Xueba always wants to break me

When I woke up in the morning, my mind was still a little dazed. Li Yong was reading a novel by the bed, and when he saw me wake up, he poured water and asked for warmth.

I was taken aback for a while.

I asked him what happened.

He said: "I can't see that you still have such a tragic past, but you can rest assured that I have absolutely no intention of discriminating against you!"

I subconsciously felt that I should have said something terrible, and I asked him what I said.

He said sympathetically, "It's okay, it's all over, I understand you, don't think about it."

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry, I thought maybe it was because of alcohol that I talked about Zhou Mingrui?

I said I'm fine, I can't stay like this.

Li Yong hurriedly said: "Don't, I won't say anything."

In the afternoon Liu Tao called me and asked me if I was feeling better, and I said it was much better.

He asked me if I wanted to visit Zhaozhou Bridge and Xibaipo tomorrow.

I should say yes.

Li Yong has to go to work these few days, so the next day only Liu Tao, me and the so-called landlord will go together.

We drive by ourselves, and the landlord drives the car.

"I have not been in Hebei for a long time, and I have long wanted to go shopping. By the way, I invited the landlord to be a free driver and part-time tour guide."

I said that you are also quite good at using resources.

The landlord's surname is Wu, he is a 28-year-old man, very cultivated and talkative.Being an executive in a commercial company department is considered young and promising.

It was around ten o'clock when we arrived at Zhaozhou Bridge, and there were not many people there. Liu Tao said, "It's a good thing that primary and secondary schools are not on holiday and there are few people. Otherwise, it wouldn't be our turn to watch."

I nodded seriously.

We walked around for a while, the landlord said he was going to buy water, and asked me what to drink, I said ordinary mineral water is fine.

"I want Coke."

"Can you drink less?"

"No."

The landlord looked at Liu Tao helplessly, then turned and left.

No matter how dull I was, I still felt something was wrong. Liu Tao asked me if I wanted to hear the story.

I asked him what the story was.

He said, it was a story similar to yours, but you were luckier than him.

"When he was your age, he should have been younger. When he was in junior high school, he realized that he was different from other boys. Other boys' first sexual dream was a girl, but he was a boy. He didn't dare to tell others, so he Then he kept hiding it, trying to convince himself that it was nothing. Then he found that he was no different to other boys, so he kept ignoring this problem. When he was in high school, he met a boy who brought him A different boy. The boy who has always made him curious during military training. When he first talked to that boy, he found that the boy was very shy, introverted, and shy. His clever eyes attracted him almost instantly. He I started to talk and get along with that boy, and gradually fell in love with him. Finally one day he confessed to that boy, just when he thought he would be rejected, the boy accepted unexpectedly. But such days did not last long It was exposed by someone, because the boy's popularity in the class was not good, and the rumors flooded the boy in an instant.

When he found out, the boy looked at him with desperate eyes, and he will never forget that disgusting look in his life.

The boy said to him 'Why is it your fault and they blame me'.

Later, the boy changed schools, and they lost contact.

He didn't know why their affairs turned out like this, and the hatred when they were apart suffocated him, so he skipped class to drink and met a flirtatious man.

That kind of frivolity makes people want to follow and fall.And yet he did, and he had a wild night like never before.Then they were together.

From time to time, they would go to open rooms, do whatever they want, clubbing, drinking... He fooled around with a man for a month, until when he was poisoned by alcohol, he was lying alone in the hospital, and the man disappeared...

He began to reflect on what he had done this month, as if all his memories were gone, those days of paralysis and depravity were like movies, and he began to wonder why he degenerated so much...

And where is the warmth he wanted at first...

He got out of the hospital and went back to the place where he lived with that man before. The obscene smell made him sick to his stomach. He packed up his clothes and went back to school. He worked hard to make up the negative credits and was admitted to a university.

He felt that maybe his life was just such an ordinary person.

But there was another accident that tied him with another person. "

"They met when he was looking for a house, and his luggage was taken away by the landlord, but he was left penniless in a place he didn't know... The passbook given to him by his parents was included in the luggage. gone.

There is only an ID card, admission letter, and a wallet in his pocket - there is only one card, one RMB and a few coins in it.He started walking along the only road. After walking for a long time, his feet were blistered, and it was almost dawn, and finally saw a car.The owner of the car was a company executive in his late thirties, young and promising, with a good heart. After knowing his energy, he sympathized with him, so he gave him an empty room in his house.Hearing that he wanted to find a part-time job, he helped him borrow money to invest in a bar with a friend, and before he knew it, he suddenly had the illusion that this was a good idea..."

"And after that?"

"It's what you see after that." Liu Tao smiled and said, "I think Zhou Mingrui likes you, but he's better than me. Maybe he didn't want you to experience that kind of pain, so he let go."

"Public opinion is really scary. Don't become the second me, Qin Qin, you're okay."

Okay?

probably.

Maybe without this trip, where would I be now?Maybe he will really find a bar, maybe he will really lock himself in one place and wonder why he let go?

Or maybe one day we were discovered, his success and fame made people convincing, and I became the person who was abandoned and pointed at by public opinion, and then used hatred to erase everything about us?

And I'm lucky now, because I didn't choose any of the above paths that I didn't want to choose.

When the landlord came back after buying water, besides two bottles of mineral water, he also had a bottle of Coke. Liu Tao wanted to drink it, but the landlord didn't give it to him: "I just took it out of the refrigerator, drink it later."

Liu Tao didn't take it seriously, but he didn't grab it.

Take me somewhere else.

I saw the past in a trance, and there was someone who would nag me, and I would be unconvinced and confront him.

"Are you guys ready to be together?"

Liu Tao smiled and said, "Look at his performance."

"He's fine."

"Well, I know."

"Afraid?"

"Why are you afraid? Who will say anything when we are together?"

"Aren't you afraid of public opinion?"

"I will grow into a person who is not afraid of public opinion. At least in one world, I still have a place where I can be accepted."

Maybe,

He found a place that took him,

Where is the place to accept me?