After saving Bai Yueguang's substitute

【Xu Zhinian's Diary-10】

December 2020, 12, Overcast

The costume drama "Chaowendao" starring Ye Zi'an has its finale today.

I, Mr. Jiang, and Mrs. Wang sat on the sofa in the living room and watched.

When Ye Zi'an's character died in order to save the world, Mrs. Wang cried a lot.

I also have some feelings.

Turning his head to look, Mr. Jiang was still expressionless and could not see any emotional fluctuations.

I asked Mr. Jiang: "Don't you feel sad?"

Mr. Jiang said calmly: "It's okay."

Me: "Mr. Jiang, you don't need to suppress your emotions."

Mr. Jiang said: "I saw Ye Zi'an himself a few days ago, and I knew he was alive and kicking, so I couldn't feel sad."

I said, "That's different, we're sad about the dead characters, not the actors."

Mr. Jiang took a look at me, suddenly hooked the corners of his lips, leaned into my ear, and whispered: "Niannian, you are the only one who can make me lose control of my emotions."

Something seemed to come to my mind, and my face quickly turned red.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Mr. Jiang is too bad!

Why on earth did I boast that Mr. Jiang lost control!

……

I almost forgot to say, even if Mr. Jiang is so bad, today is a day to love Mr. Jiang.

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1283

The Jiang family started to make a fortune from my grandfather's generation, and the previous generations were ordinary people.

It is said that my ancestors have also been in business for generations, but it is not clear whether it is true or not. Most people, even including my own family, think that my grandfather started to build relationships after he made a fortune.

But that doesn't matter either.

My grandfather is quite dissolute in his private life, and he is merciful everywhere, but he is ruthless in business, and acts vigorously and resolutely.

1284

Back then, he tried his best to reject all opinions and resolutely refused to let the incompetent Jiang family members enter the company and intervene in the company's affairs.

This also includes his own son, that is, my dad.

This move was criticized by many relatives of the Jiang family, who scolded him for being cold-blooded and ruthless, and that he didn't care about his relatives when he became rich.

But later, seeing that he treated my dad like this, and knowing that he had made up his mind, everyone stopped.

It's just that I still couldn't help but slander a few words behind my back.

1285

But I have to say that Grandpa's decision is good for the long-term development of the company.

Passed down from generation to generation, countless family businesses have been dragged down by the inside, decayed from the root, and gradually became decadent and down in the turbulent shopping malls.

Only the Jiang family has survived in the business world for so many years.

It is precisely because of this that the Jiang family has extremely strict tests for every heir who takes over the company.

1286

"Because of my mother, I have to undergo various psychological tests regularly since I was a child, but no matter how normal I behave, there are still doubts buried in the hearts of the Jiang family."

I explained blankly: "Before the onset of the disease, my mother always behaved like ordinary people, so no psychiatrist can be sure that I have not inherited mental illness. It will happen someday in the future."

Xu Zhinian was stunned for a long time, and looked at me with a confused expression: "But Mr. Jiang has been normal until now."

I paused, inserted my fingers into his soft hair, and stroked the hair with my fingertips.

1287

"After my mother got sick, she always couldn't control her emotions, became erratic, and had a strong tendency to violence." I said calmly, "None of the servants who took care of my mother were uninjured, even my father , was also cut by my mother with a knife."

Xu Zhinian subconsciously touched the wound on the back of my shoulder.

I smiled, and then said: "Therefore, my dad pays special attention to my emotions. He told me to suppress and restrain my emotions since I was a child. Agitation and anger are not allowed. Once I have strong What awaits me is endless psychological tests. If I have any tendency to violence, it will make them feel like an enemy."

I looked at my hands and said, "The first time I fought someone was in junior high school, and it was also the last time. After that, I was locked up for a whole month, until the psychiatrist reassured me that I didn't have a disease, it was just a normal teenager's emotions fluctuation."

1288

Xu Zhinian was a little hard to understand.

He said: "Aren't it normal for boys in junior high and high school to fight and play around when they are at least young and passionate?"

"But for me, that's not allowed," I said. "I have to stay calm forever to assure them that I'm not sick."

Xu Zhinian touched my face distressedly, and murmured: "No wonder Mr. Jiang always looks so cold."

I smiled, took his hand and kissed it.

1289

Xu Zhinian said: "Emotions, anger, sorrow, and joy, aren't normal people's mood swings? No one is a robot without emotions. It is impossible to keep calm and impulsive forever. They are too embarrassing for Mr. Jiang!"

I said, "Maybe what they want is an heir who is always calm, never impulsive, and never makes mistakes."

But Xu Zhinian said: "But if you keep suppressing your emotions like this, won't it rebound more violently and become more difficult to control when it finally explodes?"

I looked at him for a while and said, "Maybe on that day, I will be completely crazy like my mother."

1290

If there is such a day, I don't think they will feel that there is anything wrong with them.

They just think-

"Sure enough, he is sick just like his mother."

"The disguise was so good before, but in the end it was still crazy."

"I said earlier that a lunatic should not be allowed to manage the company."

1291

Xu Zhinian shivered, and said, "There won't be such a day."

I didn't take it seriously, and responded with a smile: "Yeah."

But he raised his head, looked at me seriously, and said, "With me here, Mr. Jiang will never have such a day."

I froze, not knowing what emotions I was feeling.

In the end, I just lowered my eyes and thought silently.

If there is such a day, I hope you will not be afraid of me.

1292

"Even if I've been doing well for so many years, they still can't dispel their doubts in their hearts," I said. "When I was about to take over as CEO of the company, the doubts about me reached their peak."

Xu Zhinian asked: "Why?"

I touched his head and said, "Some people don't want me to inherit the company, so they find various excuses to stop me; some people are really afraid that I will go crazy one day. Of course, they all have the same caliber, Said that the future of the company cannot be handed over to a lunatic."

Xu Zhinian said: "But this is something that hasn't happened yet, and it can't be a reason to attack you at all."

I said lightly: "So isn't there a living example in front of you?"

1293

Xu Zhinian didn't react for a while.

After a while, he figured it out, looked at me with wide eyes, and said hesitantly, "...is it your mother?"

I nodded.

1294

My mother is a living target at Jiang's house.

And when I was pushed to the top of the storm, she became the talk of everyone.

They discussed whether she had gone crazy again today, hurt someone, how much furniture she had smashed.

Some were spoken by the servants at home, and some were their own imaginations.

Every time she gets sick, she tells everyone.

I am the son of a madman.

1295

"Actually, it doesn't matter to me whether I inherit the company or not. I have the ability to make a name for myself in the business world." I said, "I don't care about the gossip about the Jiang family, because my grandpa , my uncle, and other people in the company know that they will suffer the most when I leave the company."

Xu Zhinian said: "Mr. Jiang has always been so powerful."

"But my dad..." I sneered, "He said he spent countless efforts and energy to train me, and he couldn't watch me fall short, so he asked my mother to talk to her when she was normal."

Xu Zhinian asked: "What did he say?"

I said coldly: "I don't know the specific content, but I think it's nothing more than that. I feel that my mother's life in this world is a drag on me, saying that she made me unable to inherit the Jiang family's property. What he said In fact, there is no basis at all. At that time, grandpa had already tried his best to hand over the company to me."

"But my mother...she doesn't understand anything, and she believes my father's words."

"When I went back that night, she killed herself."

1296

Xu Zhinian opened his mouth, but didn't say anything, he could only say "ah" in the end.

I laughed at myself and said, "She thinks she has dragged me down and become an indelible stain on my life history. As long as she lives, everyone will see me as the son of a lunatic, afraid that I will eventually become Same with her. It's only when she's dead that the incident will gradually be forgotten."

"But..." Xu Zhinian thought for a long time, but couldn't say anything to refute.

1297

My mother is the youngest daughter of the Wei family. She was doted on by my grandfather and Wei Shisheng since she was a child.

It was obviously a political marriage, but she still had unreasonable expectations for my dad, thinking that he would be a good husband and father.

But my dad didn't stick to either of these two points.

1298

After I was born, my dad resumed his nature of lingering in the flowers and drinking.

My mother secretly ran back to Wei's house and cried several times because of this. At that time, the situation of Wei's house was not very good. Wei Shisheng came to Jiang's house to make trouble a few times. other role.

1299

Grandpa once asked my mother that since life in Jiang's family is so unsatisfactory, she can choose to divorce.

After all, there is already me, a child with two bloodlines, so it doesn't matter whether this marriage continues or not.

My mother thought for a long time, but still refused, she said she was worried about leaving me in Jiang's house.

1300

My dad is an unreliable person, so she put the rest of her life on me.

She hopes that I can inherit the Jiang family and that I can live well.

This seemed to be her only hope of living in this world.

So after my dad told her that she had become my hindrance, she chose to die without hesitation.

1301

But she never asked my wishes, never thought about whether I would accept it or not.

I would rather she divorced gracefully back then and pursued her own happiness.

Instead of letting myself go crazy in Jiang's house and die in Jiang's house.

It's also called it for my own good.

1301

I said coldly: "Wei Shisheng has always hated the Jiang family because of this, and also hated me."

Xu Zhinian said in a low voice, "But...you can't blame Mr. Jiang for this."

I put my hand on the back of his neck and said, "Not everyone thinks like you."

1302

My hands were cold, and when I touched his skin, I got goosebumps.

"Mr. Jiang." Xu Zhinian asked me suddenly, "You have been like this since you were a child, did you restrain yourself and not let yourself get out of control?"

I nodded and asked him, "What's wrong?"

He looked at me for a while, then suddenly turned up and kissed me on the forehead.

1303

I reached out and hugged him, and he pressed my hand and said, "Don't move."

I looked at him inexplicably.

He whispered: "Mr. Jiang, you don't do anything now, let me do it."

I asked, "What are you going to do?"

He smiled at me, then leaned into my ear and said, "I want Mr. Jiang to know that losing control is a normal feeling that everyone can experience."

作者有话要说：感谢在2019-12-1322:56:58~2019-12-1422:16:09期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw the mines: Muji, Xingyue, and Xiuming. 1;

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