Never give up

After leaving Jinlong Court, Jing Haisheng decided to leave the rental house and return to school.

He called Jing Li and said that he would not live anymore, Jing Li was a little surprised, silent for a while, and agreed.He didn't ask where Jing Li was, and Jing Li didn't say anything more.

After a whole day of busy work, Jing Haisheng finally packed everything up and returned to the school dormitory.Lying on the bed, he blocked and deleted all the contact information, mobile phone number, QQ, WeChat and other related accounts related to Han Ge.The moment he clicked the delete button, he hesitated.In the end, I closed my eyes, put my heart to one side, tapped my finger, and it was over.

If it wasn't for the fact that Jing Li was his elder brother, he really wished he and Jing Li would be blacklisted.

He doesn't hate others, he just hates himself for being weak and incompetent.If it weren't for the coercive method of blacklisting, he wouldn't be able to completely draw a line with others.

Jing Li has already left the school, and he won't see him again unless it is a holiday.After going around and entangled for so many years, it's time to end.

—I'm sorry, bro.I hope all the troubles I have caused you have been resolved.I hope you can forgive me for the pain I have caused you.From now on, I won't pester you anymore.You win.

In a flash, the semester was over, and during the Chinese New Year, Jing Li went home and bought presents for Father Jing and Mother Jing.After the meal, while his parents were busy in the kitchen, Jing Haisheng asked him softly, "How are you working now?"

Jing Li smiled and said, "Well, it's good, everything is settled. Don't worry. How about you, is it okay to live in school?"

Jing Haisheng also smiled and said, "Everything is fine."

After the new year, the work that should be done, the school that should go to school, everything is back on track.Jing Haisheng never saw Jing Li again, he attended classes at school peacefully, read and wrote homework, memorized English, and made courseware.Since he went to college, he has never taken a class so seriously.

It feels really good to be busy. Every day is very fulfilling. I play basketball and tennis with my classmates, read in the library, and join the school photography club incidentally.

The photography club is next door to the art club. When Jing Haisheng came out of the classroom, he casually walked into the art club for a stroll.Suddenly, I glanced out of the corner of my eye and saw a plaster figure painting in the corner. No one paid attention to it for a long time, and it had already accumulated dust.He took two steps closer, watched silently, and before he knew it, his eyes became a little wet.

This is Jingli's painting.Although there is no signature, Jing Haisheng can see it.This painting is a little thin, it should be done not long after he joined the art club.

Seeing him staring in a daze, a girl came over and asked, "Student, are you interested in joining our art club?"

Jing Haisheng shook his head with a busy smile, pointed to the painting and said, "This is drawn by my brother, can I take it away?"

The other party was very hesitant, thought for a long time, and said: "This...I'm afraid it can't be done. According to the regulations, you can only take it with your signature."

Although slightly disappointed, but also expected, Jing Haisheng could only say: "Okay."

As soon as he turned around, he heard the girl say, "Hey, wait, isn't your surname Jing?"

"Correct."

"That's right." The girl picked up the picture frame, handed it to him and said, "I heard that it was left by a classmate named Jing from the previous class. He must be your brother. Several years have passed , He should have graduated long ago. Our art club will be moving next month, and there are too many things to put down, so you can take them away."

Jing Haisheng smiled slightly at the other party, "Thank you!"

Returning to the dormitory with the picture frame, Jing Haisheng held it and looked at it for a long time before putting it away in his big suitcase.At this time, he found that there was a piece of damage on the back of the picture frame, so he reached out to open the cabinet, took out the scotch tape, and planned to stick it again.

He opened the frame and pulled out the painting.Just then, a small piece of paper fell out of the photo frame.

Jing Haisheng was a little curious, picked up the piece of paper, and found a line of small characters on it.

"XX, XX, XX. I am very happy today, Xiao Sheng called me for the first time."

Jing Haisheng stared blankly at this little yellow note.Looking at the date, it should be the year when I was in the third year of junior high school.All in all, almost eight years have passed.

Think about it, in eight years, the War of Resistance Against Japan is coming to an end.During such a long period of time, he and Jing Li were brothers who cared for each other and stayed by each other.

Jing Haisheng suddenly wanted to see Jing Li.He didn't want to do anything, and he didn't want to do anything.He just wanted to see him.

After class, he took a car to the downstairs of Jingli's company.He waited in the lobby for a long time, from six o'clock to seven o'clock, seeing that it was getting dark, he was hesitating whether to call Jing Li, when suddenly the elevator dinged, Jing Li and a group of people got out of the elevator, go outside.

It has been half a year since I saw him, Jing Haisheng's heart suddenly beat eagerly, he really wanted to go up to him and stop him immediately.But in the end, he didn't speak, but forced himself to stop, watching Jing Li walk past him.

He hesitated because he didn't know what to say to Jing Li.

Do you want to say long time no see, I miss you very much, or say sorry, I was wrong?

He misses Jing Li very much, and Jing Li knows it; he really wants to apologize to Jing Li, and Jing Li knows it too.So what else can I say?

Jingli left the office building and walked along the street.Jing Haisheng followed him in a mysterious way, walked through a crossroads, bypassed a garden in the middle of the street, and then turned into a residential area.

He always kept a distance of about 20 meters from Jingli, and followed at a leisurely pace.Just looking at the back view, he felt that Jing Li seemed to be thinner than before, his hair was longer, and he walked in a trance, not concentrating.Jing Haisheng was a little strange, but also a little worried.He quickened his pace, trying to keep up with Jingli, and asked about his recent situation.

At this moment, Jing Li suddenly stopped.Jing Haisheng looked forward, and saw a person standing under the streetlight at the entrance of the corridor.

He had only seen this person twice in his life.The first time his father was hospitalized, Jing Li brought him to visit.The second time was on Jingli's painting, the lifelike painting himself, Kong Jialuo, who lacked eyes.

Kong Jialuo seemed to have been standing there for a long time. When he saw Jing Li, he showed a long-lost smile and walked towards the direction he came from.Jing Li stood still at first, watching him approaching as if in disbelief, then ran up suddenly, shouted tremblingly: "Jia Luo!" and then stretched out his hand to hug him.

Jing Haisheng stood there blankly, staring blankly at Jing Li, and suddenly lost his mind.

In his impression, Jing Li is indifferent, calm and calm, he has never been so excited, so warm to hug someone!It seems that if you don't hug each other hard, the other party will disappear immediately.

Kong Jialuo also hugged him back tightly, using all his strength in his arms.He tenderly kissed Jing Li's forehead.Jing Li slowly let go of his hand and raised his eyes to look at him.

At this moment, Jing Haisheng could see clearly that it was Jing Li who approached Kong Jialuo first, and kissed him on the mouth.Kong Jialuo put his arms around his lower back with one hand, patted his head with the other, and responded enthusiastically.

Jing Haisheng turned around abruptly, and walked out of the community along the way he came.

At this moment, he was like a fish that had left the river, even breathing seemed to be difficult.He suddenly felt very thirsty, his throat hurt badly, and the skin of his mouth was so dry that it seemed to burst.

Fortunately, not far from the community, there is a supermarket.Jing Haisheng bought a bottle of mineral water, sat on a bench in the garden in the middle of the street, and drank half of it in one go.The feeling of being out of breath finally subsided.

He didn't think about anything, his mind was empty.

He took out his mobile phone, fiddled with it for a while to read the news, checked Weibo for a while, and then clicked and swipe west for no reason.After sitting there for two hours, he stood up, wiped the ashes off his butt, and returned to school as if nothing had happened.

As if nothing happened, his face was expressionless, and his heart was ashamed.Eating when it is time to eat, sleeping when it is time to sleep, and going to class when it is time.Nothing has changed.

During the summer vacation in July, Jing Li called him and asked if he had returned home.Jing Haisheng said that he was packing up his things and would go back in the afternoon.Jing Li said, good.

Just when Jing Haisheng was holding his mobile phone in silence and was about to say goodbye, Jing Li suddenly said, "Haisun, how are you?"

"Very good. How about you?"

"I..." Jing Li was silent for a while, then smiled, and said, "Hai Sheng, I want to leave Shanghai and go to another city."

——What is Jing Li talking about?

Jing Haisheng was a little confused for a while, "Leaving Shanghai? Why? What happened? Why did you leave Shanghai?"

He asked a series of urgent questions, which caught Jingli a little unprepared, and said, "I... I have stayed in Shanghai for so many years, and I have stayed enough. I want to go elsewhere..."

"Where's Kong Jialuo?" Jing Haisheng interrupted him without hesitation, "Where are the others?"

Jing Li took a deep breath on the other end of the phone and said after a while, "You, how do you know?"

Jing Haisheng didn't say a word, Jing Li said softly: "Did you know about him a long time ago, and kept it from me, didn't tell me?"

"Well, I know, he returned to China last year. I didn't tell you, sorry."

"No, I know, it's all for my own good. Haisheng, I know you hate me and don't want me to just leave. But I really want to leave and go to a place where I can relax. Please Tell Dad. I... I'll come back to see him later."

"Jing Li!" Jing Haisheng couldn't help calling out his first and last names: "What are you talking about! What happened to you? Where is Kong Jialuo? Will he let you go? Or, do you want to leave?" Go together?"

"No! I... I'm going alone." Jing Li sighed softly, "His wife, Zhang Yujin, is in a bad state of mind. I thought about it for a long time and decided to give up. Do you know, Kong Jialuo, he, he In fact, he is an illegitimate child, he is not Tang Yunxi, everyone is not optimistic about him. He has worked very hard and worked very hard these years, and finally he can sit in the position of general manager of the company, and he can achieve everything he wants without relying on his father's influence , I can't let him go for a divorce for me."

Jing Haisheng couldn't remember whether Jing Li said anything later.After hanging up the phone, Jing Haisheng sat silently on the edge of the bed in a daze.

He picked up a book and read it for two hours, but the book was still on the first page.

In this world, he is not the only one who can give up for love.

——Jing Li, I love you too.Although I don't know what kind of love it is, it doesn't matter.I gave up.I literally gave up.In the future, the sky will be high and the sea will be wide, and the sky will be on each side.You can go wherever you want.And me, too.

—God please give us freedom.