Sound of Rebirth

Facts have proved that Shen Yanru's state is not accidental.

Because until An knew it was too late and told her to go upstairs to sleep, Shen Yanru was not in a high mood.

Obviously, she didn't find the erratic inspiration, let alone write half a note, and the process of creating new works was long and difficult.

Fearing that An would know and worry, Shen Yanru did follow her upstairs to wash and sleep, but she pretended to be something, how could she not be able to fall asleep?

In fact, for an industry that relies on inspiration for a living, staying up late is a normal state. After all, sometimes you can’t find inspiration, and you can only spend more time.And sometimes I found inspiration and didn't have enough time, so I had to work overtime.

But Shen Yanru has never stayed up all night since she found An Zhizhi.At first, it was because An Zhixiao was a high school student and needed a regular schedule, and if she drove late, it might affect An Zhixiao.

Later, on the one hand, she got used to this kind of routine, and on the other hand, it was also because, with An Zhixiao, Shen Yanru rarely worried about not being able to catch inspiration. To a certain extent, An Zhixiao even became her source of inspiration .

In this case, she naturally didn't need to stay up late to catch up with work.

So Shen Yanru was still a little unaccustomed to such a state suddenly appearing.Although she pretended to be troubled, she actually fell asleep while lying on the bed.It's just that in the middle of the night, he was awakened by a dream for no reason.The contents of the dream are all forgotten, only the feeling of urgency still remains in my heart.

Shen Yanru couldn't fall asleep, tossing and turning unavoidably affected An Zhizhi, so she had to get up and go downstairs in a daze.

She hadn't felt this sense of urgency in a long time.Recently, it seems that everything around me is developing in a good direction, and it goes so smoothly that Shen Yanru almost gets carried away. She really thinks that life has come to this point, and there is no difficulty in the future.

Satisfying this kind of emotion can save people from suffering in many cases, but it can also make people lose their motivation and become one of the mediocre people.

Before today, Shen Yanru even thought that there is nothing wrong with this.

She is an ordinary person, and living an ordinary life complements each other.What's more, she met the person who could keep her company in the world of mortals.

But today, although what happened was only a trivial matter, Shen Yanru finally discovered that it was not the case.

It is impossible for her to be willing to be a mediocre person, because An knows that she is not mediocre. Her path has just begun, and it is time to forge ahead. If she relaxes a little, she may be left behind and will never be able to catch up.

But Shen Yanru hoped that he could always keep pace with An Zhizhi, and even always walk in front of her, and exist as her leader.

That's what she's done from the beginning.She wants to pave a smooth path for An Zhizhi, so that she only needs to walk on it comfortably without worrying about anything else.If you become mediocre, how can you achieve this goal again?

Thinking about it this way, how could Shen Yanru not feel a sense of urgency, urging her to move forward?

However, at the first step forward, she was stopped.

Among surpassing others and breaking through herself, Shen Yanru thinks breaking through herself is the most difficult.There are a lot of people who don't do this in their lives, and even before that she was stagnant for a long time, almost thinking that her path had come to an end.

Although the existence of An Zhizhi can always bring her a lot of inspiration, and even make her make a breakthrough by accident, it is still just the beginning after all, and more time is needed to explore and stabilize it.

At this time, it is really difficult for her to compose a song with a style completely different from her own.

Of course, this is not to say that Shen Yanru cannot write cheerful songs.With her musical literacy, no matter what themes and styles, she can write.But it is only limited to writing. Maybe outsiders can't see the difference, but she knows that those are just superficial things.

That kind of thing can't even be called a "work" at all, let alone show it to An Zhizhi to sing.

When An Zhixiao woke up in the middle of the night, she found that Shen Yanru was not there.She thought she locked herself in the audio-visual room again, but she didn't expect to just sit in the dark living room in a daze.

She thought about it, but didn't turn on the light.It is said that in the dark, sometimes people feel more secure and have more desire/desire to confide.

An Zhixiao stepped up her pace, walked up to Shen Yanru and sat down.

Shen Yanruo came back to his senses, "Xiaoxiao?"

"Sister, what are you doing sitting here without sleeping? Are you thinking about how to write a new song?" An Zhixiao asked.

Perhaps in the dead of night, it is really easy for people to relax their minds. Perhaps the self-reflection just now has paid off. Shen Yanru also realized that it is useless to spend more time relying on her own words. An Zhixiao is the source of her inspiration. , So when An Zhixiao raised this question, she felt very calm in her heart.

"Yes." She nodded and asked An Zhizhi, "What do you think is cheerful and interesting?"

Cheerful and interesting, Shen Yanru knows both words.

But only limited to knowing.She has been a very restrained person emotionally since she was a child. This stems from her family education. Everyone in the family behaved gracefully and restrained, which also affected her.

In Shen Yanru's memory, she never even laughed out loud.Because in her cognition, this kind of behavior is actually somewhat disrespectful.Maybe she doesn't mind others doing it, but she absolutely can't do it herself.

As for the fun, as a person who is serious enough to make people think he is aloof, many times Shen Yanru can't get the point of those popular jokes on the Internet, let alone appreciate them with a relaxed and happy mood.Because she always wants to be serious and analyze this matter in depth, instead of laughing like others and forgetting about it.

So this time, what Shen Yanru wants to break through, strictly speaking, is not his own music style, but his own personality, attitude towards life, and some more subtle things, which may be called the three views.

Subverting yourself is the most difficult part.

Simply look for the answer from An Zhizhi.

For An Zhizhi, this question is too simple, "I think many things will make people happy, but if you want to be happy, you have to be very happy, right?"

"Then when will you be particularly happy?" Shen Yanru asked.

"Of course it's time to play." An Zhixiao said.

When it comes to happiness, of course children are easier to get.Probably because I didn’t think too much and I was very content, “I lived in the village when I was a child, and the adults basically didn’t care about the children. We often went into the mountains together. There are many delicious and interesting things on the mountain. For us at that time Said, like an inexhaustible treasure trove, so I will be very happy every day. Eat and drink enough, play and play, this is the nature and instinct of human beings. Sister, what did you look like when you were a child?"

"I have been receiving systematic elite education since I was three or four years old." Shen Yanru said.

It is conceivable that her childhood was accompanied by various lessons, but there was no so-called play.

An Zhixiao turned her head and looked at her sympathetically. It's so pitiful that she doesn't even have a childhood.It is really difficult for such Shen Yanru to write cheerful songs.

Rolling her eyes, an idea suddenly popped into An Zhixiao's mind, "Sister, let's go out and play tomorrow!"

"Where are you going?" Shen Yanru was puzzled.

"Go to the playground!"

There is a reason why this place is so popular.An Zhixiao feels that with Shen Yanru's personality, it is unrealistic to suddenly ask her to join in a game.So she felt that she had to break something about Shen Yanru first.

And what better way than extreme sports?

In the extreme environment, the human body will be mobilized to the highest level, which itself is a kind of exercise of "breaking through oneself". and a sense of accomplishment.

It will be easier to break through physically first, and then expand to psychological.

Of course, if Shen Yanru doesn't need such a big stimulus, An Zhixiao thinks that for the time being, a roller coaster ride should be enough.As long as Shen Yanru throws off the shell that has been put on her body all the time, and fully devotes herself to the game and play, she will naturally understand what happiness is.

"Why did you suddenly want to go out to play?" Shen Yanru didn't know that An Zhixiao's brain had opened up so far, but when she thought that she might want to take him out to play, she felt a little repulsive in her heart.Because she felt that it was not suitable for her.

However, An Zhixiao's answer was, "We haven't gone out on a date yet, let's go together!"

"A date, going to the playground?" In Shen Yanru's impression, it should be a rather noisy place. Could it be that these are the things that young people like nowadays?

"That's right! Go to the amusement park during the day, then have a candlelight dinner, and then watch a movie. The process is perfect!" An Zhixiao said.

Hearing what she said, the repulsion in Shen Yanru's heart disappeared, and a slight sense of anticipation began to arise.

dating...?

She didn't know how to like someone, and all the previous preparations came from strategies on the Internet.However, most of those things involved things before they were together. As for how lovers should get along with each other, Shen Yanru, who had always thought that she was going to fight a protracted war, obviously hadn't thought of going so far.

But if Ann knew she liked it, "Okay, let's go to the playground."

An Zhixiao showed a smile, made a V in his heart, and then leaned over and hugged Shen Yanru's arm, "So in order to be more energetic tomorrow, go back to bed with me first?"