half life slave

After an unknown amount of time, someone seemed to be whispering in his ear, and it seemed as if cold fingertips brushed his face lightly.

When Rong Yu opened his eyes, he still couldn't remember where he was. The furniture and tables and chairs in his sight made him feel strange. It wasn't until he saw the tender and affectionate eyes above that he suddenly remembered that what happened here before he fell asleep. thing.

Immediately turning over and sitting up, he looked out the window, it was already the moon rising on the branches, and the twilight was coming together, thinking that the palace gate should have been locked.It seemed that he couldn't go back today, and in a burst of intense dizziness, he began to think hard again - how to explain to Shen Hui tomorrow morning the reason why he didn't return for no reason.

"Where's Ah Sheng?" He asked, rubbing his temples.

Fang Yu smiled, and his tone was still unhurried, "He has returned to the palace. Don't worry, my lord, Ah Sheng will explain it to the emperor for you."

She paused, then smiled softly and said, "You are not feeling well, you almost fainted just now...Fortunately, you are at home right now."

Rong and stood up subconsciously, he was so light-headed that he couldn't stand still, so he first supported the edge of the bed and took a breath for a while.However, after this series of actions, he could clearly see that the official uniform on his body had been taken off, leaving only the moon-white mid laner.

With a bang in his head, he frowned and stared at her and asked, "Why did you do this?"

Fang Yu looked back calmly and chuckled a few times, "Don't you understand? I just want to keep you, even if it's just for one night, just stay with me."

Her thoughts were very clear, and Rong Yu was full of resentment—she had dropped the medicine in the tea, so she must have prepared the sleeping medicine long ago. Could it be that she has been waiting for this day all this time?Or, she had colluded with Lin Sheng long ago to plot against him like this?He shook his head, no, at least Lin Sheng would not treat him like this.

He asked doubts in his heart, "You prepared the medicine, just to take it for me when I came to see you, didn't you?"

She frowned, squeezed out a bleak smile, nodded first, then shook her head, "Yes! No, I take this medicine myself on weekdays. Do you know, my lord, I can't sleep all day long... I don’t know how many nights I have counted the stars and played the pipa to survive. I played and sang the tunes I know one by one... I really don’t know, so I know so many. After singing, the sky is bright. I don’t have to worry about how to spend a sleepless night.”

His tone was filled with anger and resentment, which indeed calmed his anger a little bit. He was still dizzy even after standing, so he sat down again and said as gently as possible, "You feel lonely and think that I don't care enough for you to make you feel lonely. You feel warm. But I can only do this. I am not your lover, I never thought of it before, and I will never have this possibility in the future."

"My beloved?" She suddenly covered her mouth with a smile, "My lord knows, what kind of beloved do I want?"

He shook his head, "No matter what kind of person you want, that person will not be me. You are still young, you met each other by chance, maybe you think that I am different from what you imagined, from the eunuchs you heard , I had a good impression of me for a while. But it was just an illusion. I can't and can't give a woman happiness, and it's unwise to waste my feelings on a person like me."

She listened calmly, as if she was not surprised that he would say this, and smiled shyly for a while, "You are not me, so naturally you won't understand what I think." She stared straight at him, with the corners of her mouth slightly raised, "Are you What about eunuchs? I don't care!"

Embarrassed by this, he turned his head and looked away.It's a pity that the attitude of evasion inspired the courage of the other party to catch up with the victory, "I really don't care. Why do you think so much? How many people are like you, don't they still marry wives and concubines and recognize sons, weddings and candles, nothing is left behind .It’s okay for others, but you can’t?”

She walked up to him, raised her hand, and gently stroked his face, "You are so much better than them, why can't you forget your identity and insist on suffering like this?"

He turned his face away to avoid her touch, but felt that his throat was dry, "I can't talk about self-suffering, I never thought about these things, and I don't want you to hate me in the future."

"Then marry me to someone else, and I won't hate you?" She sat down next to him, turned her head to catch up with his eyes, "I said I don't care. Big deal, there are so many in this world... sex tool..."

That's it again!He stood up suddenly, his face felt as if he had received two crisp and sharp slaps, which were hot and stinging like burning.Unable to continue this topic, he grabbed the clothes on the shelf, put them on in a hurry, took a deep breath and walked quickly outside the house.

The sound of small footsteps came from behind, eager and anxious.Before he could look back, her waist was already tightened, and her arms were tightly wrapped around her like two vines, her cheek was pressed against his back.

The skin on her body tensed instantly, and through the thin clothes, the warm moisture on her face soaked and spread little by little.The slender fingers moved around the waist, and every inch of skin she brushed felt as if it had been scorched by fire, full of pain and trembling.

"My lord, your body is alive... I just touched and felt it, they are not what you think..." Her voice was soft, as if she was talking in a dream.

Really, it's been a long time since he was touched by anyone, so his body still needs to be caressed!Perhaps because such an experience is too far away and strange, those instinctive reactions are suddenly aroused.

It's just a pity that it didn't bring him the slightest pleasure.

Turning around, he grabbed her arms and faced the scar on his heart, "No, you haven't seen it. It's not beautiful at all, but very ugly."

Looking into her bewildered eyes, he continued calmly, "If you really have that little affection and respect for me, please forget what happened tonight, and don't do similar things in the future. Just treat it as , Give each other a bit of dignity."

Before she could reply, he let go of her hand and stepped out of the room.It was warm and cold outside, and the clear air made people clear-headed. Taking a long, deep breath could calm the turbulent emotions in the chest.

It seemed that tonight would be another sleepless night. He stood in the yard, looking up at the brilliant starry sky.Although the night is flowing, the people who live in this small courtyard have no chance to appreciate the beautiful spring scenery.

For Fang Yu, maybe he has been wrong all along. Girls in this era seem to have no other way out if they don't get married.But since he has taken her in, in his lifetime, as long as he lives, he can still support her well and provide her with good food, clothing, housing and transportation.Based on her background experience, it would be a big gamble if she wanted to calmly choose a son-in-law.

Where is there such an infatuated person in this world, but there are many Yukiro who sees people with colored glasses.

He can understand her worries. Marriage may not be the best way out, and having property as a guarantee of freedom may be the best destination for her in this life.

After thinking it over clearly, he knew that he would not force Fang Yu anymore, and of course he hoped that she would stop forcing himself.Slowly walking to the wing room to rest, I was only silently counting the time in my heart, hoping that it would pass faster tonight, so that he could leave this house that had made him ashamed and embarrassing several times as soon as possible.

Before the fourth watch, he had finished washing in a hurry, got on his horse and galloped towards the Meridian Gate, deliberately choosing to arrive before the courtiers entered the palace, but in the end, at the right gate downstairs of Wufeng Building, he met Zhao Xun, the censor of the capital. .

Since Zhao Xun met him by chance on the long street three years ago, after Zhao Xun refused his visit, Zhao Xun never pretended to him when he was in a court meeting or meeting the emperor, and always pretended that he had never seen him before.

Rong Yu rode his horse up to him, he didn't have the slightest intention of looking back, and faced him head-on, Rong Yu still got off his horse, bowed to him, and raised his hand to ask him to go first.

Zhao Xun seemed to have never seen him, and stood with his arms outstretched.

The attitude of turning a blind eye is still the same as three years ago, with a smile, Yili cupped his hands at him, "Ms. Lin is impolite, let's go first." After speaking, he led the horse and prepared to pass by quickly.

"My lord," he said suddenly, Rong Yu turned his head quickly, his eyes met, his eyes were cold, and he said proudly, "You had a private meeting yesterday? Is there such a thing?"

Rong Yu smiled, "Your Excellency is serious. Lin passed by the Gongyuan, and came across a group of disciples interrogating Ying Tianfu to explain Yuan Xu Zi's answer. He stopped to listen because he was curious. Why would he have a private meeting to talk about it?"

Zhao Xun glanced at him lightly, "Master Gaocai, I heard that you easily answered the question that stumped everyone. This matter made everyone feel ashamed, and even the Confucian scholars in the Imperial Academy were shocked. I don't care." Answer, are you listening curiously, or are you calmly showing off your knowledge? If it is the latter, your goal has already been achieved, and everyone in the court now knows that your love of learning is stronger than that of a court tribute!"

It's only been half a day, and the news spread so quickly, it can be seen that his every move now attracts a lot of attention from the government and the public.

Rong Yu shook his head with a smile, "Your Excellency, you are absurd. The so-called good reading is not as good as the clever reading. Lin just happened to browse through the collection of meditation a few days ago, and saw the story of retreating from fasting, so he made a wrong answer. It is not Lin How good learning is, it just takes up the word coincidence."

Zhao Xun was noncommittal, and sneered slightly, "Yesterday, when people in the procuratorate and the old man discussed this matter, some people were greatly surprised. They were astonished that a waiter had such knowledge. Du old man was not surprised. Does the factory owner want to know? Why?"

Knowing that he would sarcastically say something, Rong Yu still smiled and nodded, "I wish to hear your lord's opinion."

Leaning at him, Zhao Xun said slowly, "The old man thinks that the factory owner knows Xu Heng so well because you and him are of the same kind. They are both people who advance by retreating, and act rebelliously when they are courteous."

After saying that, he raised his head arrogantly, and refused to look at her face again.Seeing that he had nothing else to say, Rong Yu bowed to him, turned around and led the horse across the palace gate.

After the court meeting, Shen Hui also mentioned this matter intentionally or unintentionally.He laughed and said, "You became famous in the first battle, and now all the officials are talking about your ability to learn well, and you are better than the world's scholars. Even Qin Taiyue praised you, saying that such a good knowledge, it is a pity to only be a servant .”

Rong Yuying said, "Master Shoufu is just being polite, I just happened to know about it."

"It's a pity that he didn't really praise you." Shen Hui shot him a sideways glance, "Qin Taiyue just reminded me that you are just a courtier. I want you to be more vigilant, after all, I can't reuse you too much, let alone let you go."

Rong He smiled lightly, "As a cabinet minister, it is indeed his duty to remind the monarch to be careful of the people around him, so as to prevent villains from gaining power."

"I heard that you also said a few words for Feng Min, maintaining his image in front of Ju Zi? Have you talked with Xu Ziwei again?"

Rong Yu said yes, "Master Feng was originally a victim, and the reason behind it was that the chief assistant department took this opportunity to overthrow him. In the future, the position of the chief examiner of the Ministry of Rites may be occupied by the chief assistant department as well." And Xu Ziwei was implicated innocently. Although he is arrogant and easy to be hated by others, he should not suffer the tragic end of his hopeless official career. I remembered that I was able to visit Xiao Zhengzhong when I was introduced by him in Suzhou that day. So I talked to him a few words because of the old friend's feelings."

Shen Hui nodded, with concern in his words, "Forget it, I know you are not fair for them. However, if these things fall into the eyes of others, it will only make people feel that you sympathize with the two of them. I am afraid that you will find another opportunity to give you Find trouble."

Rong Yu smiled, but he was thinking about another troublesome matter in his heart, and asked earnestly, "Now that Mr. Feng has passed away, considering his past achievements in selecting talents for the court, can the emperor give him a special honor with grace? Heart. It can also be regarded as Mr. Feng, earning a place in the hearts of scholars all over the world."

"I just said that I want you to beware of them looking for excuses to rectify, and you are here again." Shen Hui smiled slightly, looking at his eyes with some helplessness, "Forget it, I will posthumously give him the post of secretary of the Ministry of Rites. Just let the starter guess Guess what's on my mind."

Feeling relieved, Rong Yudun hurriedly bowed to him to thank him. This ceremony was only a sincere thank you for Feng Min who passed away.

Shen Hui looked at him jokingly, and asked with a smile, "I see that you are in good spirits today, why did you get sick yesterday? Could it be that the Taoist priest from Baiyun Temple bumped into you? Ah Sheng also said it was unfavorable when he came back. I only know that you almost fainted, but I don't know when did you become so weak?"

Thinking of what happened last night, Rong and lowered his eyes, he still felt somewhat embarrassed, he really didn't want to continue this topic, but he couldn't keep silent, he just said, "Maybe it's because of the wind the day before yesterday, it's not a problem. The minister is really not that weak, That's why it's better soon. Isn't it the same as usual when the emperor sees his ministers today?"

Shen Hui nodded lightly, and looked at him carefully, until he was a little embarrassed.After half a day, Fangcai frowned thoughtfully, and said meaningfully, "That's the result of someone taking good care of you. Let me just say, you came back when you were sick, and he was always by your side every step of the way. Why did you leave the sick you behind all of a sudden. Think about it again, isn't that true, there are people in that house who can serve you. "

Lowering his eyes, Rong Yu smiled shyly.Shen Hui looked at him silently, suddenly an inexplicable annoyance welled up in his heart, he should stop at the probing words, he has no position to interfere in the private affairs of his subjects.But I just feel uncomfortable in my heart, I want to ask about everything, I want to know how much he, Lin Rongyu, has nostalgia for that firework girl.

It's really absurd to think about it carefully, he minds his secret thoughts and emotions, but what about himself?One wife and two concubines, full of beautiful flowers, why should you ask a lonely and helpless person to dedicate his whole body and mind without reservation?

"If you don't feel well in the future, come back earlier." Shen Hui licked his lips, his voice muffled, "There are so many imperial doctors in the palace, are you afraid that you can't take care of your body? You are by my side, and I will help you." Take good care of you as best you can."

Rong Yu was stunned for a moment, and then he said yes, but he couldn't think of anything else, and Shen Hui didn't say anything else, and each of them fell into silence for a while.

After returning to the room, he took out the picture of Ban Ji's fan left by Xu Ziwei, Rong Yu looked at it for a long time, but finally resisted the urge to give it to Shen Hui.

It's just that I still have some hesitation to hang it in the room, or to put it on the shelf from then on.In the end, he decided to choose the former, because since then, this old friend's old work has been hanging in his room for many years.

Perhaps from that time on, he already knew in his heart that troubles for him would never stop.Rather than being cautious and struggling to survive, it would be more enjoyable to have a clear heart.