Jinnian

"What's the matter?" Lin Zijin looked at Gu Chen and asked.

The boy hesitated for a moment and said with a flushed face, "I'm sorry to let you see what happened that day, but actually..."

"It's okay, I was overreacting." Lin Zijin cut off his words, and there was no trace of emotion on his fair face.

Gu Chen's heart felt tight, he lowered his head and didn't know what to say for a while.Suddenly Lin Zijin asked: "Are you...really... gay?" After seeing the scene that day, even Lin Zijin, who was so knowledgeable and versatile, was taken aback, and ran away in a loss of manner , Later, when I returned home, I asked my father about it, but my father said it in one sentence: "Oh, homosexuality, China has existed since ancient times, and there are a lot of them in "Dream of Red Mansions"... What books did you read again?"

She quickly changed the subject in embarrassment, but the word homosexuality was deeply ingrained in her mind. If the person she likes is gay... her head is very confused, Lin Zijin dare not think about it at all, even a New Year's Eve He didn't slow down, and he didn't dare to contact Gu Chen because he was worried about gain and loss.

Now, when I asked in person, apart from being apprehensive, I felt a little relieved.

Gu Chen was dumbfounded after hearing this, but when he quickly understood what she was referring to, he quickly said: "No."

Lin Zijin's tense face gradually relaxed, she looked at the boy's blushing face suspiciously and said, "Then why did you..."

Gu Chen was extremely embarrassed, he couldn't say it was because Lu Chuxiu took the initiative, he was frightened for a moment and forgot to resist, so he could only whisper: "It was just a misunderstanding that day!"

"But why didn't you come to me and explain to me sooner?"

When the crux of the problem came, Gu Chen was thinking about it seriously: Why didn't he go to her in time to clarify?Although he was blocked by Lu Chuxiu at the beginning, why didn't he find so many opportunities later?A vague and gradually clear words sounded in my ears: "You don't actually like her that much, you just long for friends." The words of that self-righteous guy seemed to appear sharply and clearly in Gu Chen's mind at a certain moment.The boy was stunned for a moment and quickly dismissed the idea. When he was young, it was difficult for people to distinguish the boundaries between friendship and love. Even now he still feels that he liked that person back then.

So all he could do at the time was to give his truest thoughts.

"I'm afraid you hate me and don't want to talk to me." Gu Chen said seriously.

A sour-sweet feeling rose in Lin Zijin's heart, and she continued, "Then aren't you afraid now?"

All the memories between Lin Zijin and Lin Zijin are beautiful and tender, and the feeling of wanting to keep happiness has become impatient at this moment. He feels that there is a promise in his heart that must be said, otherwise the warm flame will be destroyed. Burning head is not clear.After being nervous for a while, Gu Chen said loudly, "Lin Zijin, I like you.

The air froze as if a bunch of hot fireworks suddenly exploded in the sky. Lin Zijin looked at Gu Chen dumbfounded. She blushed and opened her mouth but didn't know what to say.

Later, it was difficult for her to recall exactly what the two of them said that day. When Gu Chen said those words, she was in a state of extreme nervousness and excitement. She didn't even pay attention to the bell for class. I only know that the most unforgettable thing that day is Gu Chen's smiling face.

When they returned to the classroom, the two of them unexpectedly received unexplained stares and booing from their classmates. Lin Zijin blushed and returned to her seat. Gu Chen also sat down at his desk in a daze. Zhao Lanwei, who was behind him, smiled evilly and shouted, "Hey, are you back from the date?"

"What nonsense!" Gu Chen frowned and glanced at him.

"Hey, the two of you are not here for this class, and the teacher specially reminded: It's not good to fall in love early, and it's even worse to skip class!" Zhao Lanwei said with a smile from behind, and there was an extremely loud whistle by the way.

Gu Chen's face turned red all of a sudden, he opened the book and didn't say a word, he forgot the time when he was talking to Lin Zijin just now, the administration building was far away from the teaching building and he didn't hear the class bell.

"Tell me, how long have you two been secretly hiding Chen Cang? How did you catch up with such a talented woman with your little arms and legs? Tell your buddies quickly!" Zhao Lanwei said even more brazenly.

Cheng Kai squinted at him from the side, and Gu Chen was so embarrassed that he didn't know where to go, so he took out all the trash on the table and said, "I'm going to take out the trash." Then he ran away.

As soon as he stood up and walked towards the back door, when he turned his head and met a cold stare and a cold and sharp face, Gu Chen felt a little flustered for no reason, but quickly turned his head and ran to the bathroom.

And in the following period of time, whenever he and Lin Zijin got together, many students would make a fuss. At first, the two of them were a little embarrassed, but as time passed, they gradually got used to this kind of silly joke. Anyway, they said is also true.

In the gradually bustling study and life, Gu Chen found that there was a person whose attitude towards him was so indifferent that he couldn't imagine it. After that day's eye contact, Gu Chen turned a blind eye to Lu Chuxiu every time he greeted the other party, and walked away indifferently.Different from the previous arrogance and indifference, Gu Chen saw disgust and sarcasm in his eyes for the first time. He thought that although the two of them were not really friends last year, they were nodding acquaintances at least. The help and care given to Gu Chen has always been grateful and contradictory, but now it seems that it is nothing, he may just be a dispensable role, if Lu Chuxiu is pleasing to the eye, he will Take the initiative to approach him, and if you hate him, you will immediately express your disgust, and you will never be given the right to question and doubt.

Such an arrogant person, how can you expect anything from him?

Gu Chen thought, well, they are not suitable people to get along with!Lu Chuxiu's original goal was not to be friends with him, and he couldn't possibly be gay.As for the other party hating him now, it is also reasonable, so why bother thinking about it!

只是忽然想起新年下那个简短的电话时，他心里还是感到一阵难以言喻的失落。

The days passed slowly with the sound of books and the ignorant sweetness of first love, and Gu Chen's life gradually returned to the normal track. Of course, except for the astronomical mathematics that made him quite irritable.

Unexpectedly, Cheng Kai's mathematics is quite good, and this "good" is only limited to one of his whim to attend a class. This boy's reaction to numbers is as quick as his sense of ancient poetry, but it's a pity The man never listened carefully.

Once when the two were discussing a problem, Gu Chen asked Cheng Kai: "Since you don't want to go to school, why don't you do something you are interested in?"

Cheng Kai snorted: "What are you interested in?"

Gu Chen looked at him in confusion, and the boy continued: "No one cares at all!"

Perhaps Cheng Kai's expression was too arrogant and disdainful, but Gu Chen actually saw a gloomy sadness on that dandy-looking face, and the flash of loneliness in the boy's eyes reminded him of someone in the quiet corridor that night cold voice.

It turned out that he was the one who couldn't understand and thought he was right.

When Cheng Kai saw the puzzlement and sympathy in Gu Chen's eyes, he rubbed the boy's black hair vigorously, and sighed: "When I was in junior high school, I liked assembling mechanical toys or drawing physical circuit diagrams. Every time my dad sees it, he will sneer and sneer! I always thought that I could choose science to study hard when I was in high school, but my dad insisted on the above, saying that I would prepare for studying business in college. When I chose arts and sciences, I secretly reported science. I saw it too! So, hobbies or something, people like us are simply luxuries!"

The first time Cheng Kai spoke to him in a serious and peaceful tone, Gu Chen couldn't accept this kind of sincerity similar to "confiding" for a while, and wanted to comfort him but didn't know what to say.I had no choice but to pat him on the shoulder in the usual way of boys: "It's amazing to be a businessman!"

Cheng Kai smiled lowly, and said lightly: "I have figured it out a long time ago! God will never let you enjoy more for no reason! He will get back the corresponding price for what you have!" Kuangao: "So there's nothing to be sentimental about, anyway, there are people like Wen Yang! At most, he just gave the name "playboy" a solid name! Do you think everyone is like Lu Chuxiu and Xu Cheng!"

Hearing that name, Gu Chen felt a brief "click" in his heart.

Would such a person also submit to the mercy of fate?Turning around, he thought quietly, compared to Cheng Kai's rebellion and helplessness, Lu Chuxiu and Xu Cheng seemed more willing to accept it, but every time that person's faint words became more three-dimensional and vivid, maybe it wasn't acceptance, It's just seeing through, because I know I have no choice, so I don't make that kind of futile attempt.

Did he have those struggles?

回头的那一瞬间顾尘都不清楚自己为什么要想这么多，或许仅是出于一种本能的好奇，又或者是对那个人的眼睛从来没有过真正的波澜而讶异，总之，不管是因为什么他确实回头了，在熙攘的教室里一眼就看到了那个男孩儿孤傲而从容的脸庞，翻书的手指甚至带着若有似无的冰冷。

No matter how chaotic the surrounding scene was, the inherent nobility and elegance still faintly exuded, but it was the first time that Gu Chen felt a kind of complicated helplessness behind that scene.