Cinderella's Gypsophila

Is Xiaoyan... really in love with someone?

Cheng Sheng was reluctant to think about it.

Although he is not considered to have a positive personality, he never expected that he would be such a person—that he would choose to escape from reality, bury his head in the sand and pretend to be an ostrich, and hide without looking or listening.

Although Xiao Yan said that there is someone he likes, it might just be an excuse to send the little girl away...

Zhuo Ziwei also thinks so.

but.

Cheng Cheng looked down at the ground, took a deep breath, and tried his best to suppress the slight pain in his chest.

At the age of 14, she first fell in love, which is the age of her first love.

It's normal to "like" someone, and there are so many beautiful and dazzling little girls around Xiaoyan.

Xia Lili is sunny every day, which makes people feel good just by looking at it.He often brings delicious food to him.

Chocolates imported from abroad, as well as colorful cookies.If he were Xiao Yan, he would also like such a little princess.

Or Qi Xiaoyue, although the little girl is not very beautiful, she is gentle and sensible, and she is close to the water.

She and Qi Yan are the front and back seats of the same class, and they can talk countless words every day, and they can see her strengths even more.

The little girl who asked Xiaoyan to confess her love that day was already very cute and pleasing.

If Xiao Yan likes someone, he must be brighter than that.

And that little girl, even though she was rejected, at least she is qualified to express her feelings generously.

Unlike his feelings.

It can only be hidden for a lifetime, hiding in the darkest and most shady place.

……

Cheng Cheng hid from Qi Yan for a few days, and Qi Yan was looking for him all over the campus.

On rooftops without people, lab classrooms, libraries, and corners of the playground, the little angel's ability to find people is exceptionally outstanding.

"I found it, I found it! Cheng Cheng, why did you come here?"

The boy's smile is like the warm sun in winter.

"Hey, this is a good place. It's quiet and there are few people. Next time you read a book, ask me to join you. I won't disturb you."

"Cheng Cheng~ Why do you think you run away every day? If you don't like peaches, tell me, I'll change them for you. I tasted cherries yesterday, which are very sweet!"

"What's the matter with you recently, you don't see anyone after class every day."

After such a long time, Qi Yan is not a fool.

"Are you avoiding me?"

The pitch-black pupils looked straight over, and Cheng Cheng suffocated.

He really didn't want to lie to him.

Qi Yan: "What did I do wrong? Make you unhappy?"

"Say."

"..."

"Xiaosheng, Xiaosheng~~~" He stretched out his claws and pulled him, acting cute a little bit.

"Xiao Sheng, tell me."

"..."

"Don't tell me? If you don't say it, forget it. If you don't say it, I'm leaving."

So in the last few days of that week, Cheng Cheng didn't see Qi Yan's shadow again.

He breathed a sigh of relief, but lost his mind again.

A few days later, Qi Yan didn't come to look for him, but he had no choice but to look for Qi Yan.

Qi Yan: "Oh? Aren't you angry and ignoring me?"

Cheng Cheng stood at the door of the dormitory with downcast eyes, not knowing what to say.

He had to come, Xiaoyan's leg was not healed yet, and he needed to be taken care of.

On the bed next door, Zhuo Zi squinted his eyes and was lying down listening to music, looked up lazily, and plugged in the earphones because it had nothing to do with it.

The room was messy, and Qi Yan's hair hadn't been cut for a long time, and it was very long, so he pulled it a little because he thought it was getting in the way.

Cheng Cheng felt that he was careless and didn't take good care of him, but at the same time, he felt that the little dog was very cute and very contradictory.

Qi Yan turned his head: "What are you looking at? Hmph."

"Aren't you ignoring me? Don't come to me if you're angry. Continue to be angry! I'm angry too!"

Cheng Cheng: "..."

He doesn't know as well as cutie.

He went to fetch hot water and warm towels.Qi Yan: "Don't bother!"

Even so, people obediently did not resist.It was cold in winter, and he shivered after wiping his body.

Cheng Cheng held back his expressionless face, but it was actually funny and heartbroken, and he almost couldn't help but want to wrap the little pity in his arms several times.

After wiping people, he helped tidy up the dormitory like a kennel.

Too diligent, Zhuo Ziwei, one of the owners, could only get up and help sweep together.Otherwise, the face is really dull.

……

When Cheng Sheng went home that day, it rained lightly.

He got wet all over, not on purpose.It was just because he was in a trance that he didn't feel Xiao Yu's existence.

He thought that before leaving, Qi Yan smiled softly and poked at him with crooked eyes.

"Give you."

The boy held him and stuffed something cold and round into his palm.

It was a familiar, round and lovely, obedient yellow Yuhua stone.

Hangs on old key rings and keys that have been embroidered but wiped clean.

Cheng Cheng couldn't believe it, his gray eyes lit up all of a sudden: "How could it be..."

Qi Yan: "Well, I found it for you, I'm amazing."

Cheng Cheng spoke incoherently: "But, where are you, where are you?"

"The bus terminal. I suddenly thought of it that day - when you lost it, I went back and looked for it at that time. Afterwards, we searched the whole way several times and found nothing, so it is probably not on the way."

"I went to the lost and found at the bus terminal to try my luck, but I didn't expect to find it."

Zhuo Ziwei: "Hehe, it's easy to say."

"Brother, you don't know how many unclaimed things there are at the terminus! It's so many and messy! I spent the whole afternoon with Qi Yan. He was on crutches, and the staff thought he was disabled, so they felt sorry for him. Treat us to a drink..."

Qi Yan: "Go, go, don't talk nonsense!"

"How is it? Xiaosheng, do you like it?"

Cheng Cheng couldn't speak, and nodded desperately.

I like it, of course I do.

This Yuhua Stone keychain, once his most precious treasure, has been lost for almost two years.

It never occurred to him that he could get it back.

"If you like it, then don't be angry with me, okay?"

Qi Yan's eyes were dark and bright.

"Where did I make you unhappy? You just say it directly, don't hold it in your heart. Or what did my father and your mother do?"

He asked a lot.

Cheng Cheng just shook his head, feeling sour and sad.

Teenagers don't know other people's minds, and they don't understand anything.So far, he has quietly liked it alone, but he can only ravage and flood it on himself.

However, every time he wanted to wake up and control himself, he would be treated gently like this.

The little angel is kind and cruel.

Now he almost hated such a poisonous sweetness, but he was so confused that he couldn't tell what day and night, sweet in his heart, bitter in his aftertaste, bitter in his heart, sweet in his aftertaste, and he was repeatedly tortured by various emotions every day.

Finally one day.

It was snowing that day, Zhuo Ziwei was not there, and there were only the two of them in the dormitory.

Qi Yan was sticky and refused to let him go, and he couldn't bear the little baby to stay in the empty dormitory by himself, so he nestled on the bed and watched a movie together.

Romantic light comedy.

It makes people feel like they are wrapped in honey, laughing all the time.

The two of them just leaned together to watch, the room was very quiet, and they could hear each other's breathing.

The curve on the back of Qi Yan's neck is very nice, and Cheng Cheng peeked at it repeatedly.

The sun is slowly setting, and the light is slowly dimming, just cuddling together like this, wishing that time would stand still.

But the movie always ends.

For those who can't get what they want, the sweeter the illusion, the more disappointing the stamina after the curtain ends.

Qi Yan was still leaning on him.

She hugged his waist coquettishly, catching little monsters, and her soft hair rubbed against his shoulder blades.

At that moment, some feelings could not be restrained, and he asked him in a hoarse voice: "Xiao Yan, have you..."

"Hi, I like... people."

With a simple sentence, I bit my tongue and almost burst into tears in pain.

I regretted it after I finished speaking, but it was too late.

Qi Yan was stunned, this question was actually abrupt between them.

Because unlike his gossipy roommate, Cheng Sheng never discussed girls with him, not even once.

He didn't expect such a serious person like Cheng Cheng to gossip sometimes?

"No. Because, because, I heard people say that you have..."

Who is talking nonsense.But Qi Yan saw that his cheeks turned slightly red, and he stuttered, which was a bit cute.

Suddenly, I wanted to tease him.

"Yes, I have."

The air was suddenly quiet.

It was so quiet that even Qi Yan felt a little weird: "Xiao Sheng?"

Cheng Cheng seemed to have come to his senses.

"..."

"You...you are still young, you should put all your attention on your studies."

Qi Yan almost didn't laugh.

Hahahaha, is my brother suddenly possessed by the head teacher?

He stretched out his hand, trying to pinch that too serious and pale face to relax.Cheng Cheng suddenly turned his head and got out of bed.

"I, go back."

Qi Yan: "Huh? Oh, umbrella, umbrella, it's snowing, you take an umbrella."

"Xiao Sheng?"

"……who is it?"

"what?"

"Xia Lili, Qi Xiaoyue? Who is the person you like?"

……

……

It snowed too much that day.

Although Cheng Sheng had an umbrella, his shoulders were already wet when he got home.

Meng Xinlan's red fingertips poked them heavily: "What are you doing, making it like this? I don't know if I'm not in good health, and I'm going out to die in the snow? Let me tell you, Cheng Cheng, you'd better wake up. Stop fooling around with some dubious people outside every day!"

"Last time in the rain, this time in the snow, you are looking for death and life! I don't even look at what you look like now, it's like your soul has been hooked away all day long!"

"You are... so disappointing to me!"

Cheng Sheng didn't say anything.

Since her mother has been moody for more than ten years, he has long been used to this level of vitriol and sarcasm.

This is nothing.

It was even more serious a while ago. Meng Xinlan cried one day and tore up the scriptures that had been read for more than half a year and threw them all over the room: "Take them out and burn them. I'll be bored after reading them! Don't read them any more! What's the use! After reading for so long, good people don't get rewarded!"

Cheng Sheng cleaned up for a long time that day.

Without the bondage of the gods, Meng Xinlan's combat power has been rapidly upgraded since that day.

Arguing at home, going out and quarreling with neighbors is almost commonplace this semester.

Cheng Cheng also tried to persuade her, and tried to reason with her.

Although he knew that she would not listen to persuasion, he still decided to speak.Even if she heard all kinds of rage after hearing it, the words she scolded him became more and more ugly and unreasonable.

What Cheng Cheng thought was, anyway, Xiao Yan is not at home now.

No matter how big his mother's reaction was, he was the one to bear all the cursing.

As long as it doesn't make Xiaoyan suffer.

This level is completely tolerable.

No matter how painful it is, it can't compare to half of the pain in the body, and he can even use his own characteristics to stealthily and quietly lower the voice of the cochlea.

...He was thinking, at least he would try harder.

Dripping water can wear through rocks.The human heart is always made of flesh, so it is impossible to be stubborn forever, right?Yes, his mother is a shrew and is difficult to save, but at least she once supported him, and she has more conscience than his father who abandoned his wife and children.

Maybe, maybe.

Maybe one day, a miracle will happen, and she will be able to hear a few words he said.

At least he has to try.

It's all wishful thinking, anyway, there is still a slim chance of success in this matter?Right?

Just thinking about it, Meng Xinlan came in with fruit.

He was no longer fierce as before, but became weeping again.

She sat down and kept wiping away her tears: "Xiao Sheng, mom didn't mean to scold you just now, mom is your only son, mom will count on you for the rest of her life!"

Cheng Cheng lowered his eyes and said gently, "Yes, I know."

"Mom, don't worry. I will definitely get into a good university. I will be healthy and live up to you."

Meng Xinlan continued to cry: "Xiao Sheng, you have been in poor health since you were a child, and my mother doesn't really ask for anything more from you. As long as you are healthy and healthy, you will be normal. In the future, my mother will not want you to raise her, and she will not ask you for anything. The daughter of an official family, as long as you like it yourself, and you don’t care about your appearance and family background, if you are willing to bring it back, Mom will definitely agree!"

"Don't worry about the rest, mom will help you. If you marry a daughter-in-law, mom will help you raise money. When you give birth to a son, mom will help you raise money!"

Cheng Cheng: "Well, good."

Meng Xinlan: "Then you promised me, you have to swear to God! Hurry up!"

Cheng Cheng didn't understand what the hell he was singing.

But Meng Xinlan forced him to raise his hand, and made him follow her posture and repeat what she said one after another.

Cheng Cheng did not believe in ghosts and gods.

But he knew that if he didn't do it, his mother would definitely not give up.

I had no choice but to read along with her perfunctorily. After reading the oath, Meng Xinlan finally felt like a big stone fell from his heart, and left satisfied and happy.

Cheng Sheng did his homework for a while.

It wasn't until before going to bed, when I looked back and thought about it, that something seemed wrong.

……

The key point of the oath Meng Xinlan asked him to swear seemed to be to make him swear that he would "marry a wife and have children".

Thinking of this, Cheng Cheng's heart skipped a beat.

A chill ran from his chest to his back.

No, it's impossible...

He shook his head.Impossible, he must be overthinking.How could his mother have so much thought, how could he force him to make such a strange oath?

Thinking about this, I couldn't fall asleep.

Cheng Sheng got up.

Meng Xinlan's scriptures were burned by him, but Cheng Cheng didn't. The binding and cover were pretty, so he felt it was a pity to burn them.

The bookshelf is not too big, but there is always room for tidying up.Cheng Cheng classified the scriptures into categories and put them on. The spine of the book is quite nice.

He does not believe in ghosts and gods, but does not worship ghosts and gods.

But whether it is Eastern Buddhism, Taoism or Western Christianity, he is in awe of those Taoisms.

Cheng Cheng stretched out his hand, took down a Buddhist scripture, and opened it.

I can't understand profound words such as Bodhi, Namo, and Prajna, but I can understand the general meaning of the scriptures——

It teaches people to let go and not to be attached.

Without attachment, there is no suffering.

Next to it is the small print in his mother's mind: the key point of practice! ! !

Cheng Cheng lowered his eyes, closed the book, and smiled wryly.

Then in his whole life, he must be doomed to miss cultivation.

It is said in the book that the three poisons of greed, hatred and ignorance harm the body and mind, making people sink in the cycle of life and death, and the boundless sea of ​​suffering, which is the root of evil.

This greed, hatred and ignorance, he has at least two, greed and ignorance.

There is obsession in the heart, and never forgetting.

Today, he made a huge big mistake.

After asking Qi Yan if he liked Xia Lili and Qi Xiaoyue, he was confused for a moment.

"Then, it's...Zhuo Ziwei?"

But how could he, say a boy's name.

When he reacted, he didn't dare to look at Qi Yan's face at all, and even forgot to prevaricate.just ran away.

He walked all the way in the snow.

Very desperate, can't think of how to face Xiao Yan tomorrow.

Looking back, I should have said more at that time, turning this sentence into a complete joke.

But he panicked.

It would be fine if Qi Yan didn't think about it later and took it as a joke.

But what if you think about it?

His thoughts that have been hidden for a long time are only a layer of window paper away from being revealed.

Xiaoyan is very smart.

In case of the worst outcome, he will understand everything at once.

Cheng Cheng turned off the lights.

He lay back on the bed again, covering his eyes with his elbow.

He is afraid that he will know now.

Afraid that he would question him angrily and make himself ashamed.

I am even more afraid that he knows it clearly, but pretends not to know.

The funny thing is, he thought life was hopeless—a mother who wanted to love always brought storms.The boy who wants to love will never be able to love in his life.

But now.

He'd rather fucking make him swear by some illogical shrew.

He would rather Qi Yan not know anything for the rest of his life.

The whole person was about to be overwhelmed by something, he reached out and rubbed the pillow beside him into his arms.

Although, Qi Yan has not been home for more than a year.

But Cheng Cheng kept confiscating his pillow.

It seems that if you put it there, there is hope.Xiao Yan will come back one day and give him a hug.

Taking a deep breath, hugging the pillow tightly, suddenly my arms felt a little tight.

There seemed to be something foreign in the pillow other than cotton.

What is it?

In the dark night, he was groping, and his hands went deep inside. The thing felt strange to the touch, and he couldn't figure out what it was. It gave people a bad feeling in the dark.

Cheng Cheng got up and turned on the light.

It was a doll.

I don't know what material it is made of, but the workmanship is rough, and the body is covered with scary black threads, which looks very evil.

The doll's belly was open, and Cheng Cheng took out a note from it.

Qi Yan's name and birth date were written on the note in blood-like red ink.

At that moment, Cheng Cheng suddenly remembered how Meng Xinlan chanted words fluently when he asked him to swear.

Look closely, the doll is missing a leg...

At that moment, I only felt ringing in the ears, and the blood was rushing up all over my body.