One thought comes true

"Okay, don't think about it." Lin Chuwan recovered quickly, but her voice was slightly hoarse, "Come to my room."

Mu Muyu nodded, and without looking at the door, followed Lin Chuwan's footsteps into her room.

There was still a photo frame on the desk, and Mu Yu was the same as before. When he came in, he took a look at the photo frame before sitting down on the sofa with Lin Chuwan.

Lin Chuwan poured her a glass of water and asked, "What have you been up to recently? Is there anything I can help with?"

Mu Muyu took a sip from the water glass, shook her head leisurely and said, "Everything is going well at work, senior sister takes good care of me."

Lin Chuwan said with a smile in his eyes, "Isn't there a combination of work and rest?"

"Yes." Mu Muyu put down the water glass, thought for a while and said, "Recently, I probably just read some novels."

In the past few days, whenever she has free time, she will recall clues about Jiang Chenyin's incident, and of course she can't tell Lin Chuwan about this. Other than that, it can be regarded as entertainment, which is to watch Jiang Chenyin's colleagues for a few minutes today. text.

Although this perception is a bit strange...

Lin Chuwan asked curiously, "Read novels? Do you still like to read classical literature as before?"

"No." Mu Muyu shook her head, and said without thinking, "It's Lily's novel."

Lin Chuwan's complexion changed immediately, a little dignified and a little hesitant to speak, even acquaintances were always treated with courtesy, she frowned rarely.

Mu Muyu's expression was normal, without any concealment or unnaturalness, but Lin Chuwan's doubts were even heavier.Because Mu Muyu's heart is not sensitive, it is possible to avoid taboos unexpectedly.

Thinking of this, Lin Chuwan's heart was agitated, and she blurted out: "Xiao Yu, you also like girls?"

"No." Mu Muyu answered quickly, but she didn't notice Lin Chuwan's words until she finished answering. She was so surprised that she turned to Lin Chuwan: "Sister Chuwan, what did you say?"

Surprised, Lin Chuwan slightly raised her hand to cover her lips, and slightly lowered her eyelids to try to hide the panic that quickly appeared in her eyes.She accidentally leaked clues just now in a hurry. After all, it was her own personal experience. Sometimes it is difficult to detect these omissions when emotions come together.

Mu Muyu was still staring at her, she sighed after calming down.

"I didn't expect to let you know by accident today." Lin Chuwan smiled bitterly, which Mu Muyu had never seen before, "You haven't experienced love, that's why I never followed you." You mentioned it. And my relationship is full of mixed feelings, and you probably don't want to hear it. It's not good to be influenced by my experience before you try it. "

Mu Muyu was silent for a long while, and there was concern in her words: "Sister Chuwan, everyone's experience is different. Where a road leads depends on one's thoughts and opinions, not on the twists and turns of the other road. Is not it?"

Lin Chuwan froze for a moment, then nodded and smiled.Why is she confused? Mu Muyu is only insensitive in some aspects, especially focusing on emotions, but this girl is not ignorant, let alone dull.

Thinking of this, Lin Chuwan's desire to confide in her heart grew wildly.

"Yes." She smiled slowly, and then the smile in her eyes dissipated, revealing a sad emotion, "The person I like, she is a girl, we met in college. Her grades are excellent, At the beginning, I had almost no contact with her, because she was always alone, and there was a sword in her eyes, which made people afraid to approach her. Later, the reason why I became interested in her was because I heard many classmates ridiculed her for being an orphan or not. So defiant, and since then, I think I've changed my mind a little bit about her."

Mu Muyu had never heard of this before, and as soon as Lin Chuwan stopped, she asked, "What change?"

Lin Chuwan smiled, took the water glass to hold it, and continued: "I think her refusal is to protect herself, not to stab others. Because she is an orphan, she feels that there is no other concern in the world. She She is alone, so she has to protect herself and keep others from approaching her. Those who intend to hurt her will no longer approach her, and those who want to get acquainted with her will become timid."

Mu Muyu listened quietly. Lin Chuwan's voice was soft and his speech was slow. It sounded like a kind of enjoyment, but the content of the words inexplicably made people feel a little sad.

Lin Chuwan glanced down at the water in the water glass, sighed and said: "After I realized that I paid too much attention to her, instead of restraining myself, I liked to observe her more and more. At the corner at the bottom of her dormitory, she The corner of the library that I like to go to the most, and the corner of the classroom during class, there is no place that I have not been to."

There was some surprise in Mu Muyu's eyes, she never thought that Lin Chuwan, who is beautiful and heart-warming, would have such a past and would pursue someone so passionately.

"Then are you together?" Mu Muyu couldn't help asking.

"How can it be that easy?" Lin Chuwan replied with a smile, "As I said before, she refuses anyone to approach her, including me. Even if I didn't tell her explicitly, I just looked at her silently, I followed her, but she still found out after all. I thought I would be forced away by her sword-like eyes, but she just looked at me indifferently, and finally turned around and left. In the days that followed, she deliberately Avoid me, don't stay under my roof unless you have to."

Mu Muyu asked: "Is she a little special to you?"

Lin Chuwan just smiled, and then continued: "I feel that her attitude towards me is not as repulsive as that of others. Although she doesn't let me approach, she actively avoids occasions where I am around, but when she used to Her style is obviously to keep others away from her, but when it comes to me, it becomes her avoiding me.

After being pampered for a long time, my courage has grown a lot. I am more and more dissatisfied with this little special treatment, and I want to get more.So I started to shorten the distance from her, even appearing directly in front of her within a few steps, or following her, bumping into her when she stopped, pretending not to know, and then pretending to follow her innocently She apologized. "

When she talked about this, her eyes were full of admiration that Mu Muyu had never seen in her eyes.Mu Yu guessed it was admiration, because there was a hint of longing and shyness in her usual gentleness.

"And then?" Mu Muyu couldn't help but urged.

"Then..." Lin Chuwan murmured, her eyes suddenly darkened, "My behavior didn't last long, and finally one day she exploded, which caught me off guard. I was still following her that day, Accompanying her back to the dormitory, on the way I found a boy who had the same idea as me. That boy was more proactive than me, and soon caught up with her, stopped her from letting her go, and then confessed to her. "

Mu Muyu's heart was in her throat, "What's next?"

Lin Chuwan smiled wryly and shook her head, "I thought that time she would still use that scary look to force the other party away, but I was wrong, she was not just silent that time, she seemed to want to be silenced by me during that time It was as if the accumulated anger was released all at once without knowing how to back down. That boy was beaten black and blue by her. It was also the first time she stood in front of me for so long that day. Her tone was as cold as her eyes, and she only told me "If you don't want to be in the same pain as this person, then stay away from me."

Mu Muyu opened her lips slightly in surprise, the girl in Lin Chuwan's words seemed to be very withdrawn.From what Lin Chuwan said at the beginning, even the most ordinary contact with ordinary classmates would be resisted.

"But do you know? After she talked to me that time, my love for her didn't diminish, but became more and more intense. But it was also because of that time that I learned to restrain myself, not daring to let her find out that I was still I like her not because I am afraid of being like that boy, but because I feel sorry for her. Her purpose of refusing others to get close to her is very simple, just because she subconsciously protects herself. The vision is not what we can imagine, I don't care about it, but not everyone has a good heart."

Lin Chuwan unconsciously clenched the water glass tightly, her eyes even more gloomy.

"Sister Chuwan..." Mu Muyu reached out to touch Lin Chuwan's wrist, not knowing what to comfort her for a moment.

After all, even if Lin Chuwan told her about those things now, it was only for a minute or two, and she couldn't guess what happened during it.

Lin Chuwan raised the corners of her lips shallowly, indicating that she was fine, and continued: "Later, I followed her secretly, sitting in the seat she used to sit in, reading the books she borrowed, and eating her favorite snacks. I thought we would Go on like this until the emotion disappears, who knows that one time when she just left the library, I went to get the book she just put back, and as soon as I turned my head, I saw it and wanted to get it. The book's her."

Mu Muyu's eyes were slightly nervous, and the hand that touched Lin Chuwan's wrist just now unconsciously grabbed Lin Chuwan's sleeve.

Lin Chuwan's smile at this time was even more shy. She patted the back of Mu Yuyu's hand to signal Mu Muyu to relax, and then said in a leisurely voice, "I just froze there. I didn't know what to do. The two of us stood facing each other. It took a long time. In the end, I was the first to react. I handed the book to her, apologized to her, and then left, but she didn't let me go...

She didn't care about the book either, because right there in the corner, she hugged me.At that time, my nose was so sore that I could hardly speak. She kept saying that she liked me in my ears, and that no matter how I tried to escape, I couldn’t escape this feeling. She asked me what I should do. "

"Are you all together like this?" Mu Mu Yu was fascinated by what she heard, and she was very persistent in this answer.

Mu Muyu's question was like a spark that ignited the fuse. Lin Chuwan's smile stopped, and bitterness filled her eyes again: "We are not together, and I have never said a word that I like her. Because I know her I was afraid that there would be another person around me, that I would not want her in the end, and that she would still be alone, so I never talked about this issue with her. And I can feel that she likes me, but she Fear of going one step further.

In the days that followed, she did not deliberately avoid me, but we have not confirmed the relationship.The closest contact I had with her was when she was reluctant to leave when she sent me back to the dormitory, and I hugged her jokingly.At that time, our eyes were only a finger away. "

This seemed to be the end, because Mu Muyu didn't see that Lin Chuwan had a lover now, and that girl must have been lost in time.

She asked with difficulty, "Miss Chuwan, is it over?"

"Yeah." Lin Chuwan smiled at her with the corners of her lips moving, and continued to bury the bitterness, "I lost her because I made a self-righteous decision later."

Mu Yu bit her lips, and said in a low voice, "Sorry, I shouldn't remind you of this."

Lin Chuwan smiled warmly, "It's okay, I feel a lot more comfortable being able to tell you these things. What's more, these things will not be taken out of my life if you don't mention them, and I don't have amnesia."

Mu Muyu's mood has not completely calmed down, her thoughts are complicated, Lin Chuwan's confession just now seems to be echoing in her ears, and she seems to be able to see the scene in Lin Chuwan's words before her eyes.

Can love really make a person persistent to this point, and can it make a person restrain himself?Lin Chuwan's affection made her never give up, and at the same time, it also taught her to learn restraint, so as not to disturb the other party.

So what about Gao Yan who pursued Jiang Chenyin back then?If he really used extreme methods to pursue Jiang Chenyin and his current lover, could such an admiration regardless of the other party's thoughts be called love?

Thinking of this, Mu Muyu asked: "Sister Chuwan, is there really someone who doesn't care about anything and has to get a love like this from the other party?" She paused, then murmured: "This kind of love, is it true? Is it love?"

Lin Chuwan smiled, put the water glass back on the table, breathed a sigh of relief, as if speaking to Mu Muyu, and whispered as if talking to himself: "Love must be accompanied by restraint, but it is possible that you cannot see it with your eyes. You can feel it, but you can understand it with your heart. If you love someone, then you must hope that the other person will return the love, not patience or other feelings, because those are not what you want.”