Never give up

During the National Day, Jing Li followed Jing Haisheng back home.The family enjoyed a home-cooked meal. During the dinner, Father Jing and Jing Li chatted about work for a long time, and told him not to work too hard. He was out alone, and he had to pay attention to eating and resting on time, etc.

Jing Li just smiled and said, okay.

I haven't seen Jingli for a long time, Jing's father was very happy, and said: "Your brother has been unwilling to live in the school all these years. He insisted on living with you, and he told us that it is more free and convenient. In my opinion, he He's just a child who doesn't grow up, and he's used to being self-willed. Thanks to you, my elder brother, who has been taking care of him!"

As soon as these words came out, Jing Li and Jing Haisheng felt like they were stuck in their throats.Jing Li managed to force a smile, Jing Haisheng glanced at him, lowered his head and only cared about the food in the bowl.

After dinner, Jing Li wanted to leave, so Jing Haisheng got up to send him out.The two went out one after the other, walked out of the corridor, and walked to the gate of the community.Jing Li turned around and said, "Okay, don't send it away, let's go back."

Jing Haisheng nodded.

The two faced each other silently, their eyes fixed on the road under their feet.After a long time, Jing Li said softly: "I plan to move. The company is too far away, so it's inconvenient to come and go. Will you continue to live in that house?"

Although it was expected that Jing Li would move sooner or later, after all, he would have a day to graduate and work, but when he really said this sentence, Jing Haisheng still felt the pain of being pierced by the tip of a needle in his heart.

He can no longer find a reason to live with Jing Li.

Jing Li seemed to have forgotten the Mid-Autumn Festival dispute with him, and Jing Haisheng also pretended not to remember, but in fact, neither of them forgot.

That day Jingli said to him with tears in his eyes, I'm sorry, I'm in a bad mood, I've been irritable recently, and I got angry at you for no reason.He said a lot of words of apology, every word stuck in Jing Haisheng's heart.

Jing Haisheng really wanted to say, why are you apologizing to me?I am shameless, I am pestering you.You don't love me, so reject me, what's wrong?Why do you always give in to me and tolerate me.What exactly are your feelings for me?

——This is not what I want!What I want is someone who loves me sincerely, instead of accommodating me with an inescapable responsibility, and then torture myself.

After a while of silence, Jing Haisheng felt that he should say something to break the terrible silence, "Do you have a lot of stuff, do you need me to help you move it?"

"No," Jing Li replied quickly, "I just have a few clothes, which are very light, so I can carry them by myself. He has everything else."

Jing Haisheng immediately raised his head, staring at him blankly.He heard it right, Jing Li said "where he is"!

Who?

He really wanted to ask, but his whole body seemed to be petrified by a spell, and he couldn't make a sound.Jing Li said: "I plan to move again next month, don't worry."

Jing Haisheng didn't say a word.He didn't know when Jing Li left.He stood silently for a while, and suddenly felt very tired, his legs were so weak that he was about to be unable to stand still.He turned around slowly, went upstairs, returned to the room, and then threw himself on his bed.

After November, the school starts.On the day Jing Haisheng returned to the rental house, it was pouring rain.In autumn in Shanghai, once it rains, it can rain continuously for more than ten days.

He came here to tell Jing Li that he planned to move back to the dormitory so as to save some money.But when he opened the door and entered the house, he wanted to regret it.

Jing Li was busy in the kitchen, the water from the faucet was gurgling, the potato flour casserole on the stove was bubbling and bubbling, emitting a tempting aroma, and the red wine waiting to be washed in the basin was translucent.He likes everything and can't give up.

He really can't do without Jingli!He really couldn't survive a moment without Jing Li.

He walked to the door of the kitchen step by step, Jing Li didn't look back, and said, "Put the table mat on, and the casserole will be ready in no time."

"Brother." Jing Haisheng said softly, "Don't leave, okay? If you think it's inconvenient to go to work, come back to live on Saturday and Sunday, okay?"

Jing Li turned his back to him and remained silent.Jing Haisheng only felt that his nose was sore and his throat was choked up, "I don't think there is any meaning in living without you."

Jing Li turned off the faucet, wiped his hands, turned around slowly, and said, "You can't talk like this. Is there any meaning to living alone? You have to ask yourself, not anyone can bring it to him."

When he looked at Jing Haisheng, his bright eyes were full of firm belief.At this moment, Jing Haisheng inexplicably had a feeling as if he had passed away. The time suddenly went back to that afternoon seven years ago. Jing Li eagerly grabbed his arm and said to him:

——Your life is your own, not to be shown to anyone.Do you understand?

Jing Haisheng never hated himself as much as he did at this moment.How much he wanted to say, does everyone have to live as strong as steel and concrete?I am a man, so I must be invincible, can I live without relying on anyone?Is it, does it have to be like this?

I am just a cowardly and incompetent mortal, I am not born strong, I am not a schoolmaster, I have no ambitions!If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't even have the desire to fight.I just want to be with the person I like and live a warm and peaceful life.Is this wrong too?

Yes, maybe Shang Yuhen is right, even though some people have thousands of benefits, they only have one shortcoming, that is, they don't love themselves.He is as radiant as the sun, saving all sentient beings, he has given himself infinite power, so that he survived, but he doesn't care about the way of the future!

"I got it," Jing Haisheng said softly, "Brother. I got it."

"I will come back to see you on weekends. If I don't work overtime, I will come back too. I will call you in advance and have dinner together, okay?"

It stands to reason that Jing Haisheng should jump up happily, but some things are beyond his own expectations.Hearing these words, there was no emotion in his heart, he just nodded slightly and said, okay.

Just as he turned around, he suddenly remembered something and said, "Did you see him?"

Jing Li knew exactly what he was asking, and didn't pretend to be stupid with him, but shook his head seriously, "No. Why would you ask such a question? He has gone abroad and will not come back, and will not return to Shanghai. "

Jing Haisheng remained silent, Jing Li felt a little strange, and asked him again: "Haisun, have you seen him?"

His voice trembled a little, but he couldn't tell whether it was excitement or fear.Jing Haisheng immediately shook his head and said, "Of course not!"

After dinner, Jing Haisheng was lying on the bed playing with his mobile phone, while Jing Li was sitting on the small table next to him, turning on his laptop and busying himself.Jing Haisheng played for a while, feeling a little bored, glanced at Jing Li beside him, and found that he was lying on the table, looking a little uncomfortable.

Jing Haisheng hurriedly leaned forward and asked, "Brother, what's wrong with you, are you sleepy?" Touching his forehead, he felt his hand was hot, and hurriedly said, "Why are you so hot? Do you have a thermometer at home?" ah?"

"No."

"This won't work!" Jing Haisheng hurriedly stood up, pulled his arm and said, "Hurry up, I'll accompany you to the hospital."

Jing Li frowned and said: "No, I don't want to go, it's a trivial matter for me, just sleep for a while and it will be fine!"

"No!" Jing Haisheng couldn't move him, so he could only say, "I'll go downstairs to buy medicine for you!"

He hurriedly changed his shoes, and went downstairs to the 24-hour pharmacy to buy a bunch of antipyretics and cold medicines. When he returned, he saw a man wandering back and forth in front of the wonton shop from afar, and his face could not be seen clearly even with the light behind him.He didn't care too much, and wanted to go to the second floor in a hurry, but he heard the other party call out: "Hai Sheng!"

Jing Haisheng took a closer look, it turned out to be Han Ge!

Han Ge walked up to him with a smile. Jing Haisheng's eyes widened and he asked in surprise, "You! How did you come here?"

In the past few years that he has known Han Ge, he has always made phone calls to set up a meeting place.Han Ge never came to him directly without saying hello.He never expected that Han Ge would appear at the door of Jingli's rental house so late.

For a moment, he couldn't tell whether it was more joy or more fear.After all, he didn't want Jing Li to see Han Ge at all.

Han Ge reached out and hooked his chin, smiled sweetly, and said, "I miss you."

Jing Haisheng hurriedly turned his face away, Han Ge smiled and asked, "We haven't seen each other for two months, do you miss me?"

"I'm not free today. If you have something to do, let's talk about it another day. My brother is sick, and I have to take care of him, so I don't have time to entertain you!"

Han Ge lowered his head curiously, looked at the transparent plastic bag in his hand, then smiled strangely, and said in a low voice, "What happened to him? Did you do it?"

Half of Jing Haisheng's face was blushing, and he endured and endured desperately in his heart, so he didn't slap him directly on the face, and said fiercely: "Are you talking human words? ! Get out of here quickly!"

After he finished speaking, he turned around and left. Unexpectedly, Han Ge followed him upstairs.Jing Haisheng stopped again, turned around, and said, "Han Ge, what are you doing?"

Han Ge opened his big innocent eyes, blinked, and said, "I bought you and Brother Jing a small gift, a pair of agate Pixiu." Come out with a flat little box.

As the saying goes, don't scold the giver with your mouth.Jing Haisheng was choked by his manipulation, and said after a while, "You, give it to me. Thank you."

Han Ge hurriedly withdrew his hand, and said with a smile: "That's not acceptable, I will give it to Brother Jing myself! Don't worry, I have a sense of propriety, and I won't talk nonsense."

Jing Haisheng didn't blink, stared at his face for a long time, finally couldn't say what he wanted him to leave immediately, sighed, and said: "Han Ge, I'm really afraid of you ! What crime did I do in my previous life, I have to meet something like you in this life!"

Han Ge smiled lightly, patted him on the shoulder, and said, "Look at what you said. We are called fate, do you understand?"