Qi Luo has no regrets

In the early morning, I went to the Shuangye Orphanage with Xu Mo as promised. As soon as I got off the car at the door, I saw a group of children gathered around, chattering to talk to Xu Mo.After I stood by and observed for a while, I found that Xu Mo, from the age of 3 to the age of 80, should not be unmanageable, so I quietly gave him a thumbs up in my heart.

"Today, I brought a friend here as a guest, everyone should be polite." Xu Mo squatted down and talked to them gently.

"Brother Xu Mo's girlfriend, right?" A little boy ran over to look at me and shouted.Children nowadays are really precocious, and they know their girlfriends at just a few years old.

"No, no! I'm brother Xu Mo's girlfriend!" Before I had time to explain, a little girl yelled at the little boy angrily.

"Professor Xu, let's get to know each other in three years?!" I patted Xu Mo's arm and said meaningfully, but then again, I haven't read the laws of Lianyu City, and I don't know if there is one.

Xu Mo glanced at me, bowed his head and leaned over to me and said softly, "Why don't you just admit that you are my girlfriend for the sake of everyone?"

What is ginger or old hot? I glanced at the old fox beside me with disdain, "Forget it, you are still three years old, and I will visit you."

After I finished speaking, I squatted down, took out the prepared candy and handed it to the children. They looked at the candy in my hand hesitantly, and then at Xu Mo, but they didn't even pick it up.If every child was as vigilant as you are, there would be fewer abductions and trafficking incidents in this world. I comforted myself with a bit of hurt, and turned around with them to look at the old fox.

"This sister is not a bad person, it doesn't matter." Xu Mo bent down with a smile, took the candy from my hand and handed it to the children, and they happily accepted it. I once again felt a deep sense of frustration.

"The children in the orphanage are more vigilant towards people for various reasons. You don't have to be too sad." When I looked at Xu Mo gratefully, he paused, and slowly stabbed me in the heart again, " It's not your fault you're not popular after all."

Director, this person also picked up the wrong script. This is Li Zeyan's script. I almost want to cry.

"Professor Xu, you didn't speak like this when you talked to me a few days ago..."

"A few days ago... You didn't talk like this when you talked to me." He looked at me with a half-smile, which made my scalp tingle. Why do you say I'm so good, why do you want to talk so much?I looked at the progress bar that was basically determined to be 100%, and felt that no matter what happened next, I should talk less, and if I was really exposed, I must be beaten to death and refused to admit it.

Fortunately, Xu Mo didn't care as much about this issue as I thought, as if he just said it casually, he took me to the dean directly and got approval.

"Want to see kids with autism?"

"Will it bother them?"

"It's okay, they... don't really care about being disturbed. Let's go."

I followed Xu Mo into the independent classroom for children with autism. It was very quiet, and the children were all focused on doing their own things, and didn't even glance at us because of our arrival.

I saw a boy who was painting a beautiful starry sky, and I walked over and squatted beside him. He raised his head and glanced at me. He didn't speak, and seemed a little embarrassed.

I have never been in contact with such a child, and I didn't know what to say for a while. After thinking about it, I smiled at him and moved back a little. The child looked at me, then lowered his head and continued to draw the picture. starry sky.

"I always feel that the starry sky in their eyes is cleaner and purer than what we see." I said softly to Xu Mo.

"You seem to like them."

"It should be." I thought for a while, "At least I like these children better than those brats who only cry and make you want to beat them up. They are as clean as elves who have fallen into the world."

Well, like some elf in Switzerland right now.

"Every time I just thought you were an angel, you always had the words to prove you were mortal."

"Is that why you never tell me the esoteric truth?" I thought about the legendary Red Queen Hypothesis, Murphy's Law, Schrödinger's cat... Xu Mo never seemed to mention it to me, but told Youran After a while, he raised his head and carefully confirmed it.

"Well, because I'm afraid you won't understand."

"Professor Xu, you are really a sharp-edged person..."

"Award."

In the following time, I carefully stood not far from each child, watching them doing what they liked. In a sense, the children here are all geniuses, because some children created The works, in my opinion, are of a level that most adults cannot reach.

"10% of autistic patients have savant syndrome. They have some kind of artistic or academic ability beyond ordinary people." Xu Mo walked to my side and explained to me softly, "This orphanage has been established since its establishment. From the beginning, there has been relatively professional education for children with autism. Many children have made extraordinary achievements in different fields after leaving the orphanage."

"I don't know if I can interview some of them as positive teaching materials..." I listened to myself while talking to myself, and gradually began to have a plan for the prototype of the show in my heart.

"There used to be a child with autism who had a very high musical talent, and then..." Xu Mo looked at me and said meaningfully.

I looked at his expression, was stunned for a moment, and quickly realized who he was talking about, and my heart ached, not for myself, but for that person's past.

Lowering my eyelids, I asked Xu Mo softly, "Later... did that child become who he wanted to be?"

"maybe……"

He lowered his head and suddenly laughed at himself, he has become the person he wants to be, hasn't he?Because he found his own "light".

At this moment, I seemed to see the ugly mask born in my heart, called jealousy.Zhou Qiluo, what I have always been jealous of is not that you like Youran, but what I am jealous of is that she took advantage of the right time, place and people to meet you earlier than me...

The nap bell interrupted our conversation abruptly, the children obediently packed up their stationery and went to sleep, I looked at the desk under the sun, if the person standing here with Xu Mo is not me, they He should lie down here and take a nap. He raised his head and looked at Xu Mo. He had a gentle side face under the sun, and he clenched his palms tightly. "Xu Mo, I have something to tell you."

Sometimes I don't know if Xu Mo wants to accommodate me, or just doesn't care, he never seems to refuse any of my requests.Follow me to sit at the desk where the sun can be exposed to the sun. I lay on the table thinking for a long time how to speak, and he also looked at me quietly, without urging me, as if he knew everything with ease.

"Xu Mo, do you like butterflies?"

"Hmm... I guess I like it."

"Do you have any stories about butterflies you can tell me? Like painters and butterflies or something?"

"Why do you think I know this kind of story?" Yes, why, probably because in the original world, everyone always mentioned Xu Mo's butterfly, so I subconsciously felt that it should be like this .

"Forget it, let me tell you this story. Once upon a time, there was a painter whose inspiration was exhausted and he could no longer draw good works. When he lost hope in life, a butterfly flew into him. In his life, the colorful wings of the butterfly revived the painter's inspiration, and gradually, the painter's life became only this butterfly."

"Although it's a bit different from what I've heard, it's still good overall." Xu Mo smiled lightly.

"Don't you think this painter is stupid? In fact, he only saw this butterfly. There are still many beautiful things in life."

"For example, Little White Rabbit?"

Looking at the corners of his raised lips, and remembering the scene where he called me Little White Rabbit a few days ago, I suspected that he was laughing at me, and I still had evidence.

"So, why do you want to tell me this story?" Xu Mo leaned against the desk behind, lowered his head, the sun shone through the fine bangs, casting mottled shadows on his eyelids.

"Because... I seem to have lost a butterfly..." A little butterfly of Xu Mo, "I hope that if one day the painter finds out that this butterfly has not entered his life, he can live a good life. Use his pen to describe other beautiful things."

Xu Mo raised his head and looked at me without saying a word.There is a saying, I am afraid that the air will be suddenly quiet, and now this suffocating quiet makes me feel uneasy.If it weren't for the ticking clock hanging on the wall behind me, I would even feel that time has been stopped at this moment.

"If...one day the artist finds out, I think he will look for other beautiful things." After a long silence, Xu Mo said slowly, "However, maybe it's not just the artist who is stupid, but also the artist. What about that little butterfly who always looks forward to being the only little butterfly in the painter's life..."

He stood up slowly and looked down at me, the feeling of being seen through by others reappeared, "The authorities are obsessed, but the bystanders are clear. Sometimes, you can see the truth of others, but you are often confused by your own illusions." confuse……"

Xu Mo's words woke me up, and I suddenly realized the difference between my current self and a butterfly who desperately wants to be the only butterfly in a painter's brush.

Perhaps, even more tragically, like a moth to a flame...

Xu Mo is right, the person who can't see through is actually me, he just lost his little butterfly before he met him, so there is no need to feel sorry.

And when I met my painter, another butterfly was already in his eyes.