Immediately after the death of the master

When you grow up, I hope you can live in the happiest age and live your life carefree.

Sometimes, I hope you learn to make choices, learn to be cunning and ruthless, and learn to be a real king.

I pushed him out of the adults who were drinking and drinking, just like countless battles in the past, I held a glass of wine and fought into the enemy camp alone.

Fu Keji called my name behind me, but I didn't look back.

The group of boys who had a crush on Ji Qingshuang didn't hold back at all, they really drove me to death, if it weren't for the fact that we had a life-and-death friendship, I might tear myself apart with them on the spot.

But even so, I was not the one who drank the most in this banquet. The Ninth Prince sat in the corner and had been pouring himself wine since the beginning of the banquet. There were already a lot of wine jugs piled up beside him.The air pressure around him was extremely low, and no one dared to approach him.

He drank until the end of the banquet, his eyes were still clear, he got up from his seat and left alone.

I was a little worried about him, but a group of people gathered around me, and I couldn't get away.

These bastards who poured alcohol on me were clamoring for a new house, but none of them had even reached Ji Qingshuang's tent, and they all disappeared halfway, leaving me alone in front of the new house.

No prospect, no ambition, deservedly can't find a wife.

Thinking of this, my legs trembled a little, and I entered our new house cautiously.Before I went in, I guessed that Ji Qingshuang would not put on her hijab obediently and sit on the bed to wait for me.

But even though he was mentally prepared, he was still frightened by Ji Qingshuang when he went in.

Ji Qingshuang lifted the hijab herself, took off the heavy phoenix crown, and her long black hair fell loose. She put her legs on the table, holding the jug in her hand, and poured herself wine.

Seeing me coming back, she raised her chin and motioned for me to sit next to her.

I sat obediently on the seat next to her. I was a little thirsty because I had just been drunk too much. I picked up the teapot on the table and poured myself a cup of tea.

Just after swallowing the first sip, Ji Qingshuang's words made me spit out the tea in fright.

"I know you don't like women."

"..."

I wiped the corners of my mouth clean, and her next sentence shocked me so much that I dropped my teacup.

"What a coincidence, I don't like men either."

"..."

Although there have been rumors in the military camp that I am having an affair with my master, most of them are joking, and few people take it seriously, even my political enemies who are actively spreading rumors do not believe it themselves.

Ji Qingshuang has always been in a state of indifference to all kinds of rumors. She can make this judgment, which can only show that she has obtained solid evidence.

"How did you find out?" I asked.

"We've been to brothels together so many times. Although you call me a girl every time, your movements are too gentle. When a girl leans on you, you will unconsciously avoid it." Ji Qingshuang said calmly, she has always been like this , under her seemingly free and unrestrained surface, there is a cautious and prudent core hidden. She drank wine and continued to reveal details that I didn't notice, "Also, every time there is a good song and dance, a man will Staring at the dancer's thigh or waist, only you are staring at Fu Jin's side face in a daze."

She is telling the truth, I still remember the beautiful figure of the master when he listened to the beautiful music.I still remember that the master closed his eyes, tilted his head slightly, and relaxed himself into the beautiful melody.That figure surpassed the five senses and was directly imprinted in my mind, which became deeper and deeper as time went by, making it unforgettable in my life.

The master used to be the favorite son of the old emperor. He received the most complete and comprehensive education since he was a child. The master is proficient in everything, and has his own taste for music. Musicians, just to satisfy their ears from time to time.Whenever the master orders the musicians to play music, I often go to the master's side and accompany him to enjoy the music. To be honest, an old man like me does not have much musical literacy. Come out, and the only reason why I am willing to often go to the master to listen to the music is because of the master.

The master's eloquent comments on the music are far more important than the ability of the musicians, and the master's beautiful silhouette when appreciating the music is far more beautiful than the music itself.

Yes, I am deeply fascinated by my master, intoxicated by his handsome and beautiful face, fascinated by the unpredictable eyes of others, and in love with his figure working at the desk.

Ji Sanqing has already taught me what liking is, and I know that the emotion that grows in my gaze is liking, but this liking is doomed to be hidden in the dark, gradually decaying and deteriorating.

Just because... I like the master, but I love myself more.

For eternity and eternity, I will not let my master realize my love for him, I will not let him know, as long as he is willing to give me a little real warmth, he can really play with me; as long as he is willing to give me a Embrace, and my sanity will be unhooked, and I will do anything for him.

This love is terrified of me, this emptiness is out of control, and I cannot accept that I am not me.

Therefore, we can only be masters and servants, exploiters and exploited.

Either he kills me or I kill him.

There is no third way in between.

I snatched the jug from Ji Qingshuang's hand, and kept pouring wine into myself under her silent eyes.

She let me go because she understood me, she was the same person as I was after all.

Ji Qingshuang looked at me who was trying to get drunk, and asked:

"Do you still remember, I asked you why you were so loyal to Fu Jin? At that time, I was very curious, because a villain could not reach your situation with pure ambition."

Ji Qingshuang's gaze was almost pitiful, and she now knew the answer.

I took a sip of wine and asked the same question I asked back then, "What about you, you don't love your master at all, so why don't you marry someone who isn't your master?"

We didn't answer each other's questions, but we all knew the answer, because of love, because of the love that is destined to be unavailable.

Her love for that person, my love for my master.

We're all deluding ourselves, we're all afraid of ourselves, we're trapped in a loveless city from which we can never get out.

People who love each other hurt each other, but people who don't love can understand each other.

How ironic.

The red candle was only half burned, and Ji Qingshuang, who was wearing a wedding dress, and I, who was wearing a wedding dress, took advantage of the long night in the bridal chamber to find comfort from each other's bloody wounds.

We drank a jar of Nurhong together, but not for the joy of sharing.

Tiny from the wine, Ji Qingshuang lay lazily on the table, the corners of her eyes were reddish with tears shining.

"Li Nian'en," she said to me suddenly, "give me the box in your arms."

She didn't tell me that I forgot, I quickly took out the box she gave me earlier from my arms, and handed it to her, she slowly opened the box in front of me...

...in the box is a tablet.

Although it is really unlucky for this crazy woman to let me carry a memorial tablet at the wedding, but what I pay more attention to now is:

"Who is this?"

Biting sadness flashed in Ji Qingshuang's eyes, she rubbed the words engraved on the tablet with her fingertips, murmured softly, read out the title of that person, missed that person's name:

"Princess Lingshou, Fu Ling."

Princess Lingshou, the name that the master often pronounces, is his favorite imperial sister. When the master was ten years old, he was sent to Zhongshan to marry him. The next year, he was tortured to death by the king of Zhongshan.

Ji Qingshuang once said that she used to be a lady of every family, a well-known lady, but when I knew her, she had already become a lunatic with explosive force value, chasing her master all day long, yelling for Marry the master, and go to war with the master.

Princess Lingshou is the master's sister. It is said that both of them look like their mother and concubine. Moreover, the master is the adopted son of the old prince. If there is no accident, he will take over from the old prince to guard the border and resist the attack of the Zhongshan Kingdom.

Then, the reason why she wants to marry the master, the reason why she must come to the frontier.

Obvious.

Thinking of this, I was secretly startled.

Crazy, she really is a lunatic.

Ji Qingshuang's eyes were foggy, but she still muttered to herself:

"Actually, I was the one who chose to marry the monarch of Zhongshan Kingdom. She took the initiative to marry in my place. Then, my princess died there."

Ji Qingshuang closed her eyes, holding back all the tears in her eyes.

Her maiden has passed away, but my master is still alive, I am not qualified to comfort her.

Ji Qingshuang doesn't need my comfort either, she embraces her tablet and draws the warmth of life from the dead wood.

After a long time, she stood up slowly, took out the red hijab, put it on the tablet of Princess Lingshou, and carried it to the bed.

"Go away, I want to sleep with my tablet in my arms."

Ji Qingshuang put down layers of gauze, and behind the gauze, the hem of the wedding dress was extremely long and winding, like a giant red snake, as if it wanted to restrain and devour her.

She fell into the blood-red wedding dress, holding the tablet of her beloved, as if she had passed away for thousands of years.

121,

I quietly retreated, not wanting to disturb this wedding that only belonged to her.

Compared with the gloomy wedding room like a tomb, the night in early winter can be considered warm. I gathered up my clothes, and after being kicked out of the wedding room, I decided to find someone to drink with me.

"Where is the bridegroom going?"

I haven't decided where to go yet, Ji Qinghe who came out of the darkness without a sound startled me.

"Who—oh my god, you scared me to death." I patted my chest and managed to catch my breath, "Ji Qinghe, don't keep jumping out suddenly, okay?"

Ji Qinghe smiled lightly, peach blossom eyes