love healing

After the door was slammed, Ark began to cry.

They're done, forever and ever...

The man he thought would love him for the rest of his life walked out of his life forever.

It's my fault, right? If I didn't force An Feng to come here, An Feng wouldn't be as tired as he is today.And if it wasn't for him, An Feng wouldn't be so hurt.An Feng really loves him, so An Feng will never love him again, and he hates him...he said he will never forgive him...

In fact, he should have let An Feng go long ago...

On the phone that time, my father said, 'If you still want to be gay, you'd better die outside and don't come back. Our family will treat you as a son. '

Fang Zhou felt that life was meaningless, he was sorry for An Feng, sorry for his parents, sorry for Zhou Xu...

I don't deserve love at all...

Now that he was alone, Fang Zhou tried to dial the phone number at home.

"Hi," came Dad's voice.

"Dad, I'm Fang Zhou." Fang Zhou called Dad cautiously.

"Have you figured it out? As long as you change it, the door of the house will be open to you at any time!" After a few months, my father is still angry about being gay.

"I...I can't change it for the rest of my life...I'm sorry Dad, I let you down..." Fang Zhou's voice was choked, and he forcibly held back his tears.

"I don't have a perverted son like you! Hmph, I think you will die of AIDS sooner or later!"

"Thank you dad for reminding me, I will pay attention to it, and you and mom should also pay attention to your health."

Before the word 'body' could be finished, Dad hung up the phone. Fang Zhou held the phone and began to cry.

Anyway, my family doesn't want me anymore, my lover has left me forever, people who shouldn't be hurt have been hurt, and I haven't done anything good in my life... Fang Zhou really can't think of the meaning of being alive.

And even if he died, no one would care... for a wayward child like myself, living is only a burden to those around him.Just like Zhou Xu, even if he is just being friends, it can make him exhausted physically and mentally.

Fang Zhou didn't want to do this, he hoped that he could bring happiness to everyone... Unfortunately, things backfired...

Lying on the bed that he slept with An Feng, Fang Zhousheng looked at the ceiling hopelessly.

Cutting the pulse doesn't hurt very much, it's just that the blood flows quickly.

Thinking that An Feng would be able to live a good life after returning, and Zhou Xu's life would be able to get back on track after he left, it was so good, Fang Zhou closed his eyes.

Memories...From the day I stepped into the campus and met An Feng, three years of happy university...

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"An'an, why are my ribs cold~" Fang Zhou took a bite of the braised pork ribs, and poked the lunch box with his chopsticks in disgust.

"It's late after class today. I asked Cheng Chuan to make it for me. I just got it and ran back. It's still cold." An Feng touched his head, "My bowl is also cold, hehe, let's just eat it~"

Fang Zhou put down his chopsticks and sat next to An Feng, "You and our class Cheng Chuan are so close that you can ask him to help with cooking?"

"We are fellow villagers." An Feng picked up an egg from the bowl and fed it to Fang Zhou's mouth, "Baby, why don't you help me cook for me next time when we are in class?"

"Well, that's fine," Fang Zhou thought for a while, "Don't bother Cheng Chuan anymore, and avoid dealing with him."

An Feng put down his chopsticks and put his arms around Fang Zhou's waist, "Are you jealous?"

"How is it possible~" Fang Zhou rolled his eyes.

"I just like to see you jealous, and still refuse to admit it~" An Feng held Fang Zhou's face and kissed his forehead.

"What are you talking about~" Fang Zhou went to scratch An Feng's head, "You kissed my face with the oil on your mouth~"

"Ark, Ark~" An Feng hugged Fang Zhou's neck, "Why do I love you so much, you are so cute~ I even want to poke you into my purse and bring you to the classroom~"

"I love you too~" Fang Zhou is also smiling, "I only love you in this life~"

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"An'an, woo woo woo, I told my dad, woo woo..." Fang Zhou cried out of breath.

"What did you say? Baby, speak slowly, don't cry..." An Feng hugged Fang Zhou to his chest in distress.

"I said, woo, I said I like you, woo, I said, woo, I'm gay..." Fang Zhou gasped as he cried.

"Why did you tell your family?" An Feng didn't understand why Fang Zhou confessed to his family.

"Why, woohoo, don't you want to be responsible to me? Woohoo, I want to be with you, woohoo, forever, woohoo, always together..." Fang Zhou hugged An Feng's waist tightly.

"I also want to be with you forever!" An Feng said, "I just feel sorry for you, and I'm afraid you won't be able to bear the pressure from all sides."

"I'm not afraid, woo woo, are you afraid?" Fang Zhou raised his head, his eyes were already swollen from crying.

"I'm not afraid, as long as I'm with you, I'm not afraid of anything." An Feng looked into Fang Zhou's eyes and said seriously.

"Well, then, Ann, woo, let's go! Huh, go to a place where no one knows us!" Fang Zhou's eyes were firm, and there seemed to be a giant living in his thin body.

"Go wherever you say, I'll listen to you." An Feng's eyes were full of doting, as long as it was any request from the person in front of him, he would definitely obey it.

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beep beep beep beep

He was about to lose consciousness when his phone rang.

Should I take it or not?Fang Zhou thought in a daze.

How could I forget that I didn't turn off the phone first? If someone really found out, it would be the most embarrassing thing if I didn't commit suicide.

I didn't care about him, but after the ring stopped, it started ringing again, as if it would keep ringing if I didn't answer it.

Fang Zhou reached out to touch the side, picked up the phone and looked at it, it was an unfamiliar number, and then answered it.

"Why didn't you answer my call?"

It was Zhou Xu, and Zhou Xu's voice at this time made him want to cry.

"This is not your number." Fang Zhou said weakly.

"I knew you didn't pick up my number when you saw it." When he woke up in the morning, Fang Zhou had already left, and he felt that this couldn't be done.I called a few times just now, but he didn't answer. Finally, I switched to another mobile phone and got through.

"Why did you leave by yourself?" Zhou Xu asked anxiously.

"Hmm...I remembered something to do...so I'm going first..." Eyelids are so heavy...

Zhou Xu went to the company early in the morning and knew that Fang Zhou had asked for leave, and he was not in the staff dormitory, "Are you at An Feng's place? I want to make something clear to you. I'll be at your place right away. Come down."

"I'm so tired, I'm sleeping... Can we talk about it tomorrow?" Fang Zhou said anything to prevaricate him, hoping that he would not come over.

"Fang Zhou, I want to say, I am serious, I will be responsible for you, I can wait, but I will not forcefully intervene between you and An Feng, I understand your feelings for him, you don't have to worry about what happened yesterday. "

When Zhou Xu arrived at the company early in the morning, he changed cars with Li Bai and asked Li Bai to repair the Bentley.Driving the company's black Mercedes, he turned around and went directly to Fang Zhou's house, "Besides, if I caused a misunderstanding between you, I would like to help you explain it to him. I will not take advantage of others. If you didn't fall in love with me, I I will never force you."

"Zhou Xu... I'm sorry... I know you are very good to me, and I am very grateful for your care for me these past few months. However, I don't think it is possible for me to be with you in my life..." Fang Zhou could no longer control his consciousness "In the next life, I will..."

"What? What are you talking about in your next life? Ark?" Zhou Xu thought he had a bad signal when he heard the broken words, "Hello? Can you hear me? I'll call back."

I hung up the phone and called again, but no one answered.

There is something wrong with Li Bai's phone!Thinking of Zhou Xu throwing Li Bai's cell phone in the back seat, then picked up his cell phone and continued to call Fang Zhou, but no one answered.

The car had already driven to the downstairs of the ark, and Zhou Xu rushed up directly.

When they got to the door, Zhou Xu thought, if they go in like this, will they have some misunderstanding again?After thinking about it, the phone was disconnected just now, if it was An Feng who cut it off, then Fang Zhou must be in danger again now!

He thinks it's better to call Fang Zhou first.

Called through, still no one answered.

The sound insulation effect of the wooden door is not very good, and the ringing of Ark's mobile phone can be clearly heard from the other side of the door.

The mobile phone was in the room, and the conversation was cut off just now, and now there is no one to answer it, Zhou Xu panicked for no reason, and then began to knock hard on the door.

"Fang Zhou, are you inside?" Zhou Xu shouted while knocking on the door, but there was no movement inside.

"Is there anyone in there?"

Called the phone again, and there was another ringtone.

In addition, the quietness inside made people mad, Zhou Xu didn't dare to think too much, and kicked the door open.

Without barriers, the ringtone of Ark's mobile phone became extremely clear and piercing.

One room and one living room, less than forty square meters, Zhou Xu saw the weak body lying on the bed at a small glance.

The light during the day was very good, and the ark just lay flat in front of him quietly.

His face was pale, his lips were white, and his clothes were disheveled, as if he had used too much force on his back.His forehead had been bumped and was bruised, and there were obvious marks of being beaten on his face.

The cut wound on Fang Zhou's left wrist, the blood flowing out, has already stained a large piece of bed sheet red, his right hand is placed next to his ear, and beside him is the mobile phone that was still ringing just now when his palm slipped off the bed.

"Ark..." Zhou Xu covered his mouth and dared not vent his anger.

Looking around, the messy room and the open cabinet door all told the fact that An Feng had left.

Zhou Xu shook his head to wake himself up.

Immediately pulled off the tie and fastened Fang Zhou's left wrist, then picked up Fang Zhou and ran downstairs.

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I can't remember how I sent him to the emergency room, I just know that I woke up the whole floor of the hospital just now.

Zhou Xu sat outside the emergency room, looking at the light on the door, thinking a lot.

He didn't want to intervene in the emotional world between Fang Zhou and An Feng, but even though he respected Fang Zhou's choice, Fang Zhou was still raped by An Feng, and then committed suicide for An Feng.

He didn't dare to imagine that if Fang Zhou came in one step later, would Fang Zhou even disappear with his weak exhalation.

The lights went out, and the doctor pushed the ark out into the intensive care unit.

"The patient lost a lot of blood and is very weak now, but his life is not in danger. You can go to the ward to rest and wait for him to wake up."

Zhou Xu said many thanks, and told the doctor to use the best imported medicine.

Walking to the ward, Zhou Xu had the urge to kill An Feng all the way.

He didn't go anywhere. Zhou Xu was lying on the hospital bed. He thought a lot. It turned out that Fang Zhou really couldn't survive without An Feng... and Fang Zhou was willing to die, and he didn't accept the unknown future with me... This can only be Explain, I will never walk into his world...

Before he committed suicide, he said sorry to me because he felt that he couldn't respond to my feelings, so he felt sorry...

Fool, I won't force you.If I feel burdened, I can walk away...

Thinking about Fang Zhou, he stayed up all night until seven o'clock the next morning, when the nurse pushed some instruments in and said that the patient could leave the intensive care unit and transfer to the ward, so Zhou Xu got up quickly and followed suit.

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