Hedgehog

I drove around the city for an hour. At first, I was a little apprehensive, but then I simply opened the car window, held the cigarette between my fingers and let the wind blow on the window. I drove all the way, and my face was blown. People are not born with a peaceful and stable state of mind. When they are good, they are still positive, but it is easy to give up on themselves.Needless to say how important the hand is to a guitar player, a simple bruise is enough to kill. My master Zhang Xiao taught me the first guitar lesson when I couldn't fight back.Huangshan Band had a guitarist before him, but someone cut his tendon in a fight, and now he can only play a custom-made left-handed piano.

From this point of view, it was actually a wrong decision for my master to choose me as an apprentice. A person like me can’t be called persevering, and I can’t bow my head. The best way is to start looking for an apprentice and count on him to be successful - just like my master did back then.

In fact, I've already tried it once, otherwise I wouldn't have met Fu Yong.

It may be a bit ridiculous to say this now, but before today, I really never thought that I would not be able to impress Jian Ke at all in the end.I thought he would be moved by me like Huang Qi or Ye Xiao, even if he was like Yin Xi.

It seems that I still think highly of myself.

When I drove home, there were very few vehicles on the road, and the lights at home were on, so Ji Rongfu should be back.

I sat down on a bench across the garden and looked quietly at the windows of my house.

I don't know why I'm sitting here, I just know I don't want to go home just yet.

It was very cold outside and the wind was blowing all the time. After I finished smoking three cigarettes outside, I was so cold that I couldn't feel the cold. I stood up and rubbed my face, ready to go home.

Just then, the door opened.

Under the light of the porch, Ji Rongfu walked out while putting on his overcoat, holding the car keys in his hand. I guess he was going to look for me, because when he looked up and saw me sitting on the opposite bench, he was startled for a moment, then smiled up.

He strode towards me.

"You," he sighed, and covered my shoulders with the coat he just put on, and reached out to hold my face. I hid for a while and didn't dodge it. Probably because the wind has been blowing for too long, my face is already frozen I feel even more hot in his palm, almost burning my skin.Inside his coat was a shirt, and his tie had been untied, showing warmth from the thin fabric.

The heat surged up, my eyes were a little swollen, and I quickly lowered my head.

Ji Rongfu sensed something was wrong.

"What's wrong?" The smile in his voice disappeared, and he reached out to touch my hair: "It's Jian Ke..."

"Don't ask." I lowered my head and pressed my forehead against his shoulder, ignoring the chills in my body: "Don't ask anything, don't do anything. Just let me lean for a while."

Ji Rongfu stretched out his arms and hugged me, he didn't speak for a long time, and after a long time, he said "yes" softly.

I smelled the good smell of grass and trees on his body. The winter in this city is so chilling. I walked too far in this winter, and I was almost frozen.I had to stop like a coward and slow down so I could move on fearlessly the next spring.

When I was young, I didn't understand what it meant to spend the rest of my life with another person. I didn't like kids. I could take care of myself. Most of the time, I was more comfortable being alone. I wanted to write songs, and I said If it is, laymen may not understand it.

But maybe it is because there is a warm person who you can hug in such a cold late night, as long as he asks "what's the matter" softly, your tears will roll down hot.

I can't be the king of singers, I can't even be a famous singer, the entertainment industry is a beautiful glass ball, infinitely exciting, full of flowers, people who can't find the way to get in can only be like headless chickens Blindly crawling around on the surface of this glass ball, I don't believe in evil, I tried to bump into it again and again, but failed every time, and my head was bleeding.

I can't be Nie Xingqiu anymore, my songs, one after another written in the middle of the night, will only be sold to one good singer after another, Ye Zhen, Chen Jing, Ni Jing... But they can't sing My song, no one can sing my song but myself.

But I couldn’t release my own album, the best manager, the best producer rejected me one by one, maybe I should spend all my savings on an album, but what about publicity?I can't break the bottom line to invite the sailors and waste a bunch of good songs.

Ji Rongfu is the kind of person who keeps his promises extremely, so I believe that it was Yin Xi who made me enter the X-League and not him.I told him not to ask, but he really didn't ask, and just led me back home quietly.The home is still very warm, with warm yellow lights, the heat of coffee, the bright living room, and Ji Rongfu's gentle eyes, it's like a dream.

The only person who can destroy this dream is me.

Every day after this, maybe Ji Rongfu will patiently wait for me to go home, but I can't stay outside every day until the negative energy in my body dissipates, maybe next time I will be as angry as all the people who got angry outside rushing back...

But I don’t have the energy to think about it anymore, probably because of the wind. The more I think about it, the more I feel tired. At least I don’t want to think about these things tonight. I just want to sleep well tonight, and I’d better have a drink Alcohol, I'll think about the rest when I wake up.

I sat in the living room, glass in hand, wrapped in a blanket, staring at the fire in the fireplace.

"Are you eating?"

Even Ji Rongfu didn't expect my thinking to jump like this, but he has always been used to me: "Okay."

Aunt Xu has already fallen asleep, but she was going to make it by herself. Wash her hands and go into the kitchen to fry rice. The shrimp oil is fried until fragrant. Golden egg liquid is wrapped on each grain of rice. Minced chives, when the light shines, this bowl of egg fried rice is almost glowing, I handed Ji Rongfu a spoon, and the two of them sat quietly in the kitchen and ate a portion of fried rice, afraid of getting tired, with Jerusalem artichoke and pickled cucumber, finger-thick , crisp and refreshing.

I went out at nine o'clock in the morning, and I ate a pancake, fruit and a bowl of vermicelli. The rest of the time was either recording or in the car.

Ji Rongfu didn't eat much at all, he just accompanied me. When I ate too fast, he poured water for me and touched my head. I raised my head to look at him blankly, with rice grains in the corner of my mouth, but the expression in his eyes suddenly changed. It got complicated, and I reached out to wipe off the rice grains for me.

The last time I saw this look in other people's eyes was when my mother remarried and I went to find her and came back. It was already late at night, and my grandma didn't say anything. Watching me eat from the side, it was the same at that time, I gobbled it up, and her eyes were filled with distress.

Maybe it's a good thing to break up with Jian Ke this time. It doesn't make sense that everything goes well for me alone. If I'm too lucky, I will be struck by lightning.

Not everyone in this world can meet their own Ji Rongfu.

Probably because I set up FLAG last night. The next day I woke up with a bad cold, sore throat, headache, and blurred eyes. The scallop seafood porridge that Aunt Xu made for breakfast had stewed meat porridge for me. , The shredded ginger was cut as thin as a hair, and I put it in a pile, but I couldn't smell or taste it at all.

Ji Rongfu gave himself a vacation and stayed with me at home. Several assistants at home came and went, all of them were quiet. I went to the kitchen to find lemon leaves to make water for drinking. I saw Zhou Jin and Yang Yue meeting there. I don’t know. What to say, the three of them looked at each other in blank dismay, I tried to resolve the embarrassment, and showed them the cup in my hand: "Do you want a drink?"

The family doctor came quickly and said it was a viral flu, I didn't have a bad fever, just my head started to go heavy, I felt a little nauseous, the blood test results came back, antibiotics were started, I fell asleep and woke up dizzy When I found Ji Rongfu standing by my bed, seeing me wake up, he reached out to touch my hair and smiled quietly at me.

I was sick for three days and felt very uncomfortable. I didn't want to eat at all. After taking a lot of medicine, my mouth felt bitter.I was so sick that I felt dizzy for a whole day. I actually had a premonition, because I was too busy last month, the X League recorded with the masked singer at the same time, and there was also my own food show. Everything is fine, the key is the masquerade singer who arranges the music, one game a week, like being chased and bitten by a dog, I want to get Jian Ke’s approval so much, I often hide and stay up late to arrange the music, I actually feel that my body is weak, I know There must be a serious illness waiting.

People like me who don’t believe in anyone should never be sick. Suffering is a trivial matter. The key is insecurity. I feel like I’m going to faint from the fever, and I can’t sleep well. I looked for my phone and asked what time it was, every time Ji Rongfu stood by and patiently comforted me.

Jian Ke is serious about subduing me. When I woke up, I looked at my phone once and there was a text message from him. The main idea is that I need to make a good balance. If I can't even let go of the grievances with Yin Xi, it means that my dream is in my heart. The weight in the heart is too light.

I just deleted it.

There is such a genius who plays with the rules in this world. If you cooperate as equals and don’t play, he will set the rules for you first. If you don’t kneel down to him, it means that you are not responsible for your dreams.It's really interesting.

It's a pity that I'm sick and I can't teach him these principles of life anymore.

When I got sick, my willpower was weak. I always dreamed about my childhood. Every time I dreamed, I was beaten back to my original shape. I completely forgot that I had grown up. I dreamed that I was fighting with others in elementary school. Participating in a competition in Shanghai... I was in that state of mind. I don’t even remember that there was Ji Rongfu. Once I dreamed about my grandma, and I forgot that she was dead in the dream. It was very pitiful to wake up.

It was the third or fourth day of my illness, and it was late at night when I woke up, probably because the cold virus destroyed my defenses, or the way Ji Rongfu leaned over and touched my forehead was so good that I even started chatting with him.

I told him about my childhood, how naughty I was when I was young, I told him that my grandma would fry delicious shiitake mushroom slices, that she used a small cloth bag for money, and that she was very worried about me going to the river to take a bath when I was a child , Calling my name over and over again along the ridge.I said that if I can, I want to stay by her side until I grow up, but she is getting old so fast. The night before my aunt took me away, she stayed up all night and made a winter coat for me.I said Ji Rongfu, am I cold-blooded, she was so kind to me, but she was still angry with her when I left, I thought she didn't want me anymore, so I kept watching her on the platform until I got on the train Disappeared in my field of vision, still did not shed a tear.

That was the last time I saw her.

I said Ji Rongfu, I am such a cold and selfish person, if you like me so much, you will definitely suffer in the future, so everyone breaks up as soon as possible to save a lot of bad stories.

However, when Ji Rongfu heard this, he still lowered his head and mixed the porridge for me.

He said: "As for the sick person, I don't care about you. If I hear the words 'one shot, two parts' from your mouth in the future, I guarantee that you will spend more time in bed than this time." To be long."

Maybe it was because of Ji Rongfu's words that I broke out into a cold sweat, but the next day I felt a little better, and I stopped being miserable, and started to act like a bully.

In fact, it is Ji Rongfu's fault. This guy has never served patients before, and his technique is very clumsy. Every time he wakes me up, feeds me food and medicine, I have no appetite. If you don't want to eat it, just pretend to be dead.

Ji Rongfu had no choice but to ask me what I want to eat. I must eat shepherd's purse wonton.

Shepherd's purse is a real seasonal wild vegetable. When spring comes, it is all over the ground. It looks like it can't be eaten. In fact, it will be old one day later. When I was young, I always went to dig shepherd's purse with my grandma, pick Malan head, wolfberry sprouts, pea tips, fern Vegetables and bamboo shoots. When I was a child, I had a weird personality and was a little autistic. I dug wild vegetables all afternoon, buried my head and didn’t say a word, and several mountains were almost bald by me.

My grandma can make very good shepherd's purse wontons. Shepherd's purse is very oily, so it is very fragrant. You have to mix it with minced lean meat, the kind with a little fat, not too much, put a little salt and sesame oil, it can't Overwhelm the fragrance of the shepherd's purse, the thinner the wonton skin, the better, as thin as paper, cooked, floating in the clear soup like a cloud, the soup should be clear chicken soup, skimmed the oil, put dried shrimp head Refreshing, so clear that you can see the blue and white longevity characters on the bottom of the bowl.

Aunt Xu made all kinds of porridge, made egg custard, and boiled the big bones all night to make noodle soup, but I just want to eat a shepherd's purse wonton.

But I just yelled, I knew it was freezing and snowy outside, and I couldn't find shepherd's purse anywhere, but I was so ill that I couldn't help myself if I didn't do anything.

The next morning I woke up hungry and wanted to eat Aunt Xu’s porridge with vegetable puree. As a result, a bowl of shepherd’s purse wonton was served. The skin was too thin and too much, like a show off. The way to eat it in my impression, but when you bite down on the plump meat filling, it is indeed fragrant with shepherd's purse.Ji Rongfu stood beside him smiling softly, and I frowned and commented: "It's not bad, it's passable."

I obediently ate a whole serving of shepherd's purse wontons, because I didn't need to record recently, so I added chili oil and drank the fresh soup.

I got better from that day on. After being sick for a whole week, I have probably recovered from my cold, but I still have a faint cough. Aunt Xu has been stewing Chuanbei pears for me, stewing various soups that nourish yin and lungs. I don't want to go, the air is sweet.

I started to stay on the second floor. Ji Rongfu didn’t know when he quietly installed a standard piano room. There was a Steinway piano in the middle, which was pure black. Technique, you can play it if you have nothing to do. I can be regarded as an absolute sense of pitch that I have trained the day after tomorrow. The result of that year of hell training.

The piano is very cool to play, but it is annoying to practice, and the violin is the same. I only know how to play the erhu, but not the violin. Ji Rongfu’s piano room is not for me. Moving them all over would probably scare Ji Rongfu.

Ji Rongfu started to get busy when I recovered from my illness. He was busy supervising me to take medicine during this time. There should be a lot of backlogs. It started to snow heavily outside. Zhou Jin and Yang Yue often came late at night to deliver documents, or together with Ji Rongfu. When I came back, the porch was covered with snow footprints. Zhou Jin and I were nodding acquaintances, and Yang Yue was a little familiar, so I often entertained her with Chuanbei pears, and tricked her into helping me drink the loquat cream that Aunt Xu made for me.

Ji Rongfu is the kind of person who doesn't bring problems home, which is good. I once saw him and Zhou Jin smoking on the porch, I don't know what they were talking about, and after talking, they walked in, took off their coats, and drank coffee , with a smile in his eyes again.Except for the last time I ran to find Yuan Rui, I have never seen him look gloomy again. In fact, he has a particularly clear and noble aura, and he should have a special beauty when he turns black.

Besides, Ji Rongfu has amazing self-control. It is precisely because he has everything, so the occasional forbearance is particularly beautiful. I know that my illness has frightened him, and I will not touch me in a short time, so I often die in front of him. , naked, sitting on the bed with my guitar in my arms, actually I was able to play during this time, every time he looked at me with his lips pursed, and his deep amber eyes looked deep, I knew he was going to settle accounts after autumn .

It’s almost New Year’s Day, it’s so cold, I’ve been hiding at home all day, I’ve never worn a sweater, I’m really relaxed, the X League is going to give way to SV’s New Year’s Eve party, and I’m going to borrow Jian Ke, so the recording is suspended for two weeks Actually, if I really endured the humiliation and joined Yin Xi's company, Jian Ke would have to come out of SV station. Although the program can still be done, SV station may feel that there is a bolt from the blue, so think about it this way, SV station should really thank me.

I really can't think of what to do next. I used to be young and energetic, thinking that there is everything if there is a good work, but then I gradually realized that every "suddenly popular" work in this circle has a professional team and excellent people behind it. pusher.I wrote a song called "Crazy", which is a good song, and I spent my own money to enter the recording studio to record it. Now there are still many bands running on the field, screaming the high notes of the chorus, and they have also been sung on talent shows. , but the song is neither popular nor popular, and the madness in my body is almost gone after singing this song.Later, I stopped keeping the songs and gave away all the good ones. Chen Jing Yezhen has sung many of my songs, and Lin Xiaobai is added. These three people can sing well and will not be ruined.Ni Jing's music taste is actually a bit outdated. One proof is that her own new album is not good, but every time she sings Chen Jing's songs with Chen Jing at the party, they are overwhelmingly popular, because after all, her voice is there.

It’s also good to continue to work behind the scenes, don’t have to think about things, write a song and sell it, and throw it out, don’t worry about it, and don’t worry about it.

But my head was probably sick, and I had no inspiration for half a month, not even a short melody, and it was completely blank.I almost wondered if I had run out of talents.

Fortunately, someone soon came to divert my attention. A week before New Year's Day, Ji Rongze called and asked me if I wanted to go over for dinner.

It was noon at that time, Ji Rongfu was at work, and Aunt Xu was stewing mutton soup. I was considering whether to fry tofu with minced beef and bean paste, when the phone rang.

"Someone brought me a honeydew melon from Japan, would you like to have lunch?"

I'm really amazed at Ji Rongze's season.

"The weather was quite warm last time. You didn't eat honeydew melon but puffer fish. Now it's the season of puffer fish soup and rice, and you started to eat summer melon again. It's really strange."

"No way," Ji Rongze also laughed softly over there: "There is no time in the mountains, and the cold is so cold that you don't know the years."

This person's mind is really smaller than a needle. He remembered my slip of the tongue for almost half a year.

"I'm going to have dinner here too. I'll go there with Ji Rongfu in the evening."

"Rong Fu has been busy with SE's M&A case recently, so he doesn't have time for dinner."

"What is SE?" I wondered.

"A foreign car company, Rong Fu bought the production lines of several brands together." Ji Rongze ordered: "Don't you have time to eat wagyu sukiyaki?"

I couldn't help but started to swallow my saliva.

"What's so good about sukiyaki, but I can't drink soup," I said stubbornly, "Besides, I just ate eel rice two days ago, so I'm not interested in Japanese food for the time being."

"Coincidentally, the master here is Saotome Tetsuya's apprentice, and he can also make conger eel tempura and matsutake." Ji Rongze always knew how to seduce me.

"Don't lie to me, how can there be any good matsutake this season?"

"Really?" Ji Rongze laughed: "Where do you think the shepherd's purse wonton you ate came from?"

I completely surrendered, changed my clothes and prepared to go out. Before going out, I specially filled a bowl of mutton soup, pretending to have eaten it, so as not to hurt Aunt Xu.Unexpectedly, it was snowing outside, and the coat was completely useless, so I simply changed into a down jacket.In fact, I am quite annoyed by Ji Rongze. He is different from Ji Rongfu. He always has a tendency to treat me as a child or mentally handicapped. Anyway, he regards me as an adult who is on par with him. At the beginning, Ji Rongfu had a pile of clothes at his place. I see it.

But there is still something to eat.