Hedgehog

After dinner, it was already 10:30 in the evening. Today's game was finally over, and the next step was to go to bed in twos. The program team still didn't completely abandon the bottom line. They arranged two single beds, each sleeping in its own room. Five cameras, two on the bedside, two on the ceiling, and one on the sink in the bathroom.

For the time being, I don't want to go back to be a giant panda and be surrounded by people. Standing outside the corridor, I don't bring a cigarette, and I don't want to smoke. It seems a bit silly to stand like this.The place I live in is the Garden Hotel, the scenery is pretty good, there are rockery and pavilions, and yellow leaves falling all over the ground.

Lu Yan felt telepathic with me. I just stood there for a few minutes, and he came over before I felt cold.

"Do you mind?" he asked me with a cigarette between his fingers.

"Just don't drift towards me."

It seems that he really doesn’t intend to sing anymore, he’s smoking cigarettes, he’s actually very straight, almost sharp, I suddenly think of who he looks like now, he’s like Keanu Reeves when he was young, not in The Matrix That one is the one in Hell Detective, because the lines on his face are too clean, so he doesn't look depraved no matter how he smokes, let alone playing the oily old smoker Constantine.

However, domestic magazines always say that he looks like Christian Bale. Some people are good-looking, but that kind of good-looking is like a piece of white paper. There is no good-looking content. Nose is nose and eyes are eyes. It's over, it's suitable to be an idol like Max.There is a story behind Lu Yan's good looks. His eyes are deep, and the black pupils seem to hide stars. Acting in an idol drama is like a literary film.He is a little less tough and more beautiful than European and American male stars, but among these smeared young students in China, he is already superior to others.

He is wearing a black windbreaker jacket, tall and handsome, because he is tall, he looks very slender, even though he is wearing clothes for recording programs, he does not look frivolous, quietly looking at the long string of lanterns on the corridor, hanging cigarettes between his fingers Right.

Lu Yan's lips are extremely thin, but they have a beautiful curve. When they are tight, they really look like Batman, with a kind of indifference that sees through everything.

If smoking hadn't hindered the public image he had been building all along, if he recorded it and put it on the Internet, there must be a bunch of people below who wanted to give birth to him.

"Thanks for today's matter." I didn't say much.

"It's just a small matter." He is still the same, flicking the cigarette ash and avoiding the bluegrass under the eaves, his fingers are slender, and his expression is indifferent: "You are fine, don't mess with Zhou Lu."

"I know. Nie Yuan."

Everyone came from Huatian, and they knew what kind of bad situation there was. As the only heir of the Nie family, Nie Yuan was also someone who had met Nie Xingqiu and Zhou Zixiang, so it was somewhat eye-opening.I've always guessed that he didn't really like Zhou Lu that much at all, but just wanted to disgust Yin Xi.Yin Xi probably killed his whole family in his previous life, no matter how hard he worked for him, he couldn't get a good name for him.Nie Yuan has always been keen to destroy what Yin Xi wanted to build, such as max, such as the girl group after min89, such as Huatian...

But having said that, everyone said that Yin Xi was a lowly man, and he was reluctant to betray him after being treated like this by the Nie family.

Those who are reluctant to leave Yin Xi are even more humble.

I can't look down on this, anyway, the top two stylists in China, Huatian had two civil strife, people who Yin Xi valued were insulted by Nie Yuan, and they were all coaxed back after Yin Xidao apologized one by one.

In the first half of this year, Huatian was in chaos again. Yin Xi was demoted to the bottom and didn't show up in the company for several months. Nie Yuan sent a follower down, who was also a stallion. All the trainees of the girl group that Yin Xi prepared were all sleeping They were all kicked out, otherwise I wouldn't have met them in Beijing.

I am a person who does not like to look back on the past, nor do I want to meet old acquaintances.If there are no accidents, I will never return to City S in this life.

However, Lu Yan's understanding of Huatian is obviously not as deep as mine.

"It's not just this." He persuaded me with a cigarette between his fingers: "A gentleman should not stand under a dangerous wall."

I laughed.

"I'm a gentleman too?"

Lu Yan turned his eyes to look at me.People with beautiful eyes will believe everything they say.

"I think you are."

What a compliment.

"Thank you." I walked towards the residence and waved to him without looking back: "Sleep, good night."

"Good night."

The next day is still early to get up at six o'clock.

There is no heating in Suzhou, the temperature is only [-] degrees, everything around is icy and astringent, there is a thin layer of frost on the corridor outside the window, and it was trampled by the program crew in a mess. I remembered that when I was young, my hometown was not far from here, in the countryside of northern Jiangsu, It can be regarded as three mountains, four waters and one field, with layers of bamboo forests. When I got up in the winter morning, my mother lit a raging fire in the firepit. I have a sister who is two years older than me. I ran to the fire pond to warm up the fire, laughing and playing.

I have never had such a warm winter since I grew up.

Memories are good memories, but it’s a pity that it will turn sour when I say it. It is said that I now have millions of fans on Weibo, and they all call me a little goblin, and cut me and Lu Yan.

Ye Zhen and I used to tell jokes while drinking wine, and what we talked about would lose all atmosphere in an instant when we talked about it in bed.

When these words are spoken, the fans will be stunned in an instant.It's like asking the king of heaven, Jin Yunsen, to come on stage and say that he lived with a family of nine and seven brothers and sisters on a fishing boat in Chaozhou, wearing worn-out shoes worn by his brother, and his mother went to the vegetable market every day to pick up vegetables and leaves to eat.Even if the fans said "so inspiring" and "so touching" with tears in their eyes at the time, if they fantasize about him in a suit and leather shoes as a domineering president in the future, it will inevitably feel a sense of disobedience.

So only those who have really reached the position of the king of heaven can talk about these things.Nowadays, these popular little fresh meats and young idols are all boasting about how beautiful their resumes are.A schoolmaster at every turn, a rich young master, a mixed race...

In fact, how can there be so many princes in the entertainment industry, and China has only been lifted out of poverty for more than ten years.Qi Chu, the most handsome, lived with Xiao Lin in the basement, ate instant noodles, and was too poor to take the bus.Ye Lan has a gambling mother who lives a dissolute private life, and her cheap father has a lot of money.Even Xia Yi, who is now popular, is said to be a Sunshine School Grass. When she got plastic surgery for her debut, didn't her nose swell like a pig's head?

Although Yin Xi is stupid, there is a saying that is true, the entertainment industry is a place where dreams are made.

The stars in this circle seem to have flesh and blood and are within reach, but in fact each one is just a matrix carrying parasites. What the audience is obsessed with is always the layer that wraps their bodies, created by plastic surgery hospitals, brokerage companies and themselves Even Lu Yan's beautiful shell is just outstanding talent, so this shell is a little thinner.I really want fans to watch their favorite stars from the perspective of God for a month, let them see how the stars lose the spotlight with makeup and PS, watch them eat and drink like anyone, please investors, and toast the big boss who is socializing, Enduring the salty pig's hand and taking photos with smiles, even sleeping with him, intrigue and scrambling for roles, sending out manuscripts to blackmail opponents, raising little ghosts, and worshiping living Buddhas.Being taught by a powerful agent and company like a child, turning around and throwing a temper at the assistant, dating, being a crew couple, earning money from fans but laughing behind their backs that they are stupid.Even if you only see two or three pieces, you will lose your fans.

The relationship between celebrities and fans is deformed. While obsessed with death, wishing to give up their lives, while wearing a mask that does not belong to them for a lifetime, creating a beautiful shell, convincing themselves that it is their true self, this The two sides are also a match made in heaven.

I don't have such big ambitions.

This world is actually very strange. Sometimes, even if two people face each other, they still have their own ghosts.However, sometimes, when listening to a piece of music, even if it is the work of someone who has been dead for a long time, you can feel his joy, anger, sorrow and joy when he created it, as if he touched the soul hundreds of years ago through the boundless void.

This is the power of music.

I am terrified of dying.

Life is short, and I always want to leave something behind.If not hundreds of years from now, when someone hears this music, they will know what I was thinking, at least it will prove that I have been there.

I used to be panicked, afraid that even if I spend my whole life doing this, I will not be able to do it in the end.

Now I don't panic.

Because I met Ji Rongfu.

In any case, this life will not be too bad.