My daily life with neuropathy

"You said you saw someone exactly like you?" My cousin asked me in surprise.

"To be exact, it's more like a younger me," I said. "Then he warned me not to bully Bai Yu too hard."

"Is that so..." said the cousin thoughtfully.

"What are you hiding from me?" I asked suddenly.

"What?" He looked up unexpectedly, but immediately avoided my sight.

"You seem to know his existence already," I pondered, "Have you seen him before? Or, there are many identical me?"

"!" My cousin glanced at me, then turned his face and said, "Don't think too much about it."

"But you guys are hiding too much from me, so I have to think a little bit more." I smiled a little coldly, "In order not to be tricked by you and not know it."

"We..." My cousin wanted to say something, but stopped talking, bit his lips a little bit aggrieved, and refused to say a word to me again.

Is it going too far?I reflected for a while, and frowned again. I was not very happy with his evasive attitude, and I didn't want to coax him now.Seeing that he was stubborn, I ignored him, turned around and left.

"You brothers quarreled?" Ying looked at me with folded arms like a little adult.

"What's the matter?" After get off work, I went to pick Ying home, and my cousin had already left without a word. Since I didn't want to coax him yet, I didn't bother to care about him. With such a sentence, I had no choice but to pat her head in embarrassment and said.

"Yes." Ying said lazily. "He just took a look at me and left. You two must be angry. If he is the only one who is angry, you will never quarrel."

"This..." I smiled and didn't explain much, "It's not good for a child to be too used to it." I said lightly, and then hugged her.

"Are you enjoying it?" Ying looked at me suspiciously.

"Kids, don't talk nonsense." I said.

"I see it." Ying said.

"Do we have to dwell on this?" I said with a sigh.

"I don't want you guys to quarrel." Ying said persistently.

However—"...Ying." The irritability in my heart was infinitely magnified, and I gave her a cold look, "Enough."

Ying's face suddenly turned pale and fell silent.

"..." After a moment of silence, I said, "I scared you," I adjusted my emotions and said, "Sorry, let's go home first."

"..." Well, another one was provoked.

If you don’t say it, don’t say it, I’m not very happy now, it’s just that my ears are clean.

We went home in silence, and then I put Ying down and she ran away.I went to the kitchen to cook, and then I ate, all in one go.

When I can't control my emotions, being alone is really a good thing, it can give me enough time and space to calm down and think.

For example, why is that boy so similar to me? Why was my cousin surprised when he found out about his existence but didn’t question whether I was wrong? They.....what else are they hiding from me?

...simply exhausted.Too many clues and puzzles occupy the space in my mind, like a jigsaw puzzle with no specific number, I keep trying to put it together, but I can't always put it together completely.

Now I even miss the days when I was still in a foreign country. At least I don’t have to think about so many complicated issues, and I don’t have to go to dangerous places. I only need to worry about the daily rations. Now it seems that the days are really the happiest.

Having said that, I also know that what should come will eventually come. Since it is coming, it is useless to escape, and it is useless to be angry. Instead of wasting energy on unnecessary worry, fear and anger, it is better to calm down and observe more , think a lot.

Then I thought of the boy I saw today.

In the vast sea of ​​people, how high is the probability of meeting someone who is exactly like you or even exactly the same as yourself?And even the threatening tone of this person seemed to come from his own mouth.

That familiar feeling doesn't even need confirmation to know that he is me.

"You are you." Ah Ling's voice sounded in my mind, "Don't worry about it."

"I feel that there must be something strange in it." I said, "Maybe Bai Yu can know something."

However, what answer am I expecting?

I do not know either.

I just suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder. If I don't investigate this matter clearly, I may become anxious all the time, and then do some irreversible things.

"Ah Ling," I sighed, "I'm not a good person."

"Well, I know." Ling Bietiao's voice was as calm as ever.

"Ah?" I raised my eyebrows, "What a surprising answer," I said thoughtfully, "Have you seen me too? When I haven't seen you?"

"You are very aggressive now." Ling Bie Tiao said.

"A little bit." I nodded, "Then?"

"And before you recover, it's better not to communicate with us." Ling Bie Tiao said coldly, "Just like you, we are also afraid that we will kill you if you are not careful."

"Tsk." I shrugged, stopped talking to him, packed up the dishes and went upstairs.

Never thought.

In my room, I saw that young man, his whole body was transparent and glowing like a pearl. He smiled at me and held my head with his hands.

So I sank into a memory.

The first thing engraved in the consciousness is the extremely piercing cold. It seems that there is an external force constantly pulling him out, but another powerful force is constantly pushing him back.

Under the pincer attack of the two forces, it was almost painful to the point of collapse.

What the hell is this memory! (╯‵ ′)╯︵┻━┻

Just after I was in pain and pain, until I could no longer feel the pain, a light suddenly lit up in the darkness, and I suddenly felt the existence of my body.My perspective also switched to God's perspective.

It turned out that this person had been immersed in some kind of solution, and the light became brighter and brighter. Then, I saw a strange face. He picked up the boy from the liquid, and quickly put him on the stretcher beside him. Just when they put the boy away, there was a loud noise not far away, and they left quickly.I only had time to look back at the capsule-like container engraved with mysterious patterns, and left with the boy's memory.

Screen switching.

The young man lay surrounded by various instruments, and various data displayed on the screen flickered. Looking carefully, he seemed to be sleeping among a pile of small tombstones.

I smiled at this metaphor, but obviously the young man felt the same way. He nodded to me transparently, with a sad look in his eyes, and pointed to the medical certificate on the side.

Then I saw that his lifespan was clearly written on the medical certificate—a lifespan of up to three months.

This is.......

I was stunned, although I knew that the boy was dead, but I didn't expect that he only lived for such a short time.

I couldn't hear the sound, but I could see people outside the ward arguing about something. I don't know how long I watched, and finally a white coat came in, pulled out all the tubes on the boy's body, and took the heart out. The beater pressed against the boy.

So he took a deep breath and opened his eyes suddenly.

There was nothing in those pupils.Even when he woke up, he was like an empty shell without a soul.

Why are you showing me this?I'm a bit puzzled, maybe what he was trying to tell me?

My thoughts soon had an answer - after he woke up, he was taken to a very familiar place.

That is the house where I live.

What a fucking dog.Has anyone died in this house?Suddenly a chill came to my heart.

Before I wanted to withdraw, the screen changed again, and this time I finally saw an acquaintance—Bai Yu.

To be precise, it was Bai Yu when she was young.

When she was young, she seemed to be very unlucky. She just fell down while walking, poured out tea, and so on.

But the Bai Yu I see now is not like this, she is a very lucky person, although she always has a stern face.

Ahh, could it be related to this boy who is exactly like me?

Even the tricks are the same...Maybe it's really me in another parallel world?

However, the boy sensed my thoughts and shook his head at me.

no?Because the scene I saw was so absurd, I couldn't help laughing, "Are you going to tell me that I'm actually just a copy?"

He looked at me calmly, nodded, then shook his head, motioning for me to finish reading.

So I saw the whole process of the boy being killed.

"It turned out to be like this..." I was stunned, "So it's like this..."

I was so surprised, after I calmed down, I said to the boy, "I know what you want me to do, I will try my best."

He looked at me and sighed, knowing that I couldn't give a definite answer, he sent me out of his memory, and his eyes stayed on the body of Bai Yu who was hugging him and crying bitterly.

If I were him, would I have the same idea in the same situation?

Back in my room again, I breathed a sigh of relief, the down-to-earth feeling couldn't be better, I fell on the bed and rubbed my sore forehead.

About that young man, Bai Yu should know something, and then fulfill the young man's instructions.

It wasn't too difficult, I turned over and fell asleep.

The white-glowing boy reappeared after Sanyu fell asleep.He looked at Sanyu in a daze, and tried to reach out his hand to touch Sanyu's eyes, but just when his hand was about to touch his eyes, a faint Haoguang barrier suddenly appeared, scaring him and immediately withdrew his hand .

"If I were you, I would definitely not think about seizing the house." Ying suddenly appeared in the room and said to the boy in an obscure language.

"Hey, can you talk to me?" The boy tilted his head and said in that kind of words very curiously.

"I'm a ghost cultivator." The manjushahua on Ying's forehead shimmered, and she repeated what she said just now, "If I were you, I would definitely not think about taking the house."

"Why?" the boy asked.

"Don't you also know?" Ying frowned, "Although his body is fake, his soul is real. Even if you have one tenth of it, the possession will only be absorbed as nutrients."

"That's it." The boy nodded and smiled, "Thank you, I know what to do." Then he disappeared.

"I hope you really know." After Ying muttered something, he walked lightly in front of Sanyu, and poked his face with hatred, "Bad guy!"

The author has something to say: Amitabha, I just hope that the list will not die suddenly