if you are still there

When they met for the first time, Ding Xu went with his father. He saw the sharp-eyed boy through the bars. Those days around him left a deep impression on him.

In that year, his parents were dismissed and investigated. Decades of imprisonment made the two of them grow old overnight. Ding, who was far away in the north, had his reputation ruined all his life, and he retired under guilt. And finally.

His life plans were all disrupted, and his mother's cursing and madness made him almost unable to support... Besides, what he got was a letter of withdrawal from the school with righteous words.

When dealing with a dog in the water, people can't help but beat them hard again, as if this is the only way to get rid of their usual grievances.The sharp words and messy fists taught Ding Xu to protect himself, at least, when he fights again, he must first protect the neck above...

But no matter what, people have to live.

He took the train for more than 40 hours to go to the north by himself. He is no longer a proud man, not even an ordinary person.

He seemed to be floating in mid-air looking at his past self, seeing the embarrassed and straightened self walking on the train, approaching the dark aisle, and also seeing the man on his shoulders. Travel bags, and the people who passed by me...

The sounds on the train were chaotic, but all the sounds seemed to pass through a layer of water. Ding Xu couldn't hear a word clearly. He just felt that he was tightly grabbed by that guy with his bag and hugged in his arms. arms.

That person hugged him very tightly, his chest was as hot as a stove, and he refused to let go from the moment he caught him.

As if affected by the dream, Ding Xu frowned impatiently and pulled at the collar on his chest. He felt stuffy and could hardly breathe.

Someone was talking next to my ear, "...yes, I suddenly had a high fever in the middle of the night...emergency department...injection..."

Ding Xu hugged that person, he felt uncomfortable, but he couldn't yell out other than his name, "Xiao Liangwen..." The arms holding him tightened a little, and a deep voice rang softly in his ears, " Ding Xu?"

Ding Xu?The person in the dream also called him that way, and handed him a wallet behind him, with the bristly hair still standing up, looking at it, it must be hard and prickly.The black boy stuffed the wallet into his hand, together with the ID card that had fallen out.The usual tricks on the train are the most unpredictable.

Ding Xu wanted to take back the hand holding the wallet, and wanted to say thank you, but he couldn't break free from his palm no matter what.The black boy leaned over and squeezed him into the corner. The train entered the tunnel in an instant, the surrounding was so dark that he could not see his expression, and the rumbling sound of the train moving was heard in his ears——

Ding Xu.

The deep voice called him like this, and the breath surrounded his ears and even his surroundings tightly, preventing him from escaping.

……I want you!

The roar of the train as it drove out of the tunnel suddenly sounded, the lights on the side of the road flashed, and the light and shadow fell on the face of the person who surrounded himself with his arms.I don't know why Xiao Liangwen's face is already the appearance of an adult, with a burly head and hard prickly hair, his face looks a bit harsh.He suddenly smiled, and there was rare gentleness in his beast-like eyes.

Who told you to entangle me again and again?let's be together!

The man announced.Ding Xu was angry and kicked him with all his strength, he was already in such a miserable state, he had nothing left, why!Why humiliate him like this? !His home, his future, his studies, his relatives... are all gone, why not let him go?

In an instant, numerous memories flooded in. Ding Xu's brain ached from being stuffed with those things, and many shames he had forgotten reappeared, making him go through the ordeal again, and he couldn't cry.Even if his parents committed suicide in prison, his grandfather died of illness, even if he was kicked out of the house penniless and living alone...he survived, he kept his promise to himself, and must live a better life than others Promising!More backbone! !

But, Xiao Liangwen, why you?

Why do you keep appearing in my life?From City X to the far and cold north, why did I meet you?Meeting again and again, casually, inadvertently, and later entangled to death, Xiao Liangwen, why do you want to destroy my life?It's hard for me, it's hard for me to live a normal life...

"Ding Xu, don't be sad..." The voice next to his ear was still talking, and he tried to kiss his eyes cautiously.

The tears did not stop with the kiss, but flowed more fiercely.asshole!How do you know I'm sad?Why do you say I'm sad? !

Sick people whimpered, bit their lips, and made tiny noises.

The figure next to him froze for a moment, then bent down to kiss the bitten white lips, and couldn't bear to lick it, bleeding.As if feeling the softness of the tip of the tongue, the sickly man subconsciously opened his mouth and entangled with it...

The scene in the dream changed again. He seemed to be arguing fiercely with Xiao Liangwen while sitting on the co-pilot. The snow outside was heavy, and the wipers kept swinging, but he could only see a little distance ahead.

Xiao Liangwen's expression was also not very good, and he said something in a low voice, which made him fly into a rage, and he stretched out his hand to unbuckle his seat belt. Xiao Liangwen held the steering wheel with one hand, and wanted to grab him with the other hand. The sudden glare of the searchlights caught the two people in the car off guard.The only reaction Ding Xu can make is to subconsciously jump in front of Xiao Liangwen and block him...

It seemed like a long time later, he could see himself floating in mid-air, looking at the people lying on the hospital bed and the tall man beside him.The man tightly held the hands filled with various types of needles. Those hands had lost a lot of weight, and they could even be said to be skinny.

Ding Xu looked at the pale self, if it wasn't for the weak breathing, maybe he would disappear, he thought unconsciously in his mind.Lying on the hospital bed for three months without opening his eyes, he was still unable to make even subtle reactions, and now he could no longer absorb nutrients. He could only weaken day by day, and was about to die.

The tall man rubbed the back of his weakly hanging hand on his face, as if he was whispering to his lover: Ding Xu, how could they treat you like this?You don't like being underestimated and taken care of by others, and you don't like being manipulated by others to die without dignity like this, right?

Ding Xu floated in the air and looked at him quietly, watching the man kiss gently, then being rough, tearing off the thin hospital gown, leaving a mark on the pale chest, wishing to have rough sex like rubbing into the flesh and blood, Like a beast.

Ding Xu, are you coming back alive?I will avenge you, even if I kill them all...

Even though his lower body was making rough movements, the man spoke very softly, as if he was afraid of scaring him.

You don't like me fighting, you don't like me using guns, but I have done both, what should I do?If you don't wake up again, I will kill someone... Do you want to watch me go to jail and ignore me?

Bleeding, people who usually frown and cry for pain just because of redness and swelling, this time they didn't even move their eyelids obviously.

Ding Xu, I will not let you suffer like this again.

As the man said so, he cut off the thin tubes connected to the backs of his arms with one hand, and the transparent liquid flowed all over the floor, and finally the shackles as thin as spider silk were released.

The dream after that was like living his life again, he was powerless to change his parents, only himself and Xiao Liangwen he brought back from that place could be changed.

Still wearing a burr head and a pirated backpack, staring into his own eyes.

If he walked into Xiao Liangwen's territory unintentionally in his previous life, then this time, he chose to be the active one.

Whether it is him or Xiao Liangwen, they all start over.He won't go to school, and Xiao Liangwen doesn't have to use his fists to fight his whole life. Maybe he can only change part of the trajectory, but he is willing to work hard.Even if it only changed Xiao Liangwen's life.

Let's live together in peace, shall we?

Must answer 'yes' because—

I died because of you, you owe me this, so Xiao Liangwen, you should love me more...

Xiao Liangwen...

"Xiao Liangwen?" The person who just woke up in the early morning shouted something in a low voice, and the black boy lying next to him immediately sat up and leaned closer to listen to him, "Drink water..."

After a while, a glass of warm water was carefully handed over, and the half-full paper cup approached his mouth, "Ding Xu, water." It seemed that he felt that it was very difficult for him to drink water while lying on the bed. Water came up.

Feeding him the sweet water made Ding Xu's throat feel better.

Xiao Liangwen reluctantly left, then took another sip of water, Ding Xu frowned, he felt something was wrong.After feeding the water, the tongue refused to leave easily, trying to get entangled with the soft one in the mouth, tried to hide twice, the man immediately rolled up excitedly and licked it vigorously, as if treating food, slightly tearing bite.

Ding Xu felt pain, he was sick and had no strength, but it didn't mean that he didn't even have the strength to bite, so he took the right time and bit the unsatisfied invader hard!

"Well--!!"

Xiao Liangwen raised his head, his brows were wrinkled, and his speech was a little nervous, "I'm afraid that the water will be spilled, really, let me give you some water..." He carefully observed Ding Xu's reaction, not knowing if he just woke up She still didn't reject him, and didn't make a disgusted look. She felt relieved for a while, then glanced at him again, and said in a low voice, "It hurts."

Ding Xu was also sobered by his torment, and glared at him bitterly, "It deserves it!" Pointing to the empty hospital bed opposite, staring at the person who tried to hide the past, "Go over there, stay away from me! "

Xiao Liangwen passed away obediently, sitting on the opposite hospital bed, still looking at Ding Xu.He thinks Ding Xu looks good even when he is angry, no, he looks good at any time, except when he was too sick to respond to him just now, which made him feel flustered.

"Ding Xu?"

"Ok?"

"Don't be sick anymore."

"Fool."

The author has something to say:

Xiao Liangwen: Ding Xu, can I kiss you?

Ding Xu: ...don't ask after kissing! !