love healing

Ark, ark, can you hold on?Fang Zhou asked himself.

I shouldn't have dragged An Feng to Chongqing in the first place, it was really tiring...

Both love and life are not easy things, and it is also at a loss to try our best.

An Feng, are you desperate for me?Are you going to give up on me?

Then can I think about nothing, don't care, and live alone in this still unfamiliar city like a walking dead...

We can't go back, my sky is dark, my world is falling apart...

Now all I have left is this filthy body...

I am no longer an ark of pride...

I am a dirty and inferior Ark...

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Fang Zhou opened his eyes weakly, with tears still hanging from the corners of his eyes.

Looking at Zhou Xu sitting beside the bed, Fang Zhou opened his mouth, and said a few words dully, "I want to take a bath."

Zhou Xu stared blankly at the haggard face of the little man on the bed. Is this the first thing you said when you woke up?

Yes, pure you, how can you not mind it.

Zhou Xu touched Fang Zhou's forehead distressedly. He still had a fever, "The family doctor came to see you just now and gave you anti-inflammatory drugs. I wiped your body, um... don't worry... it was cleaned very well."

Fang Zhou frowned obviously, even you stabbed me in the back when I didn't know?Is there still...residue... A nausea welled up in his throat, causing Fang Zhou to rush to the edge of the bed, "Uh---" and spit out all over the floor.

Eating early at night, there is nothing in the stomach except stomach acid.The viscous liquid gushed out, and Zhou Xu, who was dressed in home clothes and slippers, was not spared.

While patting Fang Zhou's back, Zhou Xu pulled the pillow and put it on the head of the bed, then helped Fang Zhou to lean on the head of the bed.

"I'm sorry." Fang Zhou rubbed his eyes, he blamed himself, he didn't want to trouble Zhou Xu, although it was enough trouble for him.

Zhou Xu took the towel and wiped Fang Zhou's mouth gently and carefully, "Do you want some hot water?"

Feeling uncomfortable in the stomach, Fang Zhou nodded slightly, "Mm, good."

Zhou Xu wiped his pajama pants and slippers with the towel that Ark had wiped his mouth. After wiping the stains on his face to make sure that they would not be trampled everywhere, Zhou Xu turned around and walked to the restaurant, and brought in a glass of warm water.

When handing the water to Fang Zhou, Zhou Xu asked softly, "Can I drink it myself?"

The hot water passed into the palm of the hand through the glass, and Fang Zhou's heart also warmed up. He smiled reluctantly at Zhou Xu, "My hand is not broken."

You can still joke, Zhou Xu thought, this shows that at least Fang Zhou's mental state is normal.

Zhou Xu watched Fang Zhou drink water slowly while changing his dirty clothes.It's really beautiful. With the action of swallowing water, Fang Zhou's small Adam's apple goes up and down, which is very sexy.When it's over, the pores are instantly opened, and the nerves are numb to the scalp.

Rationally told myself, don't watch it, don't watch it, how can you have desire at this time, you should be calm and calm.Zhou Xu squatted down quickly, and used the towel on the ground to simply wipe up the dirt that Fang Zhou spit just now, then rolled it into the rag and took it to the kitchen to clean it up.

After wiping the floor clean, Zhou Xu brought another basin and put it on the bedside of Fang Zhou to prevent Fang Zhou from feeling uncomfortable again.

Taking the water glass in Fang Zhou's hand, "Do you still want it?"

Fang Zhou shook his head, with a calm and gentle face, "You are very suitable for marriage, whoever follows you must be very happy."

Zhou Xu leaned against Fang Zhou, put his arms around his shoulders, and said half-jokingly, "Do you want to try? I won't make you regret it~"

At this moment, Fang Zhou couldn't be in the mood to joke with him, and sighed, "Zhou Xu, I want to take a bath."

"Okay, I'll put the water in." Zhou Xu stood up after saying that.

After a while Zhou Xu filled the bathtub with water, went back to the room and helped Fang Zhou up, "Can you stand up?"

As soon as he stood up, the severe pain in his lower body almost made Fang Zhou faint.Fang Zhou pushed forward, and Zhou Xu quickly supported his body with his arms.Fang Zhou gritted his teeth, supported the wall next to him and said, "It's okay." But his face became paler obviously.

Zhou Xu really couldn't stand Fang Zhou being so brave, so he hugged Fang Zhou by the waist, looked him in the eyes, "You don't need to be brave in front of me."

There was sincerity in Zhou Xu's eyes, how could anyone refuse him.

"Yeah." Fang Zhou put his arms around Zhou Xu's neck and let him carry him to the bathroom.

Zhou Xu put a stool beside the bathtub, then hugged Fang Zhou to sit on the stool, "Shall I take it off for you?"

Fang Zhou grabbed his collar, blushing up to his ears with embarrassment, "Zhou Xu, are we friends?"

Sighing, Zhou Xu nodded helplessly, "Well, they are friends."

"Thank you." Fang Zhou lowered his head slowly, not daring to look into Zhou Xu's eyes.

After taking off his clothes, Zhou Xu carried the little man into the water and sat down.Seeing the shocking scars on the little man's body again, Zhou Xu felt a pain like being stabbed by a knife in his heart.

"Towels and toothbrushes are at hand, and this row of toiletries can be used. When the water is cold, heat the water," Zhou Xu said, pointing to the handle switch. "The left side is hot water, and the right side is cold water. Well, call me after washing." Just about to turn around and turn around, "Call me if you need anything, I'm right outside the door."

Fang Zhou nodded and watched Zhou Xu close the door.

At that moment, the tears burst.

Sitting in the warm water, looking at the bruises all over his body, Fang Zhou cried and scrubbed his body with a towel, I am so dirty, I am so ugly...

The process of being gang-raped by three men until he passed out was repeated in his mind over and over again like a movie.

His mouth was so dirty, Fang Zhou took the toothbrush and brushed vigorously until his gums hurt.

There is a disgusting smell of saliva on the neck, and there are marks all over the body, I want to wipe them all off!

Fang Zhou cried silently, wiped his whole body with a towel, but still felt unclean, Fang Zhou used a toothbrush to brush the bruised place again.

It would be nice if it was dead, no matter how ugly or dirty, no one would see it.It's not that no one has seen it, and I don't have to feel ashamed anymore.

Why did this happen... Fang Zhou didn't understand, he was fine yesterday, commuting to and from get off work as usual, but in a blink of an eye, his identity changed drastically before he realized it.

What qualifications do I have to love proudly, what qualifications do I have to receive love... I have nothing... I abandoned everything and came to this strange city, and now I have nothing, I even lost myself, what is left...

As if losing the sense of pain, Fang Zhou carefully brushed the red and swollen bruises on his body.After brushing, looking at the red body, Fang Zhou cried again, but there was no improvement at all, maybe it was a hallucination, Fang Zhou always felt that he was exuding a strong stench.

Where is the root?Ark finally figured it out.

As if obsessed, she poked the toothbrush into her back, and then began to thrust and turn.

It's so dirty, it's so dirty there, how can I become the clean me before...

I really can't go back...

I am obviously a man...why should I be raped...

It hurts, does it mean that the dirt has been brushed off?

Yes, sure, I want to clean it!

Fang Zhou poked his back back and forth, letting the brush head torture his inner wall continuously.

"Ark? Have you finished washing?"

There was no answer in the bathroom.

After so long, Fang Zhou still didn't call him, so Zhou Xu put his ear to the door, listening to the movement inside.

Fang Zhou was crying, crying loudly.

"ark?"

Fang Zhou seemed unable to hear Zhou Xu's call, and still did not answer.

Zhou Xu decided to check that the door was not locked, so he slowly turned the handle and pushed the door in.

"Ark..." I couldn't believe my eyes.

The moment Zhou Xu opened the door and walked in, what caught Zhou Xu's eyes was a vat of blood. Fang Zhou was leaning in the bathtub, tearing and stabbing his backyard repeatedly with a toothbrush.

gosh...

"What are you doing?!" Zhou Xu shouted.

Seeing Zhou Xu rushing towards him, Fang Zhou immediately yelled in fear, "Get out! Get out!"

Apparently Zhou Xu couldn't help Fang Zhou messing around, drained the water in the bathtub, picked up his drenched body, and pushed him onto the stool.

Fang Zhou struggled, cried and screamed like crazy, and pushed Zhou Xu hard.Zhou Xu's clothes were already half wet, and when he suddenly saw that Fang Zhou was still holding a bloody toothbrush, Zhou Xu was really angry. He reached out to grab the toothbrush and pulled it out forcefully.

Fang Zhou held on to the toothbrush, and Zhou Xu pulled the toothbrush out of Fang Zhou's hand with all his strength, and threw it into the trash can next to the toilet with a "bang" sound.

Fang Zhou was taken aback, and was instantly quieted down.

Zhou Xu was going crazy, turned on the shower and took the shower head, let Fang Zhou sit on the small bench, and washed him clean from head to toe.

Fang Zhou just sat naked and curled up on the small stool with his head down, like a primary school student who made a mistake.

Zhou Xu opened the bath towel, wrapped Ark in it, and started to wipe his hair.

Anger overwhelmed his reason, and his rude wiping action hurt Fang Zhou's ears.

"Ah." Fang Zhou couldn't help crying out from the pain.

Zhou Xu realized that his hands were heavy, so he stopped quickly.

Seeing that Fang Zhou was still staring blankly at the ground, Zhou Xu began to wipe again.

After drying Ark's face, he was no longer crying, but his eyes were filled with fear and panic.

Looking at such eyes, Zhou Xu's heart throbbed again.

Zhou Xu wrapped the towel around Fang Zhou, squatted in front of him, looked into his eyes, and asked as softly as possible, "Why are you doing this?"

Zhou Xu was taken aback by his extremely hoarse voice.

Fang Zhou raised his head slowly, looked seriously into Zhou Xu's eyes, and whispered, "I'm dirty."

Zhou Xu's eyes were also red, and he supported Fang Zhou's shoulders, his voice was a little close to his breath, but he still wanted to emphasize, "You are not dirty."

Fang Zhou opened his innocent eyes even wider, "Did I clean it?"

Zhou Xu suddenly felt that his heart couldn't bear the load, and he hugged Fang Zhou heavily, "Well, it's clean."

Fang Zhou was redeemed. He fell into Zhou Xu's arms and said cautiously, "That's good... that's good... I've worked very hard... very hard..."

"I know." Zhou Xu held Fang Zhou back and forth and stroked the thin back of the little man in his arms, "I know..."

Fang Zhou nodded, just nestled in Zhou Xu's arms without moving.

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