It's okay to sit

Meng Wenfan didn't know where he found out that I knew qigong, so he insisted on pestering me to learn it.I thought about what this qigong is for a long time, and I made some gestures for him, and he jumped three feet—"That's it." I said, little boy, this is not qigong, it's aerobics, if you want to learn it, I can teach it You, including you can break your legs to the base of your ears after training.

"Then, can this one hit someone?"

I raised my eyebrows, "Could it be that you and your wife have developed a fight?"

Meng Wenfan refused to admit it, covered his face and said, "Hey, anyway, I'm idle because I'm idle."

"Why don't you draw when you're free?"

"Hey, how good it is to move and move."

"Move, I'll teach you how to play the erhu. If the bow is drawn a little wider, the right arm will be thicker than the left arm."

"Hey, there's no piano either."

"Who said, I brought two."

My erhu education is strange to say, my aunt taught half of it, and the other half was taught by Cen Ru.Cen Ru's father is almost decathlon, I have always wanted to meet his old man, but there is no chance.

The situation is probably that I and Cen Ruqiu said that I can play the erhu.

He is so shady, he doesn't say anything, and when I finished showing off my skills, he told me that when I changed hands from one to the other, I made too much movement, the bow was drawn sideways, and the three or four fingers of my right hand were not strong enough.

Then I knelt down and called Master.

That day, Meng Wenwen and I were playing the erhu at home, but it wasn't that I was free, it was just that I didn't know what to do.I have been thinking of a way to transfer Tang Yunzi back to Qingqu these days, but I never thought of a surefire way.First, the two of us are not in the same party. Interfering in their internal affairs, no matter how reasonable I am, will still be unfair to the name.The second is that although I have a very good relationship with the No. [-] person in the Zhang Party, he has not begged me and I have not begged him these years. It is purely a gentleman's communication.

I was so worried that I wished I could vote for Zhang Jingxiu.

Tang Yunzi gradually smoothed his strokes, and his condition became better.Besides being tired like a dog every day, I think he is also very happy.Several letters from Tang Fei came in one after another, all of which were neither salty nor light, and occasionally gave his son some food expenses.

Zhao Jili, on the other hand, seemed to be dead without any news, which made my heart ache.

Presumably it's not that he doesn't want to write to me, he's just dead.

Well, just dead.

There was a new wandering warlock next door to us, and when Meng Wenwen was looking for his wife, I would always talk to that Taoist priest.

I'm not lucky, the reason I'm interested in him is that he claims to be my aunt's apprentice.

"Tan Luanzi, that is the supernatural power of going to heaven and entering the earth. The Daluo Jinxian transferred to the mortal world and entrusted him into a womb, that is Tan Luanzi."

I said oh, then do you know Tan Luanzi's lay family name?

He squinted his eyes and pinched his beard, "You mortal is presumptuous. How can Tan Luanzi have a lay surname? She is an old man who grew and bred in the mountains, and all beasts bow their heads to send them."

"Then dare she not eat or drink?"

"Drink, of course. It has to be fine wine that is hundreds of years old. Other than that, Immortal Tanluan doesn't eat anything else."

Shit, she eats braised fish so deliciously.

We have to afford century-old fine wine.

"All right, all right, I won't listen to your nonsense, I have to go shopping." I looked at the sky and turned to leave.But he stopped me, "Wait a minute."

I said what.

The warlock looked at me from top to bottom, pretending to pinch his fingers, "You have had a catastrophe recently."

I also took advantage of the situation and sat down, "A catastrophe? Could it be that the price of food has increased?"

"Don't talk nonsense. This is a calamity of life and death for you, and the past is the past. If you can't make it through, I'm afraid..."

My scalp was numb from being pulled by him, so I turned around and left without wasting words with him.

In the evening, Tang Yunzi went to eat with the people in the yamen, and Meng Wenwen and I stewed a chicken.While eating, he suddenly thought of something, so he wiped the oily hands on his clothes, searched for a long time, took out a letter, and handed it to me who was also oily.

"My father sent a letter. He said that the court is in a tight spot recently." Seeing that I didn't answer it, Meng Wenfan put it aside and started talking to me.

"Oh, what's the matter? Zhang Jingxiu made another move?"

"What can you do, Shen Ren. They have brought out a lot of old things, many of which are related to Renqing." Meng Wenyan tore off the other leg of the chicken, "No wonder. Renqing is connected to several It’s easy to find out if all the senior officials have accidents.”

I nodded and remained silent.

Meng Wenwen continued, "My father urged you to go back, saying that he is surrounded by the Zhang Party and is at a loss."

"Your father is lying. The one surrounded by Zhang's party should be the Hanlin Academy."

"Anyway, he said it was an emergency."

I was sleepy and yawned, "Your father... your father is similar to me. He stayed in a department for more than ten years. Where did he get so many things to catch? Just tell him not to be afraid, I will always be in your heart support him."

For friends like me and Meng Peiren, Song Yuan will not protect us if something happens, so we have to climb up or clean up.I guess Meng Peiren just couldn't do his job well, and he didn't care about other things at all.

It was Tang Yunzi who was in danger, he made too much noise this time.

When I went there in the evening, he was writing a memorial—coincidentally, I could catch up with him every time he did this kind of joint death.

When he saw me, the corners of his eyes were downcast.

"Uncle Zhao, you are really accurate."

"That's right, I knew you were up to something when I sat at home and calculated." I sat down and began to drink tea, "I won't stop you this time, just write."

"Huh?" Tang Yunzi was also shocked, unable to react for a while.

"Let me tell you to write. After finishing, I will take you to the back mountain for a walk. Write quickly."

Tang Yunzi nodded in bewilderment and said "Oh", then quickly wrote.I waited for him a while while he dried the ink, put on a cloak, and we went out.

A heavy snow has just fallen, and the road is difficult to walk.The two of us walked back to the mountain step by step, saying that it is a mountain, but it is not much different from the flat land, except that the field of vision is a little wider.I often come here to see the scenery. I was trying to figure out a way, but I was afraid of the heavy snow today, so I took the repaired road.

There is an ancient temple on this mountain, and I sometimes ask the abbot here for tea.He plays the guqin very well, likes to ride a donkey, and is more stubborn than a donkey.

Of course, this time, I didn't take Tang Yunzi to see the Buddha.

There is a room in the ancient temple, looking down, you can see the whole Renqing City.I didn't ask the old abbot for charcoal, and I wanted to open the window anyway.The old abbot withdrew and closed the door, and I said to Tang Yunzi, "Nephew, look."

I seldom use the title of nephew, because I think this title is too formal.In the past few years, I have liked him and wished I could be of the same generation as him, so I would naturally avoid it.

Bring it up again today.

Naturally, there is something important to say.

We bow our heads, it is a city with nearly ten thousand families.This city is very quiet, not at all like Qingqu, which is so noisy. It is noisy during the day and night.

It's very quiet here.

It was so quiet that I could hear Qingtang Yunzi's breathing.

"Nephew, I just figured out a truth. I shouldn't persuade you, it can't be stopped. This kind of fall will fall sooner or later, it's better to be early, to lose money and gain wisdom. So this time, I'm not here to persuade you , I’m not here to stop you. I just want to tell you something, and then ask you one more thing.”

Tang Yunzi bowed his waist and saluted, "Uncle said."

The bell of the ancient temple rang twelve times.

Tang Yunzi frowned, "Why are you still ringing the bell at midnight?"

"The Nether Bell, for women who died in childbirth." I stretched out my hand, as if I could touch the light in the distance. "I want to tell you about my family. I haven't mentioned this to your father. I told you that I wanted to beg you. "

I adjusted my emotions, "Does my nephew know Changning Zhao?"

A very sensational event in the early days of this dynasty was the rebellion of King Huai.At that time, I was thirteen or fourteen, and I was one of the most outstanding children among the younger generation of the Zhao family in Changning.Our family has never been involved in politics, and has always been doing business, or opening a library to teach children and so on.

However, my father is an outlier.

He is the youngest child of my grandfather and has always been pampered.The eldest brother in the family is doing business, and the second brother is teaching. He doesn't seem to have any work.

If you are so idle, something will happen naturally.

I used to have three brothers. Boli fell into the river when he went out to play when he was a child, and Zhongli died in the fire.

Yes, my father was too free to join the rebellion.

It's not fair to say it was a rebellion, after all, he was only an aide in Duke Huai's residence at that time.

When Master Cen Bicen found him, he had an attitude of duty.He and Cen Bi can be regarded as good friends, they used to go to school together when they were young, and later when Cen's family became a high-ranking official, Cen Bi moved to live in Qingqu.

At that time, my father was an internal response to a court that cooperated from the inside to the outside.

As written in the history books, Duke Huai's rebellion failed.My father was able to escape unscathed, but a year later, he was intercepted and killed by Duke Huai's remnants on the way home.My mother waited for him to come home with three children, but a fire broke out.

There are more than [-] people in my family, only me and Ji Li survived.

We dare not recognize the clan, for fear of hurting them.

From then on, the Zhao family in Changning has no more Zhao Shengzhao.

When I first saw Cen Ru, I felt a sense of familiarity. After knowing that he was Cen Bi's child, I felt that it was too late to meet him.It should be said that I have never blamed his father, I have always hated Duke Huai, but he is dead.

It's not that I don't have pain or hatred, it's just that the pain and hatred have nowhere to vent.

After experiencing such a thing, everything else is very light to me.Only one thing, I still can't let go.

I can't let go of my feelings.

At first I lived for my aunt, she loved to laugh and make trouble, free and easy, as if she never had any worries, at that time I thought: I can’t die, she would be so sad when she died.And if I die, what will Ji Li do, he is left with a child, how lonely, I can't die yet.

It was my friend who couldn't let go.Tang Fei's face seemed paralyzed, but she actually cared about people.After Huixian passed away, he couldn't get out.At that time, I thought, ah, if I am so ignorant and stop living, maybe he really can't live.

Then I fell in love with many people, many, many people.Indeed, I like people every period.Ji Li and I always feel that it's because we grew up among women that we both like men.Anyway, I've liked all kinds of people.Each of them has their own good, I never want to get too close to them, I just admire and watch from a distance.

Who doesn't want to have someone by their side?I want, too.You said that you always woke up from the cold after you came to Renqing, but even in Qingqu, every winter morning I was always icy cold all over my body.

Sometimes I feel that it is good to have someone to talk to me often, just to talk to.

But I really want to reach out, but I dare not.

I dare not have too many fetters with this world, I can't bear it.I've never believed that emotions can hold me back when I really want to leave.It's just that I have been afraid that I will not be able to bear the loss of others, so I have not left for a long time.

I don't want to dismiss the idea.

I like the love-hate relationship here, but I don't want to get involved.

"So I like you, don't be afraid. It's impossible for me to take another step forward," I bit my lip, looked at Tang Yunzi jokingly, and said the truth, "I'm too cowardly."

Tang Yunzi lowered his head deeply, not knowing what he was thinking.I think now that I've said this, let's talk about it all.

"Nephew, I really like you. When I think about you when I am so busy, I suddenly feel that I can fight for another 50 years. I know that this is not good for me. When I face you every day, I will I scold myself as an old hooligan in my heart, and feel that I am really shameless. Maybe I have read too many sage books, so I can’t become a sage. Occasionally, I think, it doesn’t matter if I am a rascal or a mediocre peddler. , I am a poor teacher. If I can get out of my own confinement, I really can trade it for anything. Unfortunately," I gripped the window frame tightly, feeling hot in my eyes, "I have really worked hard for a long time I really can't get out."

I couldn't stop my tears, but somehow I wanted to laugh, probably at myself.

Tang Yunzi still didn't look up, so I continued talking.

"I'm really looking forward to your marriage and having children now, so that I can relieve my guilt a little bit. You are really, really different, so I am very sad." I haven't cried like this for a long time, I just feel the backlog of emotions in my whole body They all broke down, "Really, you are different, you are a weakness. No matter how hard it is for me to draw a line with everyone seriously, I always feel that I owe you, and if I don't clear it every day, I won't be able to get rid of it. yun Son, you can refer to me for a copy."

That's the big thing I'm talking about.

I want Tang Yunzi to refer to me, he holds me in his hand, Song Yuan is not afraid, and the people under him should restrain themselves.This time, Renqing's affairs can be postponed for a while, and he can find opportunities to grow well.

In fact, it is impossible for Zhang Jingxiu not to protect him, I just want to return him something.