Guidebook for the Dark Duke

The matter of why Ferd came to Evan didn't bother Evan for long. Early the next morning, Ferd came to the Church of Delaneria again, and this time Evan hadn't even been able to change his name. Putting on the pastor's robe, he could only look at Fuld who was panting slightly in surprise.

And Ferd was not feeling well at this time, he was a little afraid to look directly into Evan's eyes, his expression was hesitant to speak, and his expression was very embarrassed.

Evan felt a little surprised. He had confronted Fold several times, but he had never seen Fold like this.

"Is there anything you want from me, Mr. Fold?" Evan opened the topic first.

Fuld pursed his lips, looking a bit embarrassed: "I... I heard."

"Have you heard?" Evan's heart moved slightly, but he looked at Fuld with some doubts on the surface: "What have you heard?"

Ferd coughed a few times, looking more embarrassed than before: "It's...it's my father's business." He was a little vague, and looked more embarrassed than before.

At this time, Evan made a look of sudden realization, and then his expression became awkward.

"That matter, I really..." Although Evan had also imagined the situation after Fuld knew about it, he didn't know what to say at this time.

"Please don't say any more." Fuld suddenly interrupted Evan, with a hint of shame on his face: "I don't know about my father's visit to you, and the matter between the two of us It's not because of this that it became what it is now, but I want to ask you whether you were the one who spread those rumors at that time!"

At that time, Evan resolutely refused to hit Fuld. Although he didn't say it himself, it was actually very deep. The reason why he hated Evan was that, on the one hand, he had the hatred that his life was ruined, but on the other hand, he also had the simple innocence of the past. Unwilling to suffer a huge emotional blow, now he suddenly knows that it was his father who planned it. His original deep love and hatred were a little at a loss for a while, so he can only hold on to this point and let himself do the final struggle.

Evan looked at Fuld, his heart was relieved, and he couldn't help sighing: "Mr. Fuld, please tell me first, how did you know about this?"

When Ferd heard him ask, there was a flash of pain in his expression. He clenched his fists tightly and said in a low voice: "Do you think that as long as you keep silent, I won't know? Do you think that you Conceal in every possible way like a saint? Bruce, you shouldn't lie about this matter, and you don't need to ask me how I know this matter, you just need to tell me the truth back then!"

Fold had suffered a huge blow from the Duke before, and he seemed to be regrouping, but he didn't expect to find his father's secretary on the way to find evidence. They talked about Evan when they were chatting, and then All the memories of the past flooded towards him like a tide, and he could hardly imagine how his cold and severe father dealt with Evan, who was still a child.

Evan looked at the slightly agitated Fuld, felt helpless for a while, and said in a gentle tone: "Mr. Fuld, the reason I keep silent on this matter is just out of respect for a deceased person, yours My father made me promise never to speak, I don't want to break this promise, but now that you know everything, I will tell you frankly that your reputation was damaged back then, although I did not do it, but For this matter, I blame myself, I have made friends and caused you to be harmed in this way, if you want to hate, just hate me, it is all my fault."

Every word Evan said made Fuld's fists clenched tighter, until finally, he looked at Evan with red eyes, and almost roared in a low voice: "What do you want to say about this matter? Is that all there is to it?"

Evan lowered his eyes, with a trace of compassion in his expression: "Your pain has made me feel uncomfortable for the rest of my life, so I devoted myself to religion, hoping that the Lord can dissolve the regret in my heart, but after so many years, I still feel very sorry for you. I'm sorry, Mr. Fold, I'm really, really sorry, I don't know how to resolve my sins back then, and I don't know how to compensate you, and I don't even have the face to ask for your forgiveness, It’s something I’ve been in so much pain for the rest of my life that I can’t face it.”

What Evan said was true, and the sadness and pain in his tone almost made the gods cry, but Ferd's expression became more and more bad.

"Is this what you want to say?" The same question as before, but this sentence is more like being squeezed out of the jaw, but with a strong force.

Evan looked up at Fuld with some doubts, his eyes were red, and there was a hint of madness and unwillingness in his eyes.

"Mr. Fold?" Evan felt something was wrong.

"Let me ask you, do you really have nothing else to say?" Ferd stared at Evan, as if trying to see something from him.

Evan felt more and more weird. What this Ford wanted to do seemed to be a little different from what he expected.

"I...I have nothing to say..." Evan's tone was a little nervous.

Ferd looked at Evan, looked at his calm eyes, looked at his puzzled expression, the breath that was originally suppressed in his chest suddenly dropped, he really didn't know what he was expecting.

Ferd closed his eyes in despair. For so many years, he seemed to have become an obsession with this person. He always appeared in the deepest part of his dreams and became a nightmare for his whole life. For the last hatred, this kind of emotion that has poured out all of his body and mind, seems to have become an emotion that he can't get rid of in his life, and even became a part of him.

But suddenly one day, when a person suddenly appeared and told himself that all the love and hatred back then was just a script tailored for him by others, and even the reason for the deepest hatred had nothing to do with him. It doesn't matter. Although he took this matter on himself, he is not unreasonable. His father's old secretary told him the reason why his father investigated it back then, and it was the same as what Evan said. It's not his fault, it's only my own credulity.

Ferd let go of his clenched fist, and let out a long breath. When he looked at Evan, his eyes had regained his composure.

"I'm sorry for what I've done these days." Ferd looked at Evan with a cold face, all his emotions were covered in his deep eyes.

Let this matter come to an end completely, those loves and hates, those pains and struggles, all end!

Evan was relieved when he saw Fuld who had regained his composure. This person's mood is really uncertain.

"You don't have to be sorry." Evan's expression was still gentle: "This is all my fault, and I will spend my whole life repenting."

Ferd nodded indifferently, and without further ado, he turned around and was about to leave, but when he reached the door, he stopped suddenly, turned his back to Evan and said, "I'll be leaving Delaney tomorrow. Er, I will never bother you again."

Without waiting for Evan's response, he left the church quickly.

Seeing the back of Fuld going away, Evan was a little speechless for a while, Fuld is really too difficult to understand.

**

Ferd walked through the country's field path, looking at the rising sun in the distance, but felt a little empty in his heart for some reason. Since he learned the truth yesterday, he has been eager to see Evan. He didn't know that he What exactly are you looking forward to, but it is definitely not a polite and cold conversation like today.

It was also at this time that he suddenly discovered that he was the only one who couldn't let go of the love and hatred back then, and he was the only one who still stubbornly remembered the love and hatred back then, and how they looked when they first met , I remember his demeanor when he called my name, I remember the exaggerated expression on his face when I confessed to him, I remember the heart-piercing pain when he left, those ignorance when I was young, like a piece of painted oil painting, Make your life that was boring and dry become so fresh.

He was not a likable character at that time, but there was such a person who was always by his side, maybe because of habit, maybe because of loneliness, he let that person into his life for the first time, but the result But it was so tragic, it made him tremble when he thought about it now, but after so many years, he relived that period of life over and over again, holding those loves and hatreds tightly in the palm of his hand.

What he likes, what he hates, what pain, what happiness, it all belongs to him.

Belongs to his love, belongs to his past, belongs to his life.

Ferd stopped, raised his head to look at the clouds in the sky, and squinted his eyes. Such strong emotions almost emptied his whole body, and now there is only endless emptiness left. Maybe he will find someone in the future. A girl who is not very beautiful but is very gentle. It is good to have children with her and live an ordinary life.

The glare of the sun made Ferd squint his eyes. It seemed that a cold liquid had slipped from his eye sockets. It must be raining. Thinking this way, Ferd was really strange. How could it suddenly rain?Fold wiped off the liquid from the corner of his eyes as if nothing had happened, and quickly walked in his direction.

Everyone must move forward, and he cannot turn back.

**

But Evan is in a relaxed and comfortable mood at this time. For him, Ferd is an untimely bomb. At this time, this bomb is finally removed from his life, and he finally does not have to worry or worry. .

Evan stood in front of the altar, looking at the tall crucifix, with a compassionate and gentle expression, as if it was not him who suffered but the world, and suddenly a memory burst out of his mind, all of which were related to Foer related to morality.

When he was young, Ferd was gloomy and mean, and always had a mocking smile on his unhandsome face, but it was this kind of Ferd, who was so tall and reliable in memory, when he smiled, the corners of his mouth would A pear dimple is revealed, when he frowns, the tails of his brows will droop slightly, when he is angry, his fingertips will tremble slightly, when he calls his name, the ending sound will be lingering and soft.

Different from the previous dry and vague reading-style memory, the memory at this time is like a real and clear dream. He watched him and Ferd when they were young through Evan's eyes.

Evan had a headache as if it was about to burst, and he knelt down on the ground, clutching the front of his front tightly with both hands.

Suddenly a drop of cold liquid fell on the back of his hand.

Evan looked at the drop of water on the back of his hand with some surprise.

It was a tear.

Tears belonging to 'Evan'.