Never give up

After two weeks of busy work, Jing Haisheng's work was basically over, and he returned to Shanghai with some crew members.The university was about to start, so he stayed at home for two days before returning to Jingli's rental house.

According to the usual practice, he still told his parents that he didn't want to live on campus, and returned to Jingli's place after class.His parents have always trusted Jing Li's character, and they did not doubt him.

Mother Jing Su Ye sent him out, went downstairs, and suddenly said: "Hai Sheng, it's almost Mid-Autumn Festival, remember to ask your brother to come home for dinner."

Jing Haisheng hurriedly nodded in agreement, suddenly feeling a little guilty.

That day he was excited for a while, and he told Jing Li righteously that he was not afraid to tell their relationship to the outside world, at worst, he would be beaten to death by his parents. However, after more than ten days, he gradually calmed down, and Feel scared.

Let alone the fact that Jing Li is his elder brother, just letting him stand up and tell his parents that he is gay immediately made him feel very panicked.Father Jing's temper is not good, if he knows this kind of thing about him, he will be furious.As for his mother, although she was much gentler on weekdays, he had no idea whether he could fully accept this kind of thing.

As soon as he closed his eyes, he remembered Jing Li telling him with sobs that he couldn't explain to his father.Jing Haisheng didn't know how painful and helpless Jing Li said this sentence.

No matter what cruel things he did to Jing Li, Jing Li was always thinking: I am an elder brother, I want to take care of him, protect him, and forgive him.

What happened that day, if it were anyone, Jing Li would fight him to the end. After all, he is also a grown man, so if he fights recklessly with the opponent in terms of physical strength, he may not necessarily lose.But facing Jing Haisheng, at the last moment, he gave up struggling and chose to endure.Perhaps, as Jing Li himself said, this is just a passive acceptance of "following the trend" and has nothing to do with love.

Jing Haisheng is very clear, but still obsessed deeply.

He greeted the proprietress of the wonton shop and went up to the second floor.The afternoon of the end of summer was quiet, only the cicadas on the big locust tree kept ringing.He took out his key to open the door and put down his bag.

After looking around the small one-bedroom and one living room, he didn't see Jing Li's figure, so he went straight to the balcony of the bedroom.

With a book in his hand, Jing Li half-lyed on the recliner and fell asleep with his eyes closed.The mottled sunlight shines on his face through the leaves, and the light and shadow flicker against the clear eyebrows. It is beautiful, but also in a trance, very much like his indescribable mood at the moment.

Jing Haisheng knelt down slowly, put his knees on the ground, put his arms around Jing Li's calf, and leaned his head gently on his knees.Although his movements were very gentle, Jing Li was still awakened by him. When he opened his eyes, his first reaction was to jerk his legs back, pursed his lips, and asked in an uneasy voice, "What are you doing?" When will you be back?"

"Just walked in." Jing Haisheng raised his head and looked at him, "I'm sorry, I've kept my voice low, but I still woke you up."

Jing Li stretched out his hand to pull him up, but Jing Haisheng had already maintained this position, kneeling and hugging his legs.The two looked at each other, Jing Li lowered his eyes, and said softly: "Hai Sheng, I was too excited that night, I apologize to you. You have your social circle, what kind of people do you like to make friends with?" , I have no right to ask. Sorry."

Jing Haisheng opened his mouth wide in surprise, and shook his head hastily, "No, it's not your fault, it's my fault, brother, it's all my fault. Me and Han Ge, he, he..."

When he talked about Han Ge, he always fell into an extremely tangled state, his tongue was tied in his mouth, and the words he said were confused and illogical: "He is not my boyfriend. He is not serious. He usually likes to talk nonsense. I It's not his boyfriend, never was. We just got bored and got together to have fun, have a meal, nothing else. Brother, I didn't lie to you. I can swear, I didn't lie to you!"

At this moment, he was almost ready to go all out, if Jing Li hadn't expressed further, he would have lied against his conscience and swore that he would be struck by lightning.However, Jing Li just nodded and said, "No need to swear, I believe you."

Jing Haisheng stared at him blankly, then his nose became sour, and he almost burst into tears.He lowered his head, nestled on Jing Li's knee, and remained silent for a long time.

The room was silent, Jing Li slowly stretched out his hand, and touched Jing Haisheng's head, his fingers trembled slightly.

Jing Haisheng slowly closed his eyes.

——Brother, you don’t actually dislike me, you don’t hate me, do you?I no longer have many extravagant demands, as long as you let me stay by your side, I am content.Let us live our lives like this.

They resumed the same relationship as before. During the day, they went to school and went to work separately. In the afternoon, Jing Haisheng got out of school early, and would go to the nearby small vegetable market to buy vegetables and meat, and then go back to the house to cook, waiting for Jing Li to come back.Occasionally they would go out to small restaurants to eat, and they would visit libraries and museums together.

After all, going to work is different from going to school. After Jing Li arrived at the new company, she gradually became busy, sometimes until [-] o'clock in the evening, having dinner with colleagues in the company.When he returned to the house, Jing Haisheng had already washed up and was about to go to bed.

The layout of one bedroom and one living room is very small, and there is only one bed in the bedroom.Jing Haisheng leaned against the wall, and Jing Li leaned outside.Jing Haisheng tried to put his arm around him and lean on his shoulder as before.Jing Li didn't push him away, but kept a certain distance from him as much as possible, and when he fell asleep, he took his hand out of his arms.

It was a bit awkward to get along like this, but the two of them finally lived in peace, and their lives were peaceful, without any further disputes.

Jing Li himself is a person who likes to be quiet and has a calm disposition, and he would chat with him about many interesting things about the company during meals.Jing Haisheng listened with great interest to what he said about editing, typesetting and reviewing pictures, and often pestered him to see the pictures he made.One day, when the two were looking at pictures on the computer, Jing Haisheng suddenly found a picture of a male model that looked familiar, so he turned back and took another look.

The male model should be of mixed race, with slightly dark skin and a healthy wheat color. He is wearing a red-purple shirt with his chest open in a V shape, revealing his solid chest muscles.This is an original photo from a studio, it has not been retouched and it looks a little dark and rough.

"Is this the model interviewed by your magazine next month?"

Jing Li took a look, thought for a while, and said, "No, they should still be talking, not sure yet. What's the matter, have you seen him?"

It seems that I have seen it, Jing Haisheng thinks so, but he can't remember where he saw it.He is a little face blind, and has always been insensitive to people.It wasn't an important matter anyway, the two of them looked at the photo and forgot about it.

The Mid-Autumn Festival happened to be a Friday, and Jing Li was rushing to work and left early. Jing Haisheng didn't realize it until he was sitting in the classroom and heard his classmates chatting.At night, he sat on the sofa and waited for a long time, but Jing Li was nowhere to be seen.

During this period, he called twice again, but he never answered.

Jing's mother called and asked if the two brothers would come back for dinner. Jing Haisheng saw that the time was past seven o'clock, and it was too late to rush there, so he had to decline.

He regretted that he didn't tell Jing Li about his parents inviting him home last night, the more he waited, the more anxious he became, and gradually he felt suffocated.

After entering the door and turning on the light, Jing Li, who was restless, was startled by the person lying on the sofa, looked at the clock on the wall in surprise, and asked, "It's past twelve o'clock, why don't you Go to bed and sleep?"

Jing Haisheng didn't answer, sat up, rubbed his eyes, and asked in a low voice, "Where did you go?"

"Company dinner."

"Eat so late, still full of alcohol?"

"I drink very well, and most people can't drink me." Jing Li frowned and said, "What's wrong with you today? What happened?"

"Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival! I called you countless times and wanted to have dinner with you, but you didn't call me back."

"Ah!" Jing Li suddenly reacted, feeling apologetic in his heart: "I put my phone in my bag, and the eating place is too noisy, so I didn't hear it."

Jing Haisheng glanced at it, pointed to the book in his hand and asked, "What is this?"

Jing Li froze suddenly, a flash of panic flashed in his eyes, he opened his mouth to speak, but he didn't say anything.He is really not good at lying, the expression on his face has already betrayed him before the words are spoken.

Why did Jing Li bring back a book suddenly? If he bought it, why would he have such a strange expression?

For some reason, Jing Haisheng suddenly had a flash of inspiration, and immediately shouted: "He bought it for you, didn't he!"

He looked straight at Jing Li, waiting for his answer.Jing Li actually lowered his head slightly, did not make a sound, and gave him a tacit consent.

The night at the end of September was still rather sultry, but Jing Haisheng's heart was instantly chilled.

——Kong Jialuo is really back!He guessed wildly, but he guessed right!

"Brother, what's wrong with you? Do you want to be with him? Kong Jialuo is a complete scumbag and a liar. He dumped you three years ago, married, had a wife, and from time to time Hooking you up! Do you still have any brains? Do you really want to be his underground lover?"

Jing Haisheng held back the words for too long, and finally couldn't help but spew them out.As soon as he said this, he regretted it a little.Sure enough, upon hearing his words, Jing Li immediately raised his head, looked at him in disbelief for a while, the corners of his mouth twitched, then turned around and walked towards the inner room.

"Brother!" Jing Haisheng yelled at him furiously: "Say something! What are you thinking?"

"You ask me why I have to be with Kong Jialuo, a scumbag! He tried his best when he chased me, and he broke up with me neatly. We haven't seen each other for three years, but he knows me well. He will call me during the holidays , will send me gifts, send them to my company, and send them to my rental house. He knows what books I like to read, what music to listen to, what to eat, where to work, and what to do! You say he is a scumbag, but He is the person who understands me best in this world! Does he have to get a marriage certificate with me and live under the same roof to be called true love? "

Jing Li let out a long breath, and then said: "I know, each of you can't figure it out and think I'm sick! But, everything you can't figure out is because you are not in it. I When I loved him, I asked myself, what is the worst result, I was dumped by him without defense! I asked myself that I could afford this consequence, so I love him! I am Whether it's ridiculous or cheap, what does it have to do with you!"