He forced me to take responsibility after my roommate was scumbag

Although he was mentally prepared, Tang Qingzhi still felt his heart was stabbed when the rejection notice jumped in front of him.

It's too miserable, it's too miserable, he always rejects others by himself, and when it's someone else's turn to pierce his heart, Tang Qingzhi feels that everything is not good.

——Now I understand Zheng Xiaotian's mentality when he was forced to jump off the building.

Tang Qingzhi glanced tearfully at the single-family villa on the second floor where he lived, feeling sad and desperate in his heart.

"You have to think it over." Qiao Hui, who was watching TV and eating fruit, couldn't help but mention something when she saw her son start to cry again.

"I think that Xiaoyu fell in love with you because he wanted to live a good life and for a long time."

Hearing this, Tang Qingzhi's restless fingers suddenly calmed down—what is his purpose for seeking reconciliation?Is it to restore my shattered dignity, or is it really reluctant to part with Yu Qiuzhu and wants to be with him?

"If you're still playing around like before and just letting it go, then I suggest you let him go."

Having said that, Tang Qingzhi felt that his online name seemed to be bewitched—it was so bad that he had to let it go, so that every relationship he had could not escape the ending of these four words.

In fact, what Tang Qingzhi didn't realize was that when he chose this name, in addition to echoing his own name, he was borrowing this "beautiful meaning"-after all, he fell in love to revenge the society.

It's just that talking about it now has turned into revenge for myself.

Tang Qingzhi can be said to do whatever he can, superstitious No.1.

Looking at my screen name that was like a curse, I didn't care about the reunion, I dragged a bench and sat down seriously, opened the search engine, and decided to find a new screen name for myself.

However, he seemed to be thinking too much.

The times are developing and the society is progressing, but those "boys' sad online names" and "personal online name elections" on the Internet seem to be stuck in those nights full of non-mainstream atmosphere more than ten years ago.

Tang Qingzhi frowned with unruly eyebrows, adjusted the high-end washed, cut and blown colored bangs that did not exist in front of the forehead, and queued up on the web page to receive the number plate of love with a sad elevation angle of [-] degrees.

"The dead bird is proud of the world", "I love you as a prison", "The sadness of gray pupils"...

Tang Qingzhi's index finger twitched. Compared with those online names that switch species, have strange tendencies, or have physical defects, he vaguely feels that it's good to be nothing.

He scratched casually in the list again, and typed a line in the search bar as if he suddenly remembered something.

"What does to mean".

……

At the instigation of some expert, Tang Qingzhi was able to blushing to add him.

But the follow-up was within Yu Qiuzhu's expectations - he knew Tang Qingzhi was thin-skinned, and as expected, after being rejected by him once, that person didn't respond for a whole half a day.

Probably sulking and scolding myself for not knowing good and bad.

Yu Qiuzhu imagined the appearance of him jumping, and at first he couldn't help laughing, but then he realized it later - what a fart, can you still laugh at such a miserable thing?

In the past few days, Yu Qiuzhu discovered that he had indeed overestimated his ability to resist interference.

He thought that he was still kind of fickle - after all, whether it was friendship with classmates or family relationship, there were very few emotions that could affect his overall mood.

So he also took it for granted that after the breakup, after the stress reaction time, he should get back on track.

But the roommates punctured their fantasies one by one.

"Fish, it's almost enough. It's really hard for my body to eat so much all the time."

"Brother Yu, if you really can't do it, you should take a vacation and go home to rest."

"Qiuzhu, are you really okay? Do you want to prescribe some sleep aid medicine?"

...God.Yu Qiuzhu only felt that he was too disappointing.

He never thought he would be tortured like this by one person.

"Fish, to be honest." Jiang Bei finally couldn't help but patted him on the shoulder.

"Since he also has that intention, you might as well start over."

……

Tang Qingzhi has been thinking about a problem for the past few days when the world has evaporated.

Whether he has the ability to be with a person for a long time, whether he is ready to entrust the rest of his life to a certain person.

This is the first time he has seriously considered the matter of "the future". If Yu Qiuzhu hadn't appeared, he might still be continuing a love affair that seemed to be smooth sailing, but in fact achieved nothing.

He gradually understood what Qiao Hui meant by "grow up".

He knew that all the decisions he made now were irrational, but he still decisively deleted the irrelevant contact information in his mobile phone, and he swore a poisonous oath to wash his hands with his friends who had crazy fun together. , He even threw away the platinum cards of various clubs that he had saved for many years...

The first two or three days were like the early days of drug rehabilitation. Tang Qingzhi was almost pulled back by the self-defined "withdrawal reaction" several times, but when he saw the "Yu Qiuzhu Ugly Rejection Collection" set as the screen saver of his mobile phone, he gritted his teeth in advance , With tears in his eyes, he stabilized himself.

After struggling like this until the end of the New Year's Day holiday, Tang Qingzhi suddenly realized the so-called "all four things are empty".

Now he just wants to eat vegetarian food, read books, recite Buddhist scriptures, and spend every day leisurely and happily.

With this appearance, it doesn't matter whether Yu Qiuzhu gets back together with him or not. Tang Qingzhi feels that his six sense organs are clean, and he is only short of a shave, so that he can go to the monk temple behind the mountain to see through the world.

He honestly typed the "confession diary" he had written in the past few days into a document, and sent an attachment directly to Yu Qiuzhu's private mailbox.

Few people use mailboxes anymore, but Yu Qiuzhu is different. He often uses it when receiving song files, and Tang Qingzhi will definitely read them if he is sure.

……

On the last night of the New Year's Day holiday, Yu Qiuzhu lay half dead in the studio.

In fact, there is no difference between this holiday and the previous New Year's Day - I stayed alone in the studio, but this time my original expectations were in vain, and I felt a lot more lonely.

He seldom touches musical instruments these days. He is convinced that people have no desire to create in a state of extreme pain, so he can only mechanically receive post-production orders, repeating a series of processes such as noise reduction, EQ adjustment, etc. .

A large number of jobs has enriched his wallet recently, but he can't think of a place to spend it. The original plan was to change to better headphones this time on Double Eleven, but it was still too expensive.

I can be willing to spend a lot of money to change to a single ward, just to let Tang Qingzhi sleep well for a few days, but I am also reluctant to spend the same price for a headset that he has been fascinated for a long time.

While thinking sadly, Yu Qiuzhu's work mailbox rang again. He subconsciously thought that it was a document from another client, but when he clicked it, he found that it was the ex who made him dream of it. here.

The first reaction was to back out, but after seeing the densely packed words, curiosity still overwhelmed the conditioned reflex.Yu Qiuzhu was ready to have his heart cut into pieces. After taking a deep breath, he read it word by word.

"Student Yu Qiuzhu:

In fact, I still want to call you boyfriend, but now I don't have the qualifications.

Long time no see, how are you doing recently?Has the knee recovered well, and has the mood been affected?The medicine prescribed by the doctor should be taken on time. If you can walk less, it is better not to move your legs as much as possible.

Have you read a book recently?The final exam is coming soon, I hope you don't fail. "

The first few greetings were unexpectedly gentle and even warm. Yu Qiuzhu, who was already prepared for the storm, was caught off guard.

He seemed to hear Tang Qingzhi's gentle and even sweet voice whispering in his ear, which calmed his bad mood a little, but he had to admit that his thoughts became more and more chaotic.

"...I don't know what mood you are reading this email right now. I can only tell you about my own state. After I broke up with you, I feel like the sky is going to fall. Maybe you think I'm lying, but I really I've never cried so badly for anyone."

"After we separated, I reflected a lot. The more I reflected, the more I felt that I had gone too far. As your ex-partner, I failed to give you the sense of security you deserved. I was playful and lied, which really hurt your heart."

It was rare to see Tang Qingzhi apologize so sincerely, Yu Qiuzhu felt unreal like a dream.

But so far, he has only regarded this as a medium for the two to let go of their grievances, and getting back together is still something he dare not think about.

"I don't know if it's possible to reunite now, but I figured it out during this time, I really like Yu Qiuzhu very much."

Yu Qiuzhu's heart skipped a beat.

"I like it so much that I cry every day when I don't see you."

"I like it so much that I dare not listen to the song for fear of accidentally thinking of you."

"I like it so much that my heart shatters when I see the braised fish at noon."

Seeing the braised fish here, Benyu smiled unconvincingly.

There is a series of strange metaphors behind, but Yu Qiuzhu can understand every sentence, understand the unique encryption method between the two of them.

A few attachments in doc format were also inserted in the middle, which contained the reform log of his reformation during this period.

"...so much that I really want to spend my life with you."

"To, can I be your charon?"

……

Tang Qingzhi's English is average, and he didn't know that the word to meant Pluto until he entered it into the search engine.

Pluto is a planet at the outermost edge of the solar system, where it hardly draws any sunlight. It is a lonely, icy planet. It is dark and humble, and finally even removed from the ranks of planets by scientists.

Just like Yu Qiuzhu has always been like - unable to get warmth and love, always lonely and cold, it seems that he can never find a group willing to accept him.

Tang Qingzhi thought that Yu Qiuzhu didn't change his screen name at that time because he was simply nostalgic for the past, but now he knows that he never had the confidence to break through such a cold situation from the very beginning.

In his opinion, Tang Qingzhi was just a comet that passed by Pluto. After the sky brightened for a short time, it was still an endless lonely rotation.

Such implication made Tang Qingzhi a little uncomfortable, and even a little unconvinced, until he slowly swipe down the page.

"But later, scientists discovered a dwarf planet of the same force named Charon that has been accompanying To. During this 60 billion-kilometer journey that even light is difficult to travel through, this planet has been accompanying him on a lonely journey. .”

"To is no longer a planet, he can't have a real satellite, but Charon and he are cuddling each other in this corner where the sun doesn't shine."

"They attract each other's company."

"They will walk through the universe together."

【to agreed to charon's friend request】.