[Notes on Tomb Raiders] Return to Wushan

Tianzhen coughed violently, the cough was full of blood, my eyes were sore, I blinked hard to keep the tears from falling, the little brother gritted his teeth, wiped the blood from Tianzhen's mouth with his hands, innocently lowered his eyes, his voice gradually get lower

"Brother, I couldn't go to the end with you. After your work is done, just... just forget about me. Find a place you like in the future and live a good life. Don't live this kind of blood licking with the tip of a knife again. It's been a while... I'm stupid, I found that the fat man was right, I'm so fucking hypocritical."

Naively laughed and cursed, grabbed the hands of the fat man and the little brother, just about to say something to the fat man, the fat man covered his mouth

"If you know you're hypocritical, don't force it. Save your energy and live well. If you want to, whoever wants to help you take it with you. Anyway, I won't take it."

Tianzhen didn't have the strength to break away, and looked at the younger brother with his eyes. The two looked at each other for a while, and the younger brother took the fat man's hand away.

"Go ahead."

The fat man glared at the little brother, and the little brother waved his hand to tell the fat man to stop talking. I knew clearly in my heart that naivety was at the end of its battle, so I smiled innocently and said

"Fatty, you have to listen. From now on, the two of us can only talk about our dreams. It's so unpleasant. Let me tell you a few words of wisdom first, and you should remember them well."

The fat man turned his face away, the word "rejection" was written all over his fat face, and he fell down with a curse, the little brother suddenly stretched out his hands to hold the sides of Tian Zhen's head, he pressed his forehead against Tian Zhen's forehead, and closed his eyes. Eyes, innocently froze for a moment, his expression seemed to be greatly shaken, the little brother opened his lips, and his voice was undetectable, but I recognized from the shape of his mouth, what the little brother said was

"sorry."

Mu An, who was lying on my lap, stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of my eyes, and then I realized that tears were streaming down my face at some point, Mu An said softly

"Are you sad?"

I looked at Naive in a daze, without saying a word, Mu An propped himself up and sat up, and said to the little brother

"It's really touching, first let me say a few words to Wu Xie."

The little brother and the fat man backed away to the two sides. The little brother's expression showed a hint of sadness, surrounding him like a mist. In the long life of the little brother, he should have experienced many scenes of life and death, enough to make people feel sad. He is numb, but his every move just now, with such deep sadness, made me feel for the first time that he exists so vividly in this world, and he will also be afraid, afraid of losing. When he couldn't keep someone by his side, he felt sorry, and he blamed himself for all the crimes, which made people feel distressed and panicked.

Mu An took off his glasses, and looked at the naive with his true face.

"Wu Xie, have you ever regretted it? Originally, you could have been your little boss in peace and stability, with your parents. After a few years, you would go on a blind date and get married step by step, and live an ordinary life, but because of your impulse, You are going to die here now."

The innocent eyes were empty, and he said with strength

"I thought you were going to say something, that's all? I don't have so much time to regret. My time is spent doing what I want to do. Everyone has his own life. You think you made your own choice. In fact, the old man You have chosen your path early in the morning.”

Mu An reluctantly leaned against the wall, pressed his chest and panted for a while

"You see clearly, I hope your parents can think so too."

As soon as I heard Mu An's nonsense, I quickly reached out to cover his mouth, but Mu An slapped my hand away and remained silent for a while.

"I can't help it. If I want to be worthy of someone, I must always be sorry for other people. If there is an afterlife."

Mu'an seems to be questioning, but also seems to be mocking

"You've only known him for a few years, and you're ready to spend your whole life with him."

Hearing the words innocently sneered suddenly

"It's fine if you say anything else, but you say this? Who is nobler than the other? Aren't you doing the same thing as me? Do you think that if you continue, you will end up better than me? Save your life."

Mu An was stunned for a moment, then laughed loudly. After laughing, he coughed violently. I patted Mu An on the back to help him breathe. I didn’t understand the last sentence of Tianzhen. The two of them were like playing charades. naive way

"Wu Xie, you really impress me. It seems that you still have something in your mind. In order to reward your cleverness, you don't have to die."

Mu Anyu was shocked, all of us looked at him in unison, his eyes fell on his backpack

"Zhang Qiling, I have a red medicine box in my bag. The medicine powder is applied externally and capsules are taken internally. Hurry up. If Wu Xie bleeds a little more, Immortal Luo will not be able to save him."

Fatty didn't wait for Mu An to finish speaking, he started to panic, I looked at Mu An strangely

"What is it?"

"A panacea." Mu An said angrily.

The little brother finished following Mu An's instructions, and the innocent blood stopped quickly, the wound condensed into bloodstains, and the innocent fell asleep, breathing steadily, we were relieved, Mu An let the fat man and the little brother go to rest first, We will take turns guarding the road when our innocence recovers.

I helped Mu An treat the wound. His wound was actually very serious. His clothes were almost covered with flesh and blood. It had to be dissolved in water to disinfect and apply medicine. I was very careful, especially dog-legged. I asked again

"What the hell is it, so magical?"

"The unnamed medicine is specifically for fatal trauma. It is very rare. Because this mission is dangerous, the team has a quota. I only have this box, which is cheaper for him."

This is the first time I have a good impression of Mu An's organization. Should I say it or not, their organizational skills are still very good, but since there is this kind of medicine, Mu An can just take it out. Why did it take so long? Seeing my doubts, Mu An sighed and said,

"How on earth did you get into university? This medicine is so rare. I didn't take medicine for my injury, but the medicine was gone. If the organization wants to investigate, can I have any good fruit? Then of course I have to hesitate. And no emotion."

I was a little ashamed to hear that, I think things are still too simple, in order to cover up my stupidity, I asked casually

"Then why did you still agree, aren't you afraid of being held accountable?"

Mu An was silent for a while, then said softly

"Because you cried."

I froze for a moment, and the movement of my hands stopped. I subconsciously looked at Mu An's eyes, and found that his eyes were burning, with a very serious expression. I felt a little bit overwhelmed because his words were too touching. The first reaction turned out to be to question whether he had other purposes, otherwise this style of painting would be completely different from before.

My emotions are always on my face, so I don't need to answer Mu An to understand what I'm thinking. He motioned for me to stop and said to me

"Didn't you always want to know about my past experience?"

I don't understand why he said this suddenly, I nodded.

"Eight people."

"Huh?" I didn't understand what he said.

"In that batch of plans, there were a total of 23 people. The organization was not an orphanage. They adopted orphans for a purpose. There was a department within the organization. I don't know where they got a special training method, so they found I selected 23 children who passed the physical fitness test, and conducted experiments on them. In order to maximize the effect, the training was often accompanied by injections of various potential development medicines. This plan continued until the 18th year, waiting for those children to grow up. Finally, take the test and receive the results, and I am the only one who passed the test."

Mu An's gaze seemed to pass through the brick wall here, and return to the distant memory. My throat was astringent and I couldn't speak. He continued:

"You know what I remember most when I was a kid."

Without waiting for my answer, he said to himself

"It's a railing. The house where we were training was surrounded by arm-thick iron railings, but the funny thing is, I never thought of escaping from there. Later, I passed the exam and started to carry out some tasks assigned by the organization. The number of people has increased, and the organization has become more and more important to me. Until that day, I received an order to go to Changbai Mountain with the team. In front of the Bronze Gate, I obtained a memory from another time and space. From then on, I did not know, It turns out that the world has colors, and human beings have joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys. I have never been in contact with the outside world before, so I have no expectations and longings. I live like a machine. I have lived for many years. I thought that everything It's all what I see, there is no fun and warmth in the world, but a person like me will have a family one day."

His voice was like talking in a dream, my heart was sore, he stretched out his hand to touch my cheek

"Can you believe it, before I saw you, I never smiled from the bottom of my heart, but after seeing you, for the first time in my life, I became curious about life outside. In Mu'an's memory, I I have experienced many emotions and feelings that I have never experienced before. After having two kinds of memories, my personality has also changed a lot. This is probably the result of the fusion of the two personalities. If you see me before, you will definitely Don't recognize me."

"I thought, if I hadn't met you, I could have lived my whole life in such a muddle, but now, I don't want to."

"I don't want you to be hurt. I do my best to protect you, and I am also protecting my heart that has finally survived. I think that you can come to this world is the only gift that fate gave me. So, don't Doubt me, trust me wholeheartedly, even if I hurt myself, I won't hurt you."

After listening to it, I couldn't hold back my tears, hugging him and crying loudly. I have always regarded him as the Mu'an in my memory, the sunny and happy Mu'an, but I didn't expect that he in this world has gone through a lot. So many cold things, he has no family, no love, he has lived alone for 20 years, but he is willing to desperately protect me from another world, a me who has nothing to do with him, just because he Treat me as the only light in your life.

I cried hoarsely, my heart felt like it was about to burst, Mu An patted my back and said softly

"Okay, don't cry, blame me for telling you these things, it's over."

I couldn't listen, I just hugged him and kept crying, tears blurred, I suddenly understood what Tian Zhen said, he said that Mu An did the same thing as him, because Mu An was also doing everything for me all.

But I never found out that I enjoyed Mu An's care with peace of mind and relied on his strength, but I didn't really understand him, his situation, his difficulties, his recklessness, I don't know, he Compared with Mu An in the past, they experienced two kinds of lives, and the two of them cannot be confused.

I almost choked up crying

"Sorry, I found out too late, sorry..."

Mu'an touched my red and swollen eyes from crying

"No need to apologize, I didn't tell you, you've done a good job, really don't cry, wait until Wu Xie and the others are woken up by you."

He said half jokingly and half helplessly, I nodded vigorously, wiped away my tears, sucked my nose and continued to bandage him. At this moment, a thought in my mind became clearer and clearer. This might be a decision that would change my future.

The author has something to say:

I didn’t have time during the day, and I rushed to write [-] words in one night. I almost went crazy. I didn’t have time to fix the text and read a typo. Because the plot of the two chapters is coherent, I posted them together for the sake of smooth reading.

This has almost reached the stage I mentioned in my copywriting, the little brother is gradually becoming real, so his emotions have become more diverse, but the little brother's character is placed there, I can't mess with OOC, I have done the biggest Try to let the little brother express something more.

Half of this chapter is devoted to Mu'an, I feel that Mu'an is the biggest golden finger I gave to the heroine...