flower and pillow

They also said a lot, and He Pei turned up all the things that Cheng Biyun had no impression of at all, and Cheng Biyun had some other emotions besides being amazed, which may be called "self-ashamed".

Frankly speaking, Cheng Biyun knew what happened when they got together in their freshman year of high school, and if they were more detailed, they would be blinded, but He Pei could even remember what she said and did at times. Touched or sad.

He Pei really likes her.

— but what about her?

"Do you still remember when you started school and asked me why I was so angry and called me 'Xiang Pei'?"

Cheng Biyun was stunned for a moment, remembering that this happened, because the embarrassment when a third person pointed out that she had called the wrong name for nearly two months was devastating, which made her dare not treat He Pei for a while. Playing hooligans-with a guilty conscience, I admitted it, and wanted to know why He Pei brought this up.

"At that time, my brain twitched, and I agreed... Then you asked me if I was a girlfriend, and I nodded without knowing what I was thinking."

This fact made Cheng Biyun dumbfounded. She thought that the other party was aloof at that time, but she was in a state of bewilderment and an illusion. When she wanted to respond, her mind spontaneously turned into an avoidance state, and she replied in a secretive way: "I At that time, I was just curious, and it was all guesswork."

Some words cannot be said.Even if they are "honestly facing each other" now, there are some things she won't say.She doesn't expose the softest, most unprotected parts of herself.

How would she express emotions that she didn't know herself?What exactly is He Pei to her?What is she to He Pei?What are they now?good friend?predecessor?Ambiguity?neither fish nor fowl?What exactly is it?

She was afraid it would be ruined if she said it—a rather selfish thought.She was not afraid of ruining this strange relationship with He Pei, but she was afraid that she would take out the most secret and soft part of her heart and be cut lightly or severely by a sharp knife, and she was afraid that she would be injured.

She is like this - what about He Pei?How much is He Pei's "honesty" to her?Is it also like her to cover up and avoid the important things?

She hoped so.

She resists being too close to her, or being close to everyone.Her safety distance is too wide, and she strictly abides by the bottom line. No one is allowed to step forward, and no one is allowed to lift her giggling and stupid plaster mask to spy on her fragile and curled body.

He Pei began to say that she had never seen a hooligan like Cheng Biyun, who hit her breasts, pushed down her clothes, and did all kinds of evil; she said that she was extremely pure at that time, and of course she would blush when she was molested, but now she is not as pure as before—— From these lifeless bold characters, Cheng Biyun could imagine the proud look of her slightly raised chin, and felt that she was actually not very comfortable.

She likes pure, soft, and obedient things. In the past, He Pei took the first place, and the other two were irrelevant. She liked them very much—at least for a while, but now the only one. One was gone, and the remaining two came, which she thought He Pei was congenitally missing. She was really uncomfortable.

She only picked out what she could say to return the other party, following the expressions on the faces of various schoolmates, because she felt that only this could best express her current mood - or rather, protection.

"I like you because you have a plush coat like a panda. One day in high school, I passed by your dormitory and saw you sitting on the upper bunk with your back to the door, with a pile of snacks in front of you, like a panda ball. I just like it Fuzzy balls."

— lied.She just thought He Pei's appearance was cute that day, but she didn't like it that much.She just needs to find a reason to convince herself and the other party, as if in this way she can feel at ease and feel that she has not failed her.

"In the past, others chased me, and the only time I took the initiative was to hit the iron plate directly at you. You said it was a big blow to me. I deleted all the text messages and letters you sent me. , very angry."

——The truth, but the pain is half hidden.There are still some things that cannot be said, such as those silent tears.

He Pei didn't seem surprised when he heard it, and laughed happily: "I knew it hahahaha-of course I really didn't do anything, I felt that you were not sincere, and I was afraid that you were playing me, I couldn't bear it, so Always resisted."

These words were like a sharp needle piercing Cheng Biyun's heart, the pain was momentary, and then it was burning, itching, and sore.He Pei's feelings about certain things are amazingly accurate, but Cheng Biyun never admits what she is willing to admit. Even if she makes the eyes of the person on the other side of the screen burn again with memories of those painful times, she is still Choose to avoid the important and take the light, so that you can look free, easy and honest.

"Who is playing with you? I am still sad when I am playing with you. Bye bye, who is messing with you."

He Pei didn't take it seriously, and joked: "Ghost knows, you told me several times in your first year of high school not to believe everything you said, because you can't tell whether it's true or false."

Cheng Biyun took a deep breath, and felt that the former self was honest enough. Even this kind of martial arts cheats had no secrets from He Pei, and he didn't even keep a hole card. He deserved it after so many years when the stone traveled through time and space and fell on his foot. , but she still responded rascally: "I was really really good at the time, I haven't cared so much about anyone before."

The truth is suitable to be expressed in jokes, but sometimes jokes are still jokes, and Cheng Biyun understands them thoroughly.

Then the two of you came and went and joked a few words, it seemed like you were doing Tai Chi in the clouds, Cheng Biyun couldn't relax, but He Pei started to feel his heart for her again: "I thought you were amazing when I was in the freshman year of high school. You've noticed it when it's bad, how do you know? I think I hide it pretty well."

"It's just the feeling, the aura, it's very obvious." Cheng Biyun remembered those stupid things when she mentioned it like this, and immediately became angry, and scolded: "Then I asked you at that time if you were in the mood It’s not good, you still bombard me, saying that I am nosy! It makes me feel that I have misunderstood every time. "

He Pei also looked very excited: "Who wants to tell you! I felt that you were teasing me every day at that time. If I told you that I was in a bad mood, wouldn't you tease me even more? I don't want to do this."

"Sister. Big sister." Cheng Biyun was extremely helpless, "Why should I play tricks on your sensitive and fragile heart? Am I so idle and vicious?"

this fucking...

"You must not remember that you wrote a note to Liu Yujie at that time. Didn't you have a good time with him at that time? He was very negative during that time. He was caught by the teacher to talk to him while reading comics and magazines in class, and then you I wrote a small note to encourage him to pursue his dreams. Later I saw that note in the corridor of the classroom during dinner time, and there were a few footprints on it. After reading it, I was very moved and felt that this note If someone wrote this article to me, I would treasure it forever, but Liu Yujie threw him on the ground. I was very angry at the time, thinking why he didn’t cherish it, and then I realized my feelings for you, and at the same time I I'm very scared, I think you are a person who can manipulate people's hearts and know how to take advantage of the loopholes in other people's feelings, so I am very vigilant against you and warn myself not to be taken advantage of by you."

...What a mess!

Cheng Biyun felt that his miserable experience in those years and the bunch of unfounded crimes that He Pei now pointed out were really fucking injustice, too much injustice.

"In my first year of high school, I was healthy, sunny, positive, and passionate about comics. My ideal in life was to be the exorcist of Naruto One Piece. I saw Liu Yujie's hard work. Of course, my love burst out and I encouraged him. He wanted to pursue drawing comics and writing novels. Is the dream wrong? Damn, I know him very well, and I didn’t expect any results when I wrote it. I just wanted to express my inner feelings for the second year. He saw that I was a fool and smiled at me. Throw it away, this is the encouragement and ridicule between good friends, we just understand it in our hearts, why are you saying this? My mother is still manipulating people, I am a witch?"

He Pei also began to laugh, "I thought that way at the time. It seems that I misunderstood you deeply. Then next semester I was in a bad mood, and you also found that I was in a bad mood. I missed you at that time If I could come over to comfort me, I know you are a trap and I would jump too. I can really just treat you like a dog, but you just ignored me after asking hahahaha, so you also lost a good opportunity .”

This is fucking shit.

"Sister. Eldest sister. Next semester we're going to be in such a mess. No one cares about you every time I find you with a hot face and a cold ass. Have you heard the story about the wolf coming? Can you be normal?"

Terrible.

It's a waste of He Pei's mind-boosting ability not to fucking write novels. What kind of psychology is he doing?

But she saw the word "dog" in her eyes, and with it came the familiar negativity and deep pressure, which made her breathless.He Pei can always trigger the dark part of her heart, which is still unconscious.

These words are too "heavy" for her liking.She only likes words that are light and free, ones that don't affect the other too much if one side withdraws, like "friends whose purpose is to pass the time."

Cheng Biyun suddenly lost the patience and interest to continue chatting, and ended the topic after chattering. He got up, went to the bathroom, wiped his face and brushed his teeth, curled up and fell asleep.

The curtains were faintly pale blue.

She wanted to step back a little distance, He Pei was too close to her, it seemed that she could lift off her plaster mask with her hand.