dark crossing

The weather in Jianghu in August is not very good.Typhoons landed in other coastal cities in the surrounding area, and the storm continued for several days without stopping.

Although there is no typhoon in Jianghu, this morning, the morning glow is like a brocade, and the gray-blue sky is set off by the orange-red glow like a matte canvas.It is said that "the morning glow does not go out, and the evening glow travels thousands of miles", which is a sign of heavy rain.

Compared to Shen Ting and Chu Huainan, who had a rare good sleep and slept until nine o'clock, Lu Xinghe, who lived alone, hadn't slept well for a long time.

He sat by the window for another night, watching the black silk-like sky light up bit by bit, and when he recovered, the glow was as red as blood splashed on the concrete floor.He thought dully, as if he had no work today, he could stay at home all day.

But he didn't want to do anything, he was neither sleepy nor hungry.There was a strange, radiating pain in his back. He went to see a physician, but the physical examination showed that he was only slightly malnourished, and there was no serious disease that could cause pain. The gunshot wounds were also not directly linked.

After getting the result, the manager Maggie was slightly relieved, but immediately worried that the pain was caused by mental problems, so she made an appointment with a psychiatrist for Lu Xinghe without stopping.

Lu Xinghe was very cooperative throughout the whole process. When he visited the doctor he knew well, he appeared to be in good condition, polite, chatting and laughing happily, and he was not at all lifeless as usual.He is a professional actor, and he has always paid great attention to grasping the details, so his speech and demeanor reveal a specially considered cheerfulness.

The doctor was taken aback by him, and even thought he didn't need to waste time filling out the measurement form again.Lu Xinghe said goodbye to him with a smile.

As soon as I left the office, the psychiatrist immediately called the big client who spent a lot of money on the other side of the ocean.

Before Lin Youban set off, he made a special trip to visit him in person.

"Our Xinghe, please take care of us in the future." Before leaving, he spoke in a calm tone, but the words "Our Xinghe" weighed heavily on the psychiatrist's shoulders like a mountain.

Everyone knows that Lin Youbandi is notoriously easy-going, but as long as it is about Lu Xinghe, he will always compare pennies and pennies.

"Mr. Lin, Mr. Lu came here today."

"how is he?"

"Not very good." The doctor said truthfully: "I chatted with him for five or 10 minutes, but there is a significant difference between the information Maggie gave me and Mr. Lu himself. According to my experience, it was Mr. Lu who lie."

Lin Youband let out a "hmm".

The doctor went on to say: "Generally speaking, people who come to me are those who realize that they have problems and want to get help. Although in the process of seeing a doctor, more than 90% of patients will deliberately hide some difficult things to say. However, there are very few people like Mr. Lu who are completely unwilling to tell the truth. He behaved too perfectly, not like a patient at all, but his inner feelings are relatively subjective. If he is unwilling to tell the truth , it’s hard for me to help him.” Lin Youband on the other end of the phone was silent, and the doctor thought for a while and then added: “Of course I can also use some instruments to assist in the judgment, but that is not necessarily accurate, I need him to be more accurate. Expression of multiple subjectivities."

Lin Youband said: "I have collected some of his recent paintings, and I will send them to you later."

The doctor answered immediately: "Has he systematically learned painting? If not, then this is very useful!"

"No, he just simply likes it."

"That's great. If you haven't received professional painting skills training, to some extent, his paintings will have a strong sense of emotional catharsis. From the composition, lines and strokes, it can be seen that the painter is painting. The mood at the moment. It’s like in Criminal Minds, psychologists would be more willing to analyze the scene that has been arranged twice! Huahua is the second scene that has been carefully arranged. It has more personal characteristics than the first scene. Clues related to the traits of the arranger were easily found."

After hanging up the phone, the doctor quickly received three works by Lu Xinghe.Two of them have been released on his personal social platform, and the other one was recently taken by Maggie and sent to Lin Youband.

There are two people in the first screen, one of them is facing away from the screen but facing the stage, that is Lu Xinghe himself.The other one is standing on the left side of the picture, facing the person outside the picture sideways, looking at the one on the right with very gentle eyes.

The whole work uses a lot of contrasting colors of white and dark gray, and above the head of the figure on the upper right of the picture, there is also a gorgeous fireworks in bold colors.

The whole picture gives people a feeling of being on the backlight of the stage.

The psychiatrist quickly began to interpret the psychology of the painter. In the end, he summed it up in one sentence: success but pressure, dislike the current situation, but it is difficult to escape, and must be digested alone.

After a work became popular, the sudden huge attention put Lu Xinghe under unprecedented pressure.

It was not long after he suddenly became famous that he soon got to know Lin Youband again. It was also from that time that Lu Xinghe, who was relatively sensitive in personality, began to have slight conflicts and anxieties.

On the one hand, he cherishes his relationship with Lin Youband very much, but on the other hand, he is also worried that excessive exposure and public attention will have a negative impact on the future of the two of them sooner or later.

The psychiatrist also noticed that the person on the left side of the picture is very special to the painter.

Looking at the details, the facial features of the character on the left are not clear. Lu Xinghe uses large blocks of alternating light and dark tones to express a sense of contradiction that has nothing to do with facial features. This shows that deep down in his heart, he has a deep understanding of the relationship between this person and himself. Difficult to locate.

Not enemies, not friends, but not lovers either.

This is a contradictory and difficult relationship.

Judging from the performance of the characters' limbs, Lu Xinghe in the picture doesn't want to face the person on the left directly.Therefore, he did not turn his face to look at the other party.But subconsciously, he has to face it, because he allows the viewers outside the picture to clearly see the side face of the other party.

The other painting is an abstract painting.The lines within it are blurred and zigzag constantly changing directions.This shows that the painter lacks a sense of security, suppresses himself, is anxious and tries to hide negative emotions from the outside world.But generally speaking, he uses relatively bright colors, and the layout of the picture is generally to the right. Considering that Lu Xinghe is right-handed, he should still have hope for the future.

What worried the psychiatrist the most was the unpublished painting that Lu Xinghe painted recently.The overall color cast is pigmented, and the picture makes the viewer feel very depressed for no reason.

The whole picture is a huge circle, which is full of tortuous and incoherent lines. In the center of the lines, two bright red lip prints with messy lip lines are drawn.

In painting psychology, a giant circle indicates loss of control.This shows that Lu Xinghe was in an extreme mood when he painted this painting, he was anxious and unable to control himself.The lip marks represent intimacy, while red represents vigilance, so it can be inferred that Lu Xinghe's jealousy and anxiety are likely to stem from uncertainty about intimacy.

Along with the photos, there is also a video that Maggie surreptitiously recorded.From the video, it can be clearly seen that Lu Xinghe's painting sequence, he first drew a huge circle, then drew the lip prints, and finally filled in the circle with the pen.This is enough to see that Lu Xinghe has contradictory and deep feelings for the other half.He may love that person more than he imagined.The other half that made him extremely panic but hard to let go.

In the very center of this painting, there is also a dark black fork.This is the last stroke Lu Xinghe added after painting all the elements.This made the doctor's hair stand on end after watching the video, and he had to call Lin Youband again.

"Mr. Lin, although my inference may not be accurate, just judging from this recent painting, Mr. Lu has obvious suicidal thoughts. I suggest that if possible, you should find someone to watch him."

……

Chang Qing learned about Shen Ting's injury from Sun Ruohai.

Shen Ting's job is of a special nature, so getting injured is nothing unusual for him.

High-risk job attributes will inevitably bring some harm to the parties involved.Physical injuries are visible to the naked eye, but psychological trauma is often overlooked.

Chang Qing, who always took care of Shen Ting as a junior, always felt that this young police inspector was too risky.

Judging from Sun Ruohai's description, Shen Ting was seriously injured this time. Chang Qing, who was worried that he might have post-traumatic stress disorder, took the initiative to call Shen Ting, concerned about his injury, and reminded him insinuatingly , At present, the frequency of his psychological consultation is much lower than the agreement.

Chang Qing's overtones, Shen Ting knows it well. ——He once had post-traumatic stress disorder. He watched an undercover companion die in front of his eyes during the mission, but he was helplessly frustrated. He once made him continue to avoid events and situations related to traumatic experiences. At one point hypervigilance was accompanied by high anxiety.

This kind of stress will have a great negative impact on his work status.With Chang Qing's reminder, Shen Ting made an appointment for the next day's psychological consultation.

Although the wound on the neck was still wrapped with gauze and the collarbone was still bandaged, the medicine injected into Lin Huo's body was almost metabolized.

Shen Ting thought that he had fully recovered his mobility, but Chu Huainan, who had been conjoined twins with him for several days, still insisted on sending him, and even escorted him all the way to the door of Jingwei's consulting room.

Even when he got to the door, he was still worried. Shen Ting felt that compared to himself, the possibility of this injury leaving a psychological shadow on Chu Huainan was greater.How else would the capitalist look after him like a three-year-old?

These days, Chu Huainan can't wait to feed him even if he eats a meal these days.

He waved at the capitalist standing at the door as if hesitating whether to go in with him, and pushed the door open by himself.

In order to match Shen Ting's time, Chang Qing usually spares him 15 minutes before and after the consultation. Seeing Shen Ting coming, he raised his head and greeted people to sit down. Chu Huainan outside.

This person is impeccably superior both in appearance and temperament. Even as a homosexual, it is difficult for Chang Qing to deny that this is a person with an extremely sense of presence and charm.

Most importantly, before Shen Ting entered the door, the distance between Chu Huainan and him was very close, Chang Qing even saw Chu Huainan hooking the corner of Shen Ting's clothes with his fingers.

It's a very intimate little gesture that usually only happens between partners.

He looked away as if nothing had happened, and saw that the white gauze wrapped around Shen Ting's neck was heavy, and he shook his head and said, "I have introduced to my students before, saying that I have a visitor who is either injured or is in the middle of the night." On the road to injury. Guess who I'm talking about?"

Maybe it's because he's used to acting the heartless Song Ci, and it's rare for Shen Ting to joke with him: "Mr. Chang, you're wearing a white coat. When you see me, you shake your head with an ugly expression. It's really scary."

Chang Qing held the pen and looked at him: "Seeing that you are still in the mood to joke, it shouldn't be a big problem."

Shen Ting didn't answer, lowered his eyes and thought for a long time, then suddenly asked: "Does getting hurt make people weak?"

weak?

Chang Qing pressed the ballpoint pen in his hand."Weakness" is undoubtedly a new word for this young man in front of him who always disregards his personal life and death and is fearless.

"Which aspect do you mean by weakness?"

Shen Ting raised his eyes and looked at him, "You asked me before, under what circumstances would there be jealousy and fear..."

Chang Qing nodded. He was deeply impressed by that conversation, which is still fresh in his memory today: "Yes, I have also asked many visitors this question. But only you told me, not under any circumstances." He sighed Tone: "I also reminded you that such thoughts are actually very dangerous. Being fearless is not a good thing for you, which shows that you do not really regard yourself as a 'person'." Chang Qing put down the record book in his hand , put his hands on his knees, and said very pertinently: "No matter how strong a person's spirit is, the physical core of a person is actually very fragile. We are not made of steel, we can be injured, get sick, and die. A broken machine can still be repaired, and there is a chance to be rebuilt after it is scrapped, but people cannot. Many injuries will cause irreversible damage to the body or spirit. If you have no awe for death, then when considering the actual cost of action, you will not I will put my own life in the most important position. I always think that even if we die together, we must complete the task. Although this sounds great, but Shen Ting——" Chang Qing said solemnly: "This is for anyone who cares about you. Say, it's all very cruel."

Shen Ting's expression was subtle for a moment, and Chang Qing guessed that he must have thought of someone, so he asked while the iron was hot: "So now? If I ask you the same question again, how would you answer it?"

Shen Ting thought for a while: "I hope I can go home with my beard and tail every day."

Chang Qing laughed: "Then you have made great progress."

He didn't dwell on the issue of injury and weakness anymore. After all, Shen Ting had been injured a lot over the years, but this was the first time he mentioned "weakness".

In fact, that is not weakness, but awe of death.

This has nothing to do with the wound, it has to do with who is in my heart.

Chang Qing gave him a test, and the test results showed that he still had slight generalization anxiety, but it was much better than before.

Chang Qing couldn't help being curious, who is Shen Ting, a soothing medicine who is so wary that even top consultants can hardly cure him.

At the end of the consultation, Shen Ting got up to leave. Before he touched the doorknob, Chang Qing suddenly said: "Shen Ting, I have a question that I want to ask you as an elder. You can lie or choose not to answer."

Shen Ting stopped in her tracks, turned her head to look at him.

"Do you like Chu Huainan?"

He was taken aback by his question, but his eyes were very open when he looked over.

Before this, Shen Ting never thought of admitting his feelings for Chu Huainan in front of a third party.It's hard to convince yourself.But he wants to try.

Because, apart from Chu Huainan, Shen Ting has never had any other urges in his life.

He didn't answer, but the tall and straight figure hesitated obviously.

In the end, he asked in a muffled voice, "Is being bent bent counted as a work-related injury?"