind of refusal, he didn't want to talk about this matter, but the man who asked this sentence didn't intend to just skip this question.

"Isn't it good to be a lover? Really don't think about it? I'm serious this time, Xi Le, I like you, I like being with you, I like holding you in my arms." Su Qian said again Saying this sentence is a completely different mood and attitude from the first time I said this to Xi Le.

When they met for the first time, Su Qian felt that he was attracted by this beautiful and a little special boy. He wanted a beautiful and well-behaved lover and a companion who warmed the bed. The teenager he met seemed to meet his basic needs for a lover.

And now, he said this again, obviously because the two of them got along and he got to know this beautiful young man before he said it.

Now, his words are less frivolous and more serious.

There are many people outside who want to be Su Sanshao's lover, and there are so many people who can line up from the south of the city to the north of the city, but so far, he has not had a fixed bed partner who can be called a lover.

It's not that the gadgets he sent over were all good, but they didn't have anyone who moved his heart.

But the young man in front of him was different to him, different from those people, he moved his heart.

He was absolutely sure that he wanted this person.

Xi Le was silent for a while, and did not answer Su Qian's words, but listened to him and sighed slightly in his heart.

"Baby." Su Qian didn't force him, and when he said it, he asked quietly, "Is it still okay?"

I don't know why, he knew that if he said what he said, there would still be no results, or he would be rejected, but at this moment, he seemed to be bewitched, and he still said what was in his heart, so in a certain respect, Su Sanshao is A very persistent person.

Xi Le reached out and turned off the induction cooker. There was no "sizzling" sound in the kitchen, and there was only silence.

He closed his eyes and said, "Su Qian, why are you so persistent? Isn't it good for us not to be lovers? I don't want to be a lover to anyone, just a gadget. How long can you say you like it? It's just like it." That's all, how long can such feelings last?

If two people get along well, I don't hate you, you like me too, I think we can go to bed once in a while, we can have a meal together, you can also hold me like this, sleep on my bed, and me In one house, all of these are fine.

If you like to come to my place, come to me, and I will not refuse you. If you want to sleep with me, I think we can also be a good bed partner, but that's all, I may not be able to give you anything else. "

A person who has no heart, a person who gives everything for a love, he thought, he is not suitable for any one person and too in-depth emotional communication, and he doesn't like to put someone's label on himself.

Xi Le turned around, put his hand on the man's resolute chin, rubbed it lightly, and said with an expression beyond his age, "You are so handsome, young, and have status, so many people must like it You. You will find a good woman who will take care of you, love you, bear children for you, and form a happy family with you.

I'm just a conciliator in your life now, bringing a little joy to your life, and maybe a little bit of a difference.I think you just look at me and like me, I may be old one day, I'm a man, I can't give you anything but my body, the home you want, the children you want, you see , we can't have it together.

We have no future, only present, only now.

I know you're not happy with what I said, but I'm really sorry, what I can give you now may really be just to sleep with you, and I can't give you anything else.You also knew it on the first day you met me, and after getting along so many times, you see that I am a big trouble, and you need to help me and take care of me every time, and I may still bring you more and more in the future. trouble. "

Xi Le said these words, but his heart throbbed because of his own words.

The words he said were all because he had experienced such a thing before, so he said these words, with such a profound experience and conclusion.

He may really only like men in his life, and it is impossible to find a woman for a lifetime, but this kind of relationship with men, he thinks it will be difficult for him to be half new to this, dare not , already scared.

He used to be so naive, thinking of giving everything he had to that man, disregarding his parents' wishes, being accused of scolding a man for being shameless, or wanting to be with that man, and finally being kicked out.

He really loves that man, really loves him very much, really loves him very much, loves him very much...

That kind of love, love to the bone, gave his heart, his person, everything he could give to that man.

But what are they left with in the end?

That man came back drunk at night, hugged him in pain, and said such a sentence, he still remembers the tissue, he said, "It would be great if you were a woman, if you could give me a son then How nice it would be."

Then not long after, the man came back and told him that he was going to be engaged to a well-matched woman, that he needed a wife, a child, and that the woman's family could help him in his career.

At that time, he was still Junqing, the gentle man who hadn't died. After hearing what he said, he asked, "Are we going to break up?"

But they still didn't break up later, he loved that man, he gave everything he had to that man, he loved him so much that he didn't even want himself.

After spending many years with that man, I always feel happy, but all the happiness seems to be just superficial things. Who knows the grievances and pains he has suffered for so many years!

The man who said he loved him married another woman and had children. On the surface, he was so beautiful, happy in marriage, and successful in his career.

As for himself, he even lost his favorite job, no relatives, no friends, only the man he loved, and in the end, nothing left...

nothing left……

he died……

He's not Junqing anymore, he's Xi Le, a 17-year-old kid who just started college.

"Baby, don't be a lover, um, don't be a lover anymore, don't cry, don't like it if you don't like it, don't cry." When Su Qian watched the boy's tears fall down, he was completely at a loss. At a loss.

It was also because of the boy's tears that Su Qian's anger or other bad emotions disappeared in an instant. He didn't know why, but he always felt that there were many stories about this boy.

At this moment, he suddenly had a realization in his heart that if he wasn't sure that he wanted this boy, didn't really love him, didn't want to be with him for the rest of his life, then he'd better not provoke this boy.

However, that feeling of heartbeat is indeed true.

Xi Le stretched out his hand to touch his face in a daze, and laughed "puchi", hurriedly reached out to wipe his tears, stretched out his hand to push away the hand that the man stretched out, and said, "It's okay, it's nothing, I just got in my eyes The sand is a bit uncomfortable."

He is talking nonsense with his eyes open!

Where did the sand come from in the closed house, and he didn't know how to find a reasonable excuse for lying. Su Qian didn't know what Xi Le thought of, but he knew that he would only be really unhappy, so he didn't expose his words.

But he is also depressed enough, is it so bad to be Su Sanshao's lover?

Rejecting him again and again, and crying so sadly!Third Young Master Su would be extremely depressed, but he couldn't express his dissatisfaction on his face.

"Baby, I'm also sad. You rejected me, and you made so many excuses, and you shed tears to make me worry." He stretched out his hand to hold the boy in his arms, and said in the boy's ear, "Don't cry!" Yes, I was wrong, if you don't be a lover, then don't be a lover, if one day you think about it, you must tell me, and I will immediately agree to you. "

The two hugged so close, but their hearts were so far apart.

Xi Le isolated the person who liked him far away in his world. He no longer believed in the so-called liking, the so-called love, and he didn't want to be a lover for anyone. Whose, he doesn't want to be labeled as someone else's.

"Eat the noodles, it will be mushy in a while, it's not tasty at all, and it will be even worse in a while." Xi Le twitched the corners of his mouth, showing a forced smile, and pushed away the person who was holding him. Those things just act as if they never happened.

"Well, I want to try your handiwork. If it doesn't taste good, I'll punish you for washing the dishes." Su Qian picked up the boy in his arms and walked outside, "You go and sit there first, and I'll serve it to you." Get out, or if you really want to jump out with a bowl, you should jump out with a pot."

Xi Le tells others not to be attached, but in fact he himself has never been so. He has been trapped in the past, unable to get out, afraid to accept a new start, and can only let himself stop at the intersection of the past and the present, hesitating.

If he can take a brave step, maybe something will be different from now on.

But life is going around in circles, people keep turning inside, walk again, walk again, maybe meet the right person, maybe meet the wrong person, some people can turn and walk again at the wrong time, some people It may be necessary to stop there for a long time and not be able to get out.