beluga island

Shi Yu seemed to understand what he had just done, and the light in his eyes gradually dimmed.

Her lips moved, her shoulders slumped, and she said, "...I'm sorry."

The back of Xia Qijing's neck was in sharp pain, and he was so angry that he wanted to go up and punch him a few more times.

He got dressed and went to open the car door.

The door was still locked and motionless.

Shi Yu unlocked the car door silently.

Xia Qijing got out of the car without hesitation, and the strength to slam the door was also fierce.

If possible, he even wanted to make a few more kicks to that 500 million Bentley.

Back at the villa, I took a shower carefully, poured out all the shower gel, and scrubbed my whole body with a scrub towel until my fair skin became red and tingling, so I stopped. .

The scrubbing is more like a psychological one than a physical one. It is necessary to wash away the stinging pain that was occupied by the bite, and it is best not to even have a memory in the mind.

After washing, my head was dizzy from the heat, my fair skin was flushed pink, and the blood on my mouth also returned a little.

As soon as he opened the door after taking a shower, he saw Shi Yu standing outside the door for an unknown how long.

Hearing the sound, he raised his head numbly and stiffly, and looked at him.

Xia Qijing didn't look sideways, and went back to the room after bypassing him.

Shi Yu subconsciously wanted to pull him: "I..."

"Don't touch me," Xia Qijing said disgustedly, "I don't want to talk to you."

Intellectually, he knew that Shi Yu was affected by pheromones, and he couldn't control his behavior because of his desire.

But emotionally, he couldn't forgive him anyway.

Shi Yu retracted his hand and closed his mouth.

Head drooping, like a big dog that was kicked out of the house by its owner, drooping and drenched in the rain.

Xia Qijing was a little irritable, he didn't want to look at him, so he simply went back to the room.

After thinking about it, he locked the door.

Lie on the bed and wrap yourself tightly in a knitted blanket.

In fact, it wasn't cold, but it seemed to give him a sense of psychological security, making him feel that he was not naked.

He didn't want to think about what happened just now, but the more he forced himself not to think about it, the deeper the memory in his mind became, imprinted layer by layer, and became clearer and clearer in his mind.

Xia Qijing was so angry that he kicked the blanket away.

After all, he lived in the Shi family's villa, the surrounding walls belonged to the Shi family, the blankets, pillows and quilts on the bed were all bought by Shi Yu, and even the shower gel he used for taking a bath just now was all Shi Yu's money. Forgetting Shiyu in the environment is simply a daydream.

Those objects and breaths seemed to remind him of what happened just now.

If Shi Yu was a pure rogue and violated him when he was not prepared, of course he could hate him without any psychological burden, beat him, scold him, even cut off his lower body, and curse him to go to the eighteenth floor of hell.

The problem is that he has to admit that Shi Yu cannot be completely blamed for the accident.

He clearly knew that Shi Yu's physical condition was extremely unstable and that he might enter a period of heat at any time, which was equivalent to a time bomb that could explode at any time, but he still approached him with a fluke mentality.

During the previous hospitalization, Shi Yu realized that he could not control the pheromone, and wanted to keep a distance from him, and took the initiative to stay away from him.

It was he who didn't take it seriously and approached him without knowing what to do, and blamed Shi Yu for his indifference to him.

He also confidently taught Shiyu how to control pheromones, saying that he could teach him how to overcome difficulties.

Looking back now, it is simply textbook self-inflicted.

Therefore, although Xia Qijing was extremely annoyed, he actually felt a little guilty.

If Shi Yu wanted to clear the blame, he could actually point out these loopholes and clarify and defend himself.

But he didn't.

He silently received his two slaps, disgusted looks, and reprimands.

Young master Shi is so grown up, I'm afraid he has never been scolded by someone pointing his nose like this.

But he did bully him.

Biting his glands, and touching his so presumptuously...

Xia Qijing buried his head in the pillow, biting the pillow as if venting his anger.

This kind of aggrieved feeling is the most tormenting, because you can't vent your anger, you can only keep it in your heart, which leads to urgency.

The back of the neck was hot, and the tingling sensation from when Shi Yu bit him remained.

Wherever the body has been touched, there is still the feeling of being rubbed and kneaded.

He has never hoped that the sun will not rise, and tomorrow will not come like he does now.

He couldn't imagine how he would face that person tomorrow.

Xia Qijing was disturbed and insomnia until midnight.

It wasn't until she was exhausted that she finally rolled up the quilt and fell into a deep sleep.

It was past eight o'clock when I woke up the next day.

He didn't want to get up, he lingered on the bed until 09:30, his skeleton was sore from lying down, and he had to get up.

As soon as he opened the door, he saw a person standing in front of the door.

He raised his hand, as if he was about to knock or not, and he didn't know how long he stood there.

Caught off guard when he saw the door open, he showed a surprised expression for a moment.

Xia Qijing's face immediately turned cold.

Shi Yu saw the change in his face, and the smile on his face also disappeared.

Looking at him with lowered eyes, he said cautiously, "You're awake."

Xia Qijing ignored him and went straight down the stairs.

He wanted to go to wash up directly, but when he passed the living room, he was slightly taken aback when he saw a table full of breakfast on the dining table.

Western-style ones include toast, avocado puree, milk, German sausage, grilled wings, vegetable salad...

Chinese style also has soy milk fritters, steamed buns, tofu nao, cold noodles...

Shi Yu followed behind him and said nervously, "Because I didn't know what you wanted to eat, so I bought everything..."

Xia Qijing couldn't be happy at all.

As long as he thinks why Shi Yu is so flattering to him, his anger will suddenly rise.

What is this doing.

Compensation afterwards?

Xia Qijing tried his best to bear it, so he didn't turn the table over.

He went to wash up and planned to go back to school after washing up.

However, Shi Yu stopped him and begged in a low voice: "How about having breakfast first, and do whatever you want after breakfast, or your stomach won't be able to bear it."

Xia Qijing: "Get out of the way, I have class in the morning."

Shi Yu quickly said: "I asked for leave for you in the morning, and the professor said that you don't need to deduct your usual grades, and you can just hand in your homework on time."

Xia Qijing sneered: "This is the most demanding professor in the whole year. The class monitor Shi is really powerful. No matter how difficult the teacher is, he will sell you some face."

Hearing his sarcasm, Shi Yu didn't refute or justify, and didn't even dare to touch him when stopping him, but just stood at the door, blocking the keyhole with his body, like a bluffing door god.

Looking at him quietly.

Xia Qijing suddenly felt bored.

He had already seen that Shi Yu had something to say, so he deliberately blocked him early in the morning.

I was also afraid of making him angry, so I meandered and found all kinds of reasons and excuses, and dared not speak out directly.

Xia Qijing sat back at the dining table, scooped up the custard with a spoon, and said coolly, "If you have anything to say, just say it. I can still gag you."

Shi Yu hesitated for a moment. At first, he seemed to want to sit on his left, but he was afraid that he would have a seizure, so he thought about it, and sat down opposite him.

"I want to… apologize to you."

Xia Qijing stuffed custard into his mouth without even raising his eyes.

Shi Yu: "I lost control last night and did something very irreparable. I have no opinion on how you want to punish me. But I have a sentence that I must say. I have been thinking about this sentence all night. I think , If I don't speak out, I may regret it for the rest of my life."

Shi Yu's voice was so weirdly tense that Xia Qijing looked up at him.

Xia Qijing quickly lowered his head again without saying a word, as if he didn't hear anything.

Shi Yu hesitated for a moment, then said in a low voice: "Last night, I was not purely impulsive, I didn't just want to vent... I said something, but you didn't seem to hear it at the time."

Xia Qijing vaguely remembered that he seemed to have said something before losing his mind.

But because he couldn't speak clearly and his voice was low, he didn't understand a word.

Shi Yu was so nervous that his voice trembled a little:

"What I said at the time was that my mother told me that the feeling of liking someone is happiness, every second of being with the other person is happiness; liking is also pain, and all pain is caused by that person.

I don't know what it feels like, but I once felt very lucky, because liking people will make people feel embarrassed, embarrassed, worry about gains and losses, and become not like themselves... I don't want to be like that.

Later I found out that it was uncontrollable, uncontrollable like pheromones.

Losing control can actually bring people an unprecedented happiness... Losing control is evil, and should be curbed and strangled in the cradle, but unexpectedly, I began to like sin. "

Xia Qijing slowly raised his head.

Shi Yu took a deep breath: "So I want to tell you... my crime is you."

"I told you once that I can't control myself when I'm near you, but it's not all about pheromones.

Even when the pheromones are not erupting, my heart is beating for you all the time, beating out of control.

I have to force myself to stay away from you, like controlling mathematics, physics and chemistry problems for more than 20 years, precisely calculate the trajectory, and then go around accurately.

But this time I can't do it.

Even if the calculation is clear, I can't do it.

All I can do is control myself while my sanity is still there, but once the pheromones explode like last night, I become a complete idiot. "

He whispered, "You see how stupid I am, don't you?"

Xia Qijing didn't answer immediately.

He finished the cup of clam custard quietly, then put down the spoon.

"anything else?"

"And?" Shi Yu thought for a while in confusion, then stammered, "Also, in order to prevent similar mistakes in the future, I have already bought suppression capsules and self-use sedatives. Sedate yourself, and you don't have to worry about me hurting you again...if, if you still want to live here."

There was a slight tremor at the end of the sentence, like a pleading, like a retention.

Xia Qijing stared at the rim of the spoon, where there was a crumbling drop of butter.

It's like being on a cliff, one step forward is the abyss.

The sedative, he thought, doesn't he know how bad this thing is for the body?

The doctor advised not to even take the capsules, and now he has to inject himself with a sedative.

Does he know that if you accidentally inject too much of this thing, it will kill you.

"So, what are your thoughts," Shi Yu said eagerly, "Do you have anything to say?"

Xia Qijing slowly raised his eyes: "I want to say something, I want to say - remember what was written in the contract."

Shi Yu's face seemed to freeze suddenly.

"During the contract, the two parties should not develop feelings beyond the cooperative relationship, and should not cause trouble to the other party, and should not pester the other party after the contract ends," Xia Qijing repeated word by word, "That's right, that's right."