Refraction

Cheng Shen typed in the pronunciation, and the input method automatically associated the noun "Chen Qingye", and searched for this model.

——Single eyelid.So do I.

——Big and tall.So do I.

——A body of muscles has been sculpted beautifully after professional training.I also... almost.

He's so handsome! ——Cheng Shen turned off the webpage, and ran to the side to do a few sets of belly crunches.

Cheng Shen was a little annoyed that he cared so much about Yao Jiaren; annoyed that he was indulging in the game of "no substitution of feelings".

Chen Gong said that since he agreed, he must abide by the rules and not cross the line, otherwise he will be out.

Cheng Shen didn't want to be out yet.

Cheng Shen is not a person who does not follow the rules, he is well versed in the rules.

At the beginning, joining HALO was a shortcut given by Chen Gong, so after joining the job, he automatically became Chen Gong's confidant; even if a director Zheng Yizheng came to make things difficult for Chen Gong every day, Cheng Shen respected him and still followed Chen Gong loyally. .

Later, when Chen Gong fell in love with Zheng Yi, Cheng Shen automatically reserved a place for Zheng Yi on the guardian bench.

Cheng Shen once thought that the rules of human relations were not difficult to understand.

But Yao Jiaren was really hard to understand.

On the day Yao Jiaren joined the job, Chen Gong asked Cheng Shen to come to the appointment, saying he wanted him to "bring this newcomer".

Yao Jiaren drank some wine that day, and Chen Gong asked Cheng Shen to take him home.In the taxi, Yao Jiaren vomited.

When getting off the bus, Cheng Shen paid the driver a hundred more, and took the initiative to help Yao Jiaren to take him upstairs, but Yao Jiaren refused with a smile: "It's okay, I didn't drink too much—I used to blow a bottle of foreign wine with clients. won't get drunk."

Cheng Shen thought that you vomited like this, that you were not drunk?So he didn't let go of Yao Jiaren's hand.

Yao Jiaren was weak and couldn't break free: "I'm really not drunk."

Cheng Shen coaxed her like a child: "It's okay, I'm not drunk. Brother Chen asked me to take care of you——I'll take you upstairs."

Yao Jiaren looked at Cheng Shen's straightforward appearance of "carrying out the boss's orders to the end", and couldn't help but smile wryly: "You are so difficult."

After finishing speaking, he vomited again—to Cheng Shen.

During dinner, Yao Jiaren didn't eat a few mouthfuls, his stomach was full of wine; he spit on Cheng Shen's trousers, smeared inside, and felt cold for a while.

This time, Yao Jiaren didn't resist Cheng Shen's "send you home", and led Cheng Shen into the door awkwardly.Yao Jiaren went to the bathroom first and continued to vomit, and when he came out after brushing his teeth, he was no longer as embarrassed as before.

While waiting, Cheng Shen wiped the surface of his trousers with a tissue from Yao Jiaren's house.But the feeling of vomit seeping into the pants and touching the skin is still very uncomfortable.With Yao Jiaren's permission, Cheng Shen took a shower in the bathroom.

Yao Jia's bathroom door was unlocked, and when Cheng Shen was taking a shower, Yao Jia came in once and took Cheng Shen's pants out to clean them up.

When Cheng Shen came out of the shower, Yao Jiaren had washed his pants and was drying them.

It takes less than 10 minutes to dry and then dry, and two people are sitting in front of the washing machine and waiting.Because the bottom of his trousers was also dirty, Cheng Shen was only covered with a bath towel given by Yao Jiaren, so he didn't feel embarrassed about it.

Yao Jiaren handed Cheng Shen the cigarette case and lighter, "I almost washed the cigarettes in your pants..."

Cheng Shen took it and took one out of it: "Can I smoke? ——It's at your house."

"Yes." Yao Jiaren agreed, and when Cheng Shen lit the cigarette, Yao Jiaren reached out and picked it up with the cigarette in his mouth: "Light another one, give this one to me—can you teach me to smoke? "

Yao Jiaren didn't seem to find this action ambiguous; Cheng Shen was taken aback by him, "Why are you learning this?"

"I heard that this can relieve stress—then why did you learn it?"

"I..." Cheng Shen said frankly, "I was young and wanted to pretend to be an adult, so I learned to pretend to be imposing."

This made Yao Jiaren laugh.

After trying to take a sip, Yao Jiaren didn't feel any pleasure, so he extinguished the cigarette: "Listen to me early and you won't be disgusted by me—I vomited all over you in the end."

"It's nothing disgusting... It's just like this when I drink too much, and I'll throw up too." Cheng Shen said so while puffing out a cigarette—for fear of Yao Jia's embarrassment.

Yao Jiaren shook his head and smiled: "I really didn't drink much... Vomiting is a side effect of my medicine."

Yao Jiaren's smile only has a layer of charm on the outside, and it seems that there is a deep and dense secret hidden beneath it—Cheng Shen frowned: "What medicine?"

"Lithium carbonate, a psychotropic drug—oh, my emotional management was once a little out of balance."

"what happened?"

"My relationship has been frustrated..." After Yao Jiaren finished speaking, he laughed at himself.

Cheng Shen asked repeatedly: "What's wrong?"

"Are you curious?"

"Ah."

"Sure enough, it's a child..." Yao Jiaren's elder Cheng Shen was one year old—I had just chatted about this information during the dinner.

Cheng Shen was dissatisfied with Yao Jiaren's words: "It doesn't mean I'm naive—you say it."

Yao Jiaren was quiet for a while, then raised his head and asked Cheng Shen, "Am I good-looking?"

Cheng Shen's pants were being spin-dried in the washing machine, and it made a continuous noise - but on the contrary, it made the air between the two of them quieter.

"Looks good." Cheng Shen answered Yao Jiaren's question, blushing a little because he felt puzzled: "Like a girl—it doesn't mean anything else, 'girl' means good-looking..."

Yao Jiaren didn't look like a girl before—not to mention her temperament, at least she didn't look like a girl.

He flipped through the phone album and found old photos for Cheng Shen to show - the boy in the picture was lazily lying on the table and smiling at the camera, the desk lamp illuminated the soft hair at the edges into golden threads, like a docile little animal .

At that time, Yao Jiaren's image was very different from what it is now - there is no decoration or aura, just a kind boy.

So I was also liked by girls.

At the end of the first year of working in that company after graduation, a girl who looked very similar to Huang Jiaojiao came to the company—"That's...that intern I met on the first day I came to HALO, who was torturing Deputy Supervisor Chen. Do you remember? ?”

That girl likes Yao Jiaren.

"Of course I didn't see it... I was too big-hearted, it was my fault..."

Whenever Yao Jiaren encountered the kindness shown by that girl, he would just think that she was a nice person.That girl doesn't have any other friends in the company, so every time she invites Yao Jiaren to hang out with her, Yao Jiaren always agrees.

One day the girl said she was in a bad mood, and asked Yao Jiaren if she could accompany her to sing K: "Just the two of us..."

Yao Jiaren said yes, "Don't be sad, I'll accompany you for a drink."

That girl drank a little too much that day and sang songs to vent her emotions.At the happiest moment, she took off her shirt and only wore a bra, clinging to Yao Jiaren, crying and laughing, asking Yao Jiaren to hug her.

Everyone from Yao Jia said ok——"Because she said she was suffering and wanted me to comfort her..."

"But I told her early in the morning that I came to work in this company because I had a crush on the boss of our company—so I never thought: she has feelings for me..."

When the girl was hugging Yao Jiaren, she took out her phone and chose a cat ear special effect, and wanted to take a group photo; Yao Jiaren agreed.

After playing until after ten o'clock in the evening, the two of them sang until their voices became hoarse. After they came out of the KTV, the girl suddenly proposed to have a room.

Yao Jiaren disagreed: "Oh, you really drank too much... I'll take you home!"

The girl confessed to Yao Jiaren, which scared Yao Jiaren.

After taking a taxi to take her home, Yao Jiaren went back to his home.

That girl sent a message at night: "I drank too much... forget everything."

Yao Jiaren joked, "What's the matter? Why can't I remember anything? Are you referring to singing out of tune?"

The girl replied Yao Jiaren with an emoji of [smiling].Yao Jiaren thought this was a tacit agreement between them—"Keep silent."

But when Yao Jiaren went to work on Monday, he noticed that everything was different from before when he went to the company.

"Did she talk nonsense to others?"

Yao Jiaren nodded, looking at Cheng Shen who was listening to the story engrossed and frowning worried for him, Yao Jiaren thought this young man was cute for a moment: "It's all your fault, otherwise I don't want to tell anyone else about these things. listen..."

"I'll keep it a secret for you." Cheng Shen tapped his chest.

She distributed the photos to everyone; and everyone subconsciously felt that she was a victim...

Once Yao Jiaren asked the girl, "Why are you spreading rumors?"

The girl sneered: "Because it's disgusting, because I want to slap a fly to death when I see it."

Yao Jiaren endured another three months in the pile of spittle stars.

Yao Jiaren's hair has been grown since then—trying to get closer to a feminine appearance seems to be the only way to avoid being maliciously speculated.

One day Yao Jiaren was cutting fruit for himself at home, and when the fruit knife fell to the ground, Yao Jiaren suddenly became angry.At that moment, Yao Jiaren had an irresistible urge to cut off his own organs—"Isn't it ridiculous? I don't know who to take revenge on, so I thought of taking revenge on myself..."

At that time, Yao Jiaren was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

Cheng Shen was visibly furious, with a cigarette in his left hand, and his right hand restlessly pinching his temporal bone: "What the hell...how did you endure it!"

Yao Jiaren reached out and patted Cheng Shen's knee to comfort his impatience: "Don't forget, because I have someone I like there..."

The rumors got bigger and bigger, and one day Yao Jiaren was called into the office by the boss: "She said you harassed her."

Yao Jiaren was terrified at the time: "I don't have one..."

The boss turned out the group photo and showed it to Yao Jiaren: "Irrefutable evidence."

Cheng Shen interrupted: "This boss—is that the 'boss' you have a crush on?"

Yao Jiaren nodded, watched Cheng Shen refill his second cigarette, and smiled: "Yes—his name is Xie Yuan. He's a man."

Cheng Shen choked, and tried his best to pretend calm: "Oh."

In order to prove her innocence, Yao Jiaren was forced to confess to the man she had a crush on that day: "Maybe you don't believe it—but when I faced her, I never had any wrong thoughts; because I am not straight, I like you."

The boss was terrified.

And Yao Jiaren also felt that he had explained enough, so he walked out of the boss's office and returned to his desk to work.

But this explanation itself is wrapped in another "gossip", so the rumors in the company gradually become "Yao Jia can take all men and women, and now he wants to hook up with the boss"...

"Why don't you resign?"

"I'm not as straightforward as you——I like Xie Yuan, and I'm even immersed in a kind of absurd 'self-movement': because I love you, I can bear the spurning of so many people."

Cheng Shen felt worthless for Yao Jiaren: "But does he love you? What has he done for you to make it worth your staying in that company?"

"Since I confessed my love to Xie Yuan, he will send me a 'good night' every day before going to bed..."

"that's it?"

"that's it."

But this is enough.

Yao Jiaren has secretly liked many people since he was a child—he enjoys the feeling of secretly liking, never fights or confesses, and just waits; when the other party leaves, Yao Jiaren stands up and pats the soil, changing love next.

Yao Jiaren doesn't have much guts, but it's not that she doesn't want to be loved.

One day Xie Yuan stayed with Yao Jiaren to work overtime, but did not arrange work for Yao Jiaren.

After everyone left, Xie Yuan asked Yao Jiaren to go play, saying that he would take Yao Jiaren to relax.

He drove Yao Jiaren to the suburbs, stopped on the side road to look at the empty farmland, Xie Yuan asked: Do you like me?

Yes, I like it.

Xie Yuan said that he has never dated a boy before, maybe he can try it for you - "Because you are good-looking."

Cheng Shen looked at Yao Jiaren's face, listening intently—it was pretty, like a star.

Yao Jiaren adjusted the drying scale: "I'm not defensive...I'm too cautious, it's my fault..."

Yao Jiaren said this sentence just now, and Cheng Shen's back was sweating: "He... what happened to you?"

Yao Jiaren was too scared during that time, so someone stretched out a life-saving straw, and Yao Jiaren wanted to grab it.

Knowing the meaning behind Xie Yuan's words, Yao Jiaren unbuckled his seat belt and moved closer to kiss him.

But Xie Yuan avoided Yao Jiaren's mouth, he said that he couldn't accept this for the time being - why don't you try somewhere else?

Yao Jiaren knew what Xie Yuan wanted.

"I just kissed all the way down... just want to please him."

Cheng Shen was terrified when he heard it—he had never seen such a scene after living for so long.

The blood was rushing through his body, causing Cheng Shen's body temperature to rise a bit.At this juncture, Cheng Shen suddenly remembered Yao Jiaren's embarrassment when he vomited just now—wondering when he did that thing, would he also want to vomit in pain?

At that time, Yao Jiaren was busy pleasing Xie Yuan, but he didn't know that he also took a photo...

"Charm can conquer the same sex - for him it is a capital to show off. So another photo of me was circulated among the men in the company... I just made myself a dirty thing..."

Cheng Shen couldn't hear it, and there was a pile of cigarette butts by his side.

"After falling down twice, I left there in despair—in fact, if I tell you in detail, I also feel disgusted."

"It's not you who is disgusting..." Cheng Shen didn't want Yao Jiaren to fall into the dark past again.

Yao Jiaren's eyes turned red, he was silent for a long time, then raised his head: "Please apologize to me."

"Me?... What's wrong..." Cheng Shen was puzzled.

Yao Jiaren also felt that his request was ridiculous, so he leaned closer to Cheng Shen to look at it for a while, then lowered his head and said, "I was eating just now, when you came in, I saw you through the beer glass - from a distance, I thought it was him..."

It's so similar, let me listen to his apology through your skin.

"Oh..." Cheng Shen was a little embarrassed and avoided Yao Jiaren's sight.The dryer is already counting down, and the pants will be ready to wear soon... Will Yao Jiaren cry when he is gone and only Yao Jiaren is left?

So Cheng Shen raised his head, looked at Yao Jiaren closely, and said, "I'm sorry."

Accidentally fit.

Yao Jiaren stared at Cheng Shen in a daze for a long time, and when Cheng Shen finished smoking the cigarette, Yao Jiaren suddenly kissed Cheng Shen's mouth.

The smoke didn't have time to pass through the lungs, it just circled around the nasal cavity and diffused away in a sudden kiss.

Cheng Shen broke a thread in his brain - he didn't resist, and let him beg for salvation from the corner of his mouth.