mommy in love

When Gu Mingyan came back, Nan Jifeng was so excited that she couldn't sleep for days and nights.She is very happy even when she is working with panda eyes on her face.After finishing her work in the imperial capital, she was the first one to come back by plane.

The first thing he did when he came back was to find Gu Mingyan, while Min Xiran went to Gu Weixi after careful consideration.This is the difference between their two personalities.

When doing things, Nan Jifeng seldom thinks about Gu Mingyan.Do whatever you want, very aggressive.But because of this, Gu Mingyan felt very insecure.

Gu Mingyan came home from get out of class, but accidentally saw Nan Jifeng at the gate of the campus.Was it really an accident?Wanting to take a detour and walk away, it was obvious that the person opposite had no such intention.

"Ming Yan."

The moment Nan Jifeng saw Gu Mingyan coming out, she ran over happily.

"How did you come?"

Gu Mingyan wanted to appear calm, and tried his best to suppress the fluctuations in his heart.Afraid of revealing my inner thoughts by saying one more word.

"Looking for you."

"Is something wrong?"

Nan Jifeng did not see from Gu Mingyan's face the joy of seeing each other after eight years. They have known each other for ten years and separated for eight years. Could it be that these eight years can make everything in the past return to zero?

"Ming Yan, can we have a good talk?"

"What are we talking about? Didn't what we should say was already said eight years ago, don't we have something to say that needs to be continued eight years later?"

Gu Mingyan never realized that he could speak so hurtfully.If you want to end the topic, this is the only way you can think of.

Nan Jifeng's face became extremely gloomy because of Gu Mingyan.The joy and excitement when we met was swept away, all covered by this sadness.

"Mingyan, do we really want to take this step? I know that I was too domineering in the past, but I can change all of these. I have changed a lot over the years, and some things in my bones can't be said to change. It's completely changed."

Nan Jifeng's words made Gu Mingyan soften instantly.She knew that she would compromise, and she knew that seeing her sad expression, she would remove all disguises.

"Find a place to sit."

Gu Mingyan bypassed Nan Jifeng, and quickly walked to her car, trying to conceal the weakness in his heart with this hasty pace.

Nan Jifeng turned around and quickly opened the car door, let Gu Mingyan sit in, then got into the car by himself, and drove away.

"Don't always stay up late to work, it's not good for your health."

Gu Mingyan wanted to ignore the heavy dark circles under his eyes.There is always a soft spot where I feel sorry for her and want to persuade her to take good care of herself.

Turning sideways to look out of the window, covering up the moving expression on his face.

"Hehe, in order to come to see you, I took care of a month's work. Otherwise, I don't have so much time."

Nan Jifeng was not affected by her thick dark circles at all, the smile on her face was joy.

"It's not that we won't meet again, so your body can't bear it. I'm right here, I won't run away."

"I was afraid that you would run away. I haven't run away for eight years, and finally came back. So this time I will hold on tightly."

Gu Mingyan didn't look at Nan Jifeng's face, but looked at the sight outside the window, and didn't know whether he was looking at the scenery outside or just shifted his gaze here.Because I can't remember the scenery that flashed past my eyes at all.

Gu Mingyan didn't take Nan Jifeng's words, and the car fell silent for a while.Nervous, hurried, yet extremely depressing.

Nan Jifeng chose a restaurant, and she ordered some food to be served.When Gu Mingyan saw those dishes, he lost his appetite at all.

"Finish what you want to say."

Nan Jifeng paused the hand that was about to pick up vegetables for Gu Mingyan, and raised her sad eyes to look at her.She is still a cold woman, even if she breaks up, she doesn't have to be so cold.Break up, who admitted it back then?

"Ming Yan, shall we make up?"

Nan Jifeng paused for a few moments before finally speaking.

"Ji Feng, we are not suitable, really. If it was suitable, I would not choose to break up at the beginning. Our personalities are not suitable."

Gu Mingyan's voice was much gentler, and she looked at Nan Jifeng's slightly sad eyes.Didn't I make it very clear at the beginning, that time I used all my courage to make the decision, if I do it again, I really don't have the strength.Everything is too tiring, isn't it good now?Their own quiet life.

"Where is our personality inappropriate? Maybe Mingyan doesn't like my dominance, but I have had that temper since I was a child. If you think I am inappropriate, tell me that I will change. My sister-in-law said that I never think about you when I do things. Feeling, I never ask you if I like it or not when I give you something? Everything is imposed on you. If this is the case, can I change it?"

Nan Jifeng was also baffled about the breakup at the beginning. The two of them were chatting and laughing yesterday, but the next day, she said that she wanted to break up, and then in the afternoon it was the news that she was leaving by plane.

All of this is like a pre-arranged plot, as fast as a dream.When I got used to sleeping alone at night, I realized that I was really alone.

"If you change it, Ji Feng, you are not you anymore. You are Nan Jifeng. If you change those for me, you will no longer be you. I don't want you to become a self you don't like, and I can't tolerate it. You have everything, so that's fine. You don't have to be together, to cross a certain line."

In Nan Jifeng's eyes, Gu Mingyan's expression at this moment was full of sadness.She didn't know how much harm she had caused her in the past, so she refused to let go until now.How did she endure this kind of pain without falling in love.

When she left, everyone was blaming themselves, they didn't understand at that time, they really didn't understand.Obviously she was the one who said to break up, and she was the one who left without saying goodbye.Why is everyone blaming her alone.

Now, I suddenly understand that there are some hurts that I have been ignoring all the time, and I still think that I love her so much. Thinking of the love before, it is really ironic.Why did I never find that she was so tired of loving alone.

"Mingyan, I'm sorry."

This apology might be a bit late, but Nan Jifeng still felt that she had to say it.This sentence is really nothing compared to the harm it caused her in the past.But deep down, I still want to do it myself.

"Why do you apologize? It's not Ji Feng's fault. It was my fault at the beginning. I thought I could catch you by being who you like, but that made me lose myself even more. Then I gradually got bored and tired."

"One day when I couldn't take it anymore, I suddenly discovered that the changes I had made were not the most real for you and me. One day you will get tired of it too. Compared to you getting tired of leaving me, I It's better to leave by yourself, at least you can get back some dignity for yourself, so Ji Feng, just be yourself."

Gu Mingyan never took a bite of the food on the table, because he didn't like any of them.I want to take a bite without the trouble, but there is no need to do that kind of thing anymore.I used to do too much, but now I just want to be myself, there is no need to deliberately accommodate.

"It turns out that you did so much for me before, and I didn't know it myself. I'm so stupid."

Nan Jifeng smiled wryly, the previous Gu Mingyan was really gentle, so gentle that no one could find a single fault.At that time, I thought I met the most perfect woman in the world, so I always did what I wanted, because she would tolerate everything about me, and I never thought about her feelings when doing things.Seeing her now, the memory of those years is that he never really understood her.

"Ji Feng is very smart. Except for his temper, everything else is very good. It's just that I'm not the real type you like. The previous Gu Mingyan was not the real Gu Mingyan, but now he is, or maybe now It may not be the person I once thought. Hehe, the more I talk about it, the more confused I am."

Gu Mingyan felt that his words were messed up, and he smiled wryly by himself.Putting his hands on the table and crossing them, he looked down at his crossed hands from time to time, maybe he didn't want to see Nan Jifeng's expression.

"Mingyan..."

Nan Jifeng could feel the pain in Gu Mingyan's heart. Thinking of everything she had endured in the past ten years, her heart seemed to be torn apart arbitrarily, and the pain was irregular.

"So Ji Feng, can't we just get along like this? It's more suitable for us to be friends than lovers."

"Is that true? Mingyan, tell me, do you still love me?"

At this moment, Nan Jifeng also began to be moved. Gu Mingyan had been in pain for ten years, and she had complained for eight years. Compared with her pain, what happened to her may not even be compared to a trivial corner.

Gu Mingyan raised his eyes to look at Nan Jifeng's, and after a while, he said lightly: "Those are not important anymore."

"Mingyan, only by knowing this can I know what to do. No matter what you were like in the past, whether the one I loved was the real you, but now I want to love you, the real you, Is that not possible?"

Nan Jifeng told herself that the past has passed, and the present and future are the path she wants to take.The past Gu Mingyan is already in the past tense, the present and the future are the ones I want to protect.

Can we really go on?Is this relationship really acceptable?Is this the continuation of the pain, or is it heading towards a blue sky?Gu Mingyan was scared, she didn't dare to choose, and she was also afraid of choosing.

"Ji Feng, give me time to think about it, I can't answer you now. It's getting late, so I'll go back first, my aunt is still waiting for me at home."

Gu Mingyan wanted to escape, so he couldn't continue. If he stayed here again, it would be a compromise in the end.Get up, pick up your bag and leave.

"Ming Yan, how long will it take you to give me the answer?"

Nan Jifeng took Gu Mingyan's hand the moment she left her seat.

"I don't know, maybe there is no answer at all. So you have a good rest during this period, and don't come to me again. We are quiet with each other, and when we have figured it out, maybe the matter will be solved naturally."

Gu Mingyan smiled at Nan Jifeng, broke away from her hand, turned and left.Looking at the untouched food on the table, she turned to look out of the window at Gu Mingyan, seeing her thin and slender back, it hurt Nan Jifeng's heart again.Was she so thin?In the previous photos, she was obviously not so thin.

All the dishes are packed back, the Nan family is relatively frugal.At least no food is wasted.

Back home, Nan Jifeng handed the food to the servant, and dragged his tired body upstairs by himself.The people sitting in the hall, seeing this person who had gone to the imperial capital for a while, completely regarded them as empty people, and there was only one thought in their minds, that her second child was sick.

When she came back, Nan Jifeng lay down on her spacious double bed, as if she had been stripped naked, without any strength at all.

After so many years of resentment, I finally realized that everything was caused by myself, and I felt that it was ridiculous to waste those eight years.

"Have you seen her?"

Nan Qinghan leaned against the door frame, looking at Nan Jifeng who was lying there like a pile of mud.

"Oh."

Nan Jifeng responded softly, but didn't say another word.

"How do you feel?"

"You all know? I knew it a long time ago, but I am like a fool, who has always hurt her without a lower limit. Sister, why don't you tell me that I hurt her like that, why do you watch me hurt her, They just watched silently."

Nan Jifeng complained in her heart, but she was the one who complained the most.

"Didn't we say it? More than once, right? Have you heard our persuasion again? We don't feel sorry for Mingyan who bears everything alone? Don't want to help her? Ji Feng, Mingyan loves you, loves you without yourself .Her love is too cautious, too humble, and you, do you know this?"

"sister……"

Nan Jifeng sat up and looked at Nan Qinghan who was leaning against the door frame.

"Ji Feng, do you know what Mingyan likes? Every time you eat, what you order, or what she orders is what you like. I remember once Mingyan ordered a dish that you didn't like. What did you say at that time? Do you still remember? You said 'Mingyan, I don't like this dish, so don't order it in the future'. And that dish is Mingyan's favorite, so do you really know her?"

"sister……"

Nan Jifeng's heart was shattered this time.Was it like this before?

"In order to accommodate you, in order not to make you angry, and in order to love you, Ming Yan has become so humble that she even forgot about herself. What did you do for her at that time? You wantonly vented your temper and got into trouble. Ming Yan Help you clean up the mess. You wanted a perfect lover, so you asked Mingyan to be that kind of person too. Mingyan was tired, so she left."

Nan Qinghan didn't mean to sprinkle salt on Nan Jifeng's wound, she wanted her to understand what she really wanted.There is nothing perfect in this world, as long as you think she has one good thing, maybe she is already perfect.

"I have done so many bad things to Mingyan, what should I do now, sister, Mingyan doesn't want to continue this relationship, she wants to be friends. She said that we are more suitable to be friends than lovers. But I don't want to be friends, and I don't want to Be friends. I want her, and she'll be alone the whole time."

Tears began to fall from the corners of Nan Jifeng's eyes, and the tears flowed down his cheeks to his mouth, salty and bitter.

Looking at her bewildered sister, Nan Qinghan also felt distressed, but she didn't have much to do.Gu Mingyan was hurt too deeply.She has very little request for affection, and at the same time is very timid, so when the problem comes, she is very sensitive, and quickly escapes before the problem finds her.

She is not a woman who is good at solving problems, she is kind, but she doesn't know how to deal with herself.After eight years, it took all the courage to bring back the choice, and she no longer had the courage to let her touch this relationship.

"Then try to get to know her and open her heart. I believe you can do it. A woman from the Nan family can't be a weak ghost. Ming Yan loves you. If you want to catch her, you have to do it yourself." Kung fu, no one else can help you."

Nan Qinghan dropped those words, turned and left.

Nan Jifeng thought about her sister's words seriously, and after a long time, as if she understood something, she went to take a bath and went to bed with joy.

The next day, the third day... until the end of October, Nan Jifeng never showed up again.Just when Gu Mingyan thought he could live in peace, that lingering figure reappeared.

"Long time no see, Mingyan."

Nan Jifeng greeted Gu Mingyan who was walking towards the school gate with a playful smile. Gu Mingyan was obviously taken aback, but after two seconds he realized that he also said warmly, "Long time no see, Ji Feng."

"Can we have dinner together?"

Nan Jifeng made a gesture of invitation, and bowed to salute.People around turned their heads because of her actions.

Gu Mingyan frowned, completely unaware of what Nan Jifeng was up to.Long time no see, suddenly appearing in this posture, there must be a conspiracy.

"I asked Xiaomian and the others to have dinner together today, I'm sorry, I can't accompany you."

"It's okay, can I join you? Anyway, one more is not too much."

Nan Jifeng's cheeky appearance made Gu Mingyan feel even more difficult.Things get complicated if you take her with you.Gu Mingyan obviously wouldn't do that.

"Let's go eat first."

Leaving sideways, Nan Jifeng behind smiled.

When the two got into the car, Nan Jifeng neither stopped at the restaurant nor went to Nan's house, which made Gu Mingyan confused.

"Where are you taking me?"

"You'll know when it arrives."

Nan Jifeng had a mysterious look on her face, and she didn't want to say more.

Nan Jifeng didn't say anything, and Gu Mingyan didn't bother to ask, anyway, she wouldn't sell herself.

The two arrived at a community, Nan Jifeng parked the car in the garage, got out of the car and took Gu Mingyan's hand, and went to a villa.

Nan Jifeng opened the door and went in, but Gu Mingyan let her drag her at will, no amount of resistance would be futile, it is wisest to give up struggling.

"Like it?"

Gu Mingyan entered the villa, and saw the decoration pattern inside, simple yet elegant, completely in his favorite style.

"Are you showing me the house?"

It doesn't matter whether you like the house or not, but what Nan Jifeng brought herself here for.

"Yes, this will be our home from now on."

Nan Jifeng's face was full of joy, and he stretched out his hands to hold Gu Ming's slender hands where his knuckles could be seen.These hands are so small.

"Our home? Ji Feng, did you make a mistake. Since I don't have dinner, I'm going back."

Gu Mingyan broke free from Nan Jifeng's hand, turned around and was about to leave.

"Mingyan, Mingyan, don't leave."

Nan Jifeng hugged Gu Mingyan tightly from behind, as if using all his strength to confine her in his arms.

"Mingyan, I know where I am wrong. I am trying to change. I used to be domineering towards you. I never thought about your feelings when I did things, and I never really understood you. I will never do that again Yes, for you I am willing to get rid of all the bad habits."

Reflecting on these days, as well as self-analysis, Nan Jifeng has tried to change.She decorated the house in a way that Gu Mingyan liked, and went to learn how to cook, all of which Gu Mingyan liked.

"Ji Feng, you...why did you do this?"

Gu Mingyan's shoulders slumped, she couldn't stand Nan Jifeng who spoke in such a soft voice.She was afraid of her crying, afraid of her being sad.

"I love you, Mingyan. No matter who I loved in the past, no matter who you were in the past, or who you are now, you are the one I love. I can't live without you. I'm not a dedicated person. I only treat you , I have no way not to love. The moment I met you, I knew that my life was over."

Nan Jifeng remembers seeing Gu Mingyan for the first time in Boda University. She is a beauty and talented girl of the Faculty of Arts, and she is the prince of the Faculty of Finance and Economics.He is a person who has never put any woman in his eyes, but because of a chance encounter, he is doomed to lose his heart completely.

I spent a lot of thought on chasing Gu Mingyan, but after I chased her, I completely forgot what it was like to chase her.Unreasonable demands, domineering, and finally lost completely.

"You will be tired."

Gu Mingyan didn't know how to describe his mood at the moment, there was joy in his heart, and at the same time, a large part of it was cowardice.

"I'm not tired with you. If I lost you, I would be really tired. I've been tired all these years. In order to wait for you to come back, I tried to force you to appear, but in the end I didn't hear from you at all."

"The last car accident was also fake?"

Thinking of what happened last time, Gu Mingyan felt furious in his heart.This person is completely playing with his life.

"It's okay, it was just an accident. After staying in the hospital for a few days, I went home to raise her. At home, my sister nags me every day, calling me worthless."

Nan Jifeng pouted and complained that Nan Jifeng didn't know how to feel sorry for the injured patient, and even spoke ill at each other, which is really hateful.

"You're pretty worthless. A smart person wouldn't think of such a stupid way."

What can Gu Mingyan say, the last time I heard that she had a car accident, I almost fainted from fright.She really has no bottom line at all, how could she bet on her life like this when forcing someone to come out.

"There will be no more in the future. You are back. I will never go racing again. I will never take risks easily or cause trouble. I will listen to you carefully."

"Ji Feng, I need to think carefully about the matter between us."

Gu Mingyan was completely moved. If Nan Jifeng said so, she could do it.

"I gave you time to think about it, but you finally settled in that kind of peace. Ming Yan, don't run away anymore, we are not young, if this continues, we are just wasting a good time. My sister's child is almost four years old Yes. We are still entangled in this relationship."

Nan Jifeng turned Gu Mingyan's body and made her look at him. Everything needs to be settled today.

"Mingyan, I know there are a lot of problems between us, I think the two of us will correct it together, and it will eventually be resolved. If you don't like it, just say it, and I will respect you. I am 31 years old now, and I am a mature person. We are adults now. We can’t wait until all the problems are solved to be together. There are problems as long as people get along, so let’s work on it together?”

"Aren't you all good at talking about business?"

Nan Jifeng said so much by himself, Gu Mingyan pursed his lips and chuckled.When things got to this point, no matter how I escaped, I would be caught by her in the end.Knowing her too well, and knowing that she is a person who does what she says, is there any point in running away?

"If you can talk, you can earn opportunities. Did Mingyan agree?"

Looking at the smile on Gu Mingyan's face, Nan Jifeng knew that he had persuaded her.She was originally a very soft-hearted person, she was too kind, that's why she would rather get hurt than complain about hurting others.

"I don't know, since you don't cook, I still have to go to Xiao Mian's."

Gu Mingyan broke away from Nan Jifeng's hand, and trotted away from the villa.The smile on the corner of her mouth, as well as the relieved expression, were enough to prove her choice.

"Mingyan, don't leave. I said I'll cook for you."

Nan Jifeng rushed out quickly, stopped her on the path in front of the villa, and put her in his arms.

"You can't escape, you are my woman, the only woman in this life."

"If you make me sad again, I will disappear and you will never find me again in this life."

Gu Mingyan cried unscrupulously, tears wet Nan Jifeng's gown.

"I won't give you a chance, not in this life."

Saying that, he closed his eyes, kissed away the tears from the corners of Gu Mingyan's eyes, ran down his cheeks, and finally stayed on the softness with fragrance.

"Gu Mingyan, I love you."

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