white sparrow

Lu Lin'an's house was full of quarrels, and Lin's mother almost smashed everything in the house that could be dropped. Mu Mian was scared by Lin's mother and hid on the second floor, whimpering. She collapsed, but did not dare to use too much force, and was pushed away by Lin's mother who was in anger. Lu Lin'an, who was not standing still, sat on the ground with an unsteady center of gravity, and pressed his palm directly on the broken plate, heartbroken. The pain made him let out a low cry, and the fragments pierced into the palm of his hand, bright red blood gushing out, flowing and spreading in the palm, staining the cracked white tiles red.

Mother Lin, who had already suffered a wave of blows, turned around and screamed in horror at the tragic situation in Lu Linan's hands. She quickly bent down to see Lu Linan's injury but was afraid of hurting him. Neng limp and trembling and crying on the spot, at a loss, forgot even the emergency treatment.

Mama Lin is a lady from a great family, and Lu Linan has never seen her trembling like this before, and Lu Linan doesn't know what to say to comfort her. Everything she says now is nonsense that doesn't hurt her back while standing up, so she can only brush it off for her. He opened the fragments on the ground and let her lean on his shoulders, trying to dissolve the anger that was tormenting her.

"It's okay, mom, it's okay." Lu Lin'an frowned and held his right hand, which was so painful that he almost lost consciousness, and gently comforted the crying mother Lin who was buried on his shoulder with her uninjured right hand. Mother Lin's tears wetted him shoulders.

During this period, Dad Lu had been standing at the door. It was already dark, and only the voice-activated lights in the yard would light up because of the noise made by his wife smashing things wildly in the house. It didn't work, so I could only walk back and forth anxiously at the door of the house. After a while, the angry sound in the room finally disappeared with a scream.

The door finally opened, and when Papa Lu finally made up his mind to go in and see what happened, it was not Mama Lin, but Lu Linan who came out. His expression could not be seen clearly under the dim light, and he could only hear his exhausted voice. The voice said: "Dad, go outside and talk, don't be at the door of the house."

Father and son walked on the old and familiar street two by one, Lu Lin'an walked forward silently with his hands in his pockets, and Lu's father who followed behind found that he could not keep up with Lu Lin'an's pace. Sitting in the corner of the open fast food restaurant, Lu Linan was silent all the way, showing no signs of happiness or anger, and even his father couldn't figure out his thoughts.

Before the coffee was served, Father Lu spoke first. He still wanted to save this marriage, but he was still reluctant to part with his family.

"I'm sorry son, but it's not easy for dad. When I was with your mother, they all said that I was soft food. Later, my father became rich. You and mother have been unwilling to move to the city to live with dad. Dad has never been alone. The family valued ... I was so lonely out there."

"An'an, you don't need to complain to your mother Lin. You should know that no one can replace you and my mother in my heart."

Papa Lu spoke intermittently because of his excitement. Compared with his panic, Lu Linan sitting opposite was too calm, so calm that Papa Lu felt terrified.He guessed that Lu Lin'an might accuse him angrily, shake his head in disappointment, and even comfort himself, but he didn't expect that he would laugh after listening to him.

This was the first time Father Lu saw a mocking smile appear on his gentle and easy-going son's face.

"Dad, do you know what you're talking about? Can't you even admit your mistake?" Lu Lin'an didn't look at his father any more, and stood up while holding the table, as if he felt that there was no need to stay any longer.

"I'll take care of Mother Lin next, so go back."

Lu Linan walked so resolutely that Lu's father didn't even have the courage to call him to stop him. As early as in the time he was missing, his children became taller, more handsome and more responsible than him, and gradually became alienated from him, pushing The child's growing years also took away the remaining arrogance of his father when he was young. As a father, the man suddenly realized that he was old, and the years of unwillingness to admit defeat he cared about disappeared. Self-esteem has become meaningless.

This boy who has a face similar to his own has nothing to do with him.

For the next few days, Papa Lu has been wandering around the house, as if he still wanted to attack Mama Lin, but Mama Lin was out of sight and out of mind, and left for her relatives' house to relax, leaving Papa Lu no chance.

Lu Lin'an, who stayed at home, was annoyed by his father's repeated actions several times, and slammed the door of the house in front of his father, blocking all the things his father wanted to do to stay out of the door.

There is a lot of trouble, and you still have to continue studying. Lu Linan's performance in school is the same as usual, but a few friends who have played with him since he was a child have heard some clues from the rumors. The boy didn't know how to comfort Lu Lin'an, so he could only raise his fist to warn some people to stop gossiping about other people's family.

"Brother An, are you coming out to play tonight?" Wang Yifan patted Lu Lin'an on the shoulder, and after seeing him nodding, he breathed a sigh of relief, "Shall we treat you to a barbecue?"

He said that he was invited to a barbecue, but Lu Linan didn't eat much. Most of the time he was holding a wine glass, listening to his friends chatting in silence, and occasionally smiling and echoing his friend's harmless jokes. The bottle was empty, and finally my friend realized that Lu Linan had drunk a little too much.

His movements became much slower, his eyes were misty, and the people who talked to him were like goldfish blowing bubbles at him, and he could only see their mouths moving non-stop. He answered other people's questions in a nonchalant manner, but he was not as patient as usual. It seemed that he was tired of being asked, and he was not happy to talk anymore. They got a lot, and they couldn't move Lu Lin'an, who was drunk and turned into a pool of mud, who was a head taller than them.

He slapped away all the hands that reached out, and patiently told everyone that he didn't want to go home now.

Lu Lin'an didn't know how long he lay on the table until a pair of cold hands rested on his bare neck, dragging his wandering thoughts back to reality from the chaos.

Bai Que, who was supposed to be at the piano store, was actually sitting beside him. He was wearing a dark down jacket, and his expression was still the same cold expression that Lu Linan was familiar with. It was so familiar that Lu Linan couldn't tell where he was at that moment. .He was so drunk that he couldn't figure out why. He could only see the white bird holding the wine glass he just had in his hand. His brain soaked in alcohol was as highly delayed as a computer that had been used for several years. The white bird was fast. He drank the wine in the glass into his mouth before he reacted and reached out to snatch the glass away.

"You don't want to drink, and you don't know how to drink." Lu Linan crumpled the disposable cup in his hand and threw it into the trash can at his feet.He was talking with a bit of a tongue, so he could only bite his tongue to make his words clearer.

"Then I'll go home and drink later." Bai Que looked at Lu Lin'an frowning with some amusement, looking childish, imitating his tone and saying the same childish things to tease him.

"You can't drink, you don't know how to drink, you will throw up if you drink too much, I'm afraid you can't help but run to the street to take off your clothes, the more serious people on the surface, the more drunk they are..."

"Haha, you're dreaming," Baique sneered twice and interrupted his unconstrained nonsense. Lu Linan frowned. It was rare for Baique to see him look so serious. I don't know if I was drunk and talking nonsense, or I was joking with the white sparrow when I was sober.

Bai Que stood up and looked at Lu Lin'an condescendingly: "I'm going back to drink."

"No, you are not allowed to drink." After Lu Linan finished speaking, he leaned over and threw himself on the white bird, almost pushing the white bird to the ground.

"If you can't walk by yourself, I'll throw you on the side of the road," Bai Que struggled to help Lu Lin'an, who was a little shaky when he stood up, blocked his hands that wanted to circle him, and glared at the aggrieved man. Lu Lin'an, "Don't stick to me so tightly, do you know how much alcohol you smell like?"

"Don't push me...I'm too drunk to walk." Lu Lin'an hugged Bai Que and refused to let go, pretending to whimper twice, until Bai Que gave up and pushed him away with a dark face.

After finally finding a car willing to take Lu Linan, a drunk, Bai Que and the driver repeatedly promised not to vomit in his car. In fact, he was not sure, but Lu Linan was very honest during the few 10 minutes in the car. He remained motionless in the white bird's shoulder socket and persisted until he got off the car before vomiting it out.

Lu Lin'an's stomach was overwhelmed, so he let go of the hand that hugged the white bird, and also blocked the hand that the white bird extended.

The cold wind was blowing hard on the road, and he was woken up three points by the blowing. After returning home, he was not as obedient as before. He rubbed his nose against his face and asked him to sit obediently on the sofa in the living room instead of standing; stand for him He took a change of clothes and didn't want to change, he thought it was too small; he told him to take a bath quickly, halfway through the wash, he poked his head out of the bathroom door and said that the water was so cold, he went in resignedly and adjusted the switches of the bathroom heater.

Bai Que lost all temper after tossing about Lu Lin'an, took a hasty bath, and when he came out, Lu Lin'an was no longer in the living room.

"Why don't you turn on the light." Bai Que walked into the bedroom, but he didn't turn on the light, and walked forward in the dark. Lu Lin'an really nestled on his bed. He was too big, but the bed was too small, curled up on the bed It looked a little pitiful.

The white bird squatted halfway on the bed, turned on the small bedside lamp, and found that Lu Linan was not sleeping when he turned it on. He was stimulated by the sudden light, and he frowned and stretched out his hands to rub the sore and stinging eyes. Gently put your hands over his eyes, blocking the light for him.

"Don't take your hands away, okay?"

"it is good."

Bai Que is used to Lu Linan's lazy and undisciplined tone, to the way he smiles with his chin propped, and to his ability to handle everything with ease.Even if he was beaten and cried by his mother Lin when he dismantled the piano when he was a child, his sadness is as fragile as a bubble, short and insignificant, not the sad and long-lasting one that is difficult to isolate at this moment.

Lu Lin'an's voice was filled with imperceptible cries, and Bai Que unexpectedly felt some liquid wet his palm.Even if two people grew up together and have seen each other too much, it is rare to share each other's downfall.

"If Ms. Lin hadn't chosen to move here with Dad to take care of me, the two might not have divorced." It's not that Lu Lin'an didn't listen carefully to what Dad Lu said at the beginning. Can't help but think about it.

"Lu Lin'an, it's not your fault, don't blame yourself."

Bai Que's consolation was simple but very effective for Lu Lin'an. He stretched out his hand to cover Bai Que's hand, fell silent for a while, stretched out a hand and fumbled to turn off the small lamp at the bedside, and hugged Bai Que in the darkness , pulled the white bird into the quilt, and buried his head in his arms like when he was a child, the heart of the white bird was deafening.

The fluffy head rubbed against the white bird, and it wanted to adjust its position, but it couldn't move because it was hugged too tightly.

"Lu Lin'an, if we have to separate, can you not blame yourself?" Bai Que rubbed Lu Lin'an's hair and whispered.

"Why did we separate? Where are you going?" Lu Lin'an arched into Bai Que's arms again, obviously the two of them were already sweating because they were too close together.

"If so." Bai Que helplessly pressed his chin on Lu Lin'an, so that he could feel his own weight.

"We won't be separated." Baique's hypothesis stimulated Lu Linan's nerves, but he couldn't keep him awake. He was so drunk that he couldn't tell the truth of Baique's words, and he just murmured that we would not The words of separation finally fell into a deep sleep, driving away all the noise and disturbance from the dream.

Lu Lin'an woke up from a grotesque dream. The moment he opened his eyes, the overwhelming light flooded everything he could see like a torrent of water. When he touched his side, the white sparrow was not by his side.

He doesn't quite remember what happened last night. Judging from the soreness of his eyes, it is estimated that something happened last night that made him want to use amnesia to escape.

He pressed his temples, trying to relieve the pain from the hangover, but it was useless, so he retracted his hands under the covers and gave up struggling. After a while, he was numb.

He didn't want to get up, he was a little greedy for the temperature in the bed, but his stomach had already started to growl, unable to hold back his stomach, Lu Lin'an tremblingly got up from the bed.

Wrapped in his coat, he leaned against the door frame of the bedroom and called out the name of the white bird towards the living room.

With a soul-like voice, Lu Linan called Bai Que out of the kitchen.

"Why are you here?" Lu Lin'an looked at Bai Que in a daze, and asked without thinking.

"Did you wake up from the dream? This is my house." Bai Que answered him angrily, Lu Lin'an's slow-paced dull appearance looked no different from drinking too much last night.

"Aren't you supposed to be in the piano store?"

"I asked for two days off from the piano shop. Your friend called me and said that you spent most of the night messing around at other people's barbecue stalls, and asked me to come over and take you home." Bai Que said while chasing Lu Lin'an away. It's almost noon now, and he has to go back to the piano store in the afternoon.

Bai Que bought new towels and toothbrushes for Lu Linan, and put them on the sink. The mirror with a crack in it showed his decadent and haggard appearance. It's really scary to go up.

After Lu Lin'an washed up, he managed to pull himself together. Bai Que sat at the dining table reading a book, and there was a bowl of steaming white porridge next to him.

"This can't be the rice from last time, right?" Lu Lin'an sat obediently by the table, recalling the miserable scene of bugs crawling around when he opened the rice bag, he scooped up the porridge sluggishly and refused to put it into his mouth.

"I bought it downstairs."

"I am very touched."

"Shut up and drink."

After Lu Linan let out an oh, he finished the bowl of porridge slowly. After eating a bowl, he didn't feel full at all, but at least his stomach didn't feel so uncomfortable.

"Go home after eating." Seeing that the last bite was swallowed by Lu Linan, the white sparrow started to chase away people. Lu Linan regretted not eating more slowly.

I found several excuses to stay at Baique's house, but they were all denied by Baique one by one. Lu Lin'an, who was extremely reluctant to give up, turned his head every three steps. He had already reached the door and turned back to Baique, pulling him into his arms. inside.

"I miss you so much."

"Understood." Bai Que pampered Lu Lin'an again, and his non-negotiable tone softened a bit, and he patted Lu Lin'an's back hard, so that all the depression accumulated in Lu Lin'an's heart these days disappeared at this moment.