Jinnian

In the melodious spring dream of the world, in the loneliness and sorrow of time.

I advise you to use up all the banquet and wine for a while, and it will be difficult to reunite for a thousand miles away.

Without him, the story moves forward like a quick button.And what I'm going to tell you about is their time.

With the end of the college entrance examination, a group of young and frivolous children finally bid farewell to their "age of youth".Those days of suffering in the sea of ​​questions, those ridiculous teenage years, and those childish confessions of not wanting to do it again, all drifted into the dust called "past" with the high bell of the examination room.

They gathered, toasted to the good memories of the past, and sang for the new journey in the future.In the KTV with neon shadows on the temples, the smiling faces of youth gradually become beautiful souvenirs that have never faded over the years.Cheng Kai's song "Unintentional Sleep" ignited the excitement that night.Gu Chen never knew that he could sing Cantonese songs so well!

"Through the old days, I miss you yesterday, and the night is full of the past. If you can meet tomorrow, let me regain the warmth in my arms..."

Gu Chen stared at the unscrupulous person on the stage, a mist slowly formed in his eyes.It's such a cheerful song, but I don't know why it's emotional.

The more the song sang, the more popular the atmosphere in the room became. Everyone began to applaud along with the beat, and the people on the stage even posed their bodies. That kind of arrogant and unrestrained smile made the night a little hotter.

Gu Chen got up and went outside to take a breath, but unexpectedly saw the figures of Xu Cheng and Lin Zijin, he didn't stay long, turned and walked in another direction.

The breakup with Lin Zijin was after that incident, no matter whether he was forced that day or not, they couldn't be together anymore.Love may never be as simple as we think. In addition to love or not, there is also the question of whether you can love.Gu Chen couldn't tell the girl what he felt in his heart, what he could do was to protect her right not to regret it in the future.

The cool wind blowing from the window relieved some of the heat from the body. Looking out from this narrow window, there is a dark and unclear world outside, and there is even a bit of the sudden and deformed discomfort under the fisheye lens. feel.Gu Chen watched quietly, then remembered that person.

It had been a year since he had been seen, or not since that incident.

Such an arrogant person, even if he did something wrong, it seems to be a matter of course, he can disappear completely, without even an apology!Thinking of this, Gu Chen's fists were clenched suddenly, and his heart seemed to be tightly clenched by something!

In the first year of high school, no matter how tired he was, whenever he thought of this incident, he felt so desperate in his heart, and he didn't know why!Gu Chen suddenly thought sadly: That person should go abroad now!At the fork in life, many students choose to go abroad, and some are recommended to universities, and the separation seems so unexpected.And that person is said to have been preparing to go abroad.

What's ridiculous is that even though there were such domineering confessions and intimate offensives before, in the end, I only learned about his traces from other people's rumors.

In the dry and hot air, the colorful neon lights in the distance were so dazzling that it made him cry.

When I returned to the private room, it happened that Xu Cheng was singing, Jacky Cheung's "Blessings", it was no surprise that the usual gentle and meticulous boys sang songs that were just as intoxicating. However, Gu Chen only saw a figure in his eyes.

Sometimes he wondered, if the person he liked wasn't Lin Zijin, then wouldn't he have any interaction with them at all?If Lu Chuxiu hadn't told him about Xucheng's feelings for Lin Zijin, he would never have been able to see it. Even now, almost no one in the class knows about it. He really wants to know that people like them hide their love. Is it that deep?Through every beam of light in the room, Gu Chen couldn't figure it out, how could that person disappear so completely?Let him want to scold and beat him, but he has nowhere to look for it!

After a night of carnival, Gu Chen was drunk for the first time. When everyone dispersed, Lin Zijin came to help him, his head was very confused, but his consciousness was clearer than ever, because he clearly saw Lin Zijin crying, crying and asking him :"Why?"

Gu Chen was very bitter in his heart, he shook his body clumsily to wipe away her tears, and said with a wooden tongue: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

At the graduation ceremony, Lin Zijin gave him a book, Duras's "Lover", which also contained a note: "My heart is solid, what about your love?"

How determined was such a gentle and polite girl to write such bold words to him?Gu Chen smiled wryly, his stomach was churning violently, and he vomited up on the road.He broke free and stumbled away, letting the shouts behind him become fragmented.

When he woke up, Uncle Min's figure was blurred in front of his eyes, and he was still thinking: "Drink so much, what's the matter?" Gu Chen got up and drank some water, and sat on the bed blankly.

"Xiao Chen, after the grades are out, why don't you go back and live for a while?" Yu Min said while tidying up the books on the table.

Gu Chen was dumbfounded for a "hmm", and then suddenly realized: "Go back?"

Of course he knew where Uncle Min said he was going back to. In a small town far away from S City, there lived the remains of his mother and a pair of elderly people who had no blood relationship with him.Those were his grandparents, Gu Weishuang's parents, they even gave him this surname.

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"I don't want to go back." He said lightly.

Gu Weishuang is an adopted child, Gu Chen knows this, and he also knows that his grandparents don't like his mother, so that after Gu Weishuang became pregnant out of wedlock, he completely angered the two old people and severed ties with the family.When Gu Chen was young, he had experienced the power of those two old people.

I forgot how old I was, I just remembered that my mother bought a lot of delicious food and clothes that I was usually reluctant to buy, but when I took him back by train, I was turned away. He felt trembling when he was little, and even today he still remembers the look in his grandmother's eyes when she saw him, she pushed him out of the door as if she saw some disgusting filth, and yelled at Gu Weishuang regardless of his image : "Anything that corrupts the family style dares to be born! Your old lady raised you, a whore, because she was so confused in her previous life! Let you do these shameless things! How can you live comfortably?" Where are you going to live! Don’t stand at the door of my house, people should laugh at my old face when they see it..."

Gu Chen swore that those were the worst words he had ever heard growing up, and what was even more ironic was that they came from his grandmother.It was difficult for him to describe his mother's expression at that time. In Gu Chen's memory, Gu Weishuang had always been a very polite and self-restraining woman. Even though their family was not rich, Gu Weishuang had never done anything vulgar and wanton. His education is even more the style of a modest gentleman who teaches by precept and deed.For someone as calm as her, she was trembling with anger from her grandmother's words that day, and Gu Chen could even clearly see her mother's tensed masseter muscles.

Finally, they left the big and small bags at the door and got up to leave.After walking a few steps, I heard my grandmother throwing all those things out. Gu Chen wanted to stop, but Gu Weishuang pulled him away quickly without looking back.All the memories are as hard and damp as the bluestone road under the feet that day.So far they have never returned to that small town.

Gu Chen never understood why his grandmother hated them so much.until that summer.When mom died.

According to the customs of my hometown, leaves fall and return to their roots.No matter how deep the grievances between parents and children are, the dead are the most important. Gu Weishuang has been wandering and helpless all his life, and is not understood, but Yu Min hopes that her soul can return to her hometown and rest in peace after death.So her ashes were buried in a small town in her hometown.When Gu Chen returned to the door of the house that had been nearly swept out with his mother's remains in his arms, the two old men with livid faces stepped aside without saying a word.

This is the first time he has entered this courtyard.There is a locust tree planted in the courtyard, with huge petals on the branches, which will fall down one after another when the wind blows, which can fascinate people's eyes.Gu Chen stood under the colorful fallen leaves holding the memorial tablet and the urn, quietly listening to the shrill voice of the grandmother inside: "The adoptive daughter is like this, what did we plan! Since ancient times, we have been hired as wives and concubines, but now it's all right, the person is unknown. Bai's gone...whose daughter...is going to be buried in the grave of her ancestors...no name, no division...did all kinds of crimes while she was alive..."

Yu Min explained to the two old men in a gentle voice, and tried his best to take out all his savings for preparations. Gu Chen didn't feel any of this, he just stood there numbly, for an unknown amount of time, when he turned his head, He saw a man with cold eyes and looked at him with disgust.

Only then did he understand where the family's hatred came from.

The mother is someone else's adopted child. The so-called adoption means that my family is too poor and has too many children, so I can only give away the one that is least needed.The Gu family only had one boy, who had been weak since he was a child, and suffered many disasters. The fortune-teller said that it was best to find a "hard-fated" girl to restrain him.And Gu Weishuang became this child by accident.Although she is the daughter of the Gu family in name, she mostly grew up as a servant. The Gu family didn't raise a daughter, at best they found a child bride for their son.

In those days, everyone's life was not particularly easy, but Gu's mother doted on her son, so she could only grit her teeth and save some rations to support her son.As the two children grew up, Gu Weishuang became more dexterous and cute than her peers, and knew her duty very well. Gu's mother was very relieved to see it.But she didn't expect that Gu Weishuang's heart would be so big. The two children went to school together, and her boy was not that material at all. He started working in the factory early, but Gu Weishuang had excellent grades and was always among the best.

When Gu's mother was about to terminate her studies, Gu Weishuang knelt down in front of the elders for the first time and cried and begged to study. It was not easy to send a child to high school at that time, let alone a girl. Gu's mother firmly disagreed. Instead, Gu Qi insisted on letting her read on.

Gu Qi is Gu Weishuang's nominal brother and actual fiancé.Different from Gu Weishuang's cold and precocious personality, Gu Qi is a lively and aggressive boy. Because of the influence of his mother since he was a child, he has been pointing fingers at his unrelated sister, but when he grows up, he is more protective and pity her.Needless to say, the reason is that Gu Qi really likes Gu Weishuang, she likes this smart but beautiful woman from the bottom of her heart.However, all the characteristics of Gu Weishuang determine that she is not a thing in the pool.

The following story is probably a mistake that was too real and beautiful in that era. In short, Gu Weishuang was finally kicked out by the Gu family. Right and wrong, there is no way to tell. She is a woman who does not believe in fate but has been played by fate all her life!

That day was the first time Gu Chen saw his uncle. This man who had almost become his mother's husband, was pale and thin, but there was a strong hostility in his eyebrows and eyes, and he looked at him coldly.It wasn't until he saw the urn in his hand that a fiery flame burst out of his eyes, but he couldn't take it away in the end.Because, that man is here.

All of Gu Weishuang's funeral affairs were handled by this man who Gu Chen had only met once when he was a child, and even Yu Min never showed up. The funeral was held like a wedding, with singing and singing feasts, drinking and drinking, all extravagant and magnificent.Everyone in the town came to watch, and the man didn't mind showing his face in public.In S City, he was the endorser of a powerful and powerful person who overshadowed the sky, but in this small town, he was just an ordinary man who had lost his beloved.

Those women who have nothing to do will say that the son-in-law of the Gu family did it himself!How good-looking a person is, how generous he is...

The two elders of the Gu family didn't say a word from the beginning to the end, only after the man carved the words He's and Gu Weishuang on the tombstone, Gu Qi roared and made a big fuss.

It was a foggy and rainy day, and Gu Chen saw the man standing in front of the tombstone being grabbed by the collar by Gu Qi and punching him fiercely, but he kept silent all the time. There was no sorrow or joy on that face, no injury and no tears. , but Gu Chen saw his hands trembling uncontrollably.

As Gu Weishuang's only famous man, Yu Min never said a word. When Gu Chen asked him, the man only smiled faintly: "I'm not qualified, he is your mother's lifelong dream." Gu Chen looked at Yu Min's head faintly. With white hair, I hate it very much.

I hate my mother's pity, and I also hate the man's hypocrisy.

However, at the end of the funeral, he inadvertently saw the Phalaenopsis placed lightly on the tombstone by the man.

The card read: "I've never loved anyone more than you."