Refraction

Chen Gong's style of handling affairs has always been vigorous and vigorous, so he made an appointment for the next day after get off work, and went to his friend's studio with Cheng Shen.

"I really like him, but I don't intend to fall in love with him." —— Chen Gong said so.

Cheng Shen thought simply: "But Supervisor Zheng is not straight! Brother Chen, you are also in good condition. If you want to chase after him, there must be something for you—or does it mean that he already has a partner?"

"He didn't."

Program solution idea: "If you don't have one, go after him! ——If you don't chase after him, why would you get the same tattoo as him?"

Chen Gong was taken aback by Cheng Shen's question and couldn't think of an answer, so he didn't answer this honest young man again.

Lying there, listening to the buzzing of the tattoo machine, and feeling the tiny pains in his lower abdomen, Chen Gong felt ridiculous.

There is a movie, I forgot what it was called, Chen Gong only remembers a small supporting role in it - a little hooligan with a bad mind, his love life is bumpy, but he is enthusiastic all the way.Every time he falls in love with a girl, he has to tattoo her name on his back; so that the tattoo artist has to work hard to design a new pattern for him every time, so that the latter one will cover the previous one.

The point of the joke is that the little hooligan's love life is really not going well. After changing lovers seven or eight times, the name on the back has become huge.

The close-up scene drew laughter, and Chen Gong laughed too—Chen Gong was mocking.

When I was a teenager, I loved passionately and clumsily, and I always felt that romance was "imprinting you in my soul".But because of clumsiness, the price of falling out of love is like a snowball, getting bigger and bigger.

Feeling sad again, Chen Gong felt that he was just like himself and deserved it.

At several junctures, Chen Gong couldn't resist the buzzing voice in his head (probably the cry of the readers of "Refraction" penetrating the dimension)... There was an urge to say to Zheng Yi: together Bar!

But this kind of impulse often sprouts abruptly and ends quickly.

The little girl in the department secretly labeled Chen Gong—[Director of Abstinence Department]. Chen Gong knew what it meant, so he laughed it off.

Traveling through the dark concrete forest to survive, who has never been chased to a tight corner by loneliness?Who has not bred a sliver of desire and anticipation out of fear?

The so-called "abstinence" is not born, it is just a failure of life, and it has been sharpened into an accidental person with indifferent eyes.

Later, every time Xiao En knocked on the door of Chen Gong's house, and Chen Gong opened his cardigan to hide his emotions to accept him, it was also because he was "used to it".

It is too difficult to understand this feeling without going through it in person: you have been waiting for him for so long, and you have been with him for so long... Even if there is only hatred left in the final separation, there is no one in this world who understands you better than him people.

Occasionally, there will be a day when the sky light penetrates into the dark room through the gap of the window frame, and you will feel a wave of emotion, and you will tell yourself to go out and find a new person.When you open the door, you will untimely think about the long running-in in the previous period, and you will feel pain again... You don't know whether it is worth it to go out to meet someone again, and let yourself sharpen yourself... Remember the sense of fear left to you in the last paragraph, just remember the edges and corners you swiped a knife to file against yourself in order to fit in with him, just remember that every inch of strength...is still clearly discernible now.

A failed love will destroy most of your self-esteem.

You don't know if the next game will destroy your whole being.

Towards the end of that movie, the tattooist refuses to do any more, telling the little rascal, "It's time to love yourself."

The little hooligan was stunned for a long time, and finally agreed to the tattoo artist's proposal to "get a tattoo of your own name".

The last tattoo was the biggest and the most painful, so the little hooligan lay there crying sobbing.

Since then, the hooligan is no longer young; he is still wandering in the field of love, but he has never seen his enthusiasm again.

Yao Jiaren once said to Chen Gong - "When you get along with a person, you have to be like him - just like a mirror, you have to reflect all the light back."

Chen Gong is also well aware of this truth - if Zheng Yi is not serious, then he cannot be serious either.

Putting on the mask of "just for fun", Chen Gong presumptuously can give back to Zheng Yi, and can also ask for something - if you are a dude, then I am a scumbag; "Forbidden Zone" - You and I are evenly matched after all, and the combat power and resources are equal to each other.

Even if a voice message "The hotel is ready to open" sounds on your mobile phone one day, I can nod and say to you easily-"Go and play, it has nothing to do with me."

In this way, he found a theoretical basis for his unknown tattoo behavior, and Chen Gong felt much more comfortable.

After applying the medicine and putting on a layer of plastic wrap, after listening to the tattoo artist explain the precautions, the job is over.

Tattoos are wounds that scab over and then slowly fall off.During this period, it is not allowed to buckle by hand, there is a risk of infection, and it will also affect the final coloring and molding.

Unfortunately, Chen Gong's lower abdomen grows from under the navel...he has a hair that is not thick but not light either.For the tattoo, Chen Gong shaved it off, but the first two days were fine, and on the third day when the hair regrows back some fine stubbles, Chen Gong was scratched so hard that he wanted to die...

Knowing that this was a temporary decision made by his superiors, it had nothing to do with Zheng Yi.But Zheng Yi couldn't help but bear the emotional cost—he always treated him with a fierce face in recent days.

Now Zheng Yi is no longer against Chen Gong, and he is still coaxing Chen Gong with tea and water with a smiling face.

There was a slick-tongued little girl in the department who couldn't help gossip: "It's changed—— Supervisor Zheng, are you making amends? I've seen you bully Deputy Supervisor Chen before, what's going on now?"

"How can it be!" Zheng Yile replied, "This is called 'compassionate subordinates' - I let him work hard for me - you child, you don't understand, this is called the art of controlling people."

The children laughed together, grabbing Zheng Yi's words, gathered together to expand the meaning of "hard work" and chattered.

Seeing that Chen Gong's face was flushed by the discussion, Zheng Yi turned to disperse them: "Stop reading rubbish literature!"

In the past few days waiting for the scab to fall off, Chen Gong was cautious, and did not indulge Zheng Yi's shameless "game request"...Occasionally, when Zheng Yi was stuck in his car several times, Chen Gong would stop clicking, maybe he would cross the line.

This day Zheng Yi wanted to play more, Chen Gong "guarded his body like a jade" and pressed the hem of his clothes tightly not to give him a chance.

Boss Zheng Yi, a big man, acted coquettishly and awkwardly on the spot: "I don't do what you don't want to do, but I don't even give you a kiss? You... even if you just want to be with me...' Playmate', you are not qualified either!"

It's not that Chen Gong didn't want to give it, but he also became worried belatedly—the exclamation mark tattooed...at first glance, it seemed like a confession that was deeper than words.

Not knowing how to reply to Zheng Yi, Chen Gong took out a cigarette to relieve his stress.At this moment, the lighter failed, so he stretched out his hand and asked Zheng Yiyao, "Lend me a lighter."

Zheng Yi was still awkward: "Don't give it - if you can't smoke, you deserve to be suffocated!"

Chen Gong was also depressed, so he hit it a few times by himself--several times it failed, and once or twice a tiny flame burst out, and it went out on the cigarette butt before it had time.

After thinking about it, I decided to get out of the car and buy one, just to avoid the embarrassing atmosphere.Just as he was about to unbuckle his seat belt, Zheng grabbed him again.

Chen Gong looked at Zheng Yi, and he frowned and took away the cigarette in Chen Gong's mouth and squeezed it into his own mouth: "You take out another one yourself—give me the lighter, and I will teach you how to light it."

Chen Gong handed Zheng Yi an unusable lighter, wondering what Zheng Yi was up to: "One won't light up, and two of them won't work."

Zheng Yi stared at the lighter in the dim light of the parking lot for a long time, and shook it violently in his hand: "There is no more gas—you come." As he said, he took Chen Gong's head and put his cigarette butts together. In one place, forehead to forehead: "I, Zheng Yi, have lived for so many years, and I have never believed that there is no way;

From a very close distance, Chen Gong looked into Zheng Yi's eyes—he was focusing on the lighter in his hand, so his eyelids drooped slightly; It flowed with his slightly vibrating body cavity when he spoke.The eyelashes are thick and long... I don't know if he leans against his chest, it will make his heart itch when he opens his eyes.

Chen Gong couldn't help blushing when he thought about it, Zheng Yi also raised his eyelids to look at Chen Gong at this moment, he smiled: "This is a ceremony - I heard it when I was studying in Germany..."

Chen Gong lowered his eyes to avoid Zheng Yi's gaze, "Be quicker!"

"Matches should have been used for the ceremony—it's like a bet. The chances of a match being caught are higher than that of not being caught, but with this lighter, the chance of not being caught is less..." Zheng Yi instructed Chen Gong, "Avoid blowing out the fire with words, You tap the seat with your finger, three times, I will press the lighter..."

Instinctively resisting stupid little games, but Zheng Yi's eyes are captivating; so Chen Gong cooperated with his instructions and gently tapped the seat with his index finger: three, two, one.

A tiny flame the size of a bean lit up at the mouth of the lighter, and it wobbled, and was protected by Zheng Yi's hand, and it was placed on the cigarette holder that was in one place.

The two just lit a cigarette.

Zheng Yi sat back and put the lighter into his trouser pocket.

Chen Gong asked, "What kind of ceremony is this?"

"It's called the 'Guardian's Kiss'..." Zheng Yixiao: "It's a knight's oath of loyalty to a noble... Later it evolved into a man's oath of loyalty to a man."

Chen Gong snorted and laughed: "...what do you say?"

"The flame is God's will: if it goes out, then the two people's covenant is not successful; if it doesn't go out, it's a unilateral oath."

"What oath?"

"Ichhütete Sietreue—meaning 'loyal watch'..." Zheng Yipuffed a cigarette and explained to Chen Gong: "If the person who lit the fire betrays, he will suffer great evil."

Chen Gong was taken aback for a moment, "What are you doing with these wicked things?"

Zheng Yi didn't speak.So the car was quiet for a long time.

Chen Gong asked again, "What is evil retribution?"

Zheng Yi's affectionate second personality went offline, and his hippie smile resumed: "Are you wondering how I will die in the future?"

Chen Gong had flesh on his face, and he twitched visibly, but turned his head away to sneer: "...very curious!"

"Hey...then you have to give me this chance to prove it!"

He still took advantage of Chen Gong as always, but this time Chen Gong was stunned.

Zheng Yi's forehead was so hot, Chen Gong put out the cigarette and turned around: "If the day you confessed to me, I would have agreed to you immediately——what are you going to do?"

Zheng Yi recalled that oolong—he really hadn’t considered this question...but at this juncture, he couldn’t be honest. After thinking about it, Zheng Yi found an answer that wasn’t a lie: “I’ll start working hard to learn how to love You—after all, I say what I say!"

"Then..." Chen Gong really asked what he was interested in: "Where was Yang Yi at that time?"

"That matter, you think I'm confused... I'm not trying to be in two boats. The breakthrough point of this matter lies with you. I don't know how to explain it, but... you treat me as ignorant!" Zheng Yi also put out the cigarette: "When I haven't loved or been loved for a long time... I will be confused, and I will blindly expect love. At that time, he said he loved me, and I believed it——Chen Gong, in fact, I miss You have been with me for a long time...longer than you imagined; but at that time I didn't want to understand why I cared so much about you...you were indifferent to me, I was so angry that I jumped; I heard that you invaded... pestering others , I feel that I can't do this good thing; seeing you being... bullied, I want to protect you - you are handsome, I just see sex - don't think I'm superficial, feelings are so superficial; It's all like the ones in TV dramas, there are so many moving reasons... Hehe."

Chen Gong let out a sneer that was not so cold, "You're not in a good position to do this"—your three views, you will be scolded if you tell others!"

"Swear." Zheng Yi also smiled at Chen Gong, laughed for a while, then suddenly laughed awkwardly, and turned his head to the window.

Chen Gong knew that he seemed to be crying.

"I suddenly confessed my love to you that day... It's not all because of the fact that you caught me with the room card - no matter what pretense I make up for this matter, it's smarter than confessing!" Zheng Yi sniffed his nose, wiping the hot-blooded man in pain. Tears: "That day I saw you secretly sorting out your mother's household registration cancellation procedures - I know she is your only relative - I was very afraid of your loneliness and wanted to comfort you; but we are too far away, I Can't reach you...I want you to know that there is still someone who loves you - even your enemies."

Zheng Yi might have just cast a Gu - in that cluster of bean-sized flames.So much so that Chen Gong felt that the smoke he inhaled into his lungs was spreading throughout his body, causing even his mind to become confused.

After unfastening his seat belt, Chen Gong moved a little closer to Zheng Yi's side, and touched Zheng Yi's jaw to force him to turn his head.

Zheng Yi didn't wipe away his tears, and while looking at Chen Gong, he was still sniffling.

Chen Gong kissed Zheng Yi's eyes—it's so beautiful, the way his brows are pressed and weeping is so beautiful.

Zheng Yi was taken aback for a long time by Chen Gong's first proactive kiss.

Pursing Zheng Yi's salty tears on his lips, Chen Gong couldn't help frowning due to the unbridled scratching sensation in his lower abdomen, and pressed his finger on the scab through his clothes; Zheng Yi's eyesight sensitively caught this movement : "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"

Chen Gong didn't speak, but bit his lip and shook his head. After he restrained the itching, Chen Gong transferred the emotional cost to Zheng Yi again—a fierce offensive kiss, which made Zheng Yi overwhelmed.

Indulging in Zheng Yi's rapid breathing, Chen Gong thought: Otherwise, don't pursue this matter, just love him.

Love him even if he will destroy you in the end.

Love him when the scabs are gone.

The author has something to say:——Small Theater

After kissing the little mouth, Chen Gong said, "I want to smoke again..."

Zheng Yi touched his trouser pocket: "Hey, I have a big cigar here."

Chen Gong: "Happi, let me climb!"