Cinderella's Gypsophila

The bank card that Qi Yan left behind was the one that was issued in the name of Cheng Sheng back then.

Golden card.On the blue screen of the ATM, the long series of numbers inside made Cheng Cheng's brain ache.

To him now, this money is like a helping hand in a timely manner, it can solve all the difficulties he faces, but when he looks at them, he just feels suffocated.

Too heavy for him to deserve.

Walking out of the glass cubicle, the sun was shining fiercely, but Cheng Cheng only felt dizzy for a while.

Qi Yan left, but no matter how much he was wronged, he was still willing to leave these things for him.

It's just that he doesn't deserve it.

It doesn't deserve every bit of goodness that he has given him in the past five years.

……

Cheng Cheng still wanted to know where Qi Yan went.

He won't bother him, just want to think about it, at least know that he is fine.

He mustered up the courage to ask Xiao Mingchao and Ji Nanqi, but he couldn't find out.He wanted to look up some clues from the bank, but the bank card transactions he pulled out were all overseas account numbers, and there was no way to find them.

"Can I..." His voice trembled slightly, "Can I leave a message for the remitter?"

Teller: "Because it's a foreign account, I need the swiftcode from there."

Cheng Cheng had no idea what she was talking about.

"It's the code for international transfers. In short, it is recommended that you ask your remitter for it. Ask the bank where the account is opened and you will know it immediately."

Cheng Cheng: "...um. Thank you, thank you."

He returned to his quiet little home in a daze.The bay window is still bright, and the fluffy bunnies, foxes, and bears abandoned by the owner sit side by side.

Cheng Cheng suddenly couldn't stand still.It fell down with a loud bang, and blood bleeds from fingertips wiping on the window sill.

The little fluffs were so frightened that they fell one by one, and fell all over him and all over the ground.Cheng Cheng stiffly grabbed a few and pressed them tightly to his chest.

...he was the first to say that he would give up.

So, no big deal.Isn't this the result he wanted most?

Xiao Yan was finally free.It really was for the best, and it should have been.

Soft plush against the heart.There is no pain there at the moment, which is strange.Very numb.

He was in a trance during the day and had a brief dream.

In the dream, he was as bad as his mother from the beginning.When their mother and son lived in Qi Yan's house, he quarreled with Qi Yan and bullied him desperately.Qi Yan hated him more than anyone else for moving out of the house early and ignored him.

After reaching adulthood, Qi Yan took revenge on all of them heartily.

Making their family poor and desperate, he drove a luxury car and laughed at them as a "family of three" forever.

Stories like this are so comforting.

Maybe that's how it should be.

He is the only one wrong.Blame him for being too young and ignorant at that time, blame him for standing under the tree and looking at the big and red fruit on the branch, forgetting that he is not worthy, and greedily wanting to taste the sweet taste.

Mistake again and again, fortunately rein in the precipice.

He let go of his hand at the last moment, so he didn't fall into the abyss with the sweet fruit in his arms.

……

……

The sun is shining brightly in the south.

After Qi Yan got off the plane, he went to Xianqi Hospital to see his mother, and then rented a clean apartment in a sunny and warm environment.

After living in it, I fell asleep and slept in the dark for two full days.

He was really tired, physically and mentally exhausted for a long time.

Qi Yan finally woke up from hunger.He was half dead and had to get up, and brushed his teeth when he got up, but his eyes were black and he hit the toilet.Finally, rubbing his head and getting up, he remembered that he seemed to have been diagnosed with severe anemia.

Got it.

He gritted his teeth and went downstairs frivolously, buying medicine and eating at the same time.

Blood tofu, hairy blood, pig blood cake!

He ate and ate, stuttering, the southern sun was dazzling, and suddenly his emotions broke down a bit while eating, and Maoxuewang, which was already salty, became even saltier.The waiter also looked at him strangely.

He ignored it, sniffed and continued to eat.

He was useless, he ran away.The kind of collapse that was broken by life, the whole thing fell apart and only a shell was left, so broken that only by escaping to such a strange and new place and forgetting everything, can we start over.

Now, he's going to start over.

I will eat well and work well.It's not so easy to admit defeat in the world, the more God doesn't want him to be good, he has to toss hard!

Just wait and see.

Qi Yan went to the new city for a week to take on the last network project.

The money was still sent to Cheng Cheng's card, but he had told "Xun" that this was the last time.

Over the years, Qi Yan got acquainted with some great gods in the forum, and heard all kinds of information.

Some masters kindly persuaded him, although these online projects come in a lot of money and fast, but it is hard to say what the scripts you wrote will be used in the end, and it may involve some legal gray areas.

Fortunately, "patrolling" their locations overseas should not be traced back to China.But the great gods still persuaded Qi Yan that with your current technical level, you can try to start again in the domestic formal industry.

Maybe the salary is not as high as overseas at the beginning, but if you work steadily to find the right market, you may find a good opportunity for development.

Qi Yan thinks it makes sense.

But he didn't expect that when the recommender of the great god took him to contact various technology companies, he would meet an acquaintance——

His fucking brother, that useless little uncle, is wandering around the technology company wearing a badge and dressed like a dog.

Uncle Ji was kicked by Qi Yan on the spot.

Uncle Hu also cried aggrievedly.He has not forgotten his sister and nephew, not at all. In the past five years, as an old gangster with no education, he has been willing to do any job in the computer city from the bottom apprentice to the top. I don't know how much he has suffered. This year It was not easy to have a first day.

Years ago, I just jumped from an annual salary of 20 yuan to an operation manager with an annual salary of [-] yuan. I finally have a personal appearance, but I am so busy with work that I have no skills at all.It's really difficult to be a social animal. He is planning to scrape together enough annual leave to go back to pick up his sister and his wife.

As a result, the nephew came first.

As a result, he was beaten by his nephew.

He also found out that his nephew is now a fucking thieves, and he is a big brother-level programmer.

It just so happens that the big boss who trusts him very much is looking for a technical backbone.My uncle recommended his nephew, and quickly found someone to help transfer his academic qualifications. The big boss, a Hong Kong native, was very optimistic about Qi Yan, and directly helped him apply for an identity and a school in Hong Kong next door.

……

two years.

As an emerging backbone in the industry, Qi Yan led the team to develop a new algorithm that once set a new benchmark in the industry.

An opportunity, people are pushed into the spotlight.

It was originally an interview with their big boss, and there was a scene in which the camera went to his technology company.The bosses were full of joy showing off their new technology and the core of the team, and among a group of young programmers, the handsome boy was particularly conspicuous.

Qi Yan began to attract much attention.

A high-achieving student from the University of Hong Kong, a young industry leader + a new algorithm genius, the number of citations in the university's thesis is against the sky.This kind of young genius is worth admiring, not to mention that he is so good-looking——

Hei Tong is sharp and handsome, tall and well-dressed, and under the lens, he has a 360° excellent appearance that is not inferior to male stars.

Even the company where they work is unwilling to let go of this free live signboard that greatly enhances their popularity and brand image.

Not only the new product commercials dragged him out of the country, but also various promotional programs always dragged him.

Qi Yan had no choice but to attend many activities.

Although he doesn't really like such exposure occasions, but every time he cooperates and completes it very well.

Only once, he answered a call in the middle of the recording and remained silent for a while.In the end, I regretfully told the director that he was really not in the mood to return today.

Actually it's not a big deal.

It was Cheng Sheng who finally sold their small loft.

Of course, he originally left the house to him just in case the card was not enough to sell it for money.

But after he really sold it, he realized that he had always kept a small hope in his heart——

Can he not sell, don't be so heartless, sell the last memories and bonds between them.

In the end he sold it anyway.

Qi Yan can only work harder to fully fill himself with work and study, so that he doesn't think about anything.

Of course he was successful.

The harder you work, the luckier you are. In the past few years, he has become famous at a young age and has won numerous awards.But nothing seemed to make him happy from the bottom of his heart.

His joys and sorrows seemed to have stopped in the past three years, and he stayed in that gray town in his memories.

……

In fact, in the past few years, Qi Yan has actually been to many places and met many people.

Because I have gained some fame, people have begun to pay attention to it.Some people rumored that he had a childhood sweetheart with the granddaughter of a wealthy businessman whom he had never met, while others made a fuss about him and a young actress whom he did not know at all.

Their company's marketing department is making a new mobile phone, and even found that singer named Wang Junlin to be the endorser.

Qi Yan's impression of this male singer since junior high school was that he wasn't very good at singing, but he was good looking, a bit like his brother.

As a result, the real person is really a colossus from a certain angle.Qi Yan felt a headache seeing him.

Just because he got a headache from watching it, Qi Yan always avoided him.

But helplessly, Wang Junlin is a literary singer on the surface, but in private, he is a self-acquaintance, and a male classmate with a story.

I like to force people to drink when I have nothing to do, and I can't stop nagging when I'm drunk, especially I like to talk about the girl who accompanied him through all the years when he was not popular but failed to go to the end together.

Qi Yan: "Then go find her."

Wang Junlin: "Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo，son?

Qi Yan: "Fuck."

I feel even worse.

In fact, in the past three years, Qi Yan didn't know anything.At least he knew that Meng Xinlan was not dead yet, and if she died one day, someone would notify him immediately.

Cheng Sheng finished high school, but did not take the college entrance examination.

Whoever let them have only one university in the city, which is the three branch schools opened by Z University.It is impossible for Cheng Sheng to go to three colleges, but he can't go to a school in other places to take care of his family.

Cheng Sheng is already 20 years old.

Hearing that Meng Xinlan had been giving Zhang Luo a blind date for him, Qi Yan didn't dare to ask afterward.

Just a few days later, Wang Junlin took a promotional photo for their company, wearing a big red shirt.

Everyone said he was handsome, only Qi Yan was in a hurry, and used his cto position to force him to change him.

The whole company looked at each other in blank dismay. It was the first time I saw Mr. Qi making such a big fuss, but what's wrong with the red shirt, isn't it pretty? Why do you have to change it?

In the third year, Qi Yan finally couldn't bear it anymore and went to see a psychiatrist.

All the while he thought he was good enough, strong enough, invincible.But in fact he is such a fart! ! !

The doctor said that he was mildly this and mildly that, Qi Yan immediately refuted that I was not sick, but he still obediently took the medicine for two months.

The medicine was finished, and the anemia was cured.alive and kicking.

Some people are born with an incomparably powerful self-healing ability, and he is especially powerful in this regard.

Later, he also said some things to the psychiatrist one after another.

The psychiatrist told him, "This is not your fault."

Of course it wasn't his fault that Qi Yan thought it was nonsense!

Du Meng Xinlan and Qi Shengbin were their fault.But why did those people's mistakes end up making them pay the price and become victims?

He and Cheng Cheng were both fine at first, but they were both sacrificed in the end.From then on, the rest of my life is burdened with pain, restraining others and restraining myself, punishing others and punishing myself, wanting to see but not daring to see, fearing not to be forgiven but unable to forgive.

Qi Yan thought for a long time.

Knowing that it wasn't his fault, why couldn't he break free?

Without an answer, he only remembered a book.

It was a book that he had accompanied Cheng Sheng to the hospital, and the two of them read it together while leaning on the hospital bed.

A sad story of the Republic of China. In the helplessness of the troubled times, amidst the smoke of gunpowder, the flames of war, and displacement, "feelings" are easily twisted and crushed by the torrent of fate, and life and death are separated in a blink of an eye.

The strokes of ink and blood are full of despair, desolation and helplessness.

It was a troubled time, and a thought would last forever.

You can close the book and think about it.Except for life and death, everything in the world is not irreversible.

Yes.

Qi Yan thought about it carefully.He used to be worse than death, and had to escape and hide to linger on his last breath to heal his wounds.

But this does not mean that this life will be like this, and it will never be better.

He remembered a word Zhuo Ziwei said a long time ago called learned helplessness, "It's not that I don't want to get out of the darkness, but I can't get out."

But fortunately, he never really understood the kind of "can't get out".

Although I seem to have lost my way in the past three years, the surroundings have never been dark.

His heart is so strong.

I even feel stupid——more than half of the progress bar has survived, so how can there be any reason to collapse and surrender afterwards?

Why let go, why let Qi Shengbin, Meng Xinlan and the others get their wish.

For fear of getting hurt again, do you want to lose the happiness of the rest of your life?Then just procrastinate like that useless singer Xiao Wang to drink away his sorrow?

"Help me... check the ticket."

The assistant was checking, but Qi Yan suddenly faltered again.

For more than 1000 days and nights, Cheng Cheng's side may have been disheartened long ago, so the house was sold.

He just went back, what's the point?

"Boss Qi bought it."

"..."

The assistant hands are also too fast.