Pure and Slutty

【Wen Chunan】

Wen Chun'an forgot about it later, when he graduated from university, it was Zhou Mingtong who took the initiative to mention it to him——

"Remember, you told me that you once suspected that your ex dated you on purpose to punish you." Zhou Mingtong's expression was extremely cold that day, and he didn't give Wen Chun'an any chance to speak, "You shouldn't Give up this doubt, I believe that things must be like this. Probably you are at this level, and you are destined to only meet people who play tricks on you forever."

At that time, Wen Chun'an had been dating Zhou Mingtong for a long time.During this period, Wen Chun'an didn't suspect that the other party was actually a straight man - obviously at the beginning, Wen Chun'an defined the other party as a homophobic straight man, but he actually forgot about it.

"Thinking of you hiding your sexuality and taking me in and approaching me, I feel that you are only worthy of meeting people who play with you—why do you think I am with you? I just want to let you know that people with ulterior motives are not You'll get what you really want."

It was a full month after Zhou Mingtong left that Wen Chun'an figured out what was going on.A story about a straight man who retaliates against his gay man because he thought he was plotting to get close to him.

After finally figuring it out, in Wen Chun'an's heart, Wan Zong was also completely dead, together with Zhou Ming.It's not that Wen Chun'an really believed that Wan Zong was just playing with himself just because of Zhou Ming's same sentence, but he also thought that Zhou Ming was sincere, just like what he felt from Wan Zong back then, he no longer believed it. own judgment.

After graduating from university, Wen Chun'an became an art teacher in a primary school. As a newcomer, he received a lot of care from a young male math teacher.Wen Chun'an didn't pay too much attention to those little details, and by the time he realized it, it was already the school's annual meeting in the second year.Wen Chun'an actually didn't drink too much that day, but the math teacher Li insisted on sending Wen Chun'an home—he himself drank a lot.When the taxi arrived at Wen Chun'an's residence, Mr. Li got out of the car and said that he was relieved to send Wen Chun'an into the building.This is the first time that Teacher Li has acted in a way that exceeds the normal level of "caring for the younger generation".When sending Wen Chun'an into the building, Teacher Li whispered goodbye in Wen Chun'an's ear. "I know we are the same kind of people, so thank you for making me less lonely. Good night, Teacher Xiaowen."

At the end of that spring, Wen Chun'an officially got together with Teacher Li.At the beginning, Wen Chun'an was always vaguely uneasy, he had so little trust in the relationship, and occasionally Mr. Li showed that he was not honest enough, Wen Chun'an was always worried whether it meant that Mr. Li was not so serious about himself, or there were some fatal things. secret.However, it only took Teacher Li three years to let Wen Chun'an rebuild trust.This is not Wen Chun'an's first love, but it is the first time that he truly feels the sense of security and satisfaction of living with another person.For the first time, he sees a clear future and is even considering coming out to his parents.

Then--

Teacher Li is getting married.

In this world, some people are willing to come out to their parents for love, and some are willing to obey their parents' arrangements to get married out of filial piety.

Wen Chun'an graduated from high school when she was abandoned for the first time, and graduated from college when she was abandoned for the second time.This time, when he watched the person he loved the most lower his head and kissed the bride from a distance, he finally graduated from the redundant and ridiculous love lessons.

In this world, it is so simple to not be lonely, but it is even easier to not get hurt.The first time Wen Chun'an followed the online strategy to visit gay bars, he seemed a bit jerky, but the second time he was already at ease.

Later, Wen Chun'an recalled that he couldn't tell whether he decided not to use his emotions anymore, or whether he had no emotions to use at all, which made his communication with people very smooth.

It turns out that everyone wants the same thing, to be happy when you are happy, and to cherish tonight is enough.

After breaking up with Teacher Li, Wen Chun'an, who had difficulty facing each other at that time, left the school.His luck was good, and soon he found a good job.It was a well-known aristocratic primary school featuring art throughout the country, and Wen Chun'an was hired as their art teacher with a high salary.

This time, there were no seniors in his school who took good care of him, but Wen Chun'an still had a smooth life—so, it turned out that he didn't need a "teacher Li" to take care of him at all.

The only time Wen Chunan who came to such a conclusion encountered difficulties was when the school appointed him, a young teacher with consistent favor, to host an important traditional school event. In this art exhibition project that needed sponsors to hold, due to the financial crisis, The former sponsor's funds failed to arrive in time, and as the main person in charge of the project, Wen Chun'an had to worry about where to find funds.At this moment, a sponsorship fell from the sky.

Wen Chun'an finally successfully completed the work of holding the exhibition.At the time, he didn't pay much attention to who was behind the sponsorship.However, not long after, he overheard the gossip of his colleagues, and only then did he know that it was Zhou Mingtong who secretly helped him.Even, the reason why he was able to enter this noble primary school was because of Zhou Mingtong's mediation.

Wen Chun'an is not a person who doesn't know what is good or bad, he didn't quit his job because of this - on the contrary, it made him find that the person he once felt resentful because of the pain has been easily forgiven.Zhou Mingtong helped him a lot, but at the same time, those injuries were nothing to worry about.

Wen Chun'an, who got Zhou Mingtong's mobile phone number from the principal, sent a message to thank him.After get off work that day, he saw Zhou Mingtong waiting for him at the school gate.Afterwards, the two had dinner together. Zhou Mingtong solemnly apologized to Wen Chunan. He explained that because he trusted Wen Chunan too much, he felt betrayed, homophobia and resistance to himself, which led to an overreaction.Wen Chun'an felt that the lobster was really good that day. He didn't listen carefully to Zhou Mingtong's explanation, because he forgave him without an explanation.

Not that he's snobby, it's just that multiple friends are always better than multiple enemies.Therefore, when Zhou Mingtong hoped to get back together with Wen Chun'an, Wen Chun'an agreed without hesitation.He likes Zhou Mingtong as a friend.Therefore, in order not to let the other party misunderstand that he has extra thoughts about the other party, he occasionally takes Zhou Mingtong to the bar he often goes to, and then finds a one-night stand at random and leaves first.

In principle, Wen Chun'an only looks for playmates in bars, but sometimes, there will be people in bars who want more as the relationship deepens.Wen Chunan tries to avoid playmates who pose this risk, but sometimes, his predictive ability is not completely accurate.When his lover became serious, Wen Chun'an had to end the relationship with the other party immediately.For example, Liu Yu.

To be honest, at first Wen Chunan felt that Liu Yu was very safe, and Liu Yu was also a big player, such a person could afford to let go, Wen Chunan felt at ease and established a relationship with him that was almost more harmonious and deeper than he had with other lovers , He likes to play things that express "sweet affection" - secretly picking up the other party when they come back from the plane in the middle of the night, waiting outside the other party's door when it snows just because they want to see the other party.Pretending to be involved in a relationship sometimes makes Wen Chunan more satisfied than the pleasure he can get in bed. This is like a sick sense of accomplishment. Wen Chunan likes to make others think that he likes the other party.

However, he didn't expect that Liu Yu seemed to take it seriously.

This is obviously a tacit game, pretending how happy the two are.However, Liu Yu became serious.

After realizing that Liu Yu wanted something more real, Wen Chun'an chose to end the deteriorating relationship in time.He never cared about everything about Liu Yu, so he didn't know that Liu Yu had depression, and he also had a cousin named Wan Zong.

When meeting Wan Zong again, Wen Chun'an's first thought was that he might have offended someone he shouldn't have offended.He knew that Liu Yu was rich, but he didn't know that Liu Yu's family was rich enough to carry out "kidnapping" like the underworld.He tried his best to get himself out of the predicament, and in order to avoid future troubles, he chose the most straightforward way.

The script Wen Chun'an who pretended to have unrequited love for Wan Zong didn't think too much, at least, he didn't think too much about Wan Zong.After confirming that this plan would not stimulate Liu Yu in a bad direction, Wen Chunan was only worried that Wan Zong, who did not understand for a while, would retaliate against him because of this trick. I couldn't leave Father Liu's birthday party smoothly.

At that time, he did not expect that the result of the matter was different from what he had imagined.

When he realized that Wan Zong still had feelings for him, Wen Chun'an felt a clear sense of joy. Maybe he finally realized that he was safe. meaning" mini-game.

In retrospect, he regretted it a little.He gave Wan Zong wrong signals, so Wan Zong took the initiative to contact him frequently.

To a certain extent, Wen Chun'an doesn't think Wan Zong can be "affectionate", but at the same time, he also understands that Wan Zong is different from his other playmates.Even if his other playmates knew that he had someone else to spend the spring night with, they would never have any thoughts, but Wan Zong was obviously different.

Wen Chun'an never hides a little in front of other lovers, but when facing Wan Zong, he tried his best not to let the other party know such things as who he slept with last night.It also includes his marriage.

Wen Chun'an could feel that his marriage must not be something that would make Wan Zong happy, and maybe the other party would cut off contact with him because of his marriage.It is a pity for Wen Chun'an, he has had many lovers, only Wan Zong is his first love, the person he can feel the most joy in getting along with so far.However, if Wan Zong wanted to leave, Wen Chun'an would not force him to stay.

Wen Chun'an thought everything out and felt that he could control the development of the situation, but in the end, what Wan Zong chose to do was to destroy his marriage.

To be honest, Wen Chunan was really annoyed at first.No one has ever interfered in his life, and he does not allow such an exception to happen.However, after having a candid conversation with his mother, he could more or less appreciate Wan Zong's kindness.

Forgiving someone is very good at today's Wen Chun'an - because he has nothing that he can't let go, including anger.

So, when he saw Wan Zong who wanted to send him to the Civil Affairs Bureau again, he didn't refuse the free ride after saying that he didn't want to see him again.Sitting in the other party's car, Wen Chun'an carefully considered the decision he should make about Wan Zong.

He knew that he was unfair to Wan Zong, because he liked the company of the other party, so he still kept in touch with the other party even though he knew that he could not satisfy the other party's needs.

This time, it was no longer because of anger, but it could be said that in order to help the other party, he explicitly ended the relationship between the two.

A slap can't be heard. The reason why Wen Chun'an couldn't completely break off diplomatic relations with Wan Zong before was because he wasn't so resolute.Why did he hesitate about Wan Zong when he was very decisive in getting rid of Liu Yu or other lovers?Wen Chunan decided to correct his mistake.He decided so...and it didn't work out.

When Wan Zong handed over the key, Wen Chun'an couldn't bear to refuse.He knew that he would definitely not use this key, but he accepted it under the almost pleading eyes of the other party.Because of Wan Zong's subconscious and nervous force on the key, a fingernail scratch was left on the metal surface.Holding the key that was stuffed into his hand, Wen Chun'an could only helplessly sigh to himself.

When he got out of the car, he was very clear that he would never see the other party again, and when he passed the trash can, he threw the keys into it.

Because of Tracy's marriage remorse, the originally scheduled European tour was on hold. Wen Chun'an, who somehow wanted to go to relax, contacted the travel agency to change the contract. Then, he invited his new lover to go to Europe together.

Before boarding a plane to Paris, he received an apologetic text from his lover.Once again, following the dove for marriage, the dove for companionship travel.Wen Chun'an boarded the plane uncontrollably depressed.

Then, he met Zhou Mingtong next to his seat.

Getting along with Zhou Mingtong was also very pleasant. Although the dishes cooked by the other party were really not delicious, Wen Chun'an was very happy that there was finally an acquaintance of his own in the tour group.

During the six-day and five-night trip to Europe, Wen Chunan had a great time—if there was no accident on the last night, it could be said to be a rather perfect trip.However, on the second morning after the last night, Wen Chun'an, who was hungover, found himself waking up in the same bed as Zhou Ming.

"An'an, I'm sorry I haven't dared to tell you the truth, because I'm afraid you will leave me if you know that I don't just want to be friends." Zhou Mingtong said to Wen Chun'an like that.

Zhou Mingtong guessed right.

Then, Wen Chun'an left Zhou Mingtong.

They took the plane back with the tour group. At the airport, Wen Chun'an refused the other party's free ride. "Take care, Mingtong."

After the original relaxation activities were completed, Wen Chunan's mood became worse.

He had already lost a lover who had loved the company most, and now he had lost a friend.

When opening the door with the key, Wen Chun'an decided to go to the bar after putting down the luggage.He didn't expect to see a key on the ground inside the door.

When Wen Chunan left, it was clear that there was nothing on it, so it was obvious that someone had slipped the key in through the crack of the door when he left.

Wen Chun'an picked up the key almost in a daze.The shape of the key was familiar, and so was the scratch on it.At that time, it was because of the way Wan Zong squeezed the key so hard that it left marks that he couldn't bear to refuse the key in person.Afterwards, he threw the key into the trash can - and now, the key that was thrown into the trash can appeared on the floor of his room.

Wen Chun'an hasn't felt that kind of emotion for a long time, that kind of complex emotion that can't be judged.He couldn't tell whether he was sad or happy, and in the shapeless haze, he inexplicably remembered his own abnormal behavior——

Whether it is Liu Yu or other lovers, including Zhou Mingtong, once he finds out that these people want more than he can give, he never hesitates to end the relationship with the other party.However, he knew from the very beginning that Wan Zong needed more from him than a one-night stand, but he didn't do that.

...as if he was reluctant to end the occasional meeting with Wan Zong.

Maybe, when he gets old, he will become patient enough to go fishing with Wan Zong?

Wen Chun'an was thinking wildly.

He looked at the key again for a while.Then, take the key and leave the room.

When returning to this apartment, Wen Chun'an forgot that he had brought the drunk Wan Zong here not long ago, and felt as if he had returned here after a century.

Wan Zong once said that he would be here waiting for him to come back. He didn't really mean it, but at the same time he felt that maybe the other party was indeed behind the door.

After a little hesitation, Wen Chun'an reached out and opened the door with the key...

(End of the article)