Please follow the doctor's advice

The air conditioner in the supermarket was fully turned on, and it was warmer than at home. Xu Yiren was wearing a lot of clothes, but he felt cold all over.

It was a huge hole left after the name that had been cherished in his heart for ten years was hollowed out, and it was sucking all the heat from his body.

Suck it all up and leave nothing behind.He made a mess of things, his dearest parents on one side, and his most beloved person on the other. All the people who are important to him in this world are about to bear the pressure and blow that they shouldn't have to bear because of his mistake. What qualifications does he have to live calmly as if nothing had happened?

Xu Changping: "Is it ashamed to lose?"

Xu Yiren knew a long time ago that he would lose his face today. Luckily, this is a supermarket and it's working hours. People he doesn't know come and go.He lowered his head to avoid crowded directions.

Xu Changping: "You still know it's ugly? You still know you can't see people? Then you still have to show some face."

Xu Yiren works in the hospital and sees life and death a lot, and usually does not shed tears easily. When he was at home in the morning, he was infected by the emotion of Li Chaoyue hugging and crying. Now he is heartbroken, but at least he knows that this is outside, and he did not really shed tears. Come, but after his father's unprecedented remarks, he felt even more embarrassed.

Xu Changping threw a large bag of oranges on him, but Xu Yiren did not take it with his hands hanging down.

Xu Changping said slowly and sternly: "Do you think that your life is full of ups and downs? Who hasn't encountered anything in their life? The elderly in the family get sick, a close relative dies in an accident, meets a liar and gets cheated out of money, and the work unit is restructured. I also cried for a while like you, stood still stupidly, turned around and ran away, should I ask your mother to deal with it? A man has to act like a man, even if he can't stand up straight, he should hold his head high. You know? Take it!"

Xu Yiren was heartbroken, took a plastic bag of oranges without a handle and hugged it in front of him: "Got it."

Xu Changping asked with disgust: "Look at your virtue. Come and tell me, why are you crying with this expression? Don't you want to find someone else without him? Then why are you sad?"

Xu Yiren turned his head away slightly, and concealed himself, "I didn't cry."

"Crying is not crying, the eyes are red. Why do patients have to 'quiet'? You are emotionally unstable all day long, and your blood pressure fluctuates. When will your eyes recover?" Xu Changping hated the iron but not the steel. Stance, "Do you know what is the scariest?"

Xu Yiren was already numb under the successive blows: "I don't know."

Xu Changping sighed: "The most terrifying thing is ignorance."

Anything is fine, Xu Yiren listened to the lecture in silence, hoping that his father would say enough to vent his anger, so he wouldn't make any drastic moves, at least he wouldn't really use his student number to check Li Chaoyue's mentor and company.

Xu Changping said slowly in a low voice: "Ignorant people either cannot make the right choice when faced with a situation, or hesitate and hesitate to make a decision, and there are also those who think they are smart and end up doing bad things with good intentions, harming themselves and others. .Understand?"

Xu Yiren didn't understand at all, he just hoped that his father would speak more and vent his anger: "Understood."

"Homosexuality is not scary. What is scary is that the person involved is ignorant. They don't know how to protect themselves and each other, how to deal with themselves, how to deal with family members and society, and even find the right person." Xu Changping said, "You are now In this regard, it is a typical example of ignorance—I have not prepared well, I don’t know how to protect myself, I am powerless to protect others, I can only lie to my family, and I feel that I am facing society and strangers who have nothing to do with me. Can't hold my head up."

Xu Yiren couldn't understand more and more: "...Dad?"

Xu Changping: "As for finding the right person - a person who has 0 points in other subjects, do you think it is possible for him to suddenly get a perfect score in a certain subject?"

Xu Yiren had no choice but to defend himself: "He...whether he is the right person or not, at least he is definitely...a very good person."

Xu Changping said contemptuously: "'Very good' why did he run away?"

Xu Yiren's elbow turned outward unknowingly: "...today, it was a bit sudden, maybe he just didn't think about it."

Xu Changping nodded: "We spent the night together without thinking about anything, Xu Yiren, you are really capable."

Xu Yiren: "..."

"If one person is ignorant, the whole family will be affected. If two people are ignorant, the whole society will be affected. Why do many people feel dirty and messy when they mention 'homosexuality'? Because some of them have lost their values. They I don’t agree with my own feelings, or I’m overly sensitive, and I feel that I’m walking on a crooked path, which leads to self-abandonment and depravity, and thus does things that violate morality or even the law. By the way, bystanders magnify and demonize their identities. , to make partial generalizations. The root cause is because of ignorance, not knowing how to protect and manage, the books I have read and the principles I have learned are instantly forgotten, just like you, I started by lying."

Xu Yiren: "..."

Xu Changping said kindly, "Xu Yiren, let me tell you again, when your mother went this morning, who was there, what did you say?"

Just as Xu Yiren was about to speak frankly, he suddenly had an inexplicable feeling of encountering a "fishing law enforcement".

Xu Changping snorted coldly when he saw this, and pulled another plastic bag: "It doesn't make any sense if you don't say who it is. I feel familiar when I see him standing next to you. It's easy to check. Maybe I'll find out who I am after a while." I can remember."

Xu Yiren's spine immediately bent down: "Dad, it's my former classmate, who was a clinical student in freshman and sophomore year, and later transferred to the School of Pharmacy."

Xu Changping: "What's the relationship between you two?"

Xu Yiren: "...Talk, talk, talk about love."

Xu Changping: "How long has it been?"

Xu Yiren: "The first day."

Xu Changping: "Not telling the truth?"

Xu Yiren said sincerely: "It's really the first day, it started from yesterday."

Xu Changping roughly threw an orange into the bag: "I thought you'd grown up, but I didn't discipline you all these years. I didn't expect you to grow crooked and messy."

Xu Yiren didn't know where his father's thoughts were wandering, so he hurriedly pulled back: "The two of us are just chatting and sleeping on the same bed."

Xu Changping: "Wear a high-necked sweater next time! The collar of the shirt can't even cover it!"

Xu Yiren: "..." He turned up the collar of his coat like a remedy for the dead, and zipped it up in the room temperature above 20 degrees.

Xu Changping: "Is there anything else you want to tell me?"

His father's attitude was somewhat ambiguous, and Xu Yiren was in a dilemma.

Although his father's behavior after being exposed was not as agitated and angry as he imagined, but he gave him a series of "0 points", and it didn't seem like he planned to accept it with open arms.

Moreover, Xu Yiren is well aware of his father's methods as a teacher - he is usually unsmiling, occasionally being kind can get closer to the students, and in a few words, he will set out the secrets of the open and secret struggles between the students.The above remarks may be one of the means of capturing information, which will be combined with the information from the archives and Professor Xu later, so as to deal a heavier and more effective blow to him and Li Chaoyue.

But now his father is the only one who knows about this matter besides the two parties involved, and he holds the power of life and death. His attitude... or the degree of anger can greatly affect the outcome of this matter towards.

Xu Yiren has no choice.

"Dad, I have never...he is me, the first..." He wanted to find some less radical words to express his position gently, but the influence of traditional culture caused him to hesitate whenever he came to the elders. It's hard to say.

Thinking that it would be a matter of success or failure to restore Li Chaoyue's position in his father's heart, Xu Yiren took a deep breath: "Dad, he is the first and only person I like. I like him very much. I don't need to be with him." together, but I can't help but like him."

Xu Yiren asked himself that his voice was not too low, and his articulation was quite clear, but Xu Changping didn't speak after hearing this, he just buried himself in picking out the oranges, and before he knew it, he had half a bag of oranges in his hand, as if it would be better to bring all this pile of oranges home important matter.

No response is tantamount to nothing, like a stupid question raised in class, and the tutor continues to discuss other things with other students without even saying "sit down" after listening to it.

His father asked him to say the words, but he didn't even say "Yanzaihuye" after he finished speaking. Xu Yiren suddenly felt that he had mistrusted him, and he didn't want to talk to his father again for a short time, even I feel that any pleading in a low voice is contemptuous to Li Chaoyue.

His rebellious period was late, and even though he was standing next to his father, he stood with his back turned to express his dissatisfaction.

Xu Changping spoke at this moment: "Seeking profit is a human instinct, and avoiding harm is a skill. Everyone must learn to survive. What about you? You haven't pursued profit yet, and 'harm' hasn't come to you yet. You just chase life and death, is it useful? Using your family's feelings for you to threaten you is a rogue's act!"

As soon as Xu Yiren heard the voice, he still politely turned around reflexively, and immediately regretted his unsteady position after realizing it: "I didn't say I was going to die."

Xu Changping: "Self-mutilation is not acceptable either. It is easy to cut yourself, but it is very difficult to change others' views of you. Self-mutilation and depravity do not mean that you are determined to fight to the death. In fact, it just means that you are cowardly and dare not face reality. So Choose the easiest release method."

Xu Yiren's two hands holding Chengzi subconsciously touched each other's wrists: "...Dad, I didn't say I would harm myself."

Xu Changping: "Then what are you going to do?"

Xu Yiren lowered her head depressedly: "I don't know."

"You don't know what to do, isn't this throwing the problem to me?" Xu Changping sighed heavily, "It's the first time you told me who you like, and it's also the first time I've heard you say it. It's over if you don't know, do I know what to do? And it's still... It seems that your mother and I haven't set a wide enough standard for you. "

Xu Yiren couldn't help raising his head to look at him, trying to distinguish whether his father was really in the same place this time, or whether it was a new round of "fishing".

Xu Changping was speechless for a moment, then said in a deep voice, "It's not an easy job to take care of a grandson, I'll just take it as a way to save trouble for your mother."

Xu Yiren suspected that he was overly emotional and had auditory hallucinations: "Dad?"

"I don't know how other families deal with it, but each family's situation is different, and I don't want to impose the methods that other families have used on you." Xu Changping said sadly, "Oh, you said you stayed like this all day long. , I don’t know if anyone can live with you——I’ve been here for a long time, and it’s okay if you can’t see clearly or help me choose, and you don’t even know how to hold a bag for me. How can I live with you? What do you mean? It fell down in less than two days?"

Xu Yiren hastily released her hand.

Xu Changping: "I've already finished my selection."

Xu Yiren quickly took the bag and hugged it.

Xu Changping: "What does he think? If he doesn't mean that, you must not harass him, you know?"

Xu Yiren nodded hastily, and was so excited that he almost hugged Chengzi and his father together: "Dad, I know, absolutely not."

Xu Changping waved him away: "Go to the queue and weigh it. Didn't you see that the time limit is one hour? Weighing later will be the original price."

Xu Yiren's heart surged hot: "Dad, you can buy whatever you want, as much as you want."

"The oranges are fresh and cheap. How can you pretend to be noble when they are so affordable?" Xu Changping sighed, "I didn't want to talk about you at first—you used to have little salary, and now you don't have a job. What do you do for a living? Except you participate in the Before work, your mother and I are obliged to support you, so can other people support you?"

Xu Yiren: "..."

Xu Changping: "Let's be realistic, I'll find someone to arrange a job for you later, why?"

Xu Yiren also had this worry in his heart, so he immediately agreed: "Do it."

Xu Changping asked, "What do you want to do?"

Xu Yiren knew that he had very little choice when his eyes were inconvenient, so he said sincerely, "Do anything."

"Do everything?" Xu Changping asked considerately, "What do you do for cleaning?"

"..." Xu Yiren knew that it was impossible for his father to really arrange such a job for him, let alone how to clean up because he couldn't see the way clearly?As compensation for his backlash when his father wanted to introduce him to a job, Xu Yiren flexed his muscles and gritted his teeth, "I can do it too."

Xu Changping scoffed lightly: "Stupid!"

Xu Yiren, who had been bent in vain for a while, said depressedly: "...what's wrong?"

Xu Changping is serious: "The path you have chosen is more difficult than the path of ordinary people, so you must be better than others. Only when you become a better you can you walk firmly in the face of difficulties. If You won't be able to eat or drink in two years, and you will live a life full of ghosts and ghosts. At that time, can you still pat your chest and say that you didn't choose the wrong path? You still keep clean, even if you return to the original post, it will last for a few years You can't bear it if you don't get a job title, you know?"

Xu Yiren was really humble and receptive this time: "Understood."

Xu Changping was not at ease, and asked again: "What does he do?"

Xu Yiren answered truthfully: "Doing medical research in a pharmaceutical company."

When Xu Changping heard this, his tone softened a lot: "It looks pretty smart. Which unit do you work in?"

Of course that's smart, the smartest in the world!Although it's not Xu Yiren's job, when he said it, he felt inexplicably straight, and proudly introduced: "I used to work in Shen Medical Research Institute, but now I work in Nie's Medical Care."

Xu Changping nodded silently, as if he was very appreciative of Li Chaoyue's work, but he asked after a while: "Since ancient times, men are good at acting. You like people to be smart. What do you make people like you?"

"..." Xu Yiren's feeling of being picked and picked by his father came back when he was a child.

Xu Changping questioned: "Is it you who shaves your head here to get hot?"

Xu Yiren coughed and said emphatically, "Not all of them."

Xu Changping: "You can't indulge your behavior just because there is no corresponding legal restriction. Remember, resolutely resist the temptation of the outside world, and don't be influenced by other people's actions and words. There may be some people in this group who lack values, but as long as you persist, you will I won't be in the same boat. Have you figured it out? What if you meet someone else in the future?"

Xu Yiren: "I won't."

Xu Changping: "What about him?"

Li Chaoyue was shining all over his body, and even a man as strict as his father spoke highly of it just by looking at it.Xu Yiren clenched his palms, pretending to be magnanimous and said, "...I don't know how to do it anyway. He...he can do whatever he wants."

Xu Changping sneered again: "Mindless!"

Xu Yiren: "..."

What if you don't follow his will?Could he still restrict Li Chaoyue's personal freedom?

Xu Yiren asked in confusion: "...What's wrong?"

Xu Changping preached: "Aren't you investing in vain? How great do you think you are? In fact, you are lacking in mind. If one day he runs away, first of all, it means that you are hot on this side, and second, he has not become a better person. People, so I’m under a lot of pressure. I wonder if I chose the wrong one, or you didn’t do well enough. Otherwise, if everything is fine, why do people leave? Are you still “casual”? When the time comes, you will be People don't know what's going on when they get dumped!"

Xu Yiren, who has zero love experience, said silently, "Oh, that's it."

Xu Changping asked in a leisurely and elongated tone, "Do you know how I can tell?"

Xu Yiren just couldn't figure it out.When Li Chaoyue left, his movements were smooth and natural, his voice was natural, he didn't even turn the wheels of the trolley case, and the house was cleaned without leaving any traces. How did his father see it?Even if it looks familiar, how do you know the relationship between the two of them?

Xu Yiren: "I don't know."

Xu Changping snorted, "I can tell by your expression."

Xu Yiren: "..."

Xu Changping said faintly: "Generally, when people hear someone say that he is 'homosexual', they will definitely question and refute, what about you? I tried it casually, and you immediately looked guilty of being caught cheating, with the words 'It's over, I was arrested'." I found out', 'how can I be noticed', like you, how do you face others in the future? If other people ask, you have the same expression, isn't it a joke?"

It turned out that he had lost the chain, Xu Yiren was deeply ashamed of Li Chaoyue's impromptu performance, bowed his head and said, "Oh."

Xu Changping: "You didn't cause harm to society, didn't infringe on other people's interests, and didn't affect other people's lives. Why do you feel guilty? There was a loudspeaker next to the oranges you bought just now, and other people couldn't hear us at all. Why are you bowing your head? Walk with a straight back, and face the eyes of others openly! This matter is not known to too many people because it cannot see people, but because it is your privacy, and you have the right to keep people who have nothing to do with it Know."

Xu Yiren took a breath and stood up straight: "Okay."

Xu Changping asked: "Assuming you don't want others to know, when someone unrelated to you asks if you like the same sex, how do you answer?"

Xu Yiren thought for a while, and tentatively said, "...are you gay?"

Xu Changping: "It's not very polite, but it's about the same. You can be a little tougher. When you have time, think about it yourself. Today is the first time I asked you about it. It's okay if you don't behave well. It shows that you don't have the talent to respond. , then you have to work harder the day after tomorrow, otherwise the next time you lose your composure, it is very likely that you will be put in an embarrassing situation. Surgery needs to be planned in advance. How can you not prepare such an important plan first? Only Hard work can make steel, talent is not enough to work hard, practice hard, and be an honest person who can use language art to avoid risks reasonably."

"Yes." This class contains a lot of information, and Xu Yiren feels that he needs to do homework well.

Xu Changping asked again: "Condom, you...or him? Forget it, I don't want to bother with you, which one do you want to use, do you know?"

Xu Yiren's eyes blinked as fast as butterfly wings: "No, I haven't bought it. I can't see clearly now... Are there different sizes?"

"Go back and read the books!" Xu Changping lowered his voice as the two were standing in front of a shelf with few customers, "The intestinal mucosa is fragile, the flora is rich, and the blood vessels and nerves around the anal canal are densely distributed. Certain behaviors are more likely to cause condom rupture and crossover. Infection, so choose a condom with a suitable thickness, and you must not take high-risk behaviors by chance.”

Discussing this topic with his own father is too scary, Xu Yiren panicked: "We didn't..."

Xu Changping was displeased: "It's just a matter of fact, I didn't ask if you have it. If you don't have it, you don't have it. Take it as a vaccination, and you just listen to what I say... It's best if you don't."

Xu Yiren was like an answer: "Oh... oh."

Xu Changping asked again: "What are the four principles of no harm, do you know?"

Xu Yiren: "Don't hurt yourself, don't hurt others, don't be hurt by others, protect others from harm?"

Xu Changping was like asking a question in class: "What should I do if I find something uncomfortable?"

Xu Yiren coughed lightly: "Seek medical attention as soon as possible, a regular institution."

"Well, let's combine action and knowledge." Xu Changping looked around and sighed again, "Who are you following? You're not smart at all. Aren't you tired of carrying two big bags like this? Where's my stroller?"

Xu Yiren is in a relaxed mood now, and he doesn't feel that the mere two packs of oranges are a burden. He joked, "It's possible that you threw me down the stairs when I was young."

Xu Changping stopped in his tracks, and said in shock, "How do you know? Do you still remember? How do you remember?"

Xu Yiren smiled: "Dad, it's okay, I was naughty when I was young, I don't blame you."

"That's not what I said," Xu Changping pondered for a moment. "I thought about it later. At that time, you weighed only twenty catties. I hugged you like a rabbit. How could I not be able to hug you? Our family lived on the fifth floor at that time. Do you still remember? I could lift a [-]-kilogram gas tank in one go, how could I have dropped you? Think about it again, did someone push you at that time?"

After listening to two versions of the past, Xu Yiren couldn't laugh or cry: "Dad, where are you thinking? Who would dare to push a child down the stairs in the public? Isn't that against the law? I've already said that I don't blame you, so dare to do it." ?”

Xu Changping snorted twice, dropped him and walked forward: "If you think about it, I still don't think I threw you."