Ambiguous addiction

When the spring breeze began to warm in March, He Shen and Ji Er held their wedding in the United States, because He Shen had a job and obtained a residence permit after graduating from a master's degree. Before returning to China to pursue Ji Er, he also took advantage of the opportunity of work.

Not many relatives and friends were invited to attend, only the parents of both parties and a few relatives and friends with good relations. The location was chosen in a garden full of cherry blossoms. The wind fluttered down the pavement on both sides of the trail.

This pair of couples who have passed the test of time finally ended their long-distance running of love and entered the hall of marriage, and gave their lives to each other under the witness and blessing of their closest relatives and best friends.

When Ji Er gave his testimonials, he cried as he spoke. He Shen looked at him softly, and twirled the cherry blossom petals that fell on his hair. He stared at him for a long time, feeling so emotional that he couldn't speak for a while.

Ji'er thanked everyone who could thank him, especially Lu Churan over and over again, if Lu Churan hadn't been encouraging him to persevere with the enthusiasm of watching the excitement, and had been the same The single dogs comfort each other to keep warm. He may have endured a lot, but he may not have all the hardships he has today.

Mr. Lu, who was hacked again as a witness of the wedding, was not as knowledgeable as them. He stood behind silently with a gentle smile, turned the heads of the two of them together and pressed them together. If you want to kiss, just kiss, don't talk so much nonsense.

At the wedding that day, Lu Yage, who was usually the female lead singer of the band, became the wedding singer. She sang all the most romantic love songs that she had ever heard. It was no different from having a solo concert, and achieved another radiance. Great personal achievement.

The most unexpected thing is that Tao Jiayue also found time to attend the wedding, but she didn't stay long because she had a job. After giving the congratulatory gift, she left in a hurry, said hello to Lu Churan, and smiled at Ye Xi , but no conversation.

Ye Xi found that he had become very confident in the face of Tao Jiayue. He couldn't help wondering if his previous personality who was at a loss and worried about gains and losses had run away from home, but it didn't matter if he left, he was confident that he would be able to keep his way in the future. Chu Ran fell in love.

After the wedding, Lu Churan took Ye Xi to see the cherry blossoms, took photos of him, and sat under the tree with him, listening to the rustling sound of the petals on the treetops wafting in the spring breeze.

Lu Churan intertwined his fingers, turned around and casually asked, "Why don't we get married by the way?"

Ye Xi met his gaze, and behind him were endless cherry blossom trees, which glowed with a faint pink luster under the transparent sunlight, like an endless sea of ​​flowers. He seriously considered Lu Churan's proposal, Then he replied, "I think the definition of marriage for me may be different from that of others. Signing oaths, property notarization and so on are not important to me, so I don't need any ceremony to marry you, as long as you recognize that I am you." If you want to take care of those who accompany you for the rest of your life, I will also do all the responsibilities of a husband and wife for you, respect you, cherish you, and love you."

Lu Churan raised the corners of her lips, touched his ear, and then touched his cheek, "You still need the ring, at least you have to announce to the whole world that if this man is the owner, you'll have to get my consent." '."

"Then can I set up a small table at the door of your classroom to collect tickets?" Ye Xi laughed, with pink eyes, "I can't imagine that I've only known you for less than a year. We have gone through a lot of things before we can make such a long-lasting determination. If it was this time a year ago, I would feel that other people’s talk about marriage is delusional to me. able to bond together.”

Lu Churan asked, "What about now?"

"Now I feel that after meeting you, life is full of happy accidents." Ye Xi smiled and leaned over to kiss him, leaning on his shoulder, "But I think it's better for us to stay in China."

"Don't you want to immigrate with me?"

Ye Xi said regretfully, "I used to be too short-sighted, and I just thought about how to live a two-person world with you. Now I have been abroad a few times before I wake up. Life abroad is so boring, and there are not many acquaintances to be separated from each other. It’s okay to get together in such a clean place on vacation, but it’s suffocating to me if I live. Every night before ten o’clock, I have to turn off the lights and go to sleep, and you definitely don’t want to have sex with me all night / love and indulge until dawn, then how boring I am .”

Lu Churan reached out to pinch his face, and pinched his cheeks into octopus mouths, "Say it again? Are you starting to think I'm bored now?"

"Well, I don't think you're bored, I love your boredom, if you're the kind of person who can't stand loneliness, likes to prove your personal charm by attracting others, and takes mercy everywhere as your duty, no matter how much you love me, you will definitely enter Not in my heart. I used to be the kind of person I hated the most, but not anymore, and now I am the kind of person you like the most." Ye Xi explained vaguely, holding his hands together tightly. Hold his other free hand, "But if it's just the two of us, it's easy to get bored after a long time, and the friction will increase. I can't live without you anymore. I don't want to get bored so early. I It's a lifetime to watch."

Lu Churan kissed his octopus mouth, smiled and loosened his mouth and let him go.

Ye Xi leaned into his arms, put her face on his shoulder, put her arms around him and hugged him seamlessly, and said softly, "Lu Churan, you look so handsome in a formal suit." , hurry up and buy me a ring, please, I will marry you now."

Ji Er did not stay abroad for long after he got married, because his career focus is on his coffee shop in China, but he and He Shen negotiated to fly to the other side with each other every once in a while. In short, the separation is enough. In the future, no matter what, I will never have a long-distance relationship again.

As for Lu Churan, he stayed in the country and watched the two "tobecontinued" jointly opened by them, and then watched them gradually become three or four, and gradually built them into a catering brand.

He later resigned from his job as a teacher, and had a lot of time to think about how to run several restaurants well and cook well, and he could follow Ye Xi on business trips all over the world as a trip around the world, and take good care of his fox cubs. daily diet.

With him by his side, Ye Xi is full of energy all day long and confident in everything he does. His mood is not depressed, his work and rest are normal, and his meals are normal. Naturally, his stomach and intestines are gradually getting better, so his absorption improves, and then he starts to gain weight. He was so scared that he quickly applied for a fitness card at the gym near the company, and took the time to exercise during his lunch break.

During that time, Ye Xi was very melancholy. He was sore from working for a long time without exercising. When he was lying on the bed and let Lu Churan massage and touch his stomach, he said sadly, "What should I do, old Lu? I'm really fat. You Do you feel like my stomach is getting softer?"

Lu Churan answered him honestly, "No, it feels good in the hand. Now I'm at a normal weight. I was too thin before, but it's better to be stronger. I won't lose my shape when I get old."

"The last time I went to a junior high school reunion, I found that all my classmates started gaining weight as soon as they got married, and after giving birth, they turned into uncles. I was so worried." Ye Xi said, reaching out to feel the way Chu Ran's face, "It's a good thing you're still handsome even when you're married."

Lu Churan was about to say something, when he heard a sound, he put his index finger in front of his mouth and gave a "shh" to signal silence.

There were vague and ambiguous sounds from downstairs, one after another, one after another, turning and turning, very regular. Ye Xi and Lu Churan looked at each other and smiled at the same time. Ye Xi shook his head helplessly, "It's like this, Newlyweds."

"The sound insulation here is really poor. After a while, we'll go and see the price of the sound insulation materials after you finish your work."

"What about tonight?" Ye Xi originally wanted to sit up from the bed, but fell down while holding his sore stomach, so he reached out and grabbed Lu Churan's tie to pull him down, touching the tip of his nose, He suggested enthusiastically, "How about we quarrel back tonight, what do you want to hear from me? I can also make the bed shake."

Lu Churan lowered her head and kissed his lips lightly, and said with a smile, "Childish."

——End of text——

☆, Epilogue - I am to you, if there are stars

Finding the commonality of human nature from two people with completely opposite experiences, personalities, and attitudes is the most interesting thing in this article.

Ye Xi is a social animal and has a good relationship with everyone, but in fact no one treats him as a friend, and he never treats anyone with sincerity. They are all just objects for mutual amusement, and he never misses it when he runs out.

Lu Churan doesn't like to socialize, but he is good at managing long-lasting and stable relationships. It takes him a long time to consider a person before he can decide whether this person can approach him, but once he is sure, he has a way to deepen the tame, Until the other party can't do without oneself.

Such two completely opposite people meet, but they can find what they want in each other, which is the longing for a firm and stable relationship.

They are actually allornothing, but Lu Churan chose all, and Ye Xi chose nothing.

In fact, they are both extreme, but because of their combination, they have reached that compromise point, achieved spiritual resonance, and become irreplaceable people.

Lu Churan is too serious about many things, especially when it comes to irrational things like feelings.

He doesn't think duplicity is a kind of taste, and he doesn't think it's meaningful to keep a person who doesn't want to spend the rest of his life with him, so he won't stalk after breaking up.

In his eyes, if you waver once, there will be a second time, because the essential problem is that you love me not firmly enough.

He was immature in the past, so he didn't give Tao Jiayue a second chance at all, and he didn't want to be the one who voluntarily gave in.

But now that he has grown up, he knows that a relationship depends on the joint efforts of two people to maintain it, and Ye Xi has always been ignorant and resistant to feelings due to his past experience. He knows that Ye Xi is just not trusting enough, not trying to escape.

So he is willing to give Ye Xi chances again and again, and he believes that he can see another possibility from Ye Xi.

It can also be said that it was because the other party was Ye Xi that there was such a change.

The reason why Ye Xi didn't believe in love was because his experience of being abandoned by his family told him that love couldn't be the kind of lasting and stable connection between people that he longed for most in his heart, so he used ambiguity to kill his sexual impulse. This vulnerable relationship is enough.

But Lu Churan used himself to prove to him that love is a lasting and stable connection, or in other words, the love I give you is, so the real Ye Xi who has been shutting himself in a small dark room and depressed alone is just like this. Unsuspectingly, he was brought out.

What is love, in fact, Ye Xi is still not clear in the end, he may spend his whole life exploring the answer.

But because he loves someone, he chooses to believe that love exists.

For such a person, he is willing to abandon the past without hesitation and take one more step forward, embrace the only light in life with all his courage, and obtain the only tame in the world.

That's enough.

So at the end of writing, if you still don't understand why the cold and excellent teacher Rulu chose Ye Xi, a little fox full of bad habits.

I will tell you, because Lu Churan has long discovered that Ye Xi is the same as him in terms of human nature. He desires to be tamed from the bottom of his heart, and he will give unreservedly to the established relationship. He also knows that only in this way is the compatibility Only those who can become a soulmate, the supreme soul mate.

So he identified this person, regardless of the cost, but also to guard.

They are actually very ordinary people, they are not the stars that attract attention on the stage, they are not domineering presidents worth tens of billions of dollars, they are not emperors and sages with a big heart, and they are not galactic warriors who save all mankind, but you say they have humanity in them The brilliance is not an exaggeration.

In other words, at least they have a human touch in their bodies. They not only have love and love in their lives, they will be busy with life, they will care about small things, and they also have the ideals, perseverance and freedom to relentlessly pursue.

They also have a scarred past and a stumbling youth, but because of the appearance of the other party, the past is not enough to fear, and they can even face it calmly.

In the past, when I wrote articles, there were a lot of elements made up without evidence, and I was not very skilled in shaping the characters. The character of the characters in the pen is difficult to infer how they will react when they encounter something, so they are tied up and dare not let go of writing.

The reader's feelings may not be obvious, but the author himself must know it.

I was still in this bottleneck state until I finished writing "Survival" this summer, so the overall tone of the article was gray, on the verge of aggrieved by wanting to abuse or not, because I was always depressed, but because With the blessing of cookies, my writing skills and writing style are constantly improving, so the writing is not ugly.

Starting from "Alternate Love Rival" and "Virtual Indifference", I consciously use the characters to push the plot instead of using the plot to express the characters, and I have a different writing experience, and after adapting to this method, the hand speed will enter unconsciously. I was in a supernatural state, so I had the confidence to rewrite "Ambiguous Addiction", an article that was written last year but the characters collapsed and the plot got stuck, so I was stuck.

(By the way, in those two biscuit articles written at the same time, you actually only love "Virtual Indifference" and not "Alternate Love Rival". I'm so angry, I really want to press your heads and read it.)

I don’t know if it’s because my mentality is different after going back to school this year than last year’s vacation. The angle of writing is no longer limited to creating several different people’s views on life and love, but with a little humanistic spirit. Focus on humanities, reflect the spiritual world of a person or a group from a current behavior, and reflect his experience, knowledge and expectations from the spiritual world.

It is actually very tiring to think about characters like this, but I feel like never before that the characters I write are alive, not just two-character or three-character names, not just a symbol that carries the plot.

In the process of writing this article, I met a lot of new children. Sometimes when I chatted on Weibo, they told me that they were also studying hard and working hard, but because they followed my articles, they still felt sad when they worked hard every day. With expectations.

I just remembered one thing.

In the second semester of my third year of high school, I took the initiative to quit the Internet in order to indulge in studying without distraction. I deleted all Weibo and WeChat browsers. The only entertainment I had was reading texts on my phone.

When I was close to quitting the Internet, I accidentally read a tweet and downloaded an article.

Then I met my favorite Da Da.

Although her article is not the best one she wrote, it is my favorite, the kind that I can't get tired of reading even the plot is memorized.

In the [-] days of the sprint stage, I read that article seven times. I read it every time I felt tired and wanted to cry.

So I know exactly what it's like to get a kind of spiritual strength when you're alone, and what it's like to long for the company of things you like when you're having a hard time.

I am very honored that my teacher Lu and Xiao Yexi can also become such roles, accompany some of you through this period of time, and form the sweetest part of a certain difficult time.

It is not easy for all those who want to live with a clear conscience in this world, and it is even more difficult for those who want to be recognized and praised.

Everyone has worked hard, but it is not hard for you to see.

So don’t be envious of those who seem to be smooth sailing. The joys and sorrows of life are inherently early and late, and they are not measured at regular intervals. People’s encounters and partings are also unpredictable, and we are not in a hurry to look back. That’s why we feel that life’s ups and downs are full of surprises. and a sense of drama.

It doesn't matter if you encounter setbacks. No one can never make mistakes. The important thing is to at least recognize what is right and what to do. Since you have worked hard and put your heart into it, don't regret it. If you fail, admit it and learn from it. Regret is the ultimate It's useless, because time never flows backwards, it just pushes you forward.

The pain of being obsessed with obsession now may one day look back and become a sigh of mystery and pride.

Be brave and "just live happily ever after".

Before "Ambiguous Addiction", there have never been so many people waiting for me to serialize an article, eating candy and crying together in the comments every day, writing me long comments to coax me to reply and update.

It sounds very sad, after all, I have written so many articles, so it feels a little bit like suffering.

But it was really not good enough before, so it is not unacceptable.

Of course, I want to pay back for my hard work. Since I don’t write stories for fame or money, I want to be praised and commented on so diligently.

You can't bear my handsomeness for nothing and don't say that you like me to be wronged like this.

So I am very grateful to those who have left comments and likes, because I feel that the works I wrote with my heart have been well valued and treated.

So speaking of this, the story of Mr. Lu and the little fox is officially over, but I know that their lives are still going on in a wider world, and it depends on my mood.

Thank you for your company along the way, please continue to take care of us in the new year.

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2016.12.22