Jinnian

"If possible, I'd rather just hold you like this for the rest of my life."

This is his big boy, and he picked it up together with his pride and self-esteem.However, he could only hug him in the dark, even kissing him so cautiously.

He was obviously already his, but he hesitated even in the gesture of hugging in fear.

It turns out that when love is deep, such a domineering and arrogant person will become humble and unrepentant.

When he woke up, Gu Chen still couldn't tell whether it was night or day. He only felt that his body was in unbearable pain. He struggled to sit up but someone grabbed his wrist: "Don't move, the medicine is on."

Gu Chen raised his head, and the person in front of him was a rare and unkempt man with tired eyes, fluffy hair, and even his clothes were wrinkled.Before he had time to laugh, he found that almost half of his body was lying on the opponent's body. He felt cramped and moved away quickly.

Lu Chuxiu saw that he was struggling so much, so he helped the person out of bed calmly, then took the clothes into the bathroom, and drove for a whole day, in the car and in the hospital, and the child had a high fever all night, He didn't dare to move his arms around anyone, let alone close his eyes to tidy himself up.

Gu Chen had been lying on the bed all the time because of his wound, but now he shifted slightly and realized that the place where he was lying turned out to be Lu Chuxiu's room.Uncontrollably in my mind, I thought of the brutal confrontation between the two last time, and that tragic and confused night.A year has passed, and it is absolutely impossible to completely let go, but...he thought with a wry smile, the so-called hatred is actually nothing more than that.

this.

It was separated by a door, the same as last time, only this time they reversed their positions with each other, but the complex, sharp, and uneasy feelings of that day still existed.He couldn't get out, and he couldn't get in either.

When Lu Chuxiu came out of the bathroom, it was almost completely dark. The lights in the room were not turned on, and only a few sparse street lights outside the window made a vague outline of the room. He brushed his hair hastily and sat on the bed. On the chair in front of him, as if on purpose, he hid himself behind the darkness, leaving only a shadow.

No one spoke, nor did they turn on the lights, allowing the silent time to drift through the breath alone.After an unknown amount of time, Gu Chen finally opened his mouth: "Why did you appear?"

"By chance."

What a clumsy lie.

He turned his head, stared at the shadow in the darkness, and asked word by word: "Why did you appear?" He used a very serious tone.

There was a long silence.

He said: "I want to see you." He used a very wronged rhyme.

Then, he silenced himself.He said, "I'm going abroad."

In the darkness, the traces of his fingers gripping the pillow would dissipate after some time, and he only knew that he had been praying at that time: I hope I can't see it when I turn on the light.So, he smiled silently, and said easily: "Ah, is that right, I... I'm going to college too."

The room fell into silence again, and the night outside the window deepened into a thick darkness.Gu Chen suddenly said: "Turn on the light, it's too dark." Lu Chuxiu turned on the bedside lamp, and the dim light shone on the side of the boy's face, suddenly, there was a sense of peace and tranquility.

So, he impulsively said, "Will you keep me?"

He knelt on the bed on one knee, looking down at him with expectation in his eyes.

The boy lying on the bed stared blankly at him with big eyes fluttering, his whole body and even his breathing began to become defensive.He approached, lowered his body extremely low, and made a gesture to kiss but he turned his head away.

That's it.Answer.

When Yu Min received the admission letter from T University, Yu Min happily invited neighbors all over the yard to celebrate.

Whether a holiday is long or not, the time passed by so quietly, and the scars on the body gradually disappeared, as if the pain of dying that day was just a dream.After many things, after the pain, I found that the desperate endurance at that time was just a moment of survival instinct.

The so-called life and death is not the end of suffering after all.

I never saw Bi Danqing in my dream.

There is no sadness in the world after a long absence.

Probably so.

T University is one of the top universities in S City. When choosing a school, Gu Chen discussed it with Yu Min. It is indeed a little dangerous for him to take the T major test, but fortunately, the hard work in the last year did not let him down.

On the day the notice was received, Gu Chen and Yu Min went to visit Gu Weishuang.The mountains are verdant green, and the woman on the tombstone is still white and smiling gracefully.

The boy asked gently: "Mom, have you ever regretted it?"

The summer breeze rustled the leaves, and the entire cemetery was as silent as a film on film, and those fragments passing by made Gu Chen's eyes wet again and again.

So much love, why regret it?

On the day he went back, he sealed "The Funeral of Mrs. Wang" on the bookshelf and all the books that person gave him, including Lin Zijin's "Lover" and the disc, and put them at the bottom of the bookcase.

Locked and dusted, it will gradually be buried in the dust of the years, and since then, there will be no more traces.

The irony is that Gu Chen has read countless books in his life, and at the loneliest moment in his life, these books that have never turned a page have accompanied him throughout his 11s. Eleven years later, when he saw the yellowed handwriting on the book, his hard heart, which was tortured by the ups and downs of the world, was left with a bitter smile and chills. He roared in grief, tremblingly questioned, cried and laughed mocked the past,

After all, he admitted his dissatisfaction.

But, so what?

Sorrow is not sorrowful and farewell.

After all, we are strangers.

The saddest story in the world is probably that of living apart with one heart, and being sad for the end of old age.

When school was about to start, he saw the man.I think this is the fourth time they have met.Gu Chen looked at him quietly, neither sad nor happy.The man looked at him without any alienation, and asked him abnormally about his academic plans and some considerations for the future. Gu Chen answered them one by one. They are destined not to be as close and friendly as ordinary father and son. It's the best he can do.

Before leaving, the man gave him a check, and said lightly, "Four years of college expenses." After a pause, "This is just out of a father's consideration."

Gu Chen looked at the huge amount of money on it and smiled, remembering the little red book that Yu Min gave him, and every page on it was the school expenses saved for him, the old man flipped through it and said to himself: " It was originally intended to take care of Weishuang's funeral, but it's useless. It's just enough for you to go to school. Don't save money when you go to school. Uncle will save it for you slowly, and there will be money to marry a wife in the future, hehe... ·”

Using the most familiar tone, the most natural posture, but the kindness made Gu Chen's heart warm by surprise.

So he smiled and said to the man: "Thank you for your kindness, but Uncle Min is still waiting for me to have dinner. I have to go back early."

The man didn't speak, and watched him leave.

The tall and indifferent figure in the memory suddenly brought out some vicissitudes, which is the self-sufficiency that has gone through the ups and downs of the officialdom.

He remembered that Uncle Min said that a man loves his mother very much.Gu Chen had never doubted this point, and even during the years he grew up, he already understood his mother's resolute and painful giving up when he first met this man.It's not that I don't love, but that I can't love, and I don't want to ruin him, so I have no choice but to not love.

He looked at the scenery passing by outside the bus, and suddenly thought of that man's eyes, which were as quiet, as thin, and as lonely as the man's.

It doesn't matter if you are in a high position, you can only watch the woman you love leave.

So what if he has a lot of money, he doesn't even have the rights and choices of his lover.

I can't tell what kind of feeling it is, sad or relieved, or nostalgic.

Gu Chen didn't understand it carefully.However, when that figure flashed in his eyes, no one knew that his eyes would be so gentle.

He foresaw his ending, but he never thought that he would be the protagonist of this story.