Cinderella's Gypsophila

Happy times always fly by quickly.

Every day at the summer camp, the cicadas sing and the heat is annoying.

Days are talking and laughing.

The rich young master Xiao Mingchao brought a Polaroid, and Zhuo Ziwei often borrowed it to capture some fleeting scenes.

For example, during class, capture the inattentiveness of a serious and good student.

He didn't listen carefully, but stared at the little cutie beside him.

During self-study, he will secretly use his slender fingertips to play with the little cute fingers.

When the little cutie fell asleep, he would stare at him even more intently.

There was endless tenderness and pampering in those deep gray eyes.

Often people have an illusion -

If it wasn't in the classroom, if everyone wasn't there, wouldn't he couldn't help but bow down and give the little cutie a kiss when he wasn't ready?

After a week, Zhuo Ziwei took a bunch of photos.

And finally took a "satisfactory photo".

It was noon one day, and Qi Yan fell asleep on Cheng Cheng's bed.

Can't wake up anyway.

Helpless, Cheng Cheng could only barely squeeze beside him.

A bed is too small, falling asleep and falling asleep becomes a state of hugging each other.

When Zhuo Ziwei got up that day, he heard Xiao Mingchao pointing at the bed and covering his mouth and laughing.At first glance, Qi Yan is hugging Cheng Cheng's neck domineeringly, pillowing Cheng Cheng's arm, and resting his feet carelessly on his body, looking like an octopus.

A totally unsightly gesture.

Fortunately, the face is not bad.

If only the face is taken, the two of them sleeping together look really good.Without desire, pure and flawless.

Zhuo Ziwei discovered that from that day on, Qi Yan seldom went back to the upper bunk.

The night at the summer camp was so hot, the power of the broken fan was not good at all, the upper bunk Xiao Ming was so hot that he screamed, but Qi Yan slept soundly holding Cheng Cheng?

...Even normal people don't like their brother to the point of defying the laws of nature.

If it's so hot, I have to hug, if this is not love.

The next day, when Zhuo Ziwei made a joke about Qi Yan, Qi Yan grabbed him instead and slapped Cheng Cheng with his paw.

"understand?"

Zhuo Ziwei: "..."

He didn't expect that Cheng Cheng's skin was cold, really cold.

On such a hot day, everyone else was sweating, but his body temperature was as cold as ice.

Qi Yan's face was full of complacency, and there were stars in his eyes when he smiled: "Got it! Got it! Sleeping with Xiaosheng in your arms can cool off the heat. Hehe, but he is mine. You don't have any, so I won't give you a hug. "

"..."

he's mine.

Zhuo Ziwei saw Cheng Cheng's fingertips trembling slightly.

Even more red ears.

"Okay, Xiao Yan, don't mess around..."

Seeing him being hugged by his waist, the whole person was extremely stiff, his eyes were flickering, and his eyes were drooping.Like a butterfly caught in the dying throes of a spider.

But the young man didn't understand anything, and continued to hug him and act like a baby, naive and cruel.

……

In the last week of the summer camp, the lunch finally became richer, with delicious dishes and soup.

While Cheng Cheng and Xiao Mingchao were adding soup, Qi Yan poked Zhuo Ziwei: "Hey."

"Ok?"

"Skipping class in the afternoon, why don't you go somewhere with me?"

Zhuo Ziwei: "Just the two of us, don't we call you brother and Ah Chao?"

Qi Yan shook his head.

The boy always seemed to be like this, sometimes he was innocent, cute and silly, and sometimes he was extraordinarily calm and self-possessed, with dark eyes, Zhuo Ziwei didn't ask much.

In the afternoon, he followed Qi Yan and slipped away against the sun.

Over the wall, walk through the wilderness path to buy apples, and climb up a hill full of trees.

After climbing so hard, sweating profusely, I finally reached the top of the mountain.

From the top of the mountain, the view is wide, and you can see the opposite valley at a glance. There is actually a large building complex in the valley.A church with white walls, gray tiles, and crosses.

The old building is very similar to the Christian chapel built by foreigners in the past.

Qi Yan: "Well, it's not a chapel, but an army hospital built by the United States in the past. It was abandoned later, and the current Invalids Hospital was built on the basis of the ruins.

Zhuo Ziwei: "...is that the Invalids Hospital?"

"Ah."

The Invalides Hospital is a mental hospital.Children usually jokingly joke about "sending you to the Invalids Hospital".

But few people know that it was actually built in such a remote suburb.

Qi Yan pointed over there: "My mother is there."

Zhuo Ziwei: "..."

My brain suddenly hurts a little.

So, next door is a mental hospital.In that month, what kind of mood did Qi Yan have, eating and sleeping, studying, laughing and acting like a baby in the summer camp as usual every day.

A cloud passed overhead.

Qi Yan's side face flickered for a moment.

Then, the sky became as clear as before.

"She's there, but I can't see her. The hospital doesn't allow minors to enter, and even if they do, she won't recognize me at all."

For a while, the world was quiet, only the wind blowing.

Qi Yan stretched out his hands and closed his eyes slightly, as if he was about to disappear into the blue sky and white clouds on the top of the mountain.

The eyelashes fluttered, as if trying to embrace the gust of wind in vain.

……

On the way down the mountain, there was too much silence.

Zhuo Ziwei is not bad at comforting people.He has read a lot of books, and he usually knows everything well, but today's question is really beyond the outline.

Qi Yan: "What happened today, you go back...don't mention it to my brother."

Zhuo Ziwei: "Yes."

"Then if your brother asks where we went in the afternoon, what should I say?"

Qi Yan: "Just talk nonsense, let's go out for a stroll."

Zhuo Zi smiled wryly, what a wandering, she insisted on getting rid of Cheng Cheng and Xiao Mingchao, and went out alone.

The two walked for a while, Zhuo Ziwei said, "On the mountain just now, did you want to cry, and you just endured it."

Qi Yan shook his head.

He walked forward again, but was grabbed by Zhuo Ziwei.

Zhuo Zi smiled slightly, and stretched out his hand to him carelessly, Qi Yan: "What are you doing?"

"Today's limited-time offer, you can cry in the school grass's arms for free, come on?"

Qi Yan: "Are you sick?"

"It's better than holding it back. You don't want to cry to your brother about this kind of thing, and you don't even want to let him know about it."

"So, come on, I'll use it for you, no one will see it anyway!"

Qi Yan: "Hehe, take care of yourself first. Smoking tattoos and cutting yourself with a knife, but you know you are a good student? But do you want to cry in my arms? Come on, Brother Qi loves you!"

Zhuo Ziwei: "Fuck, unfilial son, Zhuo's father loves you for nothing."

Qi Yan: "Sun thief, why are you talking to grandpa?"

This is a barren mountain, there is no road, and the road up the mountain is opened by the two of them by stepping on stones.

Qi Yan took care of Zhuo Ziwei, inadvertently stepped on the ground, and almost rolled down.

Zhuo Ziwei: "Fuck, Qi Yan, are you okay?"

Qi Yan: "Cough... Don't worry, I'm not dead."

Although not dead, the situation is not very good.

Zhuo Ziwei: "Fuck, why is the ankle so swollen? It won't be broken!"

Qi Yan was sweating from the pain and gritted his teeth.

Falling in the barren hills and haystacks in the summer, all kinds of thorns, plants and small stones, this is really choking.All kinds of abrasions on his body, and his ankles were swollen to the point of his brain.

Fortunately, this kind of first aid is taught in health classes at school.

Zhuo Ziwei quickly picked up the branches, and tied Qi Yan's shoelaces to fix his ankles. The shoelaces were not enough, so he had to take off the wristband of his left hand as a binding rope.

One second he was laughed at for self-harm, and the next second, the wrist guard was gone, and the shocking wounds on his wrist were completely exposed in broad daylight.

Zhuo Ziwei: "..."

He had no choice but to pick up Qi Yan and go down the mountain.

The hill was not too short, and the two of them climbed for more than an hour before going up.What's more, although Zhuo Ziwei is tall and physically strong, he has never tried carrying a boy down the mountain.

To maintain balance without falling, and to find a way through thorns and thorns, it is also rare to die, all kinds of irritability.

But the little cripple who is carrying it is not honest.

"Hey."

"What?"

"Actually, smoking and self-mutilation are really bad. Don't do that in the future."

"..."

"The scar on your hand is much deeper than I imagined."

"Damn! You take care of yourself, and you still have time to take care of me! Are you free from lameness? Can you walk by yourself? Believe it or not, I don't care if you throw you on the mountain to feed the wolves?"

Qi Yan: "Just look at me and say something, look at your reaction so much. You are called irritable."

Zhuo Ziwei: "Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!"

……

The world is quiet.

But this turned out to be not a good thing.

As soon as the wristband was taken off, it seemed that some kind of seal had been released.Bad memories related to it came in droves.

Zhuo Ziwei descended step by step with a heavy load, gasping for breath, unable to control his thoughts.

...he felt ridiculous.

Looking back at Qi Yan, Qi Yan is simply invincible.

I just finished watching Guan Qin's mother's mental hospital, broke her leg and swelled like a pig's trotter, and I can't hold back my tears, and I can in turn care about his life and death.

On the other hand, his mood is like that of street garbage drenched in rain.

The self-harm scars on the wrist, apart from his family members, seemed to be only noticed by Qi Yan with sharp eyes.

He hid it well, and the rest of the dormitory didn't notice it, and he never told anyone about his self-harm to his former friends.

Can't say.

It's not that he's afraid of losing face, but that his family is well-educated, his parents have a harmonious relationship, he's been well clothed with snacks since childhood, and he buys books and toys with him.

Unlike Xiao Mingchao who lacked the company of his parents since he was a child, unlike Han Fei's poor family, and Qi Yan's bloody affairs full of domestic violence, cheating, and jumping off a building.

So, what face do you have to say?

In this carefree high-end life, all the negative emotions seem to be his own neurosis and hypocrisy.

Zhuo Zi lowered her head slightly, remembering the last time she broke up with her parents.

Not long ago, he went home to get his clothes, and the reason for the dispute can't be remembered clearly, it was a trivial matter anyway, but in the end both parties were yelling hysterically.

His mother cried and asked him: "Isn't it just a normal chat! Just asking you casually, where did you get such a big temper?"

"What did Mom and Dad do wrong? Why do you treat us so badly all day long, with an attitude of ignoring answers and dying? Is it because we owe you?"

Zhuo Ziwei thought about it carefully, indeed.

It seemed that it was just an ordinary chat, it seemed that his parents had just babbled a few more words, used a few more sentences like "you must xxx" and "don't xxx", and he exploded.

Make a fuss over a molehill, be moody, and make parents sad.

But, but...

What made him like this?

He was also innocent and lively before, and he happily shared a day's life with his parents when he returned home.

But my parents didn't like to hear it.

Always perfunctory, the three sentences are transferred to "learning".What is even more sad is that those setbacks, doubts and incomprehensions encountered in his innocent growth, those little secrets that he only trusted his parents to tell them, were always casual, and became wanton jokes and jokes at relatives gatherings. talk.

He was so ashamed that he begged his parents not to speak, but they ignored his plea and spoke more vigorously.

What's more, he always used these against him when he turned over old accounts, mocking him for the stupid mistakes he made back then.

Over time, he learned never to share any secrets with them.

Now that he lives in school, it may be because of distance.Every time I go home, my parents try very hard to talk to him.

Zhuo Ziwei felt pitiful and sad sometimes.

But it was hard to get back, and he really didn't want to say anything to them.

Funny to say.

In his family, it's really not a matter of principle that destroys the warmth.

No cheating, no domestic violence, just daily trivialities.

So much so that even when he picks on his father's faults, he never picks out any big ones.

It is nothing more than that every summer night after he falls asleep, they must enter his room and force him to turn off the air conditioner, "for fear that you will freeze", causing him to wake up countless early mornings.

It is nothing more than constantly digging through his wardrobe, room, notes, interfering in making friends, interfering in all words and deeds, interfering in all aspects of private life, and nagging non-stop.

It is nothing more than the excessive "love" and "attention" imposed on the body, and the desire for control and disrespect that is unacknowledged behind it.

Over time, their son became a ptsd rabbit.

Every time the parents opened the door, even if they just wanted to chat or deliver fruit, the rabbit would be so flustered that its ears would stand up in an instant, desperately trying to hide and escape.

But how would he tell others about this kind of thing?

What would someone who had never been that rabbit say?

They just don't understand, isn't it okay for parents to care about you?Help you clean up, do you still feel disgusted?Whether you care or not for you?Don't be ignorant of your blessings, if I had a life like yours...

Even, this kind of persuasion has been heard too much.

So much that he doubted it himself, maybe everything was his own fault in the first place.

It's because he's too fragile.

It's because he thinks too much.

Maybe let him switch with Qi Yan, let him be beaten up a few more times by unreasonable parents, and these problems of being full after eating will be gone.

he does not know.

Maybe……

Thinking about it, I was about to cry out of nowhere.

But he still carried Qi Yan behind his back, and the mist from his eyes couldn't be wiped away.

I don't even want to be laughed at, I'm suffocated.

After a long time, I finally arrived at the foot of the mountain and was about to collapse from exhaustion.But the mountain is still far away from the camp, and there is no car.

Fortunately, the sky is endless.

He actually saw a familiar figure.

Cheng Sheng!

The handsome young man who never sweated ran over, a little tired and haggard, with thin sweat oozing from his forehead.

He searched for them for a long time, finally found them, and reached out to take Qi Yan.

"I'll carry it."

……

Unfortunately, Qi Yan really broke a bone.

One surgery in the hospital.The counselor also came, contacted the parents, and ran up and down.

"This parent is the same. They don't worry about what's going on with the child at all! They just keep saying that they are busy with work, and that the child's brother is here anyway, so let me take care of it? I'm just a teacher at their summer camp!"

"It's so irresponsible. Work is so important? How can there be such a father."

Doctor: "You can't say that, the parents must have their own helplessness."

The counselor didn't say much.

There was rustling and rain outside the window.

There are few people in the suburban hospital, and the wards are dimly lit.

Zhuo Ziwei accompanied the teacher to pay the fee, and when he came back, he saw the boy with red eyes acting like a baby with his brother.

"pain……"

He was so miserable in the afternoon that he didn't have a soft word.

Now it's like a lost child who has found his home, wanting to be hugged like a baby bird.

"..."

Zhuo Ziwei went to the end of the corridor and smoked a cigarette.

he knows.There is no doubt that Qi Yan's life is darker and more difficult than his.

But at least, there is someone beside him who can give him a hug.

He would hug him and coax him all the time.

Zhuo Zi finished smoking slightly, then turned to see Cheng Cheng.

Cheng Cheng lowered his eyes: "Thank you for carrying Xiao Yan all the way down the mountain."

"The doctor said that the first aid measures are in place, and it is not difficult to recover after the operation. Thank you very much."

Say thank you.In the eyes, there are some complicated emotions.

Zhuo Ziwei can understand.

After all, from this person's point of view, he was the one who cheated people away all afternoon, and even injured the little baby.

Cheng Cheng: "Why did you guys skip class and run to the mountains this afternoon?"

death problem.

Zhuo Zi stubbed out the cigarette slightly.

He still remembered what Qi Yan said, not to smoke in front of his brother.

He couldn't make up an answer, so he didn't answer at all, but was stopped by Cheng Cheng.

The handsome boy frowned.An uncontrollable obscurity appeared in the gray eyes.

Zhuo Ziwei: "Don't worry, you don't need to be so hostile, and I don't want to rob you."

"Although, I 'also' like boys."

A coldness flashed across Cheng Cheng's gray eyes.

In the next second, Zhuo Ziwei was pushed by him.

It was so hard that the back of his head hit the cold wall.

Cheng Cheng stepped forward, his body full of cold arrogance, he paused every word: "What nonsense are you talking about?!"

Zhuo Ziwei was surprised and understood, his eyes reflected the coldness of this person.

Qi Yan said, my brother looks gentle and honest, but actually... he thought Qi Yan was joking.

But he was wrong.

So scary so scary.

He fumbled in his pocket.

He took out a few Polaroid photos and stuffed them into the pockets of Cheng Chengcheng's white shirt.

Cheng Cheng: "What are you doing!"

"No, these photos are for you."

"Go home and take a good look at yourself, what kind of eyes are you looking at people every day."

"you!"

Cheng Cheng gritted his teeth and put his hand against his neck: "You...shut up! If you dare to talk nonsense in front of him, I'll kill you!"

Zhuo Ziwei: "Ha..."

Hahaha, really funny.

Real rabbits will bite when they are in a hurry.He stayed with Qi Yan all afternoon, and his brother was going crazy with jealousy.

But how can we go on like this?

If this continues, the undisguised feelings will be known to everyone sooner or later.

"Don't worry, I won't say anything."

"But you yourself, brother, should you be sober?"

"Put away your possessiveness, you know it's impossible, he won't like you, if he finds out, you're done!"

"..."

Cheng Cheng gritted his teeth, feeling sad to death.Like a carbon fire being doused, the light in the gray eyes faded little by little.

Zhuo Zi sighed slightly.

In the past, he just thought they were cute, and seemed a little ambiguous, but he just thought that he was thinking too much.

But it turned out that Cheng Cheng really liked him.

If you like it so much, you will lose your mind with a little jealousy.

But it's just too tragic.

Qi Yan is a "normal" boy.

Sleeping together for so long, the bystanders are clear.

He will act like a baby to him, hug him for a nap, and feel sorry for him and take care of him, but it is basically impossible for him to love a boy.

not to mention.

That woman gave birth, and he doesn't want a girl.

Qi Yan is kind, transparent and loving, but also has a good memory and will not be confused.

It is said that moths to the flame.

As a result, some people are not even qualified to be moths...