Jinnian

If the soul can be stripped, Gu Chen, I think I will bless you.

——Li Hua.

All the sudden sorrows can't change the original track of life. After quarrels, tears, and pain run over the bright red heart in your chest, you will find that life is still going on.

The quarrel that night couldn't change anything. Gu Chen knew that he would not leave Lu Chuxiu, even though Li Hua's ending made him suffocate, but their love had passed the youngest and most vigorous time, and his love for that man had gone deep into his bone marrow. How could he let go? can do it?The only thing he can do is to try his best to make up for the damage that has been done.

It's not that he doesn't know what losses and blows Li Hua brought to Lu Chuxiu. If he were any of Lu Chuxiu's business opponents or people who coveted him in life, he would not interfere no matter what happened to them, but this This time is different, Li Hua is the closest female friend he has made in his entire youth since he went to college, and in the past eight years, his confidant is nothing more than that, he never believed that she would betray Lu Chuxiu just because of money.

This direct and unfounded feeling just came from his empathy for her, but this empathy alone cannot be intervened and understood by anyone.

They are all illegitimate children, and they have not been able to grow up in a normal ethical environment, so their psychological identity will always be more delicate and disguised than others, which is why he has known her for so many years.Li Hua's frankness is so strong, his gentleness and simplicity are very different on the surface. At first, even Lu Chuxiu wondered why the two of them could chat together, obviously their personalities are not the same at all.

In fact, such differences are the same in the core. Li Hua wants to be recognized by the Lu family and to prove his ability and status in this family, but he is just the opposite. I want to shrink myself into an outsider.But in the final analysis, they always lack some sense of identity in their hearts.

Others would not understand this feeling, even if facing Lu Chuxiu and Gu Chen, he would not be able to express it. After all, before meeting him, he had lived for 15 years, and these 15 years were enough for him to learn how to protect himself.But Li Hua is even more pitiful than him, she doesn't even have a shoulder on which she can rest assured, the Lu family will always be like a battlefield in a state of first-level alert to her.

So, meeting each other, in the right place, at the right time, and in the right relationship, was a blessing for them.

No matter what the final truth is, he will never give up on her. What he wants to protect is not only the last strength of this woman to survive, but also his own inner struggle and redemption.They didn't deserve this ending.

How one is born no one can choose, but how one lives?

Gu Chen spent a lot of time accompanying Li Hua, and he had more opportunities to be with her in the same hospital, as long as he finished his work in the department every day, he would talk with her, take a walk or eat with her.He told a white lie to his colleagues in the department, saying that he was a high school classmate.

The relationship between him and Li Hua can only be maintained in private. After all, they all have their own social roles. Even if Li Hua is now a mental patient, as long as someone deliberately investigates, it will always bring unnecessary trouble.In any case, he can no longer add burden and influence to her.

The colleagues in the department are all a group of young people, and the older ones are basically seniors, and they don't often play with them in a circle except Qiu Luo, and Gu Chen didn't hide this matter from Qiu Luo, it seems that the only one so far The only person who can confide is Qiu Luo.

Fortunately, it is Qiu Luo and not others, he can open up his heart completely.

Li Hua didn't respond to his arrival at first, but the beginning was that she would not be afraid to face him, and Gu Chen also contacted an authoritative psychiatrist for regular treatment.Lu Chuxiu originally wanted to send her abroad for rehabilitation, so as not to let her affect the child's mood, but Gu Chen resolutely refused, so he had no choice but to compromise.Gu Chen is a doctor himself, he understands how cold it is to entrust a patient to a mechanized hospital, he would rather spend time and energy to help Li Hua get better little by little, besides, he firmly believes that the women he knows will not be like this Fall down easily.

Facts have proved that the hard work of the past three months has not been in vain. When Li Hua called him "Xiao Chen" for the first time when he was conscious, Gu Chen's heart missed two beats, like a new parent. People feel the excitement and relief when they hear a child call out "Mom and Dad" for the first time.She even saw that Qiu Luo who came in could call out "Doctor Sang", Gu Chen hugged Qiu Luo excitedly, but tears fell first when she wanted to laugh.

Qiu Luo gave him a handkerchief, and the two looked at each other and smiled.

In the past three months, Qiuluo and the people in the department have accompanied Li Hua just like him, accompanying her to resist demons and illnesses, talking, eating, and walking with her. Gu Chen always believes that as long as there is hope, everything can be restored. Come!Li Hua is about the same size as him, so young, even if he has experienced countless darkness and despair, as long as he can see the light, isn't there still hope?

But later, when he stood in front of the tombstone of Li Hua and looked at the cold and beautiful woman in the photo, Gu Chen was saddened and crazy, fate ruthlessly mocked his innocence, let him cry and get angry, in the end, he could only kneel down Grieving in front of the stele, his hard work every day and every day was exchanged for a dead body.

It was August 8th, Qixi Festival.

In the evening there was a major operation, Qiu Luo was the chief surgeon, and he was the first to assist. Like any previous operation, it was like a passing wind.However, because it was the Qixi Festival that day, Qiu Luo kindly gave Gu Chen a vacation. Her lover from the past few years on Qixi Festival, everyone in the department went out for a while, and they were always left with the hard work of overtime. Even though he is a lover, he can't say it openly, Qiu Luo doesn't want to say it, he has no thoughts on this matter at all, but on Gu Chen's side, Lu Chuxiu complained countless times.This year, Qiu Luo suddenly had a spiritual epiphany. His good apprentice hadn't had a serious Valentine's Day since graduation, so he found other "single nobles" to host Gu Chen. Go out for a Tanabata.

Therefore, when Gu Chen received the call, his mind went blank for a moment. He had never hated Qiu Luo's voice at that time more than any other moment. It seemed cold and lifeless: "Xiao Chen, Li Hua He jumped off the building, and the rescue was futile."

Entering the mortuary for the second time, the fear of the past slowly climbed up the scalp like a poisonous snake along the moist memory.Gu Chen's hands trembled as if he had lost his bones. He stared blankly at the person on the bed. His body seemed to be immersed in a cold deep pool. There were vines and water plants pulling his body fiercely, and cold water kept seeping in from the soles of his feet. In the end, the strength Overdrawn, he squatted on the ground in despair, breathing heavily, Lu Chuxiu hurriedly picked him up and left this cold space.

In Li Hua's room, Gu Chen frantically asked the nurse who took care of him, why didn't he look good on her?Why can't we see that the patient has suicidal tendencies?Why did she go out for so long without looking for anyone?The little nurse stood obediently by the side, not daring to speak, and only whispered: "Miss Lu is in the same state as usual, and they didn't see anything wrong, thinking she went out for a walk as usual."

Gu Chen was furious: "You fucking go for a walk in the middle of the night?

"Miss Lu, she... she went out before eight o'clock, and said to go to the garden and wait... for Dr. Gu to come... We thought that Dr. Gu would... send Miss Lu back as usual, so... ... I didn't... followed."

Gu Chen threw the vase on the table and dropped it heavily. The harsh sound scared the group of people into silence. He wanted to say something but couldn't utter a single syllable.

Lu Chuxiu asked the nurse: "Did she receive any stimulation before going out? Did she show any abnormal behavior? Has anyone come here this afternoon?"

"Nothing unusual. Dr. Gu and Dr. Sang came to visit in the afternoon. During dinner, Ms. Lu answered a phone call, but nothing happened."

Gu Chen suddenly sat down on the floor, looked at the scattered red roses, and smiled bitterly.

He didn't want to know who made the call. Isn't it common for a mental patient to commit suicide?From the day the original murderer sent her in, he never thought of bringing Li Hua back to life.But why push people to this point?Why do women who are already crazy want to kill them all?He looked at the bloody redness all over the ground, and his heart was ignited with paralyzing anger.Li Hua's favorite red rose is always glamorous and eye-catching just like herself.When he was sent to the ward in the afternoon, he still smiled and said to her: "Happy Qixi Festival!" But for a moment, things changed, and he really wanted to know if Li Hua wanted to say something when she was waiting for him in the garden, did she want to confide in her? what?The night wind in August is so cold, how long has she waited?

Tears fell unscrupulously, Gu Chen's heart ached beyond restraint, three months, eight years, all the time of knowing each other added up, fate instead gave him a dead body.Why?He has worked so hard for so long, why should he plunder in such a cruel way after giving him hope?

Lu Chuxiu dismissed the people in the ward, he squatted beside Gu Chen in silence for a while, and said, "I'm sorry." He also didn't expect that Tang Chenting would not tolerate Li Hua so much.

Gu Chen looked up at him, and sneered coldly: "Satisfied, right? Now that the person is dead, all troubles are gone! Your mother's warning has been fulfilled, and I am very useful, yes," he sneered at Lu Chuxiu: "Our Such a person deserves no happiness!"

"I don't allow you to say such things! Xiaochen," Lu Chuxiu touched the corner of his lips wearily: "I didn't expect things to develop like this. This matter is my mother's fault. I apologize, but between us How can you deny all the eight years of relationship between you?" He looked at him with tender love in his eyes.

Gu Chen smiled sadly, he didn't understand, Lu Chuxiu didn't understand what Li Hua's departure meant to him at all.He stood up: "Yes, eight years have made me and you, but eight years are enough to let me understand that Li Hua is not the kind of person who will betray you for money, Lu Chuxiu, if you can give me more in these years For the care of some of his elder brothers, if you can get to the bottom of things other than money after her betrayal, if you really treat her as your younger sister, how can you say the word apology lightly?"

Lu Chuxiu was a little dazed. It was hard for him to believe that the sharp-toothed, glaring person in front of him could be a child who slept peacefully by his pillow every day. He had hardly seen Gu Chen like this, either because of heartache or because of anger. Well, his voice quickly cooled down: "Yes, I never regarded her as a younger sister, why would I treat an illegitimate daughter as my biological younger sister? Xiaochen, the Lu family never accepted her because of the traits of the Lu family. But because of her ability, you can't tell how much ambition Li Hua has because you and I will never see the same side of her! There are so many people in the Lu family, what kind of motives are there behind them? What are the difficulties? I don't need to understand one by one, I just need to look at the results, I can tell you unabashedly today, if you didn't force her to stay at the beginning, then whether she lives or dies has nothing to do with me. "

The truth is like cutting a bloody heart open for others to see. If you don't move in his heart, you will never know what the heart has seen.

They looked at each other coldly, and there was a hint of ridicule and sadness in Gu Chen's eyes. His mother and he were such an existence in the eyes of these people, and there was no label that could be given to them except Qianli.He looked at Lu Chuxiu and said word by word: "I am also an illegitimate child, Lu Chuxiu, if one day you get tired of me, will my fate be the same as hers?"

Lu Chuxiu frowned, he grabbed Gu Chen's shoulders fiercely, restrained his anger and gritted his teeth: "Say it again!"

"Isn't it? Iser, people in your family think of me like that? Heh, if I'm no longer attractive to you, wouldn't I be useless as an illegitimate child?" Gu Chen said His eyes became more and more cold.

"I've never fucking looked at you like this!" Lu Chuxiu held up the ring on his finger, and said forcefully, "You, Gu Chen, are my Lu Chuxiu's lover, my sweetheart, not some shady bastard!"

"Because you love me, can I get rid of this fact? Why? Is a name the same as a life, which is not worth mentioning in your eyes?"

"I said, this is not my intention. If I knew that my mother wanted to kill her, I..."

"Is there a difference? Did you manage when your mother drove Li Hua crazy? What did you explain to me when she was pregnant? Lu Chuxiu, you really want her to die!"

The dispute of rushing words is like two sharp knives fighting non-stop!With a jingle, he clearly heard the knife in his hand fall to the ground.

Lu Chuxiu laughed back angrily, his raised hand was stiff for a moment, but he couldn't give up after all, he slammed the wall hard and turned around to leave.

Gu Chen's tears flowed down almost the moment he turned around. He tried his best to restrain himself from being so mean and arrogant, but he couldn't stop the clamor of sorrow.