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Feng Si said that it takes a month to half a year for an actor who has been deeply involved in the drama to appear in the drama after finishing.

From the seventh month of separation from Shen Ge, the tragic emotions caused by Jiang Lu and Zhang Song gradually lost to the pain of separation from Shen Ge, and he began to have strong doubts about himself.

Because of Shen Ge's outstanding talent and ability in front of others, he felt that Shen Ge might be indestructible, and maybe even Ling Jiale couldn't hinder Shen Ge's future.He's starting to get lucky, thinking, "Maybe we can have a sneaky date, out of the paparazzi's reach, maybe—"

Maybe it will be photographed, it will definitely be photographed, and then it will be over.

Falling from heaven to hell and being insulted by countless people, all the pain he has experienced will befall Shen Ge because of him.

So he retracted again, Shen Ge can only be safe if he closes himself.

However, the biggest pain is not that Shen Ge is not by his side, that he can’t let go of his thoughts, that there is no one to talk about his thoughts, it is not that he imagines that Shen Ge really forgets himself and falls in love with someone else in a certain scene, nor is it that he is numb during the day without sadness or joy. And the bitter cry that can only be uttered in sleep at night...but doubts and struggles, not knowing whether what I did was right or wrong, not knowing whether the suffering I suffered was worth it, not knowing whether I was treating Shen Ge well or not. It's just hurting him.

This is the most painful, tormenting him all the time.

While soberly knowing that he is not Jiang Lu and Shen Ge is not Zhang Song, at the same time, he feels uncontrollable fear, fearing that they will end up like Zhang Song and Jiang Lu.He really felt like a stupid bad guy sometimes.

"I always think, if only you hadn't met me." He wept bitterly in Shen Ge's arms.

Shen Ge patted him on the back lightly, with a steady tone, just listening to his voice made people feel at ease and added a bit of strength: "Then let's assume that I have never met you—"

He pulled Ling Jiale's shoulders and let him look at him, "Lele, I will give you an ability now to let the time go back to the day of our first audition, and you can choose whether you want to meet on that day or not. I."

Ling Jiale stared at him blankly with teary eyes.

Shen Ge told him in detail: "Wang Xu first took a fancy to your Jiang Lu, and then I got my Zhang Song. If I hadn't met you, the role of Zhang Song would have been Min Huaian's; because Wang Xu and Liang The producer recommended me to enter "Colorless Sky" and played the role of Ah Feng, and then I won the Best Supporting Actor and Best Newcomer awards; because of "Sweat Through Clothes" and "Colorless Sky" won the award Yes, I was seen by Lee, and I got the chance to audition for "Fortune Cake"... and "Morning Sun and Evening Light". My classmates think that I am very serious and old-fashioned. Apart from being handsome and good at studying, I am also an extremely boring person. Why do you think I can write such romantic scripts and act like Chen Xi?"

"If I hadn't met you, none of these movies, these characters, would have had anything to do with me. I studied so hard, worked so hard to achieve these achievements, and you had the heart to take them away from me so that none of them happened ever?"

"I..." Ling Jiale was completely at a loss for words, he had never thought about it this way.

"There are also those joys. "Sweating Through Clothes" is the most painful scene I have ever filmed, and it is also the happiest scene I have ever filmed..." At this point, Shen Ge couldn't control it, his throat was sore He was astringent, and his voice began to tighten, "I know you like me too, that time was really the happiest time in my life, I have never been like that, every day I open my eyes and I start to be happy, thinking about how I can be happy again today." Seeing you, seeing you smiling at me and letting me hug you, I feel full of energy. The sky at that time was bluer than other times, and the saliva was sweet—” He lowered his head and squeezed the soreness "Would you really rather not meet me and take that happiness away from my heart?"

Ling Jiale lowered his head and shook his head desperately, his tears fell into the bathtub "pattapatta" by him.

"So don't say that kind of thing anymore, okay?" Shen Ge also choked up, "I don't want to live a life without meeting you, even thinking about it makes me feel uncomfortable." He lightly touched Ling Jiale's face, "You It's my light, can you understand?"

Ling Jiale cried bitterly, he really regretted it, he didn't expect Shen Ge to love him so much.If he knew that Shen Ge loved him so much, he wouldn't be able to forget him for half a year, a year, or even longer...

Ling Jiale threw herself into Shen Ge's arms and cried loudly, "Shen Ge, I'm sorry! I was wrong!"

Shen Ge hugged him hard, "It's okay, it's okay..." He kissed Ling Jiale's hair hard, "I'm sorry, Lele..." He wrongly blamed Ling Jiale, it turned out that all his timidity was for him.

"Even if our relationship is exposed, they make it into a scandal, it doesn't matter to me whether my popularity will drop, or someone hacks me on Weibo. None of us knows whether Zhang Song resents Jiang. Way to go, but I will never blame you, I will love you myself, and I can bear all the consequences."

"Besides, with my current fame and acting skills, I won't be reduced to the point where I have nothing to act in. There is indeed such a possibility. After I expose my sexuality, only gay-themed films will come to me, and in the end I will only have bad scenes to act in. But I don’t care. I don’t have any artistic pursuits, unlike what some people say, it’s painful to make a bad movie... I don’t know, filming is just a job for me to make money to support my family, what role to play is for me It doesn't matter, as long as you don't dislike—" He suddenly exclaimed, "Lele!"

Ling Jia was biting his forearm desperately, and was passively let go when Shen Ge grabbed his jaw forcefully.Seeing the bloody teeth marks on his arm, Shen Ge was really impatient, and couldn't control his anger and shouted: "What are you doing!"

Ling Jiale took his hand and slapped herself on the head, "Shen Ge, hit me, hit me! I'm an idiot!"

His strength is not as strong as Shen Ge's, not to mention crying so hard that Shen Ge pushed him to the edge of the bathtub, opened his legs, and inserted them right in without aligning them.

Ling Jiale was unprepared, and tightened reflexively, but his acupoints were still soft, and he couldn't stop Shen Ge's offensive at all.He was squeezed against the bathtub by Shen Ge, the ceramics were pressed against the whole back, it was very cold, and the shoulder blades were still hurting from the pain.But nothing compares to the pain Shen Ge brought him.

Shen Ge propped his hands on the edge of the bathtub, leaned down and fucked him, kissing or biting him vigorously.The tongue has the most nerves, and the pain made Ling Jiale dizzy. He wanted to open his mouth to take a big breath of oxygen, but was firmly blocked by Shen Ge's lips.His upper body was tightly held by Shen Ge with one hand, as if to prevent him from hitting himself again. Both his arms were bound in front of him, and he couldn't move at all. portion.The parts of the two buried in the water collided violently, and part of the sound was silenced by the water in the bathtub, but the water surface turned in rapid waves following Shen Ge's movements, creating a noisy sound of water in this small bathroom .

Ling Jiale's dizziness became more and more severe, and she was already immersed in it before she could figure out why she suddenly started doing it again.Perhaps it was because of the buoyancy of the water, and part of his hallucinations, that he felt that his body was getting lighter and lighter, and that he was out of gravity, leaving only the part connected to Shen Ge and the hand that hugged him tightly to retain his consciousness .

Shen Ge used this absolutely strong posture for a while, and because of Ling Jiale's submissive acceptance, he gradually calmed down, but he still hugged him tightly.This is a possessive desire stronger than sexual desire. I really want to swallow this person whole and protect him firmly with my own body, so that he will never be hurt by this world again, nor will he be foolish and hurt himself again.

"Stop crying?" Shen Ge's kiss gradually softened, and he gently entered and exited Ling Jia Le's body a few more times, and then stopped moving.

Ling Jiale was held in his arms, a part of his body was inside Ling Jiale's body, and they were mouth to mouth, breathing the same mouthful of oxygen.In this world, there will never be a more intimate posture between one person and another than they are at this moment.

It was only then that Ling Jiale realized that she really stopped crying. It turned out that the dizziness just now was not only caused by pain, but also caused by crying.

Shen Ge knew everything, and he stroked Ling Jiale's hair with his hands, and wiped away the water and tears that were brought to his face during the kiss: "We are not just wasting time. Do you still remember what Sister Xuan said Yes, experiencing a broken love is not a bad thing for an actor. An actor is here to experience emotions, Lele, you not only helped me become a real actor, you also helped me become a good actor. Moreover, if this We didn't separate in [-]. I definitely don't have such a strong fighting spirit. If I don't have the energy, I can't seize those opportunities. I may be like most actors. It takes a few years to meet a good film... So, it's not meaningless, don't be like this uncomfortable."

Ling Jiale was moved by what he said, but he couldn't tell whether it was because he was too eloquent or because Ling Jiale trusted him too much, Ling Jiale would easily believe anything he said.

"Isn't it really meaningless?" He looked at Shen Ge expectantly.

"Really." Shen Ge replied firmly, "Nothing in life is meaningless, let alone we are still young, and we still have a long way to go. What is a year?"

Ling Jiale looked at him seriously, smiled slowly, her arms that had regained her freedom couldn't help embracing him, and her legs also wrapped around him, "Shen Ge, I will never be separated from you again."

Shen Ge almost completely fell on him, hugged him with both hands, and said "um", the voice was muffled in his wet hair: "Never separate again."

Ling Jiale couldn't see his face, and didn't know that his facial features were slightly distorted because of distress.Shen Ge's year was not wasted, but Ling Jiale's year, he completely forgot the hardships he had suffered this year.

Ling Jiale asked again: "Am I a big fool?"

"No." Shen Ge kissed the top of his head, kissing his dearest fool.

"Do you still want to do it?" Ling Jiale's eyes and nose were red from crying, but he already looked carefree.

Shen Ge glanced down, and slid out of his body, "It's soft."

Ling Jiale also looked over, and let out a "huh" in surprise.

The two looked at the place where they had just met. Shen Ge stuffed his index finger in and turned it around, "You said you wash it yourself..." Hooked out, hooked out something, and replaced it with the middle finger, looking down while digging. , frowning and fidgeting, "Why did it get so close..."

Ling Jiale raised her hand to cover her flushed face, and laughed "chichi".