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Shen Ge didn't expect this kiss to cause Ling Jiale to have such a big reaction, just like the pair of wings that once triggered the butterfly effect, soft and unintentional, but set off a stormy sea.

His vision rotated, he was caught off guard and turned over, lying on the bed.Ling Jiale lay on top of him, kissing him eagerly, almost trembling with excitement.

"Shen Ge...Chen Ge..." He held Shen Ge's face in his hands, kissed and called out fervently, tears welled up in his eyes.Even at his most delusional age, he couldn't imagine that someone would bring his feet to his lips and kiss them.

It wasn't until the two of them went to take a shower that Ling Jiale told him why he was so excited.

"Foot is so important to a ballet dancer... There was a photo before, it was an old photo, of a female dancer's feet, the foot without pointe shoes was deformed, and it was all Injury, looking at it makes me want to cry - oh yes, I guess Wang... the director checked my feet because he saw that photo..."

The two were squeezed into a standard-sized bathtub, and Ling Jiale had to lean completely into Shen Ge's arms to hold them.Shen Ge tightly clasped the hands on his shoulders, looking at him very distressed.Only then did he realize that Ling Jiale's suffering from childhood may be much more than he imagined.

Ling Jiale held his face with a smile, "Oh, what expression do you have! That photo was taken a long time ago, now there are protective gear and ointment, so it won't hurt your feet so much..."

"Of course I'm still tired, and my feet hurt after training. At that time, when I was in class every day, I imagined the moment when I soaked my feet at night, soaked them in cold water, and put my two swollen feet into the cold water. Wow, it was so comfortable. It's-"

He sat up and hugged his two calves, leaned his head on his knees, and turned his face towards Shen Ge, "I liked to hug myself like this when I was young, just when I was alone." His hands moved down to wrap around his "Sometimes it's the same... I think they have suffered too much with me, and they are my only friends. I feel sorry for them and thank them..."

After he finished speaking, he laughed at himself, "When I was young, I was a little in the second grade, and I felt, oh, the teacher forced me to practice every day, my mother forced me to practice every day, and I was the only one who cared about them and loved them... I I never thought that one day, there will be someone else..." He choked up and buried his head in his knees to wipe away his tears.

Shen Ge touched the top of his hair pityingly, "If you like it, I will kiss you every day from now on, once on the left foot, once on the right foot——"

"Pfft——" Ling Jiale burst into laughter instantly, and made a gesture to slap him, "I didn't mean that!——" His hand stopped halfway, and he understood it. It turned out that Shen Ge understood it.Of course Shen Ge understands, Shen Ge is so smart, looks at him so tenderly, and of course he understands the feelings in his heart.

"Have you ever been injured dancing?"

Ling Jiale hesitated for a moment, then nodded.

"What injury? Is it serious? Does it hurt?" Shen Ge asked.

Ling Jiale touched her right shoulder, "I was injured here..." Then touched the ankle on the same side, "I was injured here too... These two times are more serious."

Shen Ge couldn't breathe when he pointed at his shoulder, and his heart ached beyond description.He lightly touched Ling Jiale's right shoulder and right ankle, a few streaks of red blood appeared in his eyes, and his strength could only help him cover up his emotions to this extent.

"You never even told me."

"It's already healed. I'm lucky. Thanks to my young age, I recovered very smoothly without any sequelae."

"How did it hurt?"

"I blame myself for my shoulders. My upper body strength has always been poor. I didn't have the confidence when I did lifts, so I hurt myself... The Achilles tendon is because I didn't warm up well, and it was torn after a big jump."

"Does it hurt?"

Ling Jiale smiled reflexively, wanting to say "it doesn't hurt".However, the distress in Shen Ge's eyes was so substantial, it reminded him of the feeling when his feet were kissed by him, the happy feeling of being deeply loved and pitied.

"It was really painful."

Ling Jiale seldom talks about dance actively. Like all other people and things, the more he loves them, the more subconsciously he wants to distance himself from them.Yet his love of dance is so obvious that once he starts he can't stop.

For the first time, he unabashedly talked about his past achievements and current regrets.

"There are rules in our ballet class. There are three poles in one room. Practice where you dance well, practice where you dance poorly, and practice where you dance the worst... I always use the best pole. .”

"Since I was a child, some classmates have always envied me. I am born with such a good physical condition. My mother is still the chief and my father is also a musician. I can take a lot of detours and suffer a lot less than them... I had a serious second-degree illness at the time. I hate it when they say that, like my grades have nothing to do with me."

"And my congenital conditions are not particularly perfect. My muscular strength is too weak, and my legs are not bad, but I can't train my upper limbs..." He turned his head and glanced at Shen Ge. The bulging chest muscles and Biceps, it seems that I still feel envious and like it now. "When the Achilles tendon was injured, my mother and teacher asked me to practice pull-ups. I hung on the door beam every day, and I could only do one forehand. When I fell to the ground, I had to pay attention to landing on one foot. right foot."

Shen Ge was almost shocked, "Practice even if you are injured? The intensity of our school team training is also high, but if you are injured, you will rest..."

"Ballet is different. We have a saying that you will know if you don't practice for one day, the teacher will know if you don't practice for two days, and the audience will know if you don't practice for three days..." Ling Jiale lowered her eyes slightly, "There was a girl in our class at that time, I have always danced very well. During the summer vacation, I went on a trip with my family for two weeks. I guess I didn’t practice the basic skills, and I couldn’t keep up after I came back..." He paused, and added: "I can’t keep up anymore. gone."

Shen Ge hugged him hard again, and kissed his temples, "Why did you give up at the beginning?"

Ling Jiale looked at him with some embarrassment, Shen Ge squeezed his hand encouragingly, "If you don't want to say it, don't say it, I just want to know you. I can understand, learning this is really hard——"

"No, it's not because I'm afraid of suffering..." Ling Jiale gritted his teeth, and his eyes fell on his outstretched feet involuntarily.His legs and feet trembled slightly under the water waves. They were once so good, but he actively abandoned them.

"Maybe, it's because I'm afraid of suffering, not physically, but psychologically...I now feel that I was too fragile at that time. I kept practicing lifts at that time, but I couldn't do it well. The girls in the same group all Don’t dare to partner with me anymore, for fear that I will throw her.”

"My mother has planned for me a long time ago. After graduating from middle school, I will take an examination of the troupe, then join the troupe and train in the troupe for a few years before going abroad. But I don't like going abroad, I don't like to learn foreign languages, and I don't like to practice lifts, but I still have to Practicing every day... My mother said I didn't work hard enough, and the teacher also said that I wasted such a good physical condition; my brother learned ballet later than me, and his physical condition is worse than mine, but he has perseverance and ideas, and everyone criticizes him Compared with me, I really hate that feeling..."

"Later I participated in an international competition, which was the best competition in my age group. It was very important, but I made a mistake... I felt very uncomfortable at that time. Everyone was waiting for me to win the award on behalf of the country. ..."

Shen Ge patted his head, "It's not your fault, you've tried your best." How old was Ling Jiale at that time?fifteen?sixteen?Such a small Ling Jiale has to bear so much pressure?

Ling Jiale held back tears and looked at him, "But they all said at the time that if I worked harder and practiced a little more, I might not make mistakes."

Shen Ge sighed, feeling that Ling Jiale's teachers had used the wrong method. They saw his potential and had high expectations for him, so they treated him so strictly.But Ling Jiale is not suitable for this kind of traditional oppressive education. His sensitive heart should be well protected.

"After returning from the competition, because of a trivial matter, I completely hated ballet."

"what's up?"

Ling Jiale bit her lip and smiled self-deprecatingly, "It's embarrassing, because I slept in class. In fact, many people sleep. The training class is too tired, and I feel sleepy when I sit down, but maybe I slept too much. I was caught by the teacher... At that time, the teacher said, he said, "Ling Jiale stopped, as if looking back at the impressive scene, "The last dance he has seen is good, and the culture class is also good; only dance Well done, the cultural class is not good, and the dance is not going to make much progress in the end."

Shen Ge frowned, this teacher is too bad at talking, he clearly wanted to urge people to learn cultural lessons, but in the end it also wiped out people's confidence in dancing.

"At that time, I suddenly became rebellious. I thought that I was very smart when I was young. My father said that I could talk a lot when I was one year old, and I could do addition and subtraction when I was three years old. Who is so stupid now, who is to blame for being sleepy as soon as I go to class? Isn’t it because of learning ballet?”

"At that time, I felt like I had a second-grade illness, and once I got it, I couldn't stop. I confronted my mother every day, telling her bad things about ballet, such as classical ballet being outdated, too old-fashioned, sexist, etc..." He lowered his head and rubbed his lips with his teeth, "My mother has danced classical ballet for most of her life. This is her belief... I broke her heart at that time."

"At first, I thought that my senior brother would definitely turn to my mother and educate me for them. I didn't expect him to say that he supports me. If I don't want to dance classical ballet and want to change the dance, he will accompany me."

Ling Jiale smiled softly, "I regarded him as an imaginary enemy since I was a child. At that time, it was the first time that I felt that he was my friend and he was from the same country as me. We naturally fell in love with modern dance at that time, because modern dance Just to oppose the dogmas of classical ballet, I thought, I’m going to dance modern dance to annoy my mother. Didn’t she say that male dancers can’t go on stage if they can’t lift well, so I just want to let her see it. I can be the protagonist myself."

"But then I was approached by scouts..." He blinked a few times quickly, and looked up at Shen Ge, "You know later, ten years, just like this."

"So, not only did I betray the ballet, my parents, I also betrayed my elder brother... the first time I stood on the stage in C position and was screamed 'Prince' by the fans, I When enjoying that vanity, I betrayed them all..."

Shen Ge frowned and wiped the corners of his eyes, "How much have you picked up now?" He knew that Ling Jiale practiced for hours every day now.

Ling Jiale's eyes darkened, "It's only half... I think I may never return to the state I was when I was 16 years old." At that time, he still had a chance to reach the top level, but now he has completely missed it.

Shen Ge couldn't see him being so lonely, "But you can still give your brother's dance drama ideas? I heard from Leon that several moves you thought of were very popular with the audience."

Ling Jiale smiled and waved her hands, "It's just a few movements, it's completely different from dancing by myself."

Shen Ge disagreed with what he said, "I don't know dance, but I think dancing is like acting, and choreography is like writing and directing. I personally think that performing is less difficult. I think you may have some regrets in dancing. , but in other respects you have improved."

Ling Jiale is an expert, but he can really listen to the words of an outsider, his eyes light up slightly, and he asked cautiously: "Really?"

"Really, I really think so. Although your teacher's words are ugly, what he said is not unreasonable. I think dancing is the same as I used to practice high jump. It's not just training muscle memory and repetitive movements. Practicing these things also requires brains, you have more experience and understanding now than when you were a child—" His heart moved, and he asked Ling Jiale excitedly: "Dance is also a kind of performance, right?"

Ling Jiale nodded slowly, "Is that right?"

Shen Ge looked very excited, "There are similarities in performances! I watched a lot of dramas during my time in the United States, and I probably saw some tricks. Although the means of expression and carriers of these dramas are different, I can touch them. Something in common."

"Some people say that the essence of art is human nature. Since the essence is the same, then film and television performances and dance performances must also be interlinked! You get enlightened in the performance, and I think this can only be beneficial to your understanding of dance. .”

Ling Jiale was a little dumbfounded by what he said, but Shen Ge's so determined appearance made him really believe that he had made progress.Maybe the elder brother said that the emotional expression in his movements is very good, and he didn't coax him to play?

The two of them cooled the water and hurried out of the bathtub.

Ling Jiale changed from "only half" to "already half", and performed six o'clock legs for Shen Ge again.

One long leg was easily lifted from the side of the body to the ear, and the leg supporting the ground and the leg pointing to the sky were straight.Ling Jiale proudly showed her hand to Shen Ge: "Look, I don't need support now, I can stand firm by myself."

Shen Ge was well aware of the hard work behind this small progress, so he walked over and hugged him tightly, "My Lele is really great." He really hopes that the whole world can see how good his Lingjiale is.