Tears

"Tell me about Shangxian."

Lu Aizhen backed away slowly, and the turbulent climax just now also subsided.They lay side by side on the large double bed, with a short distance between them.

Gu Jiang was silent for a long time before speaking the first sentence.

"So my acting skills are so bad?"

Lu Aizhen's chest throbbed, and he rubbed his eyes with a slight smile.

"It's pretty bad."

Gu Jiang was quiet for a while, as if he was thinking about whether his acting skills were really that bad. When he finally came, he wiped the tip of his nose, as if, it seemed to be pretty bad.

Gu Jiang: "How did you spend your summer vacation after the college entrance examination?"

Lu Aizhen was a little surprised. She didn't know what Gu Jiang was up to, but she answered anyway. "I went to England in middle school, and there is no college entrance examination. If you mean the summer vacation before going to university," he thought for a while, "I should have entered the company of my family as an intern. I remember it was a trading company."

Gu Jiang looked at him helplessly, silently digested the fact that his opening speech was as bad as his acting skills, and decided to skip the opening speech directly.

"That summer vacation was the happiest one I ever had. Carnival with my classmates all night, tearing up books, staying up late, drinking, clubbing... I did everything I should and shouldn't do." The scene at that time appeared in front of Gu Jiang's eyes , The people who were making a fuss together have lost contact for a long time, but at this moment, their eyebrows and eyes are so clear.He could no longer remember what his mother looked like, but he still remembered how they called him A-Jiang while pinching the microphone.These are people who only call him Gu Jiang, not Gu Baobao, and he likes to be with them.

"The night before I went to report at the school, I burned the letter that the man left for me. When the words on the paper were slowly being swallowed by the flames, I suddenly had a strange feeling."

"It's as if almost ten years of my past have suddenly disappeared, and I look back and can't think of a relationship that would describe us properly. I don't think there's ever a father-son relationship in the world as weird as ours. And he and I , It has been like this for ten years, like two freaks, but no one raised any objections, as if it should be so. It turns out that he is a freak, and I am also a freak."

"I started to get scared, I was born by him, his blood is flowing in my body, we are all freaks." Gu Jiang's tone finally showed a slight ups and downs, his body trembled slightly, Lu Aizhen tightened his arms, "He likes men. Then I...do I like men too?"

"Shangxian and I got to know each other very interestingly," Gu Jiang took a few deep breaths to calm down his fluctuating emotions, "I was seen by my classmates as gay, my roommate thought I was disgusting, and Shangxian happened to see us when we were arguing , he couldn't see it, and asked me to move to his dormitory."

He said lightly, but at that time, all his things were thrown in the corridor by his roommate, his clothes and hats were scattered, the sheets and quilts were cut to pieces, the hot water bottle exploded, the pages of the book were torn, and there were footprints all over.The people in the entire dormitory building were attracted by the noise, and some called their friends to watch the fun.

"Specially mobilize the teachers and mobilize the crowd."

Gu Jiang laughed at himself, but if it wasn't like this, Shang Xian, who was across the college, across grades, and several floors away from his dormitory, wouldn't be attracted to him.

When Shangxian arrived, Gu Jiang had already been hit on the face several times, needless to say on the body.He couldn't stand up and squatted on the ground, but his roommate was still unwilling to let him go.They repeated to the newcomers who came to see the excitement over and over again how disgusting Gu Jiang was, he should go gay and hang out with men, the disgust in his tone made Gu Jiang feel that he was worse than a street mouse.

"I seem to have done something heinous and bad," Gu Jiang smiled wryly, "but I just lingered in front of the gay bar for a while."

Gu Jiang's freshman year was a year of anxiety, he was troubled by the sudden thoughts of that night all the time.He is afraid that he likes men too, he wants to confirm, but he has no way.He heard about gay bars from somewhere, and decided to give it a try.

That day, he mustered up the courage to stand at the door, but he was still unable to take the last step.He lingered outside the door for more than an hour, and finally fled.He didn't expect that this hour or so would change his future life.

He is seen.

He is gay, and the rumors that he went to a gay bar to have sex began to spread like a virus from the next day, starting from the strange sight, to the whispering behind the back, to the face-to-face accusations, and finally he was kicked out of the dormitory Walk.

Gu Jiang silently cleaned up the chaos on the ground. He secretly rejoiced that he was admitted to a school in Shanghai, and he could handle it even if he didn't live in the dormitory.He didn't say a word, and kept silent, but it seemed that this attitude of neither talking back nor fighting back angered his roommate even more.They throw things out more and more, shoes, hangers, shower gel, toothbrushes, towels...

When Gu Jiang's glass flew towards his forehead, he closed his eyes.

Shangxian didn't know why he rushed over at that time, he blocked the glass.Standing in front of Gu Jiang, he looked coldly at those roommates, the glass was smashed not far away, and the crackling sound quieted the noisy world.

The buzzing in Gu Jiang's ears finally disappeared, he opened his eyes, and someone stood in front of him.He raised his head, and the generous back under the white woven lamp became an unforgettable memory in his life.

In Gu Jiang's life, there are only people who leave him far away.Sang-hyun was the only one walking towards him, the only one standing in front of him.

"But didn't you not fall in love with Shang Xian?"

Lu Aizhen had been listening silently, but now she suddenly asked a question with a stiff tone.He is jealous of Shangxian, irrepressible.Gu Jiang's every word made him dissatisfied, and his tone when he talked about Shangxian made him even more angry.Lu Aizhen noticed that as long as Shangxian was mentioned, Gu Jiang's expression would soften, and his eyes would become gentle and warm.

He doesn't like Gu Jiang like this, he doesn't think Shangxian has done anything worthy of Gu Jiang.At that time, if he was there, he would have done a better job than Sang Hyun.

But he wasn't there, and when Gu Jiang needed protection, he wasn't the one who appeared.He is powerless to change this fact, no matter who he is, no matter how powerful his family is, even if he is Lu Aizhen, there is nothing he can do.

Powerless is what Lu Aizhen hates most.

Gu Jiang was stunned for a moment, but Lu Aizhen was frank.

"Zhu Ruoruo asked someone to investigate you."

Gu Jiang nodded, not surprised.

"We've never been together, Shangxian doesn't like men, he always regards me as a brother." Gu Jiang laughed at himself, "It's just that I have always had unreasonable thoughts about him."

"Then you..." Lu Aizhen frowned slightly.

"It's just sex after drinking, only once, and he doesn't remember anything." Gu Jiang replied quickly, as if he didn't want to hear Lu Aizhen finish his sentence.

Silence occupied the space, Gu Jiang turned over and lay beside Lu Aizhen with his arms propped up.

"What time do we leave tomorrow? Do I need to work harder on the plane?"

He raised his eyebrows at Lu Aizhen with the corner of his mouth curled up. Lu Aizhen knew that their heart-to-heart time was over, and Gu Jiang unilaterally ended it.He reached out and pressed Gu Jiang against his chest.

"Flight in the afternoon, get up after a full sleep. We won't go with them."

Let it be over when it's over, he is not someone who cares about a moment.He didn't know if Gu Jiang wanted to go back, but he was a little bit eager to return.He wanted to go back, to the place Gu Jiang was familiar with, and they could take their time.He has a lot of time, he is unable to change the past, and he will fight for nothing in the future.

Lu Aizhen is confident that he can do better than Shangxian, and with him, Gu Jiang can be his true self without acting.Play a self who is not your own, play loose, play indulgent, play promiscuity.

Ajaan, I want you to have me in the future.

The result of leaving after a full sleep was that it was too late to arrive in Shanghai.They really didn't have anyone else to go with, and Lu Aizhen bought a first-class ticket.Gu Jiang felt that this trip was worth it, and he experienced all kinds of things that he had never experienced before.

The driver came to pick them up by car, but was driven away by Lu Aizhen as soon as he arrived.There were only the two of them in the car, returning to the familiar environment, Gu Jiang unconsciously relaxed a lot.

He even fell asleep without knowing it, and was awakened by the kiss again.

Seeing Gu Jiang's misty expression, Lu Aizhen laughed, "Sleeping Beauty, you're home." He pecked Gu Jiang's lips again.

"Huh?" Gu Jiang rubbed her eyes and took a few seconds to understand the situation.

"Good night." Gu Jiang kissed Lu Aizhen back, he was very used to it.Habits are terrible, Gu Jiang secretly thought.He opened the car door and walked home.

"Ah Jiang." Lu Aizhen lowered the car window and called, Gu Jiang looked back at him.Under the moonlight, Ajaan was as calm as water.Lu Aizhen was swallowing, her beautiful Adam's apple rolled up and down obviously.

"It's okay, go to bed early."

Lu Aizhen waved and stepped on the accelerator.He wanted to ask Ajaan if he could go in and sit down, but he didn't have confidence in himself.If you go in, maybe you won't be able to leave tonight.

Gu Jiang watched Lu Aizhen leave. He stood on the side of the road until the tail lights were no longer visible. He still maintained a posture of looking far away.

He was a little uneasy. In the past few days, he seemed to feel...love from Lu Aizhen?Lu Aizhen likes him?impossible.They are contract couples, and all their actions are to drive away Zhu Ruoruo.He used to be very sure of this, even when Lu Aizhen kissed him.

After all... That day, he was hard but Lu Aizhen didn't respond at all.

It's so embarrassing...

But he is not sure now, the trip to Sanya seems to have changed a lot.Care during illness, walks by the sea, kisses at night... He was a little afraid to look at Lu Aizhen's gaze, there seemed to be something in it that he couldn't understand, didn't want to understand, and didn't dare to understand.

Maybe... because he fell into the sea?Although it has nothing to do with Lu Aizhen, he was taken away by him, so he will definitely feel guilty.It's all because of guilt, Gu Jiang said to himself, it must be like this.

Gu Jiang's wrist was suddenly held, his muscles tensed for a moment, and relaxed in the next moment.The moment the skin touched, he knew who it was, without even thinking about it, just like the conditioned reflex of the nerve endings.

"Open the door."

Gu Jiang was thrown against the door, her wrists were red.Shangxian was so strong that he dragged him all the way home from the intersection, and Gu Jiang's bones were almost crushed by him.

"Axian, you..."

When Gu Jiang entered the door, Shang Xian slammed on the light, and the sudden light made Gu Jiang squint his eyes.Shangxian looked at Gu Jiang coldly, and closed the door behind his back.

"Sit down first, and take what you want to drink." Gu Jiang adjusted to the light, and with the backpack still on his body, he turned and went to the bedroom to put things away.He subconsciously wanted to avoid Shangxian, and today Shangxian exuded a dangerous aura.

He heard Shangxian's footsteps behind him, and Gu Jiang's nerves tensed slightly.The footsteps stopped at the door of the bedroom, Gu Jiang breathed a sigh of relief, but did not dare to look back.He took off his backpack and put it on a chair.

Gu Jiang bent down, trying to open the backpack.The next moment, the world was spinning.

Gu Jiang was thrown onto the bed, and Shangxian's magnified face appeared in his sight.Shangxian approached him and threw him on the bed.

Gu Jiang felt that his waist was being held down, and he couldn't break free.

"No, Ah Yin. Stop it, what are you doing?!"

Gu Jiang cried out in horror, and Shangxian's fingers inserted into his trouser waist.He was wearing sports shorts, which couldn't withstand being pulled at all. Even though he tried his best, he still couldn't stop the pants from being pulled lower and lower.

No, I can't let Axian see it.He didn't know what happened to Ah Xian today, why he came to him, why he did this to him, all he knew was that Ah Xian couldn't see it.

His shame.

Ah Yin can't be seen.

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