Song of Complaint: The Emperor's Heart is Unpredictable

Chu Nan had been sitting by the lotus pond until dusk before getting up to go back to the Hall of Mental Cultivation. Feixue had already taken her away, and he was the only one left in the whole lotus pond. The cage was covered with a layer of blood.

I said clearly that I would not believe it, but why is my heart shaken?

After all, was he still defeated by Feixue's words?

He didn't want to go back to the Hall of Mental Cultivation anymore, he didn't want to know the answer, he didn't know what kind of mentality he should use to see Jingyang again, he was afraid that all the truth would be so cruel...but where else could he go except the Hall of Mental Cultivation Woolen cloth?If you don't get an answer, you will still be unwilling to go to the ends of the world!

I was thinking about my thoughts all the way, but when I returned to the Hall of Mental Cultivation, I didn't see anyone, not even the maids who usually waited on me.

As soon as he opened the door, he heard the cracking sound of the teacup falling on the ground.

"You can't find such a big person? What's the use of raising you?"

"The emperor atones, the servant deserves to die, maybe... maybe the young master just went out for a walk."

"Walk around casually? What time is it and I haven't seen anyone yet, what on earth are you doing on errands!" Jingyang's voice sounded very angry.

He gave a low cough, and then a person rushed out from the gap, it was Jingyang.

"Anan, where have you been? I can't find you anywhere, do you know how worried I am?" When Jingyang saw him, his angry face suddenly burst into a smile, and even the setting sun in the sky All lost their color.

How could he have the heart to destroy such a smiling face that bloomed for him?

"What's wrong with you? Is it too boring? Tell me if it's too boring. I can walk with you. You walked away quietly like this..." Looking at Chu who said nothing Nan, Jingyang obviously felt aggrieved, and even his tone had a hint of being coquettish. "I'm so worried that you won't come back..."

Chu Nan still didn't speak, he didn't know what to say, he was afraid that his emotions would be revealed if he opened his mouth, so he just looked at Jingyang, looking at him with a silent questioning look.

"Are you hungry? That's right. I haven't eaten for a long time. Fortunately, I asked the imperial dining room to prepare it." He took Chu Nan's hand and offered him a treasure, and the palace people retreated out knowingly . "Look, snowflake chicken, crucian carp tofu stew, hot and sour glutinous rice tendons, stewed crab powder lion head... These are all your favorites..."

"I don't want to eat." Chu Nan finally spoke, but his voice was hoarse and deep.

"Why? Why are you so abnormal today?" Jingyang looked at him, as if at a loss.

"Jingyang..." Chu Nan suddenly pulled him into his arms, stroking his neck with his chin, and there was a faint fragrance of dragon birth on his body. "I just want to know...is it true?"

Did you finally ask?Why did he feel that his heart was about to jump out of his throat with nervousness, what should he do if he said yes...?

"Is it true?" Jingyang was a little dazed by his sudden initiative, and the warm breath on his face made him feel a little itchy.

"Murong Chenghe... was really killed by you?"

There was silence, Jingyang opened his mouth wide but couldn't utter a word, can't he hide it after all?

"Who told you?" If you want him to know who that person is, he will definitely not let him go easily!

"So... is it true?"

"How come, I promised you, as long as you are by my side, why should I kill him?"

"Jingyang..."

"Huh? Don't you believe me?"

"Has anyone ever told you that you can't lie at all, every time you tell a lie, your left hand will subconsciously clenched into a fist." As he spoke, Chu Nan pushed him away and grabbed his left hand.

"..." Jingyang looked at his left hand and was silent.

"Why... you still don't let them go even though I'm here? They were just accidentally implicated by me, they are innocent!" Chu Nan's eyes were full of disappointment, and this disappointment was like a knife, Inserted fiercely in Jingyang's heart. "Why do you want to kill them all?"

"A'nan..." Jingyang tried to grab his hand, but he shook it off.

"Don't touch me, don't touch me with hands stained with my friend's blood!" Chu Nan stepped back quickly until he hit a carved pillar behind him.

"Heh... Do you feel dirty? You have been sleeping next to me every night for so long, do you feel dirty now?" Jingyang looked at the guard in his eyes and felt glaring, more sad.

They have been missing and avoiding for nine years, and now they are finally together. Could it be that nine years is not worth a person who has known each other for two years?Does he have a place in Chu Nan's heart?

He had to be so suspicious.

"You're right, I'm no longer qualified to be Cheng He and Ah Jiu's friend, I actually slept with their murderer for so long...I'm sorry for them..." Chu Nan muttered to himself.

"You're sorry for him, are you sorry for me? But you won't treat me like this if I have a little place in your heart!" Jingyang approached him, grabbed his shoulder firmly, and forced him to look at him. "Every emperor dare not say how clean he is, and so do I. For the person I like, it doesn't matter if I lose the world, let alone just a Murong Chenghe."

"Forgive me for this kind of love." Chu Nan closed his eyes, not looking at the painfully distorted handsome face.

pain?

In comparison, aren't Murong Chenghe and Ah Jiu more painful?

He couldn't forgive him, the man who loved him to the bone.

"I'm sorry? Haha... Are you saying sorry now? Chu Nan, you have no right to say this since the day you fell in love with me. If it weren't for you, how could I have become like this? Do you know me? How much I hate myself like this. I worry every day, afraid that you will suddenly disappear like last time, afraid that you will expose my lies... I have never regretted killing Murong Cheng and me! I only hate myself for being too late. He has an opportunity!" Jingyang blushed, and shook Chu Nan's shoulders hoarsely, he was worried since he didn't see him when he came back, and he still had a burning pain in his stomach...why is this A man can treat others with all his heart, but he can't even feel his sincerity?

"...What did he do wrong? He saved me, saved Anping, and saved countless people who were suffering from illnesses. He didn't deserve to die!" Chu Nan was finally enraged, and he looked at this man in disbelief. , is his heart that cold?Could it be that everyone in the world can't get into his eyes except himself?Or even himself is the same, but his inflated possessiveness is causing trouble...

"He shouldn't die... I'm afraid the only person who deserves to die in your heart..."

"Jingyang..."

"Haha...hahahaha... As the emperor of Yueluo, I'm not so pathetic as to ask you to forgive me!" That's what I said, but who is the lukewarm liquid in my eye sockets for?

"..."

"Now that you finally see me clearly, what do you want to do? Kill me to avenge them?" Jingyang turned around and pulled out a sword from the wall. It was the sword he used before he became an emperor. Fight shoulder to shoulder.

He handed the hilt to Chu Nan.

"Take it and stab it here." He pointed at his heart, his stomach convulsed, but he just tried not to frown.

In this great sorrow, a little pain is nothing, can it be more painful than the heart?

Chu Nan's hand was trembling, he was unwilling to take the sword, but Jingyang forcibly opened his fingers and grasped the hilt bit by bit.Jingyang guided the tip of the sword to stop within two inches of his chest.

As long as he stabs hard, he can avenge Murong Cheng and them...

But why is my heart screaming not to stab...

That's the person he loves, and the person who loves him the most in this world... How could he do it?

Jingyang didn't speak, but just stared at him with death-defying eyes, as if wanting to look into his heart.

"You hate me for killing your friend, then you just need to take a step forward to kill me at this moment, and you will not be in pain from now on... Why don't you do it? Hold it tightly, stab it hard here, everything It's over." Jingyang closed his eyes, he would rather be killed by him than see the disgust in Anan's eyes, he couldn't stand being hated by him like this...

Chu Nan thought of the days in Yaowang Valley, which was the most peaceful and yearning life in his life. He also thought of Ah Jiu's eager eyes on that snowy morning, that silent man braved the wind and snow to fight for his lover. Organize the medicine garden.

I don't know if he said the three words that were buried deep in his heart and were about to rot in their last time?

"Chi..." The tip of the sword tore through his clothes and pierced into his flesh. Blood flowed from Jingyang's chest immediately, but an unpredictable smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

really.

After all, he was no match for an "innocent person" in his heart...

It seemed to be just a few seconds, but it seemed to be more than that.

Jingyang only felt a fishy sweetness in his mouth, but he smiled brighter and brighter.

"Dangling..." Chu Nan looked at the blood foam overflowing from Jingyang's mouth, tremblingly dropped the sword in his hand, and knelt down.

"Jingyang... I swore to protect you forever, but I can't forgive you," he raised his head and looked at Jingyang with a complex expression, as if he wanted to engrave him in his heart. "Since I can't do anything to you, I have no choice but to apologize to Cheng He..."

Before Jingyang could react, Chu Nan quickly picked up the sword on the ground and wiped it on his neck.

Don't... Anan, don't die...

Jingyang wanted to stop him, but he couldn't use any strength, instead he fell to the ground slowly, opened his mouth wide and couldn't make a sound...just spilled more blood in vain...

"Squeak..." A person suddenly pushed away from the hall and ran over quickly.

who is it?Come and stop Anan...

When Jingyang saw Xiaoxuanzi's face, he finally fainted in relief.