Please follow the doctor's advice

Through the water vapor from the mouth of the cup, the male god looked at me with a half-smile, and said, "It's really my dad."

Professor Jie Xie, who was always changing clothes with me in a 360-degree high-altitude and low-altitude accurate collision with me every class, turned out to be the real father of a male god.

I can even recall the expression Professor Xu looked at me in every class. He must have thought that I deliberately wore the same clothes as his in an attempt to replace him and become the father of a male god by himself, and every time Xu Yiren looked at me, he would definitely look at me. Thinking that I admired his father's talents and learning, in order to win his father's favor, I tried to pretend to be his father's son.

What's more, after half a semester of trying to gain momentum, I actually bet on the subject of his father's course in front of the male god, demolished his father's platform, and spoke ill of his father. Between Dagouzi and Dagouzi, the two of us will definitely fight with each other, and only one of us can walk out of this door vertically.

I offended both sides.

But the male god didn't say anything, and he still tidied up the desks skillfully and gracefully. I couldn't even see his emotions.He always seems to be so forbearing, putting his emotions under etiquette, and rarely revealing the clues.

It turned out that he was not a beast in a suit and tie in a small movie, he was a real scholar from a medical family, and he was obedient to the rules since he was a child.He sat with his shoulders straight, he stood tall and tall, he swung his pen like a dragon, and he spoke like pearls, but none of that was for me to see, just like the sun didn’t rise for me, just for me Because he was originally the sun.

I can feel warm because I am bathed in the sun, all things can grow because of photosynthesis, we are all grateful to the sun, but we are not in the eyes of the sun.

Maybe when he comes home on weekends, he and his father will occasionally talk about my imitation, like at the end of "A Chinese Journey to the West", Zhou Xingchi looked at Zhizun Bao and said, "Look at that man, he looks like a dog."

I deleted all the clutter on my phone.

I can't look directly into Xu Yiren's eyes, as soon as I see him, I feel unbearable and sorry for my wild thoughts, and I have said sorry to him a thousand times.

The male god still didn't seem to be angry at all, he smiled and said to me for the thousand and first time, it doesn't matter, he doesn't care.

He also said, Li Chaoyue, go home and go to the New Year.

Of course, why does the sun mind people talking nonsense to it on the ground with their hips akimbo and pointing to the sky?Because nothing we say or do affects its brilliance in the slightest, so why should it care?

Before leaving, Xu Yiren put a pack of biscuits in my bag and sent me to the station.

This is like the towel and rice bowl he gave me—he is a little prince who has grown up with the dedication of several generations of his family. He is as kind and pious as he has shown. I have a cold and a fever in the rain, and I can't watch me drink boiling hot water with a poor-quality plastic lid. Sign various "Donation Volunteer Letters" like writing the name of a newly issued textbook.

I'm just one of his donation recipients, and the donation is relatively simple and cheap. He doesn't take it to heart, so I don't have to take it to heart either.

The Chinese New Year in the countryside is always very lively, and the firecrackers are already ringing in the sky a few days before the New Year's Eve.There was a lot of wine among the parents. My mother and other aunts and aunts prepared steamed vegetables together. The third and fourth children are getting closer. The daughter-in-law is coming to the house this year for the New Year. I heard that a large group of people came from the in-laws. There were none left, so I ran to Dagou's house in the back room in a daze, trying to hide from the ridicule of my three aunts and six wives.

The brothers who grew up together, no matter how long they have been apart, they are still the same. The big dog ran to cook happily when he saw me coming, took out two big spoonfuls of butchered vegetables, put onion, ginger and pepper and stir-fried a big Bowl, and a pot of wine was boiled and brought to the kang.

The big dog brought me bowls, chopsticks and wine cups, and asked, "Have you seen your siblings?"

Me: "See, she looks like a good girl."

Big Dog: "Originally, it was said that the ceremony of the third child will be held next year, and the ceremony of the fourth child will be held in the next year, but now it is said that we will do it together next year. If the fourth child does not have the ceremony, his doll will run away, making people laugh .”

In fact, I really wanted to be happy for my brother, but I couldn't cheer up after trying twice, so I just said "oh" in a daze.

Big Dog: "When I entered the village, did you see where their homestead was? It was tied with a circle of red silk. Originally, the four of us were all drawn in a row, but I don't know when we will be able to start a house."

I was taken aback and asked, "Are you planning to get married?" As far as I know, even newcomers who have not obtained a formal residence permit are not allowed to build a house in the village, let alone two men.

The big dog shook his head: "I don't know, how old are we now? It will be a long time in the future. It is not too late for a boy in the city to get married at [-], and it is still easy to find a partner. However, in our family, we must feel that there is something wrong. gone."

I seemed to hear his subtext from these words, and asked: "You and yours, are you going to be yellow?"

The big dog’s smile was as ugly as it was: “I’m not yellow, and I don’t know if it’s fast or not. It doesn’t matter if I’m worthless. Whether I get married or not is just a matter of gossip by the people in our village, but his family is quite respectable in the city.” , How can I drag him for the rest of his life? What do others think of their family? We only went to this poor school for two and a half years, and the next year and a half was an internship. His family has already found a good relationship for him. Let him take the civil servant test, and the score can be arranged. Tell me, how can a civil servant do this? Don't let people poke the back? We think there is nothing wrong with us, but when they work in the future, what do their leaders think? Do you think he has a mental problem?"

I once thought that the two of them might break up because of that person's empathy, maybe the big dog woke up one day and found that he was not bent and kicked him away, but I didn't expect such a reality to face.My heart was already in a mess, but after hearing this, I was even more cramped and painful, so I raised my head and drank a glass of wine.

The big dog drank and drank, and the voice of his voice was wrong: "We are together for a day. If we really come to an end, I should do what I should do. Second child, eat the rest, I Lie down for a while."

I didn't get drunk, but my eyes were still clear. Seeing that his movements were obviously uncoordinated to avoid a certain part, I asked, "Why are you lying down again? Are you hurt again?"

The big dog has gained experience in lying down, and this time he put on a few more layers of quilt before slowly lying on it: "No. I have a little hemorrhoid, and I can't drink or eat spicy food. I forgot when I saw you just now."

When I heard that, I was so angry that I wanted to grab that grandson and beat him up: "Did you two do that? Why is he so useless?"

The big dog stretched out his hand and patted my arm: "Ancestor, please keep your voice down, he didn't do it. When I went to the hospital, the doctor said that many people will get hemorrhoids. It's not necessarily because of that. I thought it was because I had been drinking a few months ago, but he still advised me to come, but I didn't listen."

The big dog was obviously talking to the grandson, and I became even angrier when I heard it, and I couldn't help but speak a little aggressively: "You can still lie to me? This didn't come out in a day, it must be because he insisted on coming when you were uncomfortable, what's wrong It just got bigger and bigger. The doctor said that it was the case of other people, just you, if it has nothing to do with him, I will write the name upside down! Do you still think he is a good thing? If he is a good person, he can for the first time Come hard with you? No matter how dare this bastard force you to call me, the third and fourth brothers and I can't beat him to death!"

The big dog's face lay under the quilt for a long time without making a sound. After a while, he stretched out his hand to touch the kang, found a roll of toilet paper, tore off a piece and wiped it on his face randomly: "Stop scolding him, okay? And He's really okay. When I hear someone say something bad about him, I feel worse than being scolded myself."

I can't remember how many years I haven't seen a big dog cry, and I didn't know what to do for a while.Although I didn't see his positive expression, I felt an inexplicable pain in my heart.

The big dog turned its back to me, silently tore up paper and wiped its snot and tears, threw paper balls all over the floor, and said vaguely: "You know what, you just scold me? Ever since I thought I had hemorrhoids He never came with me, not even once. I was embarrassed to let others know that I had hemorrhoids, so he rented a house next to the school, cooked porridge and stir-fried vegetables for me, and made a big pot. Let me soak Chinese medicine... Have you ever seen a medicine suppository? It’s the kind that cures hemorrhoids. After putting it on, won’t it melt away when it’s heated? I can’t stand on my stomach all day, and I still have to go to class, that oil It gets on my trousers and sheets every day, not only a puddle of oil, but also brings out the smell, which even makes me sick when I smell it. He changes my medicine every day, and after the change, I start to wash my clothes and sheets—— The oil can’t be washed off with a washing machine, and you have to rub it with your hands. After washing it, he put it on my face for me to smell, and told me it smells good, and the smell is gone... You don’t even know how kind he is to me... ...You said, he looks good and his family conditions are good, he is so nice, why doesn't he find a woman? If he finds a woman, he should finish serving confinement..."

I still can't figure out this question myself, how can I answer it for him?I was speechless, and could only drink one glass after another.The hot wine entered my throat, not only failed to numb the pain in my heart, but instead burned the fire of despair more and more vigorously.

The big dog was talking, and he couldn't even make a word. It was hard for me to hear what he said, and I could vaguely distinguish it based on the context: "I asked him... we can't do that anymore, why do you Don't find someone else...he said...why can't do it...wait for you...wait for you to raise better, come to me! We will always be together, always so close...he treats me The better, the more afraid I am, what good do I have? If I want money but I don’t have money, I don’t want ability, how can I delay him..."

There is no such thing as "all beings are equal" in the world. It is a joke that only people in high places will make.Whoever's conditions are poor among the two will worry about gains and losses, looking forward and backward, and worrying all day long.

The toilet paper could no longer cover the big dog's sobbing voice: "Second boy, tell me quickly...you didn't mean to scold him just now...you don't say that I feel uncomfortable..."

I have said "I'm sorry" to Xu Yiren countless times in the past half a month, and I don't know who I said it to this time: "I'm sorry, I was wrong."

The big dog seemed to have finally been wronged by his own son. He lay down in the quilt and cried until the sky was dark.

In the middle of the night, I woke up in a daze, feeling that my mouth smelled like a sewer.

People are really strange things. When I was a child, I ate poop and my mouth smelled delicious. Now I just drink a little wine, and my mouth smells like eating poop.Xu Yiren had to brush his teeth once he ate a chopped green onion the size of a pinhead. I don't think I'm qualified to mention the three words of his name, even the homophony, if I don't wash myself thoroughly.

I struggled to get out of bed, crossed the small courtyard covered with snow and icicles, turned on the faucet, and reached out to touch the sink... But not only did I not have my toothbrush at home, even the water pipes were frozen at night up.

He is really a little sun.Although he does not rise for me, when he is in front of me, I live a sunny day, fragrant and warm; when he is not in front of me, even if I still have him in my heart, my life is not sunny The days are smelly and cold.

As for the good habits or bad habits acquired in the sun, the night will not accompany it.

I suddenly wanted to go back to Shencheng.

Just after the second day of the new year, I went to all the relatives who were supposed to go, so I found an excuse to tell my family that I would go back early.The bus station didn't even open the door, and I backed up in a black car like I went to Shencheng for the first time, back to the city where I had nowhere to stay. Although the school was open, the iron gate of the dormitory building was closed.

I took out my phone and looked at it. There was a "Happy New Year" message from Xu Yiren before Chinese New Year, and a bunch of New Year's wishes and wishes I replied, but he didn't reply a word.

If we hadn't happened to be assigned to the same dormitory, would I still be on his group mailing list?

I had no place to go, so I just stayed in the electronic reading room and played games, day and night, forgetting to eat and sleep, and every time the network administrator passed by me, he would take away a bottle of cigarette butts.Occasionally, a few unknown people surrounded him: "Ramp away! No one can stop it! Super God! Super God again! Super God again!"

While waiting for a match, I leaned on the back of the chair and closed my eyes in emptiness and exhaustion while wearing half of the earphones. Someone patted me on the shoulder from the side.

I thought that either the network administrator was checking whether I was dead, or it was a box lunch seller, so I closed my eyes and said casually, "No."

The person behind him smiled softly: "Li Chaoyue, are you fighting the landlord?"

When I heard that the voice was so old, the tone didn't sound like a network administrator, and I could still call out my name, I hurriedly opened my eyes and looked back. It turned out to be the professor of a class that our last semester had ended.

I quickly recalled in my mind whether there are any other classes from him in the next few years, and I confirmed that the result of this subject has been released. I was a little relieved and got up to say hello: "Hello, Professor Xu."

I haven't showered for several days, and experienced the smoky baptism of a hundred cigarettes, and my appearance is sloppy and oily. I feel that he will be smoked away by talking about me at most, or he will be gone after saying hello. Will part ways with me, I didn't expect the old guy to smile and ask me: "Why did you go back to school so early?"

I still have earphones hanging around my neck, and there is a notification sound saying that the game match is successful, please choose a hero. The opening is when every second counts, and I can’t even make a wrong pixel. How can I sum up this kind of question in three sentences? over?Could it be that I miss school and I want to come back to study?I don't even know why I ran back early in such a nervous way, how can I tell him?

Seeing that I didn't speak, Professor Xu made a clever guess: "Young man, are you broken in love?"

... After what he said, I really felt like I was hit by an invisible blow, but I didn't even want to talk to him.

Professor Xu patted me on the shoulder: "Let's go out and have a meal together."

Although he probably won't teach us in the future, maybe when he stamps and fills in comments, he needs his signature. If I don't go, I will appear too ignorant.I thought, as long as I ate everything and thanked him fully, it would be a pleasant teacher-student exchange.Unexpectedly, as soon as I went out with my luggage, the sky outside was pitch black, and the solar street lights on the campus only turned on one after another, which meant that it was already past twelve o'clock in the middle of the night.

Professor Xu said to himself, "It's already so late."

It's fine if I don't look at my watch all night, why don't you look at your watch?I said regretfully: "Yeah, I didn't pay attention to the time, it's so late. Professor, how about we..."

Professor Xu: "Why don't you go to my office to eat, there should be something to eat now."

We came to the laboratory building, which is the building where we looked at various specimens under the formalin.At around twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, he turned his head against the light in the cold wind and couldn't see his expression clearly and asked me: "Li Chaoyue, why didn't you leave?"

If he and I hadn't come out of the library building together, I really wanted to pinch him to see if he had a chin, and sweep his legs to see if he had feet.Facing the cold wind, I asked, "Professor Xu, are you eating here?"

He thought he smiled benevolently: "Yes. Let's go, I will show you my handicraft. What's the matter, are you afraid? It's okay if you don't even have the guts."

It’s fine to enter the laboratory building under normal conditions during the day. At this time, and when I think of the smell of formalin, I have no appetite at all.

The old man did not know which temple scripture he was reading: "There is nothing terrible in it, the truly terrible things are all in people's hearts. If a person is afraid of too many things, he will not be able to move forward. Only the fearless Only then can we move forward. If you could only choose one thing to retain the right to be afraid, what would you choose?"

I see him as scary now.I pretended to be curious and asked, "Professor, what did you choose?"

Professor Xu stared at me for a moment, then patted me on the shoulder after a few seconds and said: "I will tell you when I have a suitable opportunity in the future. You will be afraid of this building because you are afraid that your life and health will be damaged." harm, but now I tell you, as long as you come in with me, you won't have these worries, are you still afraid?"

I had nowhere to go, and the library gatekeeper just opened the door just because of his face. Now I can’t go back even if I want to, so I have to say against my conscience: “Professor, I’m not afraid if you say that.” Already!"

In the office area completely different from the specimen hall, Professor Xu stewed a few rabbit legs with unknown origins, fennel and star anise, and various aniseed ingredients were in place.

While eating, he said, "Don't worry, it's more hygienic than the rabbits sold in the market. Here, there are so many rabbit legs that you can't finish it. Oh, your two senior brothers were not here for a month ago." I ordered food in the cafeteria, but I haven’t finished eating yet. You can’t eat for nothing, come on, tell me, why did you lose your relationship?”

He may be a few years older than my father. I have never had the experience of discussing this topic with my parents before. I said in general: "The family is too good to look down on me."

My words seemed to be right in his arms.Professor Xu slapped his thigh: "Don't bully young people and be poor. It doesn't matter if we have nothing now. We still have hands and brains. If we don't have it, we can create it ourselves. But if you study clinical medicine, it will take at least ten years from now to gradually start to improve the economic situation. , before that, you might not even be able to support yourself with your salary alone. I have a quick solution, do you want to hear it?"

I looked down at the plate.This is too obvious. If he didn't want me to help him distribute rabbit legs, then he could only poach people. I said, "Professor Xu, I'm in our department. I can't leave."