Fat dead, reborn

Hao Pang had guessed countless times what the ring on Zhang Sheng's middle finger meant.

It could be an engagement ring, it could be an important keepsake.

But regardless of the speculation, one thing is certain, this ring means a lot.Because Zhang Shenggao never took it off.

Even when Hao Pang saw Zhang Shenggao for the last time in his previous life, he still wore this ring.Hao Pang would pay attention to this ring, but it was purely familiar.But now he wished he hadn't seen it.

He stood there blankly, and there was a guess, and it could even be said that a conclusion was about to come out.But he would rather he didn't discover anything, and he didn't know anything.

"Little Pang?" Zhang Shenggao grabbed Hao Pang's elbow, "Are you okay?"

Hao Pang lowered his eyes, "I'm not feeling well, let's go first."

"I'll take you back." Zhang Shenggao wanted to hold Hao Pang's arm, but Hao Pang gently avoided him.

"No, no need." Hao Pang looked away guiltily.

Zhang Shenggao didn't listen to Hao Pang, but forcefully took him by his side, "What if you are in such a state, what if there is any danger along the way? I'll take you back."

Hao Pang looked at Zhang Shenggao, there was undisguised concern in his eyes, and his tense heartstrings relaxed a little.Walking out of the shop, Hao Pang asked suddenly: "Shenggao, what do you think of Asuka's single ring?"

Zhang Shenggao said calmly: "Very good, I plan to buy it and give it to someone I like."

A wry smile appeared on the corner of Hao Pang's mouth. He just felt like a traveler caught in quicksand and dying. He knew the result, but he still had to try it with a fluke mentality.He put his hands in his trouser pockets, wiped the sweat from his palms, and then asked: "The bird ring and the fish necklace are a pair, right? You only plan to buy one ring?"

"Definitely buy them all," Zhang Shenggao said naturally, "but it doesn't seem appropriate for me to wear a necklace..."

Hao Pang couldn't help touching his neckline, and a deep sense of guilt climbed from the soles of his feet, like a monster with teeth and claws, tearing his calmness to pieces bit by bit.

He was wrong.

At first, he thought that Zhang Shenggao was a straight man and would not like a man, so he transferred his strong but unspeakable feelings for Cheng Huai to Zhang Shenggao.He recklessly tasted the taste of his secret love, played the role of the crush without any scruples, selfish, secretly satisfying his own desires, like a smoking and drug addict hiding in a dark basement.

But forget to consider other people's feelings.

"I want to go home and rest, go back to my mother." Hao Pang hailed a taxi, "Don't give it up, I'm fine."

Zhang Shenggao squinted his eyes, but said nothing. He lowered his head and straightened Hao Pang's collar.

Obviously, when school just started, this person still doesn't know anything...

Hao Pang didn't dare to stay longer, he sat in the passenger seat, rolled down the window, and the breeze coming in made him a little more awake.He glanced at the rearview mirror, Zhang Shenggao was still standing there without moving.

A strong sense of guilt made him chill all over.

Zhang Shenggao liked him.

But he wasn't happy at all.

He thought he had sung a one-man show for so many years. In the end, when time passed and he was the only one who remembered everything, he finally realized that it was not a one-man show. What was even more frightening was that he didn't know the other protagonist in this play. , When exactly did you join in, and how long have you been singing with him.

Hao Pang locked himself in the room, and he still couldn't figure out why this happened?Why do people like Zhang Shenggao fall in love with him?And if you really fell in love, with Zhang Shenggao's character, how could you not tell the truth, but express it with something as subtle as flying birds and swimming fish?

Can't figure it out, really can't figure it out.

Hao Pang pulled his hair in dismay, he only knew one thing, that is, he ruined Zhang Shenggao, he dragged an innocent person into the abyss without knowing it, just to make himself feel better.

The enclosed space didn't make his depression any better. After spending two hours in it, Hao Pang decided to find someone to talk to.He flipped through the contacts on his phone, and finally skipped over Du Chenghuai.

He didn't know how to tell Du Chenghuai.

"Li Zhuo, are you free now?" Hao Pang rubbed his astringent eyes, "Come out for a chat?"

……

Hao Pangyue's place was still that milk tea shop, he ordered a cup of coffee, and ordered a cup of milk tea for Li Zhuo.

Seeing that Hao Pang was in a daze, Li Zhuo didn't seem to have regained his energy, so he started the conversation by himself, "Is your little friend from last time okay?"

The topic directly came to Zhang Shenggao. I really didn't know whether to say which pot Li Zhuo didn't open and which pot to lift, or whether he hit the target quickly and ruthlessly.

Hao Pang forced a smile, "I haven't thanked you yet, but calling late at night is really bothering me."

"It's okay." Even if he couldn't get out of bed that day, it's better not to tell Xiao Pang about this kind of thing.

"Li Zhuo... Actually, you have already guessed it, we are the same." Hao Pang said it directly, which surprised Li Zhuo three points.

"I thought you didn't want to talk about it," Li Zhuo shrugged, put the milk tea in his hand aside, put his hands on the table, leaned forward a little, "I never planned to hide it from you, but Hao Pang, you... are too obvious, if two of us can be reborn, there may not be a third."

Hao Pang nodded, "I will pay attention to it in the future."

"Actually, don't worry too much. Let's just do our own thing. When the time comes, no one will dare to bully us. Even if this secret is exposed, we still have a way out." Li Zhuo comforted.

Hao Pang absently sipped his coffee, he opened his mouth, but he couldn't speak.

"Don't tell me, the two of us have even shared the biggest secret, so what else can we hide? Tell me, what happened, and you are so eager to find me?" Li Zhuo laughed.

Hao Pang breathed a sigh of relief, "I won't hide it from you, it's like this, in my last life... I have always had a crush on Du Chenghuai..." Hao Pang explained the ins and outs, and after he finished speaking, he took a sip of coffee, feeling much better.

On the contrary, Li Zhuo was a little confused at the moment.

"Actually, I don't really understand why you put your feelings on Zhang Shenggao." Li Zhuo asked.

Hao Pang said frankly: "During that time, Chenghuai was not only in Macau, but also many things happened in my family. I found that I was getting more and more depressed, and even had the idea of ​​committing suicide. I went to see a psychiatrist, and the psychiatrist suggested that I find A way to relieve stress."

"At that time, I realized that I fell in love with Cheng Huai, and I felt very panicked, so I read a lot of books on this topic, and finally found this way."

Li Zhuo sighed, "Empathy is a kind of psychotherapy, it can indeed improve certain mental states, but its biggest side effect is that it is likely to be fake. Hao Pang, let me ask you, do you really know what you love now?" Who is it?"

"I love Cheng Huai." Hao Pang didn't need to lie.

"Then why are you still thinking wildly now?" Li Zhuo spread his hands, "The person you love is already very clear, and you will feel uncomfortable, at most, because you feel that you have cheated other people's feelings. But think about it, you have already lived a new life. Now, those emotions in the past, true or false, are all things of the previous life, even if you feel ashamed of Zhang Shenggao, you can’t apologize to Zhang Shenggao in your previous life, all you can do is to forget those debts.”

Hao Pang's eyes had some color.

"Let me analyze it for you again. It stands to reason that Zhang Shenggao has a girlfriend and is a straight man. It is not easy to break up. You also said that Zhang Shenggao is a very self-centered person. If he likes you, why didn't he tell you all the time? ?” Li Zhuo asked.

Hao Pang shook his head in distress, "I don't know either."

Li Zhuo smiled slightly, "That's because he was unwilling."

Hao Pang looked at Li Zhuo in puzzlement.

Li Zhuo continued: "He is not reconciled that your liking for him is just an illusion, and he is not reconciled that you are always secretly in love with another person through him. Only this explanation can make sense that he clearly loves you to death, but he is inseparable." Willing to confess to you. Because he knows that once the matter is uncovered, you will put away those affections, and then he will really lose you. So he would rather hang you, would rather guard you, and not with you Make it clear."

Hao Pang's eyes widened. He couldn't believe that such a proud person would go so far for himself.But Li Zhuo's logic is impeccable, if not, Hao Pang would not be able to find any other reason to explain all this.

Hao Pang clenched his fists tightly, his nails stuck in his flesh without knowing it. He didn't know how to face Zhang Shenggao at all. Even though he knew that the other party had no memory of his previous life, even if he knew that nothing in the future would happen, Hao Pang still With endless guilt.He always thought that his secret love was well hidden, but who knew that Zhang Shenggao not only saw through his thoughts, but also saw clearly that the person he really liked was not himself.

"I……"

"Don't have a psychological burden, forgot what I said? The things in your previous life are just floating clouds."

"But you still can't let go of He Dongsheng, and I still can't let go of Du Chenghuai, only Zhang Shenggao, he is innocent, I provoked him, made him suffer..." Hao Pang pursed his lips, "I'm really... guilty Damn it."

"Don't say that about yourself, I will feel bad."

Hao Pang turned his head in astonishment, and Zhang Shenggao was standing there in a suit, with a smile on his lips.

But Hao Pang felt that there was no trace of warmth in this smile, no different from the cold wind in winter.

Blowing all the way from the chest to the heart.