My daily life with neuropathy

The surrounding scenes faded away like a tide, and when I came back to my senses again, I was squatting on the roof in the posture of an old Shanxi farmer and staring blankly at the moon.

... so low.

I despised my current posture very much, and immediately changed to a sitting posture, and continued to look at the moon and think about life.

...too girly! =L=

So I changed to the previous posture in grief and indignation.

Hey, the pattern on the brick surface is so interesting, what does it look like, oh circle...

What the hell!Am I actually squatting on the roof and drawing circles? ==My heart is so stuffy, or I'd better lie on my stomach.

Just when I was about to adopt 108 postures to resolve the loneliness of squatting on the roof, trouble came.

Ripples like the surface of water appeared in the empty space in front of him, and then appeared hands and feet, a body, and... a face.

Thinking of Sailor Moon or something... poof.It must not be my problem hahahaha.

Although the current situation is indeed very delicate, but after seeing the anime-like appearance, I really don't have the mood to become serious.

"You're really calm." The man who looked exactly like me stood opposite me and said.

What does this exactly mean?That is to say, not only does he have the same face as mine, but he also wears the same clothes as me, and has the same hairstyle as me... except that his Tai Chi eyes are red and black.

"Are you here to replace the moon to destroy me?" I accidentally said meanly.

"Well," he was not angry, and blinked at me, "Hasn't the messenger of the moon been wiped out by your relatives and friends?"

This sentence reminded me of something bad, and I frowned, not wanting to continue talking about it.

But he was unwilling to let me go, he continued: "I don't know that running away can solve the problem."

"Who are you?" I asked.

"I thought you would understand." He smiled, "I'm just another version of you."

"Inner Demon?" I was exhausted and suddenly had a flash of inspiration and said. "But isn't the heart demon being beaten?"

"He is no longer a demon." He said, "From the moment he was named, he was no longer a demon, but an independent individual."

"So..." I looked at him suspiciously.

"That's why I'm the genuine demon." He smiled, but the smile didn't reach his eyes, "But it's a pity, because you are an ordinary person, so I won't be very powerful."

"Really," I sighed, "If this is a test that the head of the family must pass, I finally understand why the heir must be me."

"No, no." He shook his head and denied my conclusion, "This person can only be you. No matter what form you are, the only person who can become the head of the family can only be Feng Sanyu."

...so informative.I frowned, "Are there many people with this name besides me?"

"Hehe," he said without answering my question, "I am surprised by your composure."

"So what if you're not calm?" I also relaxed and said, "Sanyu is just an ordinary person, there's nothing he can do except keep calm, isn't there?"

"That's right." He nodded, and with a wave of his hand, three water mirrors suddenly appeared around us. In one mirror, the man in Tsing Yi, Feiguan, and Guo Qi were standing at a distance from Zhuo Chen. In the second mirror, A strange little girl was crying with a fan in her arms. In the third mirror, her cousin was sitting in a scene playing chess quietly.

"What's wrong?" I looked at the three mirrors and asked.

"What percentage of them do you think survived?" he asked me.

"To be honest, I don't know much about their strength, so the accuracy rate is not high if I make an estimate like this." I said honestly.

"Zhuochen is close to the strength of Dao Dao Saint, others, please listen," he pointed to the man in Tsing Yi, and said, "At least [-]% of the power has been sealed, and the other two are not even at the level of Tian Dao Saint. , who among them do you think can survive?"

"But now that they're alive," I said, "the survival rate isn't zero."

"The reason why they are still alive is because they have Soul Frost in their hands, and because Soul Frost still has a little thought for Zhuochen." He said, "Once Soul Frost is broken, do you think they can live? "

"There's always a little trust between people, isn't it?" I said, shrugging.

"That's right." He didn't say anything, "That girl wanted to kill you before, but now she's still alive, do you want her to die?"

"Why did she kill me?" I asked.

"Because her parents were killed by a person who looks exactly like you, so she decided to take revenge," he said.

"That's it," I nodded, "If it can be proved that I did it, then it doesn't matter if I die."

"It's you, but it's not you." He shook his head and looked at the third mirror. "After seeing that scene, do you still believe in your younger brother?"

"That's a good question." I said, looking at my cousin in the mirror.

What is the true face of the so-called close people? I have been avoiding this question before, but now it has been brought up again.

"I used to feel disbelief, wonder, bewilderment..." I said, "but then I was relieved."

"Why?" he asked.

"Because, after all, they are all old things," I said with a relaxed smile, "So what if you know, and what if you don't know? Gratitude and resentment are all things in the previous life. If you are still so entangled in the next life, And why do you want to reincarnate? Doesn’t the so-called reincarnation mean to start all over again? Then if you still hold on to the past, what’s the fun?”

"Anyway," I sighed, "I don't want to believe that...he is such a person without being there in person."

"You really don't want to die until you reach the Yellow River." He shook his head and turned off the water mirrors of his cousin and the girl, "It's almost dawn, if Po Hanshuang loses its value to Zhuo Chen, they will definitely die."

"No." I said.

"Why not?" he asked me.

"Because there is still his soul element in the Soul Frost," I said, "Once the Soul Frost is broken, he will die too."

"Why didn't you tell Feiguan this?" He asked.

"I didn't have time." I shrugged, "Didn't I lose consciousness before I could explain anything?"

"Are you sure you're running out of time and not out of curiosity?" he asked. "Not out of curiosity about what a demon is like, or because you want to know what's going on?"

"This..." I scratched the back of my head, "It's a bit hard to say, but I thought they all knew."

"Because you know that Zhuo Chen doesn't want to live anymore." He said, "Once Fu Qingfeng died, Zhuo Chen no longer had the obsession to live. You know that, right? When Fu Qingfeng said those words to you, you I know, but you still pretend not to know, why?"

His pressing step by step made me very uncomfortable, I frowned, "How do I know, why do I have to know."

"Because you should know." He said, pointing to his eyes with a smile, "I am the desire hidden in your heart, I am the other side of the moon, you are not you, but you are the same Gui, but you look down on me, hate me, hate me, just because my existence is the proof of your uncleanness, the stain on your character, the other side of you that you don't know, and don't want to be known , isn’t it? But at the root of it, you are envious of me, you envy my freedom without restraint, you envy me that I can do what you want to do but dare not do, and it is precisely because I have nothing Fear knows nothing, that's why I'm so strong, powerful and beautiful, and it's so tempting to you, to everyone who sees me, isn't it?" He opened his hands to me, "What do you think Everything I want to give up, everything I want to deny, that makes me what I am."

"Then what I want to abandon and deny, isn't it a bit too good?" I had an idea, recalling all the settings related to demons I had seen before, and I said suddenly.

It seems that he didn't expect me to answer this way. His movements were stiff, and he looked at me in disbelief. He took a step forward, and I continued to flicker, "The so-called light and darkness are often only a moment apart." I stretched out my hand and hung the bright moon The sky fast-forwarded to the moment when the moon was setting and the sun was just about to rise, commonly known as dawn. I opened the little girl's water mirror, pointed to the girl, "the so-called good and evil are often only a difference of one thought," and then I looked at Guo Qi and said, "Some people have already made a decision, but," Feiguan said, looking aside, "some people are still hesitating." Finally I looked at the man in Tsing Yi, "But there is such a A kind of person." I opened the water mirror of my cousin with mixed feelings, looked at the two of them and said, "You can never judge whether he is good or bad...he has done some wrong things, But I have also done some good things, I can't and can't define his color, his boundaries, if I only see the wrong things he did, for example, I only see your rebelliousness, those things in you that I really hate If I don’t have quality, would I still talk to you so calmly?” I said, “If I do this, what is the difference from denying yourself? Aren’t those things in you also a part of me? To be honest, When I saw how the demons were dealt with in the novels before, I really didn’t understand, why do you have to resist the other side of yourself so fiercely?” I shrugged, “It’s never a wise idea to deny yourself. If If I only focus on those parts of you, then I will miss the opportunity to communicate with you. If I only see the wrong things they have done, but ignore their usual feelings for me, then I will also miss it. It's so rare to be confused when you miss an important person in the past." I sighed. "After all, what is innocent in this world?"

"But you're going to get hurt," he said. "I can feel all your pain and disappointment." A trace of anger flashed in the red and black eyes, "You really don't care about these things? No, you care very much. You don't care about everything they do. In my eyes, it’s just that you have kept silent, you can stop it but you haven’t, you can save it but you haven’t either—and then comfort yourself that these are destiny, but you don’t even believe it yourself!”

"You are wrong," I shook my head. "It's not that I don't care about it, nor that I don't believe that what happens today will have a cause in the future. Everything has its cause and effect. I stopped it at the beginning. I also hinted at it, but no matter what I do, what should happen will still happen, I call this destiny."

"Then if I replace you, is it destiny?" He suddenly smiled strangely.

Oops, I failed to fool you, I secretly thought it was bad, what should I say?My mind turned sharply, and a sentence suddenly appeared in my mind.

[Replacement?No, it's fusion. 】

"Not a replacement, but a fusion," I said.