The short-lived white moonlight only wants salted fish

Another dream.

In the dream, Jiang Yi led her to walk in the dark maze, and they were like two hamsters thrown into a black box, running wildly along the place where there was light.

A huge shadow followed them, chasing them like a monster of absurd fate until it drove them into the dark abyss.She followed behind Jiang Yi, watching her figure being engulfed by the darkness bit by bit, all the screams were blocked in her throat.

"Jiang Yi...Jiang Yi...don't...Jiang Yi!"

With a burst of terrified shouts, Jiang Ruxie woke up from his dream.She hugged her head and sat up from the bed, hugged herself tightly like a wounded little animal in the dark, and murmured unconsciously: "Jiang Yi..."

The air conditioner in the room was fully turned on, but she felt as if she was in a stove, and her whole body was drenched.Cold sweat stuck to her body, making her feel uncomfortable all over.Jiang Rulu reached out and brushed his sweaty forehead back. After a while, he got up and walked into the bathroom in the dark.

Turning on the bathroom light with a bang, Jiang Rushang walked into the shower room, turned on the faucet, and let the cold water flow from the top of her hair to her toes.

The cold water brought her consciousness back slightly, she closed her eyes, and suddenly remembered the events of that day again in her mind.She didn't really remember the weather that night. It didn't matter if it was a starry night, a moonlit night, or a dark night.

She only remembered that Jiang Yi's hands were very warm that night, her back was very firm, and her pheromone smelled very good.

Just thinking of these contents, Jiang Rulu felt a convulsion in her stomach, and she had to prop her hands on the wall, retching silently in the splashing water.

Suffering from acid reflux again, Jiang Ruxun had to bend over and squat on the ground, retching for a long time before getting out of this embarrassment.

After being tortured in the stomach for a while, Jiang Silu squatted on the ground, washed the tears off his face with the water flow, took a long breath, and stood up from the ground.

She turned off the water, dried her body and walked out of the bathroom, wrapped in a bathrobe, she came to the mirror on the sink.

The man in the mirror, staring at a head of wet messy hair, pale, with red eyes, looks like a ghost.Jiang Silu tilted his head, looked at himself in front of the mirror, and smiled for some reason.

She thought, what would Jiang Yi say if he saw himself like this now?

Is it disgusting to complain about her?Still feel distressed?

Thinking of this, the smile on the corner of Jiang Rulu's mouth suddenly disappeared.It has been five years, and Jiang Yi has been away for five years. No matter how much she deceives herself, she should understand that the person who left may never come back.

Every time this idea arises in her heart, she can't wait to die.

But Jiang Silu knew that he could not die.Because Jiang Yi tried her best to switch back to her current self, so she can't just waste her life so easily.

But living is too painful.

When will she be free from such pain?

After drying his hair, Jiang Rulu lay on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, unable to fall asleep.In fact, since Jiang Yi left, she hardly had a good night's sleep without the help of drugs.

Even with the help of drugs, she would wake up from the nightmare.So repeatedly, open your eyes until dawn.

She tossed and turned on the bed for a while, and it was really difficult to fall asleep, so she simply got up, picked up the sleeping pill by the bedside, and poured one in her hand.

While pouring the sleeping pills, Jiang Rulu suddenly had a thought in his heart: If she swallows the whole bottle of sleeping pills, will she be able to see Jiang Yi?

When this idea came to mind, Jiang Ruxi couldn't help but smile.She thought that she was really hopeless, otherwise how could she think of such absurd things.

After swallowing this whole bottle of sleeping pills, she doesn't know if she will see Jiang Yi, but the mother who will accompany her to see the doctor tomorrow, if she sees her lying on the bed and can't wake up again, she will cry heartbreakingly .

Thinking of this, Jiang Silu sighed.When she swallowed the sleeping pill, and the bitter taste of the medicine spread in her mouth, she couldn't help thinking that she was actually a rather cowardly person.

She doesn't really want to live, but she doesn't dare to die either. All happiness seems to be gone from her.

Perhaps this is the price of growth.

After taking the medicine, Jiang Rulu lay on the bed and closed his sleepy eyes for a while.

It may have been just a moment, or it may have been a long time, when the alarm clock next to the pillow rang, Jiang Rulu vaguely got up from the bed, after washing up, covered his red and swollen eyes with makeup, and waited for Ning Wenyin to come to the door, Went to the hospital with her.

On the way to the hospital, Ning Wenyin asked some questions about her recent life, and Jiang Silu told them one by one.She knew her mother was worried, so she took her hand and acted like a baby: "Don't worry, the last diagnosis, it's already much better."

"You see, I have managed the company so well, what else can happen."

Looking at her smiling face, Ning Wenyin felt a twinge of pain in her heart.She stretched out her hand, rubbed Jiang Silu's head and said, "If you are really as good as you said, I don't have to worry about it."

"Shanglao, you can't always be dealing with work, you...you have to hang out with some friends, relax more, and make more friends."

Jiang Silu smiled: "Mom, I went out with my friends. Look at me, don't I go to the racecourse with people every week?"

Ning Wenyin sighed: "But you are negotiating business with people, you know what I mean."

"you……"

Ning Wenyin was halfway through her sentence, but suddenly she couldn't continue.Jiang Shuang held her hand, comforted her and said, "I know what mom is talking about, but mom also knows that I don't like the smell of alpha."

"Until now, I'm still not used to being around other people, I'm still scared."

"But it's okay, Mom... I'm much better now. You see, I don't handle my work well and take care of myself well. Although I still feel a little uncomfortable, I still can't let it go, but I will learn to look forward. "

"Mom, I'll let her go."

Seeing her daughter like this, Ning Wenyin felt very uncomfortable.She stretched out her hand to stroke Jiang Silu's long hair, and comforted her softly: "I don't have to ask you to let her go, it doesn't matter if you can't let her go. But Xianglu, you have to live your own life and take good care of yourself."

"People always look forward, look... I haven't stared at you for a while, and you've lost so much weight."

Jiang Silu showed a flattering smile, and she winked at Ning Wenyin: "Because I've been too busy at work recently."

Jiang Silu took Ning Wenyin's hand and interlocked her fingers: "By the way, Mom, didn't you and Aunt Qionghua say that you will go skiing in the southern hemisphere in July, how are you preparing now?"

Ning Wenyin smiled and replied, "It's ready."

Jiang Silu smiled and rolled his eyes: "Then this time, mother should consider preparing for pregnancy or something like that."

"Aunt Qionghua, there is only one child. I also hope that my mother can have another child, so that I can have my own younger sister. If my mother is willing, I will go this time and ask for a child."

Ning Wenyin froze for a moment, and looked at Jiang Silu seriously: "Do you really want a younger sister?"

Jiang Silu nodded: "Well, I really want it." If there is a younger sister to help her distract her mother, it will be easier for her to leave someday.Because she felt that she really couldn't hold on anymore.

The strong destructive atmosphere corroded her heart, and as she got older, it seemed that even her soul was corroded, so that her vitality gradually faded away.

The scariest thing is not that you don't know that you have been corrupted, but that you know that you are corrupted, but refuse to save yourself, and even pretend to be a normal person, stepping deeper into the abyss.

When facing the psychiatrist, Jiang Rushang gave 12 points of energy.She has read many psychology books and has her own way of dealing with doctors.Although her heart was broken, what she presented to the doctor was indeed a scarred but gradually reborn soul.

The doctor's diagnosis tended to be good. Although Jiang Silu's heart had been brutally tortured, she is indeed inclined to heal herself now.

The doctor thinks that she can stop using psychotropic drugs, and then she can take good care of her body.

After learning the result, Ning Wenyin breathed a sigh of relief.On the way back, Ning Wenyin rarely had a smile on her face.Jiang Silu couldn't help laughing, took her hand and said to her, "Look, Mom, I just said it's okay."

How could something happen to her.She just lived in pain, but she didn't really want to die.Because death ends everything.But now she has not thought of leaving this world.

Ning Wenyin sighed, and said to her, "It's just as long as you're fine."

Then he gave some instructions to Jiang Silu to take good care of himself.Jiang Silu agreed one by one, and then asked the driver to drive and take Ning Wenyin back to Jiang's villa.

Because Jiang Silu had a meeting in the evening, she asked the driver to drive back to the company.Passing an intersection on the road, while waiting for the traffic lights, Jiang Rulu leaned against the window and saw a group of middle school students in white shirts and black suit pants crossing the road in groups, and his expression suddenly became dazed.

For some reason, she thought of Jiang Yi again.

If Jiang Yi is still here...

Once this thought arises, it is difficult to suppress it.Jiang Silu was lying at the window, watching the group of middle school students chattering across the road, waiting for the lights to turn green, and when the driver passed the intersection, he said: "Put the car by the side of the road, and don't go to the company yet." gone."

She doesn't want to have a meeting anymore, she wants to find Jiang Yi.

Thinking of this, Jiang Shuang asked the driver to get out of the car and drove to the suburbs by himself.

On the way, she called her assistant and canceled the evening meeting.

When Jiang Silu drove the car to the fork in the mountain, the sun was setting.She stopped the car, jumped on it, sat on the hood in front of her, hugged her knees and looked at the setting sun ahead.

At this time, the evening breeze was blowing gently past Jiang Silu's ears.Looking into the distance, she sensed a chill for no reason.After a while, she turned around, looked at the clump of low green bushes, and said softly: "Hey...Jiang Yi, can I go find you."

At this time, a gust of evening wind hit, rustling the leaves in the mountains and forests, as if it was Jiang Yi's answer: "No."

Jiang Silu couldn't help but feel a little discouraged, she put her chin on her knees, with tears in her eyes: "Yes, you always say no to me."

"I can't get close to you, I can't touch you, I can't smell your pheromones, I can't..."

"like you……"

"I hate it so much, I hate you so much."

"You are always lying to me, you are lying to me if you hate me, you are lying to me if you don't like me, and you are lying to me if you don't love me..."

"You are lying to me by asking me to wait for you. You are also lying to me by saying that you will come back..."

"You are a nuisance, Jiang Yi."

Jiang Ruxie's voice gradually turned into crying, she buried her face in her arms, and murmured: "But what should I do, Jiang Yi...I miss you so much."

The evening wind sent her whispers to a distant place, but not to a place she wanted to go.

Jiang Silu squatted on the car, listening to the rustling sound from the forest, thinking of the long-dissipated breath in the room, tears came out: "It's been almost six years, Jiang Yi..."

"I can't wait for you forever."